okay LISTEN i know all i’ve posted about recently is just James but i just wanted to make a public service announcement that he is actually the love of my life and guess what: we’ve been dating for two and a half months now and i haven’t told him i love him yet and i’ve been trying to find the right time to do it but something always happens and i can’t, bUT this is how i plan to: so we’re hanging out on Sunday before i go to work so we can give each other our Christmas presents since we’re both working after that, and i wrote a heartfelt note for him and i folded it into a paper crane so he has to unfold the crane to read the note. if y’all remember back before we started dating he made me a paper boat for no reason and i made him a paper crane and i wanted to write him a note on the inside about how i felt but i didn’t because i was too scared. and i hung his boat up above my mirror and he put my crane next to his bed and we didn’t even tell each other which was oddly funny and really really cool 🥺 and i’ve made him another crane since then for fun and he put that one next to the original. NOW: at the end of the note i wrote him it says “and...” so he’s going to look at me and say “and what?” and i’m going to pinky promise him while i do this bc he knows when i’m not okay and when no one is looking he’ll quietly come up to me and ask me to pinky promise him if i’m being genuine bc he’s such a sweetheart and aahhhh 🥺 so that’s become a really special thing to us, so I’m going to pinky promise him and kiss him and then tell him i love him and I’m SO EXCITED AAHHHH. i’ve known for a few weeks that i love him but i think i really realizes it and it solidified for me when we went to Steak ‘n Shake a few days ago because i just sat there and watched him talk with the biggest heart eyes and he encouraged me and told me he was proud of me every time i had to talk to our waiter bc going out to eat makes me extremely anxious and aahhhh. there were a lot of old couples in there and he said “that’s gonna be us one day”. like i know this is my first boyfriend and we’ve only been dating for a few months but y’all the amount of times we’ve already talked long term and about our future with each other is insane. like you can tell when you’ve found the one and i definitely have. ahhhhhh OH did i tell y’all that when we got our band pictures back in band class the other day we weren’t doing anything bc we didn’t have a midterm so we were sitting in the corner of the room by the uniform closet w my sister and James friend and two other friends and i got really really upset about my picture and this man moves from next to me and squats down in front of me and grabs my hands and looks directly at me with the sweetest face and quietly told me that i was wrong and that i was beautiful no matter what and he squeezed my hands and said “okay? i want you to tell me okay” and he waited until i did and he kissed me on the forehead and OWNDNELDLWNNWLFLFK HES SUCH A GENUINE SWEET GUY 😭😭 he really treats everyone so nice idk how i scored this guy wow. no joke i want to spend the rest of my life with him.

okay sorry that was a lot haha being in love is just super cool when it really means something :’)

Being in love is great. And I don’t think it matters if he’s your first boyfriend, the guy I’m in love with is my 2nd and his mom married the first guy she ever dated. Sorry, you probably don’t know me well but this post was really nice to hear especially since I’ve just gone through something similar. 🙂

Also, it’s funny how you’re giving him a paper crane because Ren (my boyfriend) gave me an origami owl when we first started off and gave me a paper bird when he gave me a promise ring. I thought it was cool 😂

“you’re amazing Gulbin” got me like 🥺🥺🥺

that is SUCH a precious idea I love it

hey tristin was my first real boyfriend too^^^ I had a young boyfriend but it wasn’t a real relationship honestly. when you know you know, like you said!

ahh I’m so happy for you!! he seems amazing and it’s so great that he treats you so good 💗💗

also yeah I was the same way with kissing. I don’t remember the first time we made out but I’m sure that I probably had to calm down and go with the moment. it’s hard but now I’m different and calm about it for the most part. it takes getting used to but go as slow as you need to!