I have cancer too Julian that's what I wanted to talk to you about but we never talk anymore I'm a bad girlfriend I get mad over little things it's just people ask me if I have anyone to be there and I don't know what to say because I really don't have anybody but you and your not on when I need you the most I love you so much Julian I really do and I'm sorry for everything I did wrong and I'm sorry I never understood why you weren't on but now I do