because I've been wearing this happy masquerade for so long and I can't take it anymore. I'm not happy... I didn't want anyone to be concerned over me... I just want everyone to be happy and laugh and... well... I guess that's impossible. I don't care if I'm hurting as long as others are happy. it's just that, I've been in pain for so long and I can't deal with it anymore...

Cherry please stop.... I didn't want to go on private cuz I knew this would happen. we love you Cherry and u didn't break anything. it's just I have problems and I've been keeping them in for so long and it really hurts. I just didn't want anyone to know cuz that would make them sad and concerned and.... I just don't even know anymore...

please don't leave Cherry...

don't be sorry for me

you're not a pain. don't think so lowly about yourself

STOP IT!!! STOP IT CHERRY U DIDNT LOOSE ANYONE JUST STOP!

please... I just want everyone including u to just be happy and laugh and smile....

CHERRY ;-; please don't

you too Cujo please

GUYS PLEASE

PLEAS STOP

JUST FORGET ABOUT EVERYTHING AND LETS GO BACK TO GOW THINGS WERE

PLEASE GET OFF OF PRIVATE

AND JUST FORGET ABOUT EVERTHING THAT HAS HAPPENED TODAY

PLEASE GUYS

MY LAST WISH

THIS IS TEARING ME APART PLEASE STOP IM SCARED

ugh were all just tired of this... I'll be back later I guess....

NO KYOU PLEASE

STOP GIVING UP ON HOPE YOU DUMBÀSSES

YES I KNOW ITS HARD

I KNOW I HAVE NO POWER TO TELL YOU WHAT TO DO

BUT PLEASE JUST HOLD ON

THERES HOPE

BUT IF PEOPLE KEEP LEAVING THAN WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO THINK ANYMORE!?

THIS ISNT THE WAY

JUST COME BACK AND FORGET ABOUT EVERYTHING

I'm sorry this is just too much. I'll probably be back tomorrow. I have 2 friends, I have almost no contact with both now. this just pīsses me off and I'm tired and depressed

WE CAN START OVER IF NEEDED

AND STOP SAYING YOU CANT

BECAUSE YOU CAN

IF YOU "CAN NOT" THAN YOU WOULDVE NEVER BEEN HERE OK?

SINCE YOURE ALREADY THIS FAR WHY QUIT NOW

THIS IS ALL JUST OVERWHELMING PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD JUST COME BACK BEFORE I LOSE IT ALL

can we just give this all a rest. just wait until tomorrow. and Cujo, if you see this, plz check UL

NO I CANT GIVE IT A REST

ALL OF MY FRIENDS ARE LEAVING IM NOT GONNA JUST SIT HERE AND WAIT

SOMETHING HAS TO GET THEM BACK

do you have any other way of contact with them

No

shīt. I only have minor contact with Cujo and that doesn't have notifications and shīt

OMG Im freaking out

why did this have to happen??

idk I'm trying to talk to her but she's not on UL so

I sent you a friend request

*i know what guild you're in I know it sounds creepy but ... whatever*

Whimsy download Unison League if you can and just quickly go through the tutorial

Ok

That's my only way of contact with Cujo. idk what to do about Cherry...

who has insta? *sighs bc I dont*

Dàmn. 0% Chill.

Im sorry Im just freaking out atm Peri

there's nothing we can do....

No there HAS to be something

I'm done

Kyou please dont

Ok Im sick of this shít now

Going on private will not fix ANYTHING

It just makes your friends worried and to others it looks like you want attention

Im sorry but Ive helped enough already

You can help yourself if you're not gonna listen to anyone

Im not trying to be rude, but I just wanna live a happy life, see ya later

Damñ mate :0 I rlly hope she feels better and gets off private <3

^me too

I'm just confuzzled @-@ I leave for a day on a pool party sleepover with my best friend for a few hours and this is what happens

I hope so ;^; Im really dâmn sad now

I'm usually super super optimistic about stuff

but all this makes me feel down 😢

ok 😌 I'll try to stay positive... for everyone's sake.

when did this all begin?? I was off for a while and came back an I'm just lost 0_o

tru. I don't want to get too involved, but I want to make them feel better

thx <3

I hate this... ugh I just wanna die rn

Why Kyou?

because of this. I miss Cujo. and I feel lost and depressed. and I always do.

