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lol
Yuuusss baby same
And yes babe doin sshhiitt would of been amazing last night
lol yess... sorry I was out drivin and getting flowers šŸ˜‚
Lol kk
donā€™t judge lol... I mean yea there r like a million fliers holy fxck
flowers*
Lol kk
baaaaabe I miss uuuu
Misss u to babe
u okay?
Yee baby just LAUGHIN my assss off still
do I wanna know? lol
I mean my dad skipper and i almost died earlyer
I donā€™t wanna know actually omll
So no u probs dont wanna know
yeaaa I donā€™t omll
Lol thats good
fxckin my mom said she kinda misses u šŸ˜‚ she likes u over here lol
but yea lol
Ok then
okay she likes u donā€™t judge lol
I was just sayin cuz I have nothing else to say honestly lol
Lol ok but shouldnt u be the one missin me?? and not ur mom that thats that idk
okay well I fxckin miss u always if thatā€™s not already obvious... I dunno she liked it when u came over tho and I mean when ur here she gets rid of me so šŸ˜‚
Ok then ig i need to go over more often
lol I was just sayinnn
okay I think my only girly part I got is I fxckin love flowers like we have a million fxck šŸ˜‚
Lol ok so i need a note to self saying "Bring flowers to baes house when u get back"ā¤ļøā¤ļø
šŸ˜Š loll good job babe lol (:
Lol and im guessing thats a yes
anddd I fxckin love u and u make me smile god babe lolll šŸ˜Š
Well isnt that my job is to make u smile every day lol love yea to babyā¤ļøā¤ļø
šŸ˜Šā¤ļø loll yea I miss uuu tho oml
Miss yea to gorgeousā¤ļøā¤ļø
ā¤ļø srslyyy in the mood to fxckin cuddle tho like fxckkk
I meann it sounds good rn cuz Iā€™m hot and wanna take my jeans off but I canā€™t and cuddlin would just b šŸ‘ŒšŸ»
Yea that would be amazing baby
Both of us cuddlinin the same bed and half naked sounds amazing
yess
I mean fxckin gotta wear sweats so under a blanket hiding just snuggled up against u would b fxckin yess
Yeesssss baby that would be fxckin nice
lol yess.. I mean im way fxckin lovey rn and just wanna cuddle fxck and sleep like srsly kinda my mood for awhile now lol
Lol yea ik i mean we can fxck in the shower lol
lol yea that would b funn rn
Lol yee + its somethin new
lol yea I mean both of us naked in the shower fxckin against the wall... yess sounds fxckin funn rn loll
Lol yeesss it does
anddd now I wanna do shĆÆt godd lol
There yea go thats what we can do when i get back fxckin see if u can hang then come over here and fxck in the shower
Lol babe u always wanna do sshhiitt
lol yes that sounds fxckinn good rn... see I doubt they would care if I went over after u got back tbh lol
okay ik I do but like fxck babe šŸ˜‚ no we talking about it like damƱ lol
Lol what u fesky now lol
well Iā€™m definitely thinking now lol
Lol yee probs baby
yea doin shĆÆt sounds good
Lol yeess after i take a shower baby
lol yeaa I need a shower right about now too lol... covered in mud godd lol
yea I miss u fxck
if I donā€™t reply right away I took a shower k babe Iā€™ll b back love u ā¤ļøā¤ļø
ima just assume u died lolll
nvm šŸ˜‚
Sorry bret came to get his buss
lol itā€™s fine
Kk i mean i seen ur dad and was scared sshhiitt less
gave me time to take a shower lol
Lol kk
lol yea he got home and said he saw u so yea lol... he wonā€™t kill u babe donā€™t worry lol
Well skipper watched him drive by and his legs where shakin pretty dam bad lol and thats sayin some thin
godd lol... just getting home from work lol I mean he already has had a couple beers lol
Lol i mean thats probs goin to be me lol
lol well Iā€™d end up drinkin with u tbh lol... so that wouldnā€™t b a problem
plus ur a love drunk, not an aśshole drunk so thatā€™s better than my dad oml
Lol yea true witch isnt really a bad thing lol
Well yea true i am a love drunk
yea lol itā€™s not a bad thing... I mean we would just end up doin shĆÆt lol
yea u r lol
Oh well thats also not a bad thing
if I just knew the things u said when u were hammered and we were talking u would know how obvious it is that ur just lovey af šŸ˜‚
if u knew*
but yea itā€™s not a bad thing lol
Well babe im that love druk that cant remember sshhiitt so nxt time take a vid or some sshhiitt
lol well last time I saw u that hammered was when u face timed me and the shĆÆt u say is funny tbh lol
Lol
I mean ur lovey afff so when ur slurring everything sayin cute things like yea itā€™s funny lol
Lol oh well
lol yea
anddd I canā€™t fxckin get up
nvmmm fixed it lol
Y cant u get up??
well I had a cat
laying on me soo yea lol
Lol what hes takin my spot now?? lol
loll well ur not here and I was in the mood to cuddle okay donā€™t judge lol
Lol ok im not judgein
lol well Iā€™m in a lovey mood rn and just wanna cuddle makeout and play with shĆÆt
mainly just kinda cuddle and sleep tho ima tired and my legs still hurt
I mean im not there to help yea wit that i wish i was but im not lol and i mean monday on the buss u can play wit sshhiitt i mean ik u will
probs will honestly lol... I meannn they donā€™t hurt like yesterday but u should have seen me putting jeans on this morning... that sucked
BBAABBYY III FFXXCCKKIIINN LLOOVVEE UUU GGOORRGGEEOOUUSSā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø
probs did babyu
godd lol I love u too baaaabe šŸ˜ŠšŸ˜Šā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø
wellll ik itā€™s gon suck getting up Monday to get dressed.. like no motivation to put pants on at all
ā¤ļøā¤ļø yyeess
lolll... I fxckin wish we could cuddle like nowwww honestly
If we were alone babe we can lock the doors and turn the light down low
Same babe same
lol yess that would b amazing rn
yeaa miss u like fxckin ugh
Miss u to babyā¤ļøā¤ļø
FFFFXXXXCCCCCCKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!
