do you want to talk about it? I know for some people it just makes it worse but

yea it would be nice to talk

I'm here to listen

so for the past year, I've struggled with body positivity. I don't look like someone struggling with it because I'm 5'2 and weigh 115 and am pretty skinny. but my parents will make little jokes and eventually I just couldn't look at my body without loathing what Im was seeing. also being qüeer is hard in a very religious family. I have 3 brothers who are 11,8 and 2 and,being young, they've been taught what my parents and church teaches them, that marriage is only between a man and a woman and no one of the same sêx should me married. and so they don't understand and make gay jokes. which hurts me

they also CONSTANTLY tell me they hate me/joke about suicide not boing a) I'm suicidal and b) our 2nd cousin killed herself. I struggle in school due to severe social anxiety so I'm failing some of my classes because I have anxiety attacks 5 times a day and I can't work when I'm having one and it doesn't help some of my teachers ask why I'm even in preAP and it just sounds like they're saying "your stupid" and that helps with crippling self esteem. I get ignored by most of my friends so that doesn't help me feel loved

*knowing

& my parents yell at me every time I do something wrong

my life is bullšhít

oh I'm sorry. I know how you feel, I got kicked out of my house for a year when I came out to my parents but they eventually had to take me back and they hate me now. Even though they and your brothers say that just remember you have people that do support and care about you a lot. As for the body thing, I hate how I look too. I don't hate it as much now because I started wearing things that made me feel better about myself and changing my hair and whatnot so that could help you

Maybe try talking to the principal or to the teachers one on one and explain to them that what they are saying hurts you? Most of my "friends" left me when I was going through bad depression because they thought I was only doing it for attention. I only had one friend that stuck around and they've helped me through a lot. Ik this is cliché but if they ignore you then they are not your true friend. Find people you can trust and stick with them even if it's just one person. It will help tremendously.

and that's just how some parents cope with things. for instance mine either do that or hit me or something but maybe try talking to them about it? You never know they may listen to you so it's better to try than not and never know.

thanks I feel better now

no problem friend I'm always here for ya :)