I'M HERE

WHAT'S WRONG?

hi hi

WHO SHALL I FIGHT?

nothing. I think Chad fell asleep again and mom just yelled at me for a while so I just want someone to talk to is all. I actually had you in mind

aw really?

also what was your mom yelling about?

I need to know if I should fight her physically or verbally

yeah but it's okay. Chad just falls asleep sometimes. s'all

*s'all good

she was just saying I was a brat and disgusting and stuff like that

okay so physically

also she's the disgusting one

and I'll call her a brat but a better word would be cûnt

how are you feeling, though?

honestly or the answer I'll give anyway?

honestly

I feel disgusting

you aren't

what makes you think that?

I feel.....wrong

that's a better word for it

why do you feel that way tho, love?

partially because I'm born a girl but [usually] I feel like a guy. but also because I always seem to do things wrong. I always manage to screw things up. stuff that no one else would get wrong. and no one seems to care about what I actually can do rather than how they want to see me

that doesn't make you wrong

and those people are practically blind! and stupid !

nah they're right

what about the mangle who's a sweetheart? the mangle who believes in peace even after all the shît they've been through ?

nay they are dead wrong.

I know of a mangle who's the greatest friend in the world! The mangle who struggles to see the best in themselves, but somehow manages to see the best in a lot of people!

imagine yourself in the third person. would you be this harsh? or would you see the positives?

*shrug* I don't see why it's hard

I guess.. if I were someone else, I'd see the positives

it can be hard to see the sun when the clouds overshadow it

?? what does that mean?

it means you're focusing too hard on your negative qualities

oh.. I try to have good self esteem but it's so hard with everyone putting me down added on to my anxiety and all that...

never mind. I shouldn't make excuses. especially stupid ones like that

no

it's not stupid

people shouldn't bring you down

people should help build you up

I shouldn't use a disorder as an excuse. that's a new low

no no

you're not using it as an excuse

your anxiety effects how you think and view yourself and you have little control over it

note: I said little control. You can't control the fact that you have anxiety. But with the help of meds and support from friends, you can control it

you can lessen it

mangle?

I-I sorry! m-Mom started yelling and I had to go...

it's okay, you're okay, we're okay