I dont want tomorrow to be here
wanna just b with u tho like everyone here pĆÆsses me off I mean at least we can cuddle and play with shĆÆt
Well yea i wouldnt mind do that sshhiitt lol i mean i would be cuddlin the hottest girl in the world
y babe?
lol godd babe (:
Lol yeee love u gorgeousā¤ļøā¤ļø well i gotat be locked up in a car wit gabe and trinity to kooskie then i have to help them wit the truck and be locked in the car again and thank god my dad is at least goin
šŸ˜‚šŸ˜‚
love u too tho babe lolll
Hopefully he can save my asssss
welll thatā€™s funny šŸ˜‚
Lol thats sshhiitt not fuunny how would u feel bein lock in a car wit ur ex for 45 fxckin mins and be wit them for the whole fxckin day and + gota remember she likes me so then im fxcked
If she starts grabbin sshhiitt ima bxtch slap her
ummm if she pulls shĆÆt I will become a major fxckin bxtch and she will no longer fxck with literally anyone šŸ˜‘
sorry but fxckin she pulls shĆÆt thatā€™s when ima get pĆÆssed
And know if u kill her i will give u props
itā€™s kinda funny ur stuck with her all day tho lol
She might babe i mean its Trinity
Fxckin no its not
ummm I wonā€™t kill her... Iā€™ll just make living miserable for the bxtchh šŸ˜’ hey itā€™s kinda funny
Not really babe and if she lies a hand on u yea i might have to kill him cause i mean its man so yee
godd babe lol
but fxckin I will srsly get fxckin pĆÆssed if she pulls asnything cuz obviously she likes u and itā€™s bull shĆÆt
Ill let u know if she does i mean ill try to sit on the other side of the car but yea ill tell u if she pulls sshhiitt
okayyy Iā€™m not above slitting a bxtchā€™s throat
sorry I got kinda aggressive šŸ˜‚
Ill help hit the body
nah... Iā€™ll just make her death look like an accident
and leave her in her room or some shĆÆt
make it look like a suicide
thatā€™s a good idea
yeaaa I think maybe ima too protective tho šŸ˜³
No babe ur not to protective
well Iā€™m protective af tho
like no joke I will kill a bxtch
Yea but i think every girls like that is a women gets to close to there man
truu... I meannn Iā€™m not about to lose u to some desperate fxckin bxtch so if a bxtch checks u out ima get pĆÆssyyyy aff
I get aggressive šŸ˜
Yea babe i can tell and i mean i think ur the only one who checks me out tho
umm trust me I see other bxtches check u out I mean especially fxckin casi and Trinity itā€™s like nooo so I mean
it could just b me bein paranoid but u know still wanna kill them
Yea true baby
seee I have nothing to check out so u donā€™t have to worry about guys checkin me out tho loll... but yea I mean I catch wes lookin sometimes but thatā€™s it
srsly just wanna stab them
fxckin casi and trinity
Yee baby ik u wanna kill them and no babe ur pretty filled out
well not rly I mean srsly unless u catch ppl lookin there is literally no one that finds my aśs attractive soo yea lol... fxckin casi wonders y I glare tho lol
Lol cause she stares and nah babe ur assss is actually attractive believe me
So are ur ttiittss
suure babe lol I have nothin lolll... I thought she has a boyfriend she shouldnā€™t b lookin
Who casi idk i think its a guy as dark as she is tho
lol yea idek... I have no tĆÆts lol maybe enough for u to lay on lol but nothin
But yea babe ur attractive dont worry
But yea babe ur attractive dont worry
suure babe lol
well definitely not sexually attractive lol
Like hella
Iā€™m not tho lol
Ur sexually attractive i mean u got my attention
If that even matter
lol well I mean obviously I let u play with my pĆ¼ssy lol course thatā€™s gon get a guyā€™s attention... u just gotta say tĆÆts even and guys look lol
Ok so in all honestly im not the one sexually attractive i mean yea i have a dxck but that doesnt mean sshhiitt
bull shĆÆt babe lol
Lol sooo
Ha see u dont have anything to back that up wit LMMFAO
baaaabe god lol I mean ur hot af and most girls wanna fxck a guy if they r hot soo
I love u and ur hot so fxckin yes
Lol nice cover up
shut up lol
I mean I do fxckin love u tho babe just know that godd
Well of corse u love me but kk
baaaaaaabe
srslyyyyy nahhh
letā€™s not start šŸ˜
Not start what babe
nvmmm nxt subject cuz u sounds like ur gettin pĆÆssy
Im honestly not but ok
ugh okay
I need fxckkn food
Actually i was getting a bit ppiiss but yee nxt subject ig but aye on the bright side babe i love uā¤ļøā¤ļø
I knew u were it was kinda obvious but love u too
KK wys
Wyd
eating wyd
Thinkin about my gorgeous gf
god okay
sorry if Iā€™m acting pĆÆssy lol Iā€™m not I swear
Well i am
Ok babe
ughhhhhh I swear ima kill a mf in a sec
Who u goin to killl baby
fxckin everyone here
Y babe what happend this time
Megan, my dad, shorty, my mom is the only one who hasnā€™t pĆÆssed me off within the past hour
she pĆÆssed me off earlier but fxckin
But how did they ppiiss u off babe??