I know Kyou, its hard. But just leave it for now, Cuj will be back soon

And dont let it affect you, this is their/my problem, not yours

yep ^^ but I'm at a sleepover and we're about to have dessert so slow response

I wish that you weren't dragged into this. I hate seeing you like this

I'm back (temporarily)

did someone ask why this happened? Hm. Well your "why this happened" is standing right here.

im bítching please dont take me seriosly

*ceriously

Sakura please dont blame yourself, if you need to, you can vent here

if i didn't have pride, we all know I could've fixed this but I chose not to?? I mean?? Really Sakura??? You're a bítch online too?? Jesus

i mean i really coulda fixed everything but I hate apologizing so??? Now we're all fùcked?? Thanks Sakura??

And the only reason I haven't gone on private?? Is because of Ceri?? And the only reason I haven't deleted my account is because of him?? What ya doin ya selfish príck Sakura??

thats the thing whimz i should apologize, shouldn't I? I should, but I'm too angry at everyone and everything to do so because?? I'm a cûnt?? Who has no more frens??? But isn't this dèja vù?? Didn't this already happen irl?? Because you were a díck-less díck??

Sakura, you still have friends, and you are not a cûnt, all you did was state your opinion, Thats a good thing

and I made it worse??? because now I'm giving people shít??? Because I'm angry and lonely?? And I can't even fix anything?? And now I'm crying even though I'm the one being a bítch to everyone? wyd sakura??? you idiot baby drama queen?? and everyone's like i love you sakura you're great dont beat yourself up?? but really??? deep inside they know that they hate me?? because i hate me??? and now whimsy and everyones gonna argue that im actually the best?? and they actually love me?? but it's really one huge façade??? to make you shut up??

Sakura. Tell me honestly Whats making you think these thoughts!?

everything. I know I have a bítchy personality that i hide with smiles and overly loud laughter and i just hate it but i cant change and i thought PC would be a fresh start, a clean slate, but it really wasn't. It really really wasn't.

Sakura, you CAN change. You have control over who you are. And Im sorry about PC not being the fresh start you desired

im not going to fake being someone I'm not. I'm sorry, but I'm not.

and Thats ok! You can be whoever you want

well apparently everyone wants a version of me that I!!! Can't!!! Provide!!! Right!!! Now!!

Well then thats their fault.

They should be able to accept you for who you are after all

whimsy ohmygod

i think i lost cece

i knew it

i've spent an hour crying and i found a solution- I think you just all need to stop talking to me and take a step back and make the fren group without me

you'll all be happier, i swear

Sakura please dont say that

I know I wont be happier

and she was trying to help but her words grated on me and i exploded and wt fùck sakura what even and i'm so sorry but cece would never accept my apology im sucha cùnt

no stop seriously you guys need to stop associating with me

something's rlly wrong with me and i take my anger out on everyone and i was thinking such dark thoughts... I've never cried this much in my life

Ok I'll let you be for just this one night but Thats all Im willing to do

and then i actually thought about killing myself and ive never been this upset in my life and i thought i was getting happier at tennis and then i got back on PC and ruined everything and anything anyone said made me angry and ohmygod i cant

goodnight

i wont be happy but you all sure as hełł will

Goodnight Saku, I hope you feel better in the morning

I doubt I would be happy

Cuj wouldn't be happy

Cherry DEFINITELY wouldn't be happy

Ceri would probably delete his account

Lorena would be devastated

And CeCe would probably feel a bit guilty

Al would go crazy

Anyway, Im not leaving you. Goodnight

EVERYONE STOP!!! FOR FÜCKS SAKE IT WASNT ANYONES FAULT!!! NO ONE DID ANYTHING!!! STOP IT JUST EVERYONE STOP!!!

What have I done....

First of all, the 'squad' would be absolutely fine without me. I mean, I really didn't contribute in the slightest, I was just there because I gave nice words to everyone. If I took those nice words away, what would be left? Nothing. Nothing. You guys wouldn't need me anymore. You. Don't. Need. Me. So. I. Will. Just. Leave. Before. I. Hurt. Anyone. Else. And don't tell me I didn't hurt Cece because sure as hełł did. And Cujo? This has nothing to do with the blame. I KNOW I did this, and I'm fixing it by retreating.

no please don't leave. we don't need nice words we just need u to be yourself... u didn't do anything wrong

Sakura leaving just hurts us even more

Whimsy... What have I done... i hurt so many people... I'm a monster