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And yes babe doin sshhiitt would of been amazing last night
lol yess... sorry I was out drivin and getting flowers š
Lol kk
donāt judge lol... I mean yea there r like a million fliers holy fxck
flowers*
Lol kk
baaaaabe I miss uuuu
Misss u to babe
u okay?
Yee baby just LAUGHIN my assss off still
do I wanna know? lol
I mean my dad skipper and i almost died earlyer
I donāt wanna know actually omll
So no u probs dont wanna know
yeaaa I donāt omll
Lol thats good
fxckin my mom said she kinda misses u š she likes u over here lol
but yea lol
Ok then
okay she likes u donāt judge lol
I was just sayin cuz I have nothing else to say honestly lol
Lol ok but shouldnt u be the one missin me?? and not ur mom that thats that idk
okay well I fxckin miss u always if thatās not already obvious... I dunno she liked it when u came over tho and I mean when ur here she gets rid of me so š
Ok then ig i need to go over more often
lol I was just sayinnn
okay I think my only girly part I got is I fxckin love flowers like we have a million fxck š
Lol ok so i need a note to self saying "Bring flowers to baes house when u get back"ā¤ļøā¤ļø
š loll good job babe lol (:
Lol and im guessing thats a yes
anddd I fxckin love u and u make me smile god babe lolll š
Well isnt that my job is to make u smile every day lol love yea to babyā¤ļøā¤ļø
šā¤ļø loll yea I miss uuu tho oml
Miss yea to gorgeousā¤ļøā¤ļø
ā¤ļø srslyyy in the mood to fxckin cuddle tho like fxckkk
I meann it sounds good rn cuz Iām hot and wanna take my jeans off but I canāt and cuddlin would just b šš»
Yea that would be amazing baby
Both of us cuddlinin the same bed and half naked sounds amazing
yess
I mean fxckin gotta wear sweats so under a blanket hiding just snuggled up against u would b fxckin yess
Yeesssss baby that would be fxckin nice
lol yess.. I mean im way fxckin lovey rn and just wanna cuddle fxck and sleep like srsly kinda my mood for awhile now lol
Lol yea ik i mean we can fxck in the shower lol
lol yea that would b funn rn
Lol yee + its somethin new
lol yea I mean both of us naked in the shower fxckin against the wall... yess sounds fxckin funn rn loll
Lol yeesss it does
anddd now I wanna do shĆÆt godd lol
There yea go thats what we can do when i get back fxckin see if u can hang then come over here and fxck in the shower
Lol babe u always wanna do sshhiitt
lol yes that sounds fxckinn good rn... see I doubt they would care if I went over after u got back tbh lol
okay ik I do but like fxck babe š no we talking about it like damƱ lol
Lol what u fesky now lol
well Iām definitely thinking now lol
Lol yee probs baby
yea doin shĆÆt sounds good
Lol yeess after i take a shower baby
lol yeaa I need a shower right about now too lol... covered in mud godd lol
yea I miss u fxck
if I donāt reply right away I took a shower k babe Iāll b back love u ā¤ļøā¤ļø
ima just assume u died lolll
nvm š
Sorry bret came to get his buss
lol itās fine
Kk i mean i seen ur dad and was scared sshhiitt less
gave me time to take a shower lol
Lol kk
lol yea he got home and said he saw u so yea lol... he wonāt kill u babe donāt worry lol
Well skipper watched him drive by and his legs where shakin pretty dam bad lol and thats sayin some thin
godd lol... just getting home from work lol I mean he already has had a couple beers lol
Lol i mean thats probs goin to be me lol
lol well Iād end up drinkin with u tbh lol... so that wouldnāt b a problem
plus ur a love drunk, not an aÅshole drunk so thatās better than my dad oml
Lol yea true witch isnt really a bad thing lol
Well yea true i am a love drunk
yea lol itās not a bad thing... I mean we would just end up doin shĆÆt lol
yea u r lol
Oh well thats also not a bad thing
if I just knew the things u said when u were hammered and we were talking u would know how obvious it is that ur just lovey af š
if u knew*
but yea itās not a bad thing lol
Well babe im that love druk that cant remember sshhiitt so nxt time take a vid or some sshhiitt
lol well last time I saw u that hammered was when u face timed me and the shĆÆt u say is funny tbh lol
Lol
I mean ur lovey afff so when ur slurring everything sayin cute things like yea itās funny lol
Lol oh well
lol yea
anddd I canāt fxckin get up
nvmmm fixed it lol
Y cant u get up??
well I had a cat
laying on me soo yea lol
Lol what hes takin my spot now?? lol
loll well ur not here and I was in the mood to cuddle okay donāt judge lol
Lol ok im not judgein
lol well Iām in a lovey mood rn and just wanna cuddle makeout and play with shĆÆt
mainly just kinda cuddle and sleep tho ima tired and my legs still hurt
I mean im not there to help yea wit that i wish i was but im not lol and i mean monday on the buss u can play wit sshhiitt i mean ik u will
probs will honestly lol... I meannn they donāt hurt like yesterday but u should have seen me putting jeans on this morning... that sucked
BBAABBYY III FFXXCCKKIIINN LLOOVVEE UUU GGOORRGGEEOOUUSSā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø
probs did babyu
godd lol I love u too baaaabe ššā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø
wellll ik itās gon suck getting up Monday to get dressed.. like no motivation to put pants on at all
ā¤ļøā¤ļø yyeess
lolll... I fxckin wish we could cuddle like nowwww honestly
If we were alone babe we can lock the doors and turn the light down low
Same babe same
lol yess that would b amazing rn
yeaa miss u like fxckin ugh
Miss u to babyā¤ļøā¤ļø
FFFFXXXXCCCCCCKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!