andddd now ima kill Megan
I just need to leave šŸ˜
Well babe 4 more years if ur still planing to leave wit me
fxckin 4 yrs is too long
Yea ik
I want it to b Monday tbh but also I donā€™t wanna get any closer to Thursday so fxck
Yea ik dont want it to be wendsday at all
I am going to b a fxckin mess Wednesday like I think ima literally have to walk out of class at some points fxckin
Iā€™m kinda a bxtch about this shĆÆt honestly but fxck babe
Aye im goin to spend as much time as i posibly can wit u before i leave baby
u leave to fxckin soon tho
like srsly the min the 14th has June and July ima just stay at home and probs sleep most of the day so I donā€™t think
I mean probs the best ideahp babe
yep nxt week canā€™t come nope nope
ima b a fxckin mess like the min ima alone at all nxt week ima think then die
so nope
Yea ima be wit u at school babe
still gonna fxckin die
nope
Wednesday canā€™t come... nxt week canā€™t come like Iā€™ll stay in this moment rn for awhile we good here
Well i wanna be there wit u babe
still canā€™t come cuz then it gets closer to when u leave and I donā€™t like I dunno not talkin even is wuts gonna kill me... not the fact ur gone just not talking or seein eachother like fxckin ughh
Yea ik thats goin to suck dxck
fxcccckkkk summer
nvm summer doesnā€™t need to come
Yea ik babe
so just so u know when u donā€™t get on the bus Thursday ima lose literally all my shĆÆt and just fxckin break for a few and I rly donā€™t care who sees at this point like fxckkn
Thursday babe im not goin to be there thursday
Iā€™m so when u donā€™t get on the bus Thursday ima just did a little
die*
Oh nvm had to reread it and i dont blame u babe
cuz ur my gon b there and then itā€™s gon hit me and ima just break and ppl r gonna judge but I rly donā€™t even care
just going to die
Ok babe i mean ill find a way to txt u every once and a while at least
idek
godddd Iā€™m no joke starting to tear up fxck
Baby i love uā¤ļø aye i need to smoke a lil tobaco ik u dont like it but i need it to calm down rn ok sorry but i need to do some thing love u tho babyā¤ļøā¤ļø
So am i baby so am i
I honestly donā€™t even try anymore with that shĆÆt I mean I would do that shĆÆt if I could so I canā€™t say I donā€™t like it honestly love u ig
srsly done caring with most shĆÆt anyways
maybe I deleted that soon enough so u didnā€™t see it
Babe u better not cut again plz
did u see it?
goddddddd fxckkkkkkkkkk
No i have a feelin that u did tho
thereā€™s wayyyy tooo much god damƱ shĆÆt goin on rnnn like holy fxckkk I wannna kill everyone here and break down and cry and Iā€™m gon b here a fxckin lone for however long ur gone and John is fxckin leaving and shĆÆiiiiiit
sorry I fxcking blew up
GODDDDD FXCKCKKKKKKK
Yea babe ik its goin to be stress full
tooo much fxckin shƮt tho
ahhhhhhhfxckkkkkkkk I kindaaa regrettt thisss
I donā€™t think itā€™s supposed to b like the normally... at least it hasnā€™t before
Babe its fine
ummmm sure
What babe
ig u got ways to handle shĆÆt and I get ways and my ways donā€™t go away for about a week, two maybe
I said sure
What babe what about a week
nothing Iā€™m fine I kinda blew up for a sec
which I donā€™t normally do so I do things I wouldnā€™t normally do
BBBAAAABBBEEEšŸ˜­šŸ˜­
Iā€™m fine I just donā€™t know donā€™t feel good tbh now Iā€™m fine babe Iā€™m fine
I hope to god u didnt od
if I took pills i would already b throwin everything up trust me... everyone is awake anyways
just it was supposed to stop by now like the rest and ima kinda dizzy tbh
So can u tell me what u done
like fxckin shĆÆts spinning this not rly normal
Babe plz tell me what u done
Iā€™m fine tho
just ima lay down for a bit Iā€™m good just kinda blew up at everything cuz someone finally set me off enough
BAAAABBBEE plz tell me what u done
itā€™s okay
alllll okayyyyy
Tell me babe
it finally stopped I think ima good now
baaabe u can probs put two and two together like thereā€™s a time with me is y Iā€™m not rusted where one thing can set me tf off then I start doin shĆÆt i wouldnā€™t do and Iā€™m not thinking at all when Iā€™m set off like that and I kinda blew up and just flipped at every thing so I mean fxckin
thatā€™s how I ended up in the hospital last August tho... someone set me off, I flipped, did shĆÆt and was locked in my closet and wouldnā€™t let no fxckers in and fxckin Joshua had to come say hello
But what did u do tho babe take pill or cut or drink
everyone is awake so think about that
yeaaa a lil blood isnā€™t supposed to do this I donā€™t think
So u cut??
