you're pushing me away now:( don't say that. you're an amazing person kai and i love when i talk to you.

i think im a horrible person. i don't deserve either one of you. i need to tell lorenzo.

you're not gonna hurt me

i do.

i don't deserve either one of y'all. and it's not fair if i drag him along on a string, and me not even know, so im just not gonna have any.

davina loves you. and yeah im awful for doing this

i told enzo. read it on his acc because it also goes to you. i don't derve either one of you so i think maybe i should just take some time off pc and leave to figure out my feelings

i don't want to hurt anybody

im so sorry

i feel horrible. i just strung him along. and he's already going through so much, he doesn't deserve this. i hurt him. im gonna end up hurting you. you mean so much to me as well books. im so lost right now

it's all my fault

-shakes and cries softly burying my head on your shoulder- i..i hurt him, i shouldn't have even gotten involved with him. he doesn't deserve t...this kai. y...you don't either -pulls away and sits down curling my knees to my chest crying- y..you could be next

-continues crying, and when you grab my chin i look at you sniffling and wipes my eyes softly- im none of those things, i just hurt him. he doesn't deserve this -turns my head away shaking it, as i rock back and forth- y..you should go, y..you don't wanna see me like this

-shakes my head shakes softly biting down on my lip- there's nothing you can do, or anyone really. i just have to get through this -wipes my eyes and breathes heavily as i stare in front of me-

-leans against you and picks with my bottom lip, whimpering as sniffle slightly- w..why are you still here, you've seen how disgusting and horrible i am. i cant even choose a guy.

yeah, it really does. i feel like i just lost my closest friend on here, i promised i would be there for him while he was going through everything with his mom. and then i just dumped this on him. i have horrible timing -faintly laughs and wipes my face again-

yeah -takes the tissue wiping my face as i sit up, breathing deeply-