I dont want tomorrow to be here
wanna just b with u tho like everyone here pĆÆsses me off I mean at least we can cuddle and play with shĆÆt
Well yea i wouldnt mind do that sshhiitt lol i mean i would be cuddlin the hottest girl in the world
y babe?
lol godd babe (:
Lol yeee love u gorgeousā¤ļøā¤ļø well i gotat be locked up in a car wit gabe and trinity to kooskie then i have to help them wit the truck and be locked in the car again and thank god my dad is at least goin
šš
love u too tho babe lolll
Hopefully he can save my asssss
welll thatās funny š
Lol thats sshhiitt not fuunny how would u feel bein lock in a car wit ur ex for 45 fxckin mins and be wit them for the whole fxckin day and + gota remember she likes me so then im fxcked
If she starts grabbin sshhiitt ima bxtch slap her
ummm if she pulls shĆÆt I will become a major fxckin bxtch and she will no longer fxck with literally anyone š
sorry but fxckin she pulls shĆÆt thatās when ima get pĆÆssed
And know if u kill her i will give u props
itās kinda funny ur stuck with her all day tho lol
She might babe i mean its Trinity
Fxckin no its not
ummm I wonāt kill her... Iāll just make living miserable for the bxtchh š hey itās kinda funny
Not really babe and if she lies a hand on u yea i might have to kill him cause i mean its man so yee
godd babe lol
but fxckin I will srsly get fxckin pĆÆssed if she pulls asnything cuz obviously she likes u and itās bull shĆÆt
Ill let u know if she does i mean ill try to sit on the other side of the car but yea ill tell u if she pulls sshhiitt
okayyy Iām not above slitting a bxtchās throat
sorry I got kinda aggressive š
Ill help hit the body
nah... Iāll just make her death look like an accident
and leave her in her room or some shĆÆt
make it look like a suicide
thatās a good idea
yeaaa I think maybe ima too protective tho š³
No babe ur not to protective
well Iām protective af tho
like no joke I will kill a bxtch
Yea but i think every girls like that is a women gets to close to there man
truu... I meannn Iām not about to lose u to some desperate fxckin bxtch so if a bxtch checks u out ima get pĆÆssyyyy aff
I get aggressive š
Yea babe i can tell and i mean i think ur the only one who checks me out tho
umm trust me I see other bxtches check u out I mean especially fxckin casi and Trinity itās like nooo so I mean
it could just b me bein paranoid but u know still wanna kill them
Yea true baby
seee I have nothing to check out so u donāt have to worry about guys checkin me out tho loll... but yea I mean I catch wes lookin sometimes but thatās it
srsly just wanna stab them
fxckin casi and trinity
Yee baby ik u wanna kill them and no babe ur pretty filled out
well not rly I mean srsly unless u catch ppl lookin there is literally no one that finds my aÅs attractive soo yea lol... fxckin casi wonders y I glare tho lol
Lol cause she stares and nah babe ur assss is actually attractive believe me
So are ur ttiittss
suure babe lol I have nothin lolll... I thought she has a boyfriend she shouldnāt b lookin
Who casi idk i think its a guy as dark as she is tho
lol yea idek... I have no tĆÆts lol maybe enough for u to lay on lol but nothin
But yea babe ur attractive dont worry
But yea babe ur attractive dont worry
suure babe lol
well definitely not sexually attractive lol
Like hella
Iām not tho lol
Ur sexually attractive i mean u got my attention
If that even matter
lol well I mean obviously I let u play with my pĆ¼ssy lol course thatās gon get a guyās attention... u just gotta say tĆÆts even and guys look lol
Ok so in all honestly im not the one sexually attractive i mean yea i have a dxck but that doesnt mean sshhiitt
bull shĆÆt babe lol
Lol sooo
Ha see u dont have anything to back that up wit LMMFAO
baaaabe god lol I mean ur hot af and most girls wanna fxck a guy if they r hot soo
I love u and ur hot so fxckin yes
Lol nice cover up
shut up lol
I mean I do fxckin love u tho babe just know that godd
Well of corse u love me but kk
baaaaaaabe
srslyyyyy nahhh
letās not start š
Not start what babe
nvmmm nxt subject cuz u sounds like ur gettin pĆÆssy
Im honestly not but ok
ugh okay
I need fxckkn food
Actually i was getting a bit ppiiss but yee nxt subject ig but aye on the bright side babe i love uā¤ļøā¤ļø
I knew u were it was kinda obvious but love u too
KK wys
Wyd
eating wyd
Thinkin about my gorgeous gf
god okay
sorry if Iām acting pĆÆssy lol Iām not I swear
Well i am
Ok babe
ughhhhhh I swear ima kill a mf in a sec
Who u goin to killl baby
fxckin everyone here
Y babe what happend this time
Megan, my dad, shorty, my mom is the only one who hasnāt pĆÆssed me off within the past hour
she pĆÆssed me off earlier but fxckin
But how did they ppiiss u off babe??