Fxckin ik that one was my faly
noooooo it fxckin wasnā€™t donā€™t even think that
Sorry
I flipped okay I wasnā€™t thinking someone set me off, I flipped, I wasnā€™t thinking I flipped and did something cuz I wasnā€™t thinking
babe it wasnā€™t u I fxckin swear
I fxckin hope nor
it wasnā€™t u I fxcking swear I wouldnā€™t do shĆÆt like this if it were u okay I donā€™t do dumb shĆÆt when somethin happens between us and nothing happened anyways
Iā€™m okay itā€™s fxckin fine I promise fxckin im sorry baby
Babe im the one who should be sorry
noooo stopppp it wasnā€™t u like fxckin nooo babe
u did absolutely nothing itā€™s fineee itā€™s not u
Ok i mean ig at lest ik it wasnt me
it wasnā€™t u did nothing to even make me remotely consider it even
sorry I keep fxckin shĆÆt up
Kk
Hang on babe ima meet john for a min
donā€™t get fxckin pĆÆssed plz
Im not
thatā€™s wut u said earlier when u were gettin pĆÆssed donā€™t lie
fxckin if u wanna leave go ahead and leave I donā€™t even blame u Iā€™m kinda a mess rn for no reason whatsoever
donā€™t want u to but at the same time idec anymore just as long as I donā€™t lose u Iā€™m okay
OK well ima not goin to leave babe im calm i talked to John he finished my beer and we good know
Babe and all i need in life is my best friend and thats u love u baby
figured u werenā€™t comin back tbh... love u too tho
Baby im ok im not ppiiss ok i fxckin love u and the last thing i need is to loose u
Nah ill always come back to my gorgeous asssss gf
fxckin I just thought u were gone for the night like honestly I wouldnā€™t blame u either... ig Iā€™m just chillin here in the dark with music on anyways so Iā€™d b okay if u wanted to go
Iā€™d actually survive oml
Oh?
I hope u would come back eventually
U survive without me? ll
KK* i will dont worry
honestly not rly... for the night maybe I mean if I lost u totally Iā€™d b gone like Iā€™d b fxcking done trying
music only works for so long
Okey
sorry Iā€™m fxcking sorry Iā€™m bein kinda a bxtch rn go ahead and leave if u want I donā€™t even blame u at this point
Babe im not goin to leave u
well obviously I keep pĆÆssing u off honestly
sorry Iā€™m starting to fxckin flip at every little thing and Iā€™m trying to not b a bxtch towards u
Baby its ok thats how we get stronger
fxckin I hope it makes us stronger instead of my dumb asś breaking us
No babe ur not goin to break us up
andddd rn sleep would b good so I wouldnā€™t have to fxcking think
I hate thinking like itā€™s the reason I do dumb shĆÆt
Fall asleep while we cuddle would be nive
Nice*
yea honestly it would
break down the rest of the shĆÆt Iā€™m currently holding back then sleep cuz Iā€™m fxckin done with myself rn
Babe if u wanna go to bed u can
I canā€™t
I canā€™t get myself to sleep trust me I already tried
Ok babe
sorry u can always leave whenever tho itā€™s fine donā€™t feel like u have to talk to me babe
Nah baby ima stay up wit u
Unless u want me to go
u sure?
ima just sit here and die for awhile itā€™s fine babe
Yes im sure babe
go if u want itā€™s fine babe
No im not goin unless u want me to
I mean if u go Iā€™ll probs just go sit outside for the next hour or so and listen to music and cry cuz thatā€™s all Iā€™m rly good at at the moment
I donā€™t want u to but at the same time I feel like u want to go thatā€™s y Iā€™m saying itā€™s okay cuz I have a feelin u just want space
No babe if u dont want me to go i wont and no i dont wanna go babe
okay ig I just feel kinda idek tbh
Idek how to feel at the moment
Ok babe but i mean i loveā¤ļøā¤ļø
love u babe ā¤ļø
ā¤ļøā¤ļø yeesss i feeel lovvvedā¤ļøā¤ļø
well I mean I do fxckin love u thatā€™s never going to change no matter how much of a bxtch ima b
Ik baby and honesltly my love will never for u will never come on emptie
I kinda fxckin need u right about now honestly fxck
Same bae i just need to see u and cuddle u and kiss u and just enjoy u
fxckin same... think I miss u just a bit too much
I miss u way to much not a lil not a bit just i miss u way to muchā¤ļøā¤ļø
I think honestly we r fxcked the min u leave honestly
goddd gonna b fxckin lonely and miss ur aśs way too much and fxck
Yes babe we are fxcked know lets not talk about that rn ok?
Thats the least of are worrys rn ok baby
okay...
Ok talk about some thin else ok baby ok i fxcking love u alot thoā¤ļøā¤ļø
I love u too babe ā¤ļø
idek honestly tho just kinda... chillin here in the dark wishing I wasnā€™t a fxckin lone
Ik babe i mean i would walk over rn but every one at ur house is probs asleep
yea at least they r all heading to bed... plus u would get ur aśs in trouble ik that shĆÆt
Well parents are not here so no i wouldnt
Iā€™m waiting till they r all asleep and goin outside... just to the porch and turn up my music and talk to u cuz ima hot honestly
oh?
I dunno I would feel bad havin u walk over here tho at 10 at night unless u rly actually wanted to but fxck I doubt it lol
Yee run meh mom to the hospital so yee no one is home besides me and my siblings
oh?
Lol i can drive the loud asssss wheeler
I dunno i might walk out later and vent to a horse or some shĆÆt cuz Iā€™m full of absolute shĆÆt rn
god yea that would wake everyone up lol... unless u like stopped at the end of the driveway lol
Ok
itā€™s hot in here
dammĆÆt ummm babe Iā€™ll brb
Lol well i would have to lol
Lol ok
god lol yea ima run out real quick apparently thereā€™s somethin with horses Iā€™ll b back in a sec
Ima wake up Bill heath lol
lol good job
nvm they r fine
Lol kk aye u should see if u can hear the wheeler once i get it goin
U should be able to hear it
um I doubt I can hear it from ur place lol like probs if u were drivin around fast but yea lol
well ima sittin on the porch rn soo yea lol
Nah ill rev it up lol
lol I doubt Iā€™ll hear it babe lol
I mean obviously I would hear it if u were drivin right in front of my damń house or thru town lol but I dunno
Iā€™m kinda just missin u like fxckin crazy rn ughhh
I miss u to babe
sorry Iā€™m kinda lovey rn omll
Lol so am i lol
lol yea cuddlin would b great rn... even just like a hug like k love u lol
I hear line a giant aśs diesel or somethin like doubt it would b u but itā€™s kinda entertaining
Lol yee i heard it to lol
lol okay ima not hearin things
think my parents finallyyyyy went to bed lol
fxckin just outside cuz itā€™s too hot shĆÆt
ugh anddd my phone is at 20% šŸ˜
Lol hang on babe
?
