IM BACKKKK (this is a lot so just skip to the end bc I’m anxious) So my Gma is a lot better and a whole CHASM or drama has happened with my frens where I got blackout drunk and spilled that none of them believed Jess’s r🅰️pe. Her and her hubs Johnsen were gonna cut ties with Tristin and our other couple friends but the couple spoke and worked it out whereas Tristin has not attempted. I told him he needs to try to and he needs to stop blaming me because the truth would’ve come out either way and how he talked to them personally about it would dictate how things happened. Don’t get me wrong I felt so guilty that I overdosed and got myself consistently sick for three days and hes only now starting to forgive me once I made him understand how ridiculous he’s being. They said I was sobbing and panicking that night because I felt like I couldn’t hold it in any longer and that those people and my hubs were backstabbing (I can’t even TELL YOU what they thought because it was so horrific) and I was panicking every moment thinking Tristin was going to come in the door and hurt me. So. Yeah that happened. Jess and Johnsen are leaving in 10 days 🥺🥺 but thankfully I’ve made closer friends with that couple throughout this terrible time and I have Keke. She’s not in any of these because she was sick at the Halloween party and then in the second one she doesn’t know the house owner so 😔 I wanted to photoshop her into the bøøty photo haha. Also Tristin called me fat and sparked my bulimia even though I’m already restricting. He’s since talked and apologized so I’m trying to not puke. If I eat spicy foods I don’t want to cos it hurts. I’ve got a new psych and am trying a new med which I thought was making me have symptoms close to a UTI but I tested negative. And now (plug your ears kids) I’m bleeding three consistent times in the past week from s🅱️xy times. So I’m scared. And I’ve been having a low grade fever still. Jess gave me pregnancy strips so I tested last night and in the morning and nothing. It also might be too early to tell. I’ll know in about three to four days if my period doesn’t start. I’m going to consult the family health on base today and get referrals for a gynecologist and urologist. I do not wanna be pregnant so the strips were reassuring but that’s not a guarantee. I told Tristin I will kill myself if I’m pregnant. I don’t want a baby.

baby

other than not being ready, I’ve been drinking once every week and I take meds that can be bad for pregnancy. if I am the most likely problem was my bipolar med raised my metabolism so much that the birth control pill didn’t work. but hopefully this all has a simple solution and it’s not a dreaded baby Karen

okay so my period might be starting early yeeeeeeeeeet

jk it’s probably spotting

omg that would’ve been so cool if we both went to Kennesaw 🤭🤭 i’m reallyyyyyyy going for Georgia southern tho oh my goodness 🤞 and oh geez i reallyyyyyyyy really hope you’re not pregnant, i’m sending positive vibes and thinking of you 💕💕

wow u must hav lot of bff’s u must be a happy women!😉