andddd now ima kill Megan
I just need to leave š
Well babe 4 more years if ur still planing to leave wit me
fxckin 4 yrs is too long
Yea ik
I want it to b Monday tbh but also I donāt wanna get any closer to Thursday so fxck
Yea ik dont want it to be wendsday at all
I am going to b a fxckin mess Wednesday like I think ima literally have to walk out of class at some points fxckin
Iām kinda a bxtch about this shĆÆt honestly but fxck babe
Aye im goin to spend as much time as i posibly can wit u before i leave baby
u leave to fxckin soon tho
like srsly the min the 14th has June and July ima just stay at home and probs sleep most of the day so I donāt think
I mean probs the best ideahp babe
yep nxt week canāt come nope nope
ima b a fxckin mess like the min ima alone at all nxt week ima think then die
so nope
Yea ima be wit u at school babe
still gonna fxckin die
nope
Wednesday canāt come... nxt week canāt come like Iāll stay in this moment rn for awhile we good here
Well i wanna be there wit u babe
still canāt come cuz then it gets closer to when u leave and I donāt like I dunno not talkin even is wuts gonna kill me... not the fact ur gone just not talking or seein eachother like fxckin ughh
Yea ik thats goin to suck dxck
fxcccckkkk summer
nvm summer doesnāt need to come
Yea ik babe
so just so u know when u donāt get on the bus Thursday ima lose literally all my shĆÆt and just fxckin break for a few and I rly donāt care who sees at this point like fxckkn
Thursday babe im not goin to be there thursday
Iām so when u donāt get on the bus Thursday ima just did a little
die*
Oh nvm had to reread it and i dont blame u babe
cuz ur my gon b there and then itās gon hit me and ima just break and ppl r gonna judge but I rly donāt even care
just going to die
Ok babe i mean ill find a way to txt u every once and a while at least
idek
godddd Iām no joke starting to tear up fxck
Baby i love uā¤ļø aye i need to smoke a lil tobaco ik u dont like it but i need it to calm down rn ok sorry but i need to do some thing love u tho babyā¤ļøā¤ļø
So am i baby so am i
I honestly donāt even try anymore with that shĆÆt I mean I would do that shĆÆt if I could so I canāt say I donāt like it honestly love u ig
srsly done caring with most shĆÆt anyways
maybe I deleted that soon enough so u didnāt see it
Babe u better not cut again plz
did u see it?
goddddddd fxckkkkkkkkkk
No i have a feelin that u did tho
thereās wayyyy tooo much god damƱ shĆÆt goin on rnnn like holy fxckkk I wannna kill everyone here and break down and cry and Iām gon b here a fxckin lone for however long ur gone and John is fxckin leaving and shĆÆiiiiiit
sorry I fxcking blew up
GODDDDD FXCKCKKKKKKK
Yea babe ik its goin to be stress full
tooo much fxckin shƮt tho
ahhhhhhhfxckkkkkkkk I kindaaa regrettt thisss
I donāt think itās supposed to b like the normally... at least it hasnāt before
Babe its fine
ummmm sure
What babe
ig u got ways to handle shĆÆt and I get ways and my ways donāt go away for about a week, two maybe
I said sure
What babe what about a week
nothing Iām fine I kinda blew up for a sec
which I donāt normally do so I do things I wouldnāt normally do
BBBAAAABBBEEEšš
Iām fine I just donāt know donāt feel good tbh now Iām fine babe Iām fine
I hope to god u didnt od
if I took pills i would already b throwin everything up trust me... everyone is awake anyways
just it was supposed to stop by now like the rest and ima kinda dizzy tbh
So can u tell me what u done
like fxckin shĆÆts spinning this not rly normal
Babe plz tell me what u done
Iām fine tho
just ima lay down for a bit Iām good just kinda blew up at everything cuz someone finally set me off enough
BAAAABBBEE plz tell me what u done
itās okay
alllll okayyyyy
Tell me babe
it finally stopped I think ima good now
baaabe u can probs put two and two together like thereās a time with me is y Iām not rusted where one thing can set me tf off then I start doin shĆÆt i wouldnāt do and Iām not thinking at all when Iām set off like that and I kinda blew up and just flipped at every thing so I mean fxckin
thatās how I ended up in the hospital last August tho... someone set me off, I flipped, did shĆÆt and was locked in my closet and wouldnāt let no fxckers in and fxckin Joshua had to come say hello
But what did u do tho babe take pill or cut or drink
everyone is awake so think about that
yeaaa a lil blood isnāt supposed to do this I donāt think
So u cut??