donā€™t wanna know lol
Goin to get it started in a min
okay lll
lol* if I donā€™t txt back I donā€™t have WiFi lol Iā€™ll b in at like 10 50 tho if not before
Lol kk
missss uuuuuu
horses r screaming again like ughhh
rly wish I was fxckin with u rn ugh the silence rn kills me
Same babe
yea ima way too lovey rn
got lonely lol walking around so yea donā€™t judge lol
Im not lol
lol okay
yea fxckin lonely as shĆÆt šŸ˜‚ actually I think just the fxckin dark is sketching me out cuz I heard some guy just start laughin out of no where like ummmm no
babe u tired!
?**
Nah baby lol welp she didnt want to start ppiiss me off
lol good job babe
feels like someone is gonna run around a corner and kill me like itā€™s sketchy lol
Lol well its not that sketchy here or im just used to it
I kinda know wut I wanna go do but I wonder if anyone would catch me
umm Iā€™m not lol
What u wanna go out lol
I should fxckin scream out "Baby i love u" and see if u hear it
god lol wanted to go jog I dunno Iā€™m getting kinda cold and my parents r asleep and no one even knows Iā€™m out here
Lol we can do that another time lol
loll I might
hear u I dunno
Should i try it atleast lol
lol well I just went inside... ima charge my phone then go jog somewhere idek where tbh
just somewhere
Fxckin kk baby
well I mean I canā€™t get out during the day so ima get out during the night
sure I might get murdered but oh well
Yea some one would probs catch u
Fxckin no u better not get murdered
well I dunno I need out like claustrophobic moment ig bein locked up
bein fxckin claustrophobic sucks aśs
I might get murdered
Now u know how i feel lol sorry had to say that
U better not get murdered
hm u donā€™t want me to go out?
Nah babe go out if u wanna but bein locked up ik how u feel cause thats what my parents do but sure go jog i dont care just dont die
idek Iā€™m probs too pĆ¼ssy to leave tbh
I wanna go out to the corner and back but for one Iā€™m alone and for two I hear cars and Iā€™m kinda sketched out but at the same time kinda want one to hit me
I dont want u to get hit by a car
aww come on I would like one to hit me
ugh if I go out I wonā€™t come back u know that
Ok have funn then
ugh baaabe I was just kidding
fxckin Iā€™ll stay in then ig
Sure babe sure thats y u say it all the time and actually run in front of it
fxckin fine Iā€™ll stay
Nah just go Jog if u wanna im not goin to stop u
no cuz Iā€™ll do something dumb okay I donā€™t rly wanna die like honestly I donā€™t and that the first time Iā€™ve said that Iā€™m like a year so feel special cuz rn ur the only reason y I donā€™t wanna die
Well babe i am special in the brain tho
babe stop
I mean fxckin 2 years since I actually had a reason to live, been about two years since I last said that I wanted to b alive that I didnā€™t want to die so fxckin
Stop what babe im bein honest thats the sad thing
and I say it now k cuz u make me wanna love, somehow u make me wanna live and I love u, literally have no purpose besides u honestly
babe just stop
quit getting all pĆÆssed off okay fxckin jesus
I love u okay donā€™t rly wanna fxckin fight over something dumb as shĆÆt
Sorry its what happens when u have been up longer then 24 hourse sorry babe
Love u to babe
fxckin go to bed then
if ur tired then sleep
Not tired so no point to go to bed
well it sounds like u need sleep but okay
Nah
okayyy then
+ i have to watch the kids so yea
k
But yeeee sorryyy for getting ppiiss
itā€™s fxckin fine letā€™s just pretend any of that never happened
cuz now Iā€™m kinda pĆÆssy and Iā€™m tryna not b a bxtch
Kk baby
soooo wyd idek
Ok then change subjects
Watchin a movie and txtin u
good job
Yee wys
Wyd
tryna get my fxckin leg to quit hurting honestly
thereā€™s one bad one and Iā€™m sorry but should just bleed on contact thatā€™s not normal... ugh okay sorry idek shouldnā€™t bring that up tbh
rly donā€™t wanna pĆÆss u off anymore
Its fine babe im try not to get ppiiss
well ima not bring that up anyways cuz I feel like a total aśshole for doin that and itā€™s gonna pĆÆss u off so yea
maybe u just need some alone time idek feel kinda like u need it, like I dunno maybe u need a break from me I mean I am bein kinda cling on rn
Nah baby its fine just needed a smoke thats it im calm know
course
U can say whatever u need to say and no i dont need a break from u ok i fxckin love u
love u too... fxcking guess Iā€™ll b back then
Sorry better then drinkinh
Goin on that jog??
Iā€™ll b back promise just I dunno when just soon I think
U should come over here for a min baby
i canā€™t leave the property Iā€™m goin out to the shop I mean u could come hang out here but I canā€™t leave sorry megs is in the guest house, b too obvious if I left
If u wanna
I donā€™t get WiFi in the shop
Ok do u still want me to txt u later
Yea so later do u want me to txt u later??
