so my first day was awful. i got there and one of the closing managers just threw me a vest and an ear piece and an rf scanner whatever that is that she never showed me how to use so i had to figure it out and she was kind of blunt with me but i was with the sweetest girl on one of the registers who is super goth but is an angel and was so kind to me. so i watched her for a while and she let me do one of the customers on my own and i got a little flustered bc i forgot what to do but then i did a few more and i was okay. but then the girl that was helping me had to go do something so she left me alone and i asked the customer for her phone number for the rewards program and it didn’t work so i was going to do another phone number but i couldn’t remember how to get back to that button on the screen so i had to stand there and wait until she came back but i felt awful but the customer was so sweet to me and told me not to cry which made me more upset. so the girl finally came back and took over so i was just standing next to her bawling my eyes out as she checked out all these customers and everyone in line was staring at me crying. the rude closing manager was a few registers down and came on the ear piece and asked the girl if i was ready to go on my own yet bc we were swamped and didn’t have enough people on registers and she said no and i saw her across the way make an annoyed face and it made me cry even harder. then later she came on the ear piece and asked if i was good to go on my own and i was sniffling while responding “no i’m not comfortable yet”. then a little later one of the other closing managers who is super sweet pulled me aside into the craft classroom with the ruder one and they asked if I was okay and the rude one softened a little when she saw how upset I was and I just bawled my eyes out to them and kept apologizing. after I felt a little better I went back out and stayed watching that one girl on register but then she went on break and a girl I go to school with came in so I stayed with her and it felt good to have someone I knew. then there weren’t really any customers so we walked around and returned items from up front back on the shelves and tidied things and i talked with the goth girl the whole time and followed her and it made me feel better. but now i don’t know what to do tomorrow because i’m obviously still not comfortable to go on my own and honestly they shouldn’t have even left me alone today. but like i guess i’ll go to the break room and sign in on the sheet bc i can’t digitally clock in yet and i’ll get my vest and ear piece and scanner but then what?? they’ll all be at register and i don’t wanna just go up there and say i’m not comfortable going on my own yet bc i don’t wanna pí šś the rude closing manager off if she’s there. also i don’t even know how to turn the register on i don’t even have a log in yet?? i literally can’t even go online and set up my hours or direct deposit bc i don’t have that.

since i go in at seven tomorrow hopefully there’ll be someone in the break room that i can explain that i don’t wanna be on my own to

god I am so sorry about this. my work has been super hard thus far but they have been pretty good with training me, I can’t imagine the stress they put you under. I hope it continues to get better