Fxckin ik that one was my faly
noooooo it fxckin wasnāt donāt even think that
Sorry
I flipped okay I wasnāt thinking someone set me off, I flipped, I wasnāt thinking I flipped and did something cuz I wasnāt thinking
babe it wasnāt u I fxckin swear
I fxckin hope nor
it wasnāt u I fxcking swear I wouldnāt do shĆÆt like this if it were u okay I donāt do dumb shĆÆt when somethin happens between us and nothing happened anyways
Iām okay itās fxckin fine I promise fxckin im sorry baby
Babe im the one who should be sorry
noooo stopppp it wasnāt u like fxckin nooo babe
u did absolutely nothing itās fineee itās not u
Ok i mean ig at lest ik it wasnt me
it wasnāt u did nothing to even make me remotely consider it even
sorry I keep fxckin shĆÆt up
Kk
Hang on babe ima meet john for a min
donāt get fxckin pĆÆssed plz
Im not
thatās wut u said earlier when u were gettin pĆÆssed donāt lie
fxckin if u wanna leave go ahead and leave I donāt even blame u Iām kinda a mess rn for no reason whatsoever
donāt want u to but at the same time idec anymore just as long as I donāt lose u Iām okay
OK well ima not goin to leave babe im calm i talked to John he finished my beer and we good know
Babe and all i need in life is my best friend and thats u love u baby
figured u werenāt comin back tbh... love u too tho
Baby im ok im not ppiiss ok i fxckin love u and the last thing i need is to loose u
Nah ill always come back to my gorgeous asssss gf
fxckin I just thought u were gone for the night like honestly I wouldnāt blame u either... ig Iām just chillin here in the dark with music on anyways so Iād b okay if u wanted to go
Iād actually survive oml
Oh?
I hope u would come back eventually
U survive without me? ll
KK* i will dont worry
honestly not rly... for the night maybe I mean if I lost u totally Iād b gone like Iād b fxcking done trying
music only works for so long
Okey
sorry Iām fxcking sorry Iām bein kinda a bxtch rn go ahead and leave if u want I donāt even blame u at this point
Babe im not goin to leave u
well obviously I keep pĆÆssing u off honestly
sorry Iām starting to fxckin flip at every little thing and Iām trying to not b a bxtch towards u
Baby its ok thats how we get stronger
fxckin I hope it makes us stronger instead of my dumb asÅ breaking us
No babe ur not goin to break us up
andddd rn sleep would b good so I wouldnāt have to fxcking think
I hate thinking like itās the reason I do dumb shĆÆt
Fall asleep while we cuddle would be nive
Nice*
yea honestly it would
break down the rest of the shĆÆt Iām currently holding back then sleep cuz Iām fxckin done with myself rn
Babe if u wanna go to bed u can
I canāt
I canāt get myself to sleep trust me I already tried
Ok babe
sorry u can always leave whenever tho itās fine donāt feel like u have to talk to me babe
Nah baby ima stay up wit u
Unless u want me to go
u sure?
ima just sit here and die for awhile itās fine babe
Yes im sure babe
go if u want itās fine babe
No im not goin unless u want me to
I mean if u go Iāll probs just go sit outside for the next hour or so and listen to music and cry cuz thatās all Iām rly good at at the moment
I donāt want u to but at the same time I feel like u want to go thatās y Iām saying itās okay cuz I have a feelin u just want space
No babe if u dont want me to go i wont and no i dont wanna go babe
okay ig I just feel kinda idek tbh
Idek how to feel at the moment
Ok babe but i mean i loveā¤ļøā¤ļø
love u babe ā¤ļø
ā¤ļøā¤ļø yeesss i feeel lovvvedā¤ļøā¤ļø
well I mean I do fxckin love u thatās never going to change no matter how much of a bxtch ima b
Ik baby and honesltly my love will never for u will never come on emptie
I kinda fxckin need u right about now honestly fxck
Same bae i just need to see u and cuddle u and kiss u and just enjoy u
fxckin same... think I miss u just a bit too much
I miss u way to much not a lil not a bit just i miss u way to muchā¤ļøā¤ļø
I think honestly we r fxcked the min u leave honestly
goddd gonna b fxckin lonely and miss ur aÅs way too much and fxck
Yes babe we are fxcked know lets not talk about that rn ok?
Thats the least of are worrys rn ok baby
okay...
Ok talk about some thin else ok baby ok i fxcking love u alot thoā¤ļøā¤ļø
I love u too babe ā¤ļø
idek honestly tho just kinda... chillin here in the dark wishing I wasnāt a fxckin lone
Ik babe i mean i would walk over rn but every one at ur house is probs asleep
yea at least they r all heading to bed... plus u would get ur aÅs in trouble ik that shĆÆt
Well parents are not here so no i wouldnt
Iām waiting till they r all asleep and goin outside... just to the porch and turn up my music and talk to u cuz ima hot honestly
oh?
I dunno I would feel bad havin u walk over here tho at 10 at night unless u rly actually wanted to but fxck I doubt it lol
Yee run meh mom to the hospital so yee no one is home besides me and my siblings
oh?
Lol i can drive the loud asssss wheeler
I dunno i might walk out later and vent to a horse or some shĆÆt cuz Iām full of absolute shĆÆt rn
god yea that would wake everyone up lol... unless u like stopped at the end of the driveway lol
Ok
itās hot in here
dammĆÆt ummm babe Iāll brb
Lol well i would have to lol
Lol ok
god lol yea ima run out real quick apparently thereās somethin with horses Iāll b back in a sec
Ima wake up Bill heath lol
lol good job
nvm they r fine
Lol kk aye u should see if u can hear the wheeler once i get it goin
U should be able to hear it
um I doubt I can hear it from ur place lol like probs if u were drivin around fast but yea lol
well ima sittin on the porch rn soo yea lol
Nah ill rev it up lol
lol I doubt Iāll hear it babe lol
I mean obviously I would hear it if u were drivin right in front of my damÅ house or thru town lol but I dunno
Iām kinda just missin u like fxckin crazy rn ughhh
I miss u to babe
sorry Iām kinda lovey rn omll
Lol so am i lol
lol yea cuddlin would b great rn... even just like a hug like k love u lol
I hear line a giant aÅs diesel or somethin like doubt it would b u but itās kinda entertaining
Lol yee i heard it to lol
lol okay ima not hearin things
think my parents finallyyyyy went to bed lol
fxckin just outside cuz itās too hot shĆÆt
ugh anddd my phone is at 20% š
Lol hang on babe
?