Baby i love uā¤ļøā¤ļø
sorry just it back... okay Iā€™m confusioned at the moment if I wanna wut
love u too... my mom fxckin moved everything like dammĆÆt
Lol dam that sucks and if u wanted to come over here
I canā€™t leave sorry... if u wanted to come here we could hang out but I canā€™t leave
yea I might know where it is tho... maybe I doubt it but maybe
What would u smoke it in anywats
Aye im probs go over there tomorrow before John and i go fishin
thereā€™s a pipe
a lighter in the shop... the pipe is with the shĆÆt somewhere wherever she hid it
U should take a hit
okay
welll I got to find everything
seee I wish we could hang out cuz rn would b perfect buuuut probs not
Tru just done make it noticable
okay hey give me 5 mins I think ik where it is I mightā€™ve just missed it I think tho
I mean i can probs go over there without a worry in the world but i rather take somethin wit headlight and that actually wanna run
welll do wutever u want Iā€™ll brb
Ok babe
I mean I miss u but yea I donā€™t blame u for wantin somethin to run... I wouldnā€™t walk in town alone in the dark šŸ˜³
Yea and somethin wit headlight
hey I mean if I wanna I just found everything anddd Iā€™m kinda a clueless bxtch sooo wanna smoke pot I got shĆÆt šŸ˜‚
I mean unless Iā€™m blind there was like 2 pipes and a bunch of jars of shĆÆt and yea smells like pot lol
Hella yea i do but when tho
wellll everyone is asleep but ig u donā€™t have shĆÆt that runs ugh lol
tell me when u see the pic cuz ima delete it
Ok babe
Iā€™ve srsly gotta b in by 2 anddd ima not smoke my first time alone I mean if u wanna we can do it another time but sayin hey if u wanna do shĆÆt thereā€™s a couch in there and pot so yea lol
OOO looks like she got some good sshhiitt
lolll u wanna now huh? šŸ˜‚
We can do it when i get back
ima delete that pic okay lo
Lol kk
lol well I dunno how long sheā€™s gon have it in plain view tbh
I had to search for it cuz she likes to move her shĆÆt around
Lol ok well if u cant find it ik where to get some lol
goddd I wanna so bad but I canā€™t figure shĆÆt out myself... dammĆÆt lol
lol tru
seee this is one of those moments I kinda just wanna b with u like smoke pot and we can just fxck on the couch we put out there lol
cuz everyone is asleep
Lol ok babe i mean pretty simple lol but yee we can do it when i get back
I wanna go back but I wanna talk to u ugh fxck
Lol yeeeesssss that would be amazing baby
Yee same babe
welll ik shĆÆt would happen lol I mean I literally have no bra on rn and my sweats r loose af lol so shĆÆt would b easy
goddddd I want thatttt
Nothin wrong wit that
Lol im fine wit out but yee kinda same tho
ughhhh ima get my phone charged 100 then go play around out there for a bit... Iā€™ll b back but ima not leavin rn itā€™s at like 70 rn lol
hey u could lol but u kinda canā€™t rn :/
What babe
ima charge my phone then go out there I mean u could come play with this shĆÆt with me lol but sounds like u kinda canā€™t rn apparently sooo yea oml
I mean i can for a couple mins but what am i goin to take tho
I dunno honestly that would all b up to u and wut ur comfortable with... I just know thereā€™s bomb aśs weed in my shop and ima go fxck with it in a few lol
Yea have fun smokin it
wut time r ur parents gonna b back anyways like wut lol
ughh
Idk there suposed to call the work phone when there on there way but i never got call from them yet
okay.. fxckin 3 pipes god damƱ
I just noticed the third in the pic lol
okay Iā€™ll b back I wanna run out there before I run out of time
okay yea brb need me Iā€™m in the shop
Lol ok baby
Have funn
dammĆÆt yup I need u
Iā€™m srsly debating
thereā€™s not all that much left
okay b back
KK
Iā€™m satisfied enough
I grabbed some but not a lot so one day u get ahold of a pipe or somethin and wanna go down to the park I literally have a tiny bit tho itā€™s not a lot
u alive?
sorry I didnā€™t grab that much lol
Yea babe and ik how to fxckin make a pipe out of tin foil lol so i got this we just need a lighter
Oh well itll work
I got a lighter lol she had like 15 in there so I grabbed one
Lol ok does it work??
Iā€™ll bring it one day lol if u want to go down to the park or somethin... not a lot but she didnā€™t have a lot left
the lighter? yea
Does the lighter work? lol and sure i mean if u can get off wendsday
Or whenever u can get off
I doubt I can get off Wednesday u know that... I dunno we could pull wut Jerome and Kenny did lol... go down to the park during lunch lol
just bring an extra hoodie lol and yes the lighter works
Yea true
I donā€™t think I can get off any day I mean my dad babe heā€™s bein an assss lately
he said u gotta come over if we gon hang out so yea
that would b our best bet at school tho I mean would rather not get caught but yea canā€™t rly do it after school
Well fxck ok
Yea true babe
yea wutever ur cool with tho
I can always try and get more but I donā€™t wanna grab enough to where she will notice
I dont care just do what u wanna do babe
True babe
wellll idek tbh lol
I looked for cigarettes but of course she didnā€™t have any
at least any that I could find
I have tobacco
Or do u mean joints
hey tobacco would work lol
i mean like actual cigarettes cuz she had a couple butts out there but ima thinkin that was from my grrandma or some shĆÆt
she had the fxckin butts from like a million joints I was like damƱ okay lol
Lol kk
welll donā€™t judge lol
Im not judgin
lol
okay
yeaaa I miss u a lot rn
Miss u to babe
u okay?
Yee baby y lol
I dunnooo just seem different or maybe itā€™s just me idek lol
tired or some shĆÆt?
