No, you’re sacrificing something you really want for another’s feelings

jup ..?

I‘m so sorry. so fūcking sorry for everything

it‘s not, absolutely not

I‘m trying to be happy, I really am

hm I‘m back

what?

I don‘t want you to leave, jup. I totally know what you‘re talking about — same applies to me.

was someone pretending to be you ig, I clearly thought it was you but yeah I can be stupid sometimes and you know that ha

that truly wasn‘t you, was it?

talked and acted exactly like you and said she has cancer 🤷🏽‍♂️ I wouldn‘t be mad at you if it was your account

I trust you, I was just making sure — I didn‘t mean to call you a liar or something like that X so, other than being unable to use your phone, how have you been?

jup ... please

just listen to me, okay?

you came back after months, jupiter. the months without you were pretty tough, just ask nat and chelse. I was a mess, a complete mess and yes, I‘m definitely not allowed to blame you for anything but it‘s true. nat keeps protecting me and looking after me due to the fact that I wasn‘t myself after you left. of course it‘s not your fault that you left without saying goodbye — you had a dāmn good reason to do so and I support you in any way possible. what I want to say is that I waited for you for so long and yes, I met new people, yes, I developed feelings for other people — but you‘ll always be a part of me and I think that leaving me is quite unfair. I can‘t loose you, losing you again would tear me apart — trust me. I bet you read the 2829291 comments I wrote on your post about missing you and being desperate to have you here. Loosing you again is no option for me — I still love you in some kind of way and yeah, I have moved on and ari is now the one for me — but I don‘t want you to give up on me because that‘s simply unfair. we can still talk & I‘m still here for you — we‘ll see how things will work out. I‘ll give you some space but I‘m bagging you not to leave, otherwise I‘ll leave as well and I bet you don‘t want that regarding ari and everyone else on here. you‘re right jup — you owe me thousands of nights and everything. you owe me the fact that you‘re staying here with me and helping me cope with everything. please. X

nah I won‘t leave it because you‘re still hêlla important to me and I was worried for months.

I checked your account every day waiting for an answer, waiting for a hello

jupiter please.

part of me still loves you to death which makes this so dāmn hard and you know it, we both know it

you‘re making me choose between you both, is that right?

I can‘t loose you again.

Most of them weren‘t 'happy' messages, those messages showed my truest feelings and how I was suffering while you were gone. I knew that I won‘t be able to move on completely but I didn‘t expect you to come back so soon.

you leaving again would make me suffer even more, jup.

it‘s not, it was never your time to suffer.

if I wasn‘t in a relationship I would have been back in your arms within seconds and we both know that, even ari knows it which proves that I‘ve fūcked up big time

you‘re indeed funny. ari is breaking up with me for her own well-being and that‘s the right thing to do

jupiter — no. ari and I both know that a relationship won‘t work due to the fact that I‘m definitely not over you. I apologized for hurting her and she said that she can‘t be in a relationship with regard to my feelings for you

being in a relationship with her won‘t work out for both of us, trust me.

it‘s not your fault, not at all.

I‘m no longer in a relationship and that‘s 100% fine with me, don‘t blame yourself for anything because it was mine and ari‘s decision and our decision only.

don‘t give me space.

you don‘t have to be jealous anymore

I have to help little em with something — stay exactly where you are, I‘ll be back.

you‘re cute. so cute. I‘ll be here soon

I‘m back

'm good don‘t worry X

yeah

well look at me lmāo no friends anymore either but hey, at least you‘re back

I don‘t care about that and you shouldn‘t either

yeah yeah :)

lea will always hate me, jup — there‘s no need to stand up for me

yeah I definitely know that, I‘m proud of you

you can try, yeah

I‘m not sureee, maybe you could follow me? would be a great start lmāo

you‘re a little meanie X

nothing at all, I‘m trying to help you a little but we should just drop the whole topic. I should re do my bio

hm I won‘t make it obvious regarding mentioning you in my bio, I‘ll just make hints ;)

okay instead of play

hm X

nothing at all. have you been performing the past days?

Of course I am, I‘m talking to you and awe I‘m so proud of you X

there‘s no need to thank me, angel.

same here aha.

I‘m not too sure my love. I‘ll think about something, alright?

z?

that‘s absolutely fine X

if you understand this I‘ll kiss you till absolute madness.

still not that sure

tbh I‘m a little tired, went to a party yesterday — that‘s probably why my brain is not working

pretty close indeed eh

'mean dean'? never heard that nickname from you before aha cute

yeah probably, but I still want to talk to you

ah I like it, you‘re the only one on here calling me by my last name & it‘s something special

I always had a thing for little losers not gonna lie haha. I‘ll stay up a little while longer

it is indeed, yeah

you‘re here which means that I can be happy now, that‘s all I need

ugh I‘m not — stop lying

ecstatic? woah what a word

you‘re so good with words. I missed that big time, can‘t describe how much i‘m smiling cause you‘re back

Song writing? awe you should show me one tomorrow.

I‘m going to bed, little one. wishing you a good night, hope I can talk to you tomorrow X

morning X

ugh yeah I hate school, got 2 hours left.

I‘m here. pretty busy — but still

could be me lmāo

ugh it‘s not, you should stop saying stuff like that due to the fact that it‘s definitely not true at all 🤷🏽‍♂️

you are indeed, you better stop it

ugh you‘re a meanie.

yeah, I stupidly do. a fūcking lot

I‘m good, why shouldn’t I be? :)

nah I‘m definitely alright, as long as you‘re here. I‘m happy to have you back

hm why should I be there with you? anything special that has occurred that needs my presence? ;)

ugh are we really doing this?

nah I want to do this

missed you way too much

hm hm I don‘t know why I said that. I‘m pretty excited let’s just say that

you need to remix me

hm hm

am I?

ah I‘m glad