donāt wanna know lol
Goin to get it started in a min
okay lll
lol* if I donāt txt back I donāt have WiFi lol Iāll b in at like 10 50 tho if not before
Lol kk
missss uuuuuu
horses r screaming again like ughhh
rly wish I was fxckin with u rn ugh the silence rn kills me
Same babe
yea ima way too lovey rn
got lonely lol walking around so yea donāt judge lol
Im not lol
lol okay
yea fxckin lonely as shĆÆt š actually I think just the fxckin dark is sketching me out cuz I heard some guy just start laughin out of no where like ummmm no
babe u tired!
?**
Nah baby lol welp she didnt want to start ppiiss me off
lol good job babe
feels like someone is gonna run around a corner and kill me like itās sketchy lol
Lol well its not that sketchy here or im just used to it
I kinda know wut I wanna go do but I wonder if anyone would catch me
umm Iām not lol
What u wanna go out lol
I should fxckin scream out "Baby i love u" and see if u hear it
god lol wanted to go jog I dunno Iām getting kinda cold and my parents r asleep and no one even knows Iām out here
Lol we can do that another time lol
loll I might
hear u I dunno
Should i try it atleast lol
lol well I just went inside... ima charge my phone then go jog somewhere idek where tbh
just somewhere
Fxckin kk baby
well I mean I canāt get out during the day so ima get out during the night
sure I might get murdered but oh well
Yea some one would probs catch u
Fxckin no u better not get murdered
well I dunno I need out like claustrophobic moment ig bein locked up
bein fxckin claustrophobic sucks aÅs
I might get murdered
Now u know how i feel lol sorry had to say that
U better not get murdered
hm u donāt want me to go out?
Nah babe go out if u wanna but bein locked up ik how u feel cause thats what my parents do but sure go jog i dont care just dont die
idek Iām probs too pĆ¼ssy to leave tbh
I wanna go out to the corner and back but for one Iām alone and for two I hear cars and Iām kinda sketched out but at the same time kinda want one to hit me
I dont want u to get hit by a car
aww come on I would like one to hit me
ugh if I go out I wonāt come back u know that
Ok have funn then
ugh baaabe I was just kidding
fxckin Iāll stay in then ig
Sure babe sure thats y u say it all the time and actually run in front of it
fxckin fine Iāll stay
Nah just go Jog if u wanna im not goin to stop u
no cuz Iāll do something dumb okay I donāt rly wanna die like honestly I donāt and that the first time Iāve said that Iām like a year so feel special cuz rn ur the only reason y I donāt wanna die
Well babe i am special in the brain tho
babe stop
I mean fxckin 2 years since I actually had a reason to live, been about two years since I last said that I wanted to b alive that I didnāt want to die so fxckin
Stop what babe im bein honest thats the sad thing
and I say it now k cuz u make me wanna love, somehow u make me wanna live and I love u, literally have no purpose besides u honestly
babe just stop
quit getting all pĆÆssed off okay fxckin jesus
I love u okay donāt rly wanna fxckin fight over something dumb as shĆÆt
Sorry its what happens when u have been up longer then 24 hourse sorry babe
Love u to babe
fxckin go to bed then
if ur tired then sleep
Not tired so no point to go to bed
well it sounds like u need sleep but okay
Nah
okayyy then
+ i have to watch the kids so yea
k
But yeeee sorryyy for getting ppiiss
itās fxckin fine letās just pretend any of that never happened
cuz now Iām kinda pĆÆssy and Iām tryna not b a bxtch
Kk baby
soooo wyd idek
Ok then change subjects
Watchin a movie and txtin u
good job
Yee wys
Wyd
tryna get my fxckin leg to quit hurting honestly
thereās one bad one and Iām sorry but should just bleed on contact thatās not normal... ugh okay sorry idek shouldnāt bring that up tbh
rly donāt wanna pĆÆss u off anymore
Its fine babe im try not to get ppiiss
well ima not bring that up anyways cuz I feel like a total aÅshole for doin that and itās gonna pĆÆss u off so yea
maybe u just need some alone time idek feel kinda like u need it, like I dunno maybe u need a break from me I mean I am bein kinda cling on rn
Nah baby its fine just needed a smoke thats it im calm know
course
U can say whatever u need to say and no i dont need a break from u ok i fxckin love u
love u too... fxcking guess Iāll b back then
Sorry better then drinkinh
Goin on that jog??
Iāll b back promise just I dunno when just soon I think
U should come over here for a min baby
i canāt leave the property Iām goin out to the shop I mean u could come hang out here but I canāt leave sorry megs is in the guest house, b too obvious if I left
If u wanna
I donāt get WiFi in the shop
Ok do u still want me to txt u later
Yea so later do u want me to txt u later??