Yee havent smoked for about an hour lol im sorry but its trur
god... yeaaa ima just not say anything omlll
What its the truth lol god im smokin to much holy fxck
yeaaaa thatā€™s y I wasnā€™t gonna say anything
Lol kk baby
like I srsly donā€™t care u just do it a lot like I mean a lot so just gonna keep my mouth shut cuz I canā€™t blame u cuz I like that shĆÆt tbh, the smokin, drinkin, yeaaa itā€™s funn for me so I can tell u not to tbh oml
Welp my dad is finally comin home
yea? so y did they leave again?
like curiousity
Well he left meh mom is still in the hospital
My mom was sick
ummm thatā€™s not good..
just k then
See babe u do it for funn i do it cause i need the smoke for it to run my body
Nah ig not and babe i cant work wit out it and im adicted
ik u r and ima not... nvm
Babe just say it
I need to know ur prospective on it and i might just try to quit
no cuz I donā€™t wanna start something tonight Iā€™m too tired to try and do shĆÆt rn
ik I miss the fxckin smoke honestly like even just a couple times with u fxckin want more I just canā€™t is my deal and ima not go further
Babe no it wont be a fight dont worry ill make sure of it
u knowwww I just want a cigarette and slee
Babe just say it plz
sleep*
and not get into this rn
Welp not goin to end my carer tonight then
Sorry sorry just ignore that plz
well I kinda canā€™t say it tho I mean Iā€™m kinda bein a hypocrite here when I get irritated with this shĆÆt I mean u smoke and drink and then thereā€™s me that once u get me into it itā€™s enjoyable and gets rid of most of the fxckin stress so I donā€™t blame u for doin it just u do it a lot and the only time I get pĆÆssed off about it is when like u start txting me that ur doin all this shĆÆt like okayyy love u but nahhh not rn
well apparently I can vent just randomly
fxckin babe donā€™t say shĆÆt like that around me thatā€™s guaranteed to pĆÆss me off
fine i donā€™t even fxckin care go do wutever then fxckin god
Oh well im cool wit it lol i mean yea ik i need to stop and it might kill me before im 40 but thats what i get for smokin at a early age
I might as well just leave for the night tbh
Babe dont worry ima try stopin ok know i love uā¤ļø
Fxckin no babe
okay well ur kinda pĆÆssin me off now
Yea i noticed that babe
well u tell me to ignore something u know is most likely going to pĆÆss me off I think I should leave and give u some fxckin space then
fxckin no ik Iā€™m a bxtch about things but fxckk try and not get mad easily but srsly
Nah baby dont
u gonna fxckin stop pĆÆssin me off then?
Sorry i mean ik sorry might not cut it but i trully am
fxckin better quit with the fxckin attitude shĆÆt sorry sounded kinda dumb af but shĆÆt
just quit with that whole sayin shĆÆt to pĆÆss me off crĆ¢p thatā€™s no fxckin Iā€™ll leave if u pull that on me
Okey baby
I love u but fxckin sometimes babe I just kinda wanna stab u just a bit and rn I think is one of those times honestly
Yee probably is
ughhhhhhhhh just nooooo thatā€™s probs the easiest damƱ way anyone could pĆÆss me off sooo plzzzz just nottt cuz I donā€™t wanna b a bxtch towards u
Ok i wont bae ill keep smart assssss remarks to my self
For now on
well thereā€™s a difference between smart aśs and sayin something u know is going to set me off
we r both smart aśs but fxckin donā€™t say shĆÆt to pĆÆss me off like that godd
Aye ill brb
k
if ur just gon go smoke dont even txt me back Iā€™ll just go to bed and txt u in the morning
like I wanna talk but ima not in the mood rn
Nah i was talkin to meh dad
k
Lol yee sorry for ppiiss u off tho babe like i trully am like god dam babe im sorry
just... ugh idek i mean I kinda blew up but when I get pĆÆssed I get pĆÆssed like just start blowing up but it takes me a bit to get there soooo idek
Its fine babe just nxt time tell me to fxck off
well hopefully there wonā€™t b a nxt time
Yee true babe
I mean it takes me a bit to get me to that point and itā€™s kinda obvious when Iā€™m about to just start losing my shĆ®t soo fxck
Well im the same way babe
fxcking ughhhhh nxt thing cuz Iā€™m kinda on edge at this point
Ok babe wyd
Besides playin wit a frogf
well my frog is outside... heā€™s pretty cute tho and heā€™s gon b my fren cuz I hate literally just about everyone else šŸ˜
just sitting here tho in the damƱ dark... wyd
that frog is pretty cute tho I like him
we cool
Lyin down wishin we were cuddlin
same... I mean Iā€™m kinda startin to freak out a bit rn so I dunno
like paranoia
okay yea Iā€™m kinda flipping now fxckin baaaaaabe shĆÆt
fxck I canā€™t bring that up with u nvm but fxckin yea cuddlin now would b great plz
Y u freakin out babe
???
