The best thing to do is pray and take time to contemplate so that God may give you guidance and understanding. I have basically zero understanding of self questioning concerning gender and sexuality, so I am probably not the best person to give advice, but talking with God will surely help you, although you probably know this already, just anyways. I'll be praying for you as well, and I wish you the best for the future in finding yourself. XX

thanks so much for this advice <3