Baby i love uā¤ļøā¤ļø
sorry just it back... okay Iām confusioned at the moment if I wanna wut
love u too... my mom fxckin moved everything like dammĆÆt
Lol dam that sucks and if u wanted to come over here
I canāt leave sorry... if u wanted to come here we could hang out but I canāt leave
yea I might know where it is tho... maybe I doubt it but maybe
What would u smoke it in anywats
Aye im probs go over there tomorrow before John and i go fishin
thereās a pipe
a lighter in the shop... the pipe is with the shĆÆt somewhere wherever she hid it
U should take a hit
okay
welll I got to find everything
seee I wish we could hang out cuz rn would b perfect buuuut probs not
Tru just done make it noticable
okay hey give me 5 mins I think ik where it is I mightāve just missed it I think tho
I mean i can probs go over there without a worry in the world but i rather take somethin wit headlight and that actually wanna run
welll do wutever u want Iāll brb
Ok babe
I mean I miss u but yea I donāt blame u for wantin somethin to run... I wouldnāt walk in town alone in the dark š³
Yea and somethin wit headlight
hey I mean if I wanna I just found everything anddd Iām kinda a clueless bxtch sooo wanna smoke pot I got shĆÆt š
I mean unless Iām blind there was like 2 pipes and a bunch of jars of shĆÆt and yea smells like pot lol
Hella yea i do but when tho
wellll everyone is asleep but ig u donāt have shĆÆt that runs ugh lol
tell me when u see the pic cuz ima delete it
Ok babe
Iāve srsly gotta b in by 2 anddd ima not smoke my first time alone I mean if u wanna we can do it another time but sayin hey if u wanna do shĆÆt thereās a couch in there and pot so yea lol
OOO looks like she got some good sshhiitt
lolll u wanna now huh? š
We can do it when i get back
ima delete that pic okay lo
Lol kk
lol well I dunno how long sheās gon have it in plain view tbh
I had to search for it cuz she likes to move her shĆÆt around
Lol ok well if u cant find it ik where to get some lol
goddd I wanna so bad but I canāt figure shĆÆt out myself... dammĆÆt lol
lol tru
seee this is one of those moments I kinda just wanna b with u like smoke pot and we can just fxck on the couch we put out there lol
cuz everyone is asleep
Lol ok babe i mean pretty simple lol but yee we can do it when i get back
I wanna go back but I wanna talk to u ugh fxck
Lol yeeeesssss that would be amazing baby
Yee same babe
welll ik shĆÆt would happen lol I mean I literally have no bra on rn and my sweats r loose af lol so shĆÆt would b easy
goddddd I want thatttt
Nothin wrong wit that
Lol im fine wit out but yee kinda same tho
ughhhh ima get my phone charged 100 then go play around out there for a bit... Iāll b back but ima not leavin rn itās at like 70 rn lol
hey u could lol but u kinda canāt rn :/
What babe
ima charge my phone then go out there I mean u could come play with this shĆÆt with me lol but sounds like u kinda canāt rn apparently sooo yea oml
I mean i can for a couple mins but what am i goin to take tho
I dunno honestly that would all b up to u and wut ur comfortable with... I just know thereās bomb aÅs weed in my shop and ima go fxck with it in a few lol
Yea have fun smokin it
wut time r ur parents gonna b back anyways like wut lol
ughh
Idk there suposed to call the work phone when there on there way but i never got call from them yet
okay.. fxckin 3 pipes god damƱ
I just noticed the third in the pic lol
okay Iāll b back I wanna run out there before I run out of time
okay yea brb need me Iām in the shop
Lol ok baby
Have funn
dammĆÆt yup I need u
Iām srsly debating
thereās not all that much left
okay b back
KK
Iām satisfied enough
I grabbed some but not a lot so one day u get ahold of a pipe or somethin and wanna go down to the park I literally have a tiny bit tho itās not a lot
u alive?
sorry I didnāt grab that much lol
Yea babe and ik how to fxckin make a pipe out of tin foil lol so i got this we just need a lighter
Oh well itll work
I got a lighter lol she had like 15 in there so I grabbed one
Lol ok does it work??
Iāll bring it one day lol if u want to go down to the park or somethin... not a lot but she didnāt have a lot left
the lighter? yea
Does the lighter work? lol and sure i mean if u can get off wendsday
Or whenever u can get off
I doubt I can get off Wednesday u know that... I dunno we could pull wut Jerome and Kenny did lol... go down to the park during lunch lol
just bring an extra hoodie lol and yes the lighter works
Yea true
I donāt think I can get off any day I mean my dad babe heās bein an assss lately
he said u gotta come over if we gon hang out so yea
that would b our best bet at school tho I mean would rather not get caught but yea canāt rly do it after school
Well fxck ok
Yea true babe
yea wutever ur cool with tho
I can always try and get more but I donāt wanna grab enough to where she will notice
I dont care just do what u wanna do babe
True babe
wellll idek tbh lol
I looked for cigarettes but of course she didnāt have any
at least any that I could find
I have tobacco
Or do u mean joints
hey tobacco would work lol
i mean like actual cigarettes cuz she had a couple butts out there but ima thinkin that was from my grrandma or some shĆÆt
she had the fxckin butts from like a million joints I was like damƱ okay lol
Lol kk
welll donāt judge lol
Im not judgin
lol
okay
yeaaa I miss u a lot rn
Miss u to babe
u okay?
Yee baby y lol
I dunnooo just seem different or maybe itās just me idek lol
tired or some shĆÆt?