I canā€™t bring that up with u
Y not
but someone brought it up with me and Iā€™m kinda flipping like everything is way too close to me and I need to kinda get tf out of here like now but I donā€™t wanna b outside fxck
I canā€™t babe trust me I canā€™t thatā€™s not fair to u
Babe yea it is i mean u delt wit my asssss so just vent what happend
it kinda feels like everything is happening all over again and ughhhh fxckinnnn I neeeeeed uuuuu like nowwwww
noooooo cuz u might flip Idek how u will react bringing it up and idek it should b me being over it by. o but Iā€™m not and Iā€™m kinda gettin claustrophobic af and kinda flipping
Babe is it about the guy
Who brought it up
fxckkknnnnn Iā€™m kinda flipping babe fxckin itā€™s like in here noo fxck
okay nope nope ima just chill in this corner in a ball and freak for a sec
someone I was txting that knew about it and like all the images like the first week after like every time I close my eyes fxckin there canā€™t get tf rid of it
Tell me more who brought it up y did they bring it up and babe calm down breath threw ur noise and out ur mouth
Iā€™m legit fxckin shaking umfxckkkn noo
he said the name, I closed my eyes, he was there and I flipped like idek y Iā€™m just fxck no
Babe in threw ur noise and out ur mouth ok? its goin to be ok just talk to me about it or some thin else
Ok well calm down babe like i said breath threw ur nose and out ur mouth god ik i spelt some thin wrong
idekkk Iā€™m not even meaning to which scares me like kinda feels like ima look down and itā€™s there and everywhere and in my head and holy fxck
Try to think about spring break and how much fun u had then or some other time just think about some thin good
u know I just kinda feel like ima bout to throw everything up
Y babe
good question just now I donā€™t rly feel good at all
u know Iā€™m not getting sleep tonight
Kinda weird
I donā€™t like heā€™s fxcking everywhere I look at the moment and I feel like ima just throw up in a sec
I can stay up wit u
Idk what to tell u babe
no u donā€™t have to itā€™s fine
go to sleep if u want
I shouldnā€™t even b freaking out about this fxckin im sorry this was March I mean if Iā€™m sensitive idek itā€™s just kinda hitting me hard rn
Babe im stayin up wit u cause i love u and im here for u and ima goin to try to be a good bf for once and stay up and give u comfort
babe Iā€™m fine okay I promise idek Iā€™m bein weird tonight I donā€™t rly know y but I am itā€™s okay babe
Babe it will be wit u no matter what it will wake u up at nights even tho u might be in a good drea,
itā€™s just now when I close my eyes itā€™s idek Iā€™m so fxckin sensitive shĆÆt
Babe ima be here for u
Cuddlin cuddle a cat or ur blanket
I dunno I wanna sleep honestly but I canā€™t close my eyes
just gonna idek I have a fluffy pillow ima just put between me and the door cuz rn the door is freaking me tf out and I canā€™t put my back towards it
And if u cant do that thats sayin somethin ok babe just it ok
I rly wanna cuddle with u rn holy fxck idek y any of this is happening just one name
like literally one name was said to set me off idek
Yea babe ik it might not seem like alot but it is and yeess i would cuddle wit u rn
babe just go to bed okay u need to sleep and Iā€™m keeping u up and in all honesty I need to try and sleep at least cuz idek I just donā€™t wanna keep u awake
baaaaaaaaaaabe noooo fxckk
ummmmm nope not normal fxck this okay this isnā€™t okay
yup ima die someone is gonna come and murder me ima die
Babe r u ok like whats happening now
ummmm was it raining
plz say itā€™s raining
And babe ima stay up wit u as long as i can
is it fxckin rianig
raining*
ima die ima b murdered
Ok what about it
Nah babe u wont
is it raining do u hear rain
YEP Iā€™m dying
murder is gonna come killme
No i dont hear rail
Rain*
yep Iā€™m dying
I heard a scream then rain and I hear rain rn and then the scream again and I hear rain still then I heard somethin and it feels like someone is here like I hear someone hear and fxck ima die
fxck there was the scream again
Babe no one is at ur house ok its probs just owen or shortys cats
well the scream was no that was no thx I canā€™t tell wth it is I mean it could just b a horse or some shĆÆt but fxckin nah nope thatā€™s not right
I heard like Idek how to explain it but it wasnā€™t a damƱ cat the kittens r in shorts room and they r asleep
Babe its ok no ones at ur house ur goin to live ur fine ok know i love u gorgeousā¤ļøā¤ļø
babe okay soo fxckin ru tired
no ima fxckin die but I love u too babe ā¤ļø
Then babe idk what there are
Nah im not tired babe and no ur not goin to die
babe u tired?
No babe im fine lol
yes I am... I mean I kinda want u to go get sleep okay I mean I might try here Iā€™m kinda tired and would rathe rn asleep before my dad wakes up
I mean Iā€™m curled up in a ball currently so I think ima b fine I mean if there is a murderer then ima fxcked but u know
True but ur goin to live babe ok and no one is at ur house so ur fine babe ok
well it feels like a mf is here
hey go to bed babe srsly okay? like u need sleep oml
Nah i dont need sleep im fine
u sure? I was gonna try and see if I can sleep I mean I doubt I can but idek tbh
ugh I srslt just wanna see u tho fxck this ugh
Same babe
Monday seems fxckin too far but at the same time I donā€™t want Monday to come at all
Yea babe ik
sorryyy Iā€™m tryna idek
I should just sleep but idek
Babe its fine lol yee ur the one who should sleep tho baby
idek I should but fxckin I dunno I could try but Iā€™m so paranoid rn I dunno if I could
Im sorry baby yee cuddlin would be perfect wouldnt it
maybe I should I just almost fell asleep a sec ago tho
yess it would b fxckin perfect rn
Yee so r u goin to bed??
I might need to tbh oml
I mean Iā€™m either gon fall asleep while talking to u or Iā€™m gon stay up then hear something again then flip
Like u said i should go to bed but i wanna make sure ur doin ok and fall asleep ok
babe Iā€™m fine Iā€™ll just go to bed I think Iā€™m good rn I mean Iā€™m calm now unless I hear anything else but so far everything is quiet again
just got to bed Iā€™ll go to bed too
and my dad is awake so fxck
Well good luck good night love u gorgeousā¤ļøā¤ļø
Good morning*
okayy I love u too babe ā¤ļøā¤ļø ig ima miss u tomorrow idek if ur gon txt at any point oml but yea... k night tho babe ā¤ļø
lol tru tho
Lol yee ima txt yea kk love yeaā¤ļøā¤ļø
okayy love u ā¤ļø
ā¤ļøā¤ļø
holy fxckkk Iā€™m fat