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i just laughed for two minutes straight because i hit my head on my bed

haha hi wow I wanna die

haha I already slīt my leg and tried to last night

just a bit

or a lot

I’m not really sure

well I’m in a restaurant with my family so I can’t think about it too much without something looking off about me

yeah I feel pretty panicked, I’m gonna grab a crayon or something

oof never mind there aren’t crayons

there aren’t any. I have a knife, fork, spoon, napkin, and that’s about it. I’m wearing a hair tie and wristbands

holy cràp I just ordered that was scary

still working on getting a pen

my mother has nothing to write with

also my phone has 16% so once it dies I’m done bc I have no connection to you

okay and now it’s 14% yay I love the way the world hates me

lol no you made me smile

my food is here time to eat away my thoughts if I can manage to eat yay

I ate and now my phone has 10% thanks world

I got my phone on a charger

(Replying to Aryn's comment above) NO STOP YOU'RE A BEAUTIFUL BEAN AND YOU'RE AMAZING

I can’t really breathe but I’m home now so I can be alone soon

okay

I don’t know why I feel so panicked

agh I’m starting to feel tension in my head

yeah it’s dark

but we’re in fl (the basement of the US) with so many bugs and stuff at night and the mosquitoes are terrible so I would but I don’t want to get zica

my mom just pulled me away to get rid of blackheads on my face so now my face hurts as much as my emotions yay

and i don’t really know what to do

I get panic attacks and stuff a lot but I usually just let them be because I think I deserve it, but you’re saying otherwise so..

I feel like I’m losing the fight

I don’t know what to do

hOw