Yee havent smoked for about an hour lol im sorry but its trur
god... yeaaa ima just not say anything omlll
What its the truth lol god im smokin to much holy fxck
yeaaaa thatās y I wasnāt gonna say anything
Lol kk baby
like I srsly donāt care u just do it a lot like I mean a lot so just gonna keep my mouth shut cuz I canāt blame u cuz I like that shĆÆt tbh, the smokin, drinkin, yeaaa itās funn for me so I can tell u not to tbh oml
Welp my dad is finally comin home
yea? so y did they leave again?
like curiousity
Well he left meh mom is still in the hospital
My mom was sick
ummm thatās not good..
just k then
See babe u do it for funn i do it cause i need the smoke for it to run my body
Nah ig not and babe i cant work wit out it and im adicted
ik u r and ima not... nvm
Babe just say it
I need to know ur prospective on it and i might just try to quit
no cuz I donāt wanna start something tonight Iām too tired to try and do shĆÆt rn
ik I miss the fxckin smoke honestly like even just a couple times with u fxckin want more I just canāt is my deal and ima not go further
Babe no it wont be a fight dont worry ill make sure of it
u knowwww I just want a cigarette and slee
Babe just say it plz
sleep*
and not get into this rn
Welp not goin to end my carer tonight then
Sorry sorry just ignore that plz
well I kinda canāt say it tho I mean Iām kinda bein a hypocrite here when I get irritated with this shĆÆt I mean u smoke and drink and then thereās me that once u get me into it itās enjoyable and gets rid of most of the fxckin stress so I donāt blame u for doin it just u do it a lot and the only time I get pĆÆssed off about it is when like u start txting me that ur doin all this shĆÆt like okayyy love u but nahhh not rn
well apparently I can vent just randomly
fxckin babe donāt say shĆÆt like that around me thatās guaranteed to pĆÆss me off
fine i donāt even fxckin care go do wutever then fxckin god
Oh well im cool wit it lol i mean yea ik i need to stop and it might kill me before im 40 but thats what i get for smokin at a early age
I might as well just leave for the night tbh
Babe dont worry ima try stopin ok know i love uā¤ļø
Fxckin no babe
okay well ur kinda pĆÆssin me off now
Yea i noticed that babe
well u tell me to ignore something u know is most likely going to pĆÆss me off I think I should leave and give u some fxckin space then
fxckin no ik Iām a bxtch about things but fxckk try and not get mad easily but srsly
Nah baby dont
u gonna fxckin stop pĆÆssin me off then?
Sorry i mean ik sorry might not cut it but i trully am
fxckin better quit with the fxckin attitude shĆÆt sorry sounded kinda dumb af but shĆÆt
just quit with that whole sayin shĆÆt to pĆÆss me off crĆ¢p thatās no fxckin Iāll leave if u pull that on me
Okey baby
I love u but fxckin sometimes babe I just kinda wanna stab u just a bit and rn I think is one of those times honestly
Yee probably is
ughhhhhhhhh just nooooo thatās probs the easiest damƱ way anyone could pĆÆss me off sooo plzzzz just nottt cuz I donāt wanna b a bxtch towards u
Ok i wont bae ill keep smart assssss remarks to my self
For now on
well thereās a difference between smart aÅs and sayin something u know is going to set me off
we r both smart aÅs but fxckin donāt say shĆÆt to pĆÆss me off like that godd
Aye ill brb
k
if ur just gon go smoke dont even txt me back Iāll just go to bed and txt u in the morning
like I wanna talk but ima not in the mood rn
Nah i was talkin to meh dad
k
Lol yee sorry for ppiiss u off tho babe like i trully am like god dam babe im sorry
just... ugh idek i mean I kinda blew up but when I get pĆÆssed I get pĆÆssed like just start blowing up but it takes me a bit to get there soooo idek
Its fine babe just nxt time tell me to fxck off
well hopefully there wonāt b a nxt time
Yee true babe
I mean it takes me a bit to get me to that point and itās kinda obvious when Iām about to just start losing my shĆ®t soo fxck
Well im the same way babe
fxcking ughhhhh nxt thing cuz Iām kinda on edge at this point
Ok babe wyd
Besides playin wit a frogf
well my frog is outside... heās pretty cute tho and heās gon b my fren cuz I hate literally just about everyone else š
just sitting here tho in the damƱ dark... wyd
that frog is pretty cute tho I like him
we cool
Lyin down wishin we were cuddlin
same... I mean Iām kinda startin to freak out a bit rn so I dunno
like paranoia
okay yea Iām kinda flipping now fxckin baaaaaabe shĆÆt
fxck I canāt bring that up with u nvm but fxckin yea cuddlin now would b great plz
Y u freakin out babe
???
I canāt bring that up with u
Y not
but someone brought it up with me and Iām kinda flipping like everything is way too close to me and I need to kinda get tf out of here like now but I donāt wanna b outside fxck
I canāt babe trust me I canāt thatās not fair to u
Babe yea it is i mean u delt wit my asssss so just vent what happend
it kinda feels like everything is happening all over again and ughhhh fxckinnnn I neeeeeed uuuuu like nowwwww
noooooo cuz u might flip Idek how u will react bringing it up and idek it should b me being over it by. o but Iām not and Iām kinda gettin claustrophobic af and kinda flipping
Babe is it about the guy
Who brought it up
fxckkknnnnn Iām kinda flipping babe fxckin itās like in here noo fxck
okay nope nope ima just chill in this corner in a ball and freak for a sec
someone I was txting that knew about it and like all the images like the first week after like every time I close my eyes fxckin there canāt get tf rid of it
Tell me more who brought it up y did they bring it up and babe calm down breath threw ur noise and out ur mouth
Iām legit fxckin shaking umfxckkkn noo
he said the name, I closed my eyes, he was there and I flipped like idek y Iām just fxck no
Babe in threw ur noise and out ur mouth ok? its goin to be ok just talk to me about it or some thin else
Ok well calm down babe like i said breath threw ur nose and out ur mouth god ik i spelt some thin wrong
idekkk Iām not even meaning to which scares me like kinda feels like ima look down and itās there and everywhere and in my head and holy fxck
Try to think about spring break and how much fun u had then or some other time just think about some thin good
u know I just kinda feel like ima bout to throw everything up
Y babe
good question just now I donāt rly feel good at all
u know Iām not getting sleep tonight
Kinda weird
I donāt like heās fxcking everywhere I look at the moment and I feel like ima just throw up in a sec
I can stay up wit u
Idk what to tell u babe
no u donāt have to itās fine
go to sleep if u want
I shouldnāt even b freaking out about this fxckin im sorry this was March I mean if Iām sensitive idek itās just kinda hitting me hard rn
Babe im stayin up wit u cause i love u and im here for u and ima goin to try to be a good bf for once and stay up and give u comfort
babe Iām fine okay I promise idek Iām bein weird tonight I donāt rly know y but I am itās okay babe
Babe it will be wit u no matter what it will wake u up at nights even tho u might be in a good drea,
itās just now when I close my eyes itās idek Iām so fxckin sensitive shĆÆt
Babe ima be here for u
Cuddlin cuddle a cat or ur blanket
I dunno I wanna sleep honestly but I canāt close my eyes
just gonna idek I have a fluffy pillow ima just put between me and the door cuz rn the door is freaking me tf out and I canāt put my back towards it
And if u cant do that thats sayin somethin ok babe just it ok
I rly wanna cuddle with u rn holy fxck idek y any of this is happening just one name
like literally one name was said to set me off idek
Yea babe ik it might not seem like alot but it is and yeess i would cuddle wit u rn
babe just go to bed okay u need to sleep and Iām keeping u up and in all honesty I need to try and sleep at least cuz idek I just donāt wanna keep u awake
baaaaaaaaaaabe noooo fxckk
ummmmm nope not normal fxck this okay this isnāt okay
yup ima die someone is gonna come and murder me ima die
Babe r u ok like whats happening now
ummmm was it raining
plz say itās raining
And babe ima stay up wit u as long as i can
is it fxckin rianig
raining*
ima die ima b murdered
Ok what about it
Nah babe u wont
is it raining do u hear rain
YEP Iām dying
murder is gonna come killme
No i dont hear rail
Rain*
yep Iām dying
I heard a scream then rain and I hear rain rn and then the scream again and I hear rain still then I heard somethin and it feels like someone is here like I hear someone hear and fxck ima die
fxck there was the scream again
Babe no one is at ur house ok its probs just owen or shortys cats
well the scream was no that was no thx I canāt tell wth it is I mean it could just b a horse or some shĆÆt but fxckin nah nope thatās not right
I heard like Idek how to explain it but it wasnāt a damƱ cat the kittens r in shorts room and they r asleep
Babe its ok no ones at ur house ur goin to live ur fine ok know i love u gorgeousā¤ļøā¤ļø
babe okay soo fxckin ru tired
no ima fxckin die but I love u too babe ā¤ļø
Then babe idk what there are
Nah im not tired babe and no ur not goin to die
babe u tired?
No babe im fine lol
yes I am... I mean I kinda want u to go get sleep okay I mean I might try here Iām kinda tired and would rathe rn asleep before my dad wakes up
I mean Iām curled up in a ball currently so I think ima b fine I mean if there is a murderer then ima fxcked but u know
True but ur goin to live babe ok and no one is at ur house so ur fine babe ok
well it feels like a mf is here
hey go to bed babe srsly okay? like u need sleep oml
Nah i dont need sleep im fine
u sure? I was gonna try and see if I can sleep I mean I doubt I can but idek tbh
ugh I srslt just wanna see u tho fxck this ugh
Same babe
Monday seems fxckin too far but at the same time I donāt want Monday to come at all
Yea babe ik
sorryyy Iām tryna idek
I should just sleep but idek
Babe its fine lol yee ur the one who should sleep tho baby
idek I should but fxckin I dunno I could try but Iām so paranoid rn I dunno if I could
Im sorry baby yee cuddlin would be perfect wouldnt it
maybe I should I just almost fell asleep a sec ago tho
yess it would b fxckin perfect rn
Yee so r u goin to bed??
I might need to tbh oml
I mean Iām either gon fall asleep while talking to u or Iām gon stay up then hear something again then flip
Like u said i should go to bed but i wanna make sure ur doin ok and fall asleep ok
babe Iām fine Iāll just go to bed I think Iām good rn I mean Iām calm now unless I hear anything else but so far everything is quiet again
just got to bed Iāll go to bed too
and my dad is awake so fxck
Well good luck good night love u gorgeousā¤ļøā¤ļø
Good morning*
okayy I love u too babe ā¤ļøā¤ļø ig ima miss u tomorrow idek if ur gon txt at any point oml but yea... k night tho babe ā¤ļø