omgggg sherlockkk 💙💙🔍🔍

yeah. tbh, I'm not sure i am. it felt safe there, people's jobs were to make sure I was alive and eating. I was asked how I felt 5 times a day. now I barely get asked that once a week. it's hard, balancing school and mental illness. but then there's a side of me saying that I'm just being lazy, that mental illness is no excuse to not partake in responsibilities. it's hard. and let me know when you are on, and I'll tell you more, but my hospital wasn't for súicidal people. that was part of it of course, but it was really focused on a different specific mental illness in the spectrum. I just don't want to publicly state it here, you know? but these illness take months of hospitalizing, and while 1 month is the average time, I was a bit of a harder case.

and I know what you mean about that girl, I relate. one of the main reasons I was put in treatment was bc my dad tried to make me eat and I didn't want to, so I tackled him to the ground. it was rough.

and don't worry about the questions, I'm absolutely fine with answering. people like us gotta stick together. and yeah, I am feeling better. that might be just bc its break and I'm off from school, idk. sometimes I wish I didn't feel better. look up the video titled "happiness" by the youtuber Social Repose. he explains it perfectly. happiness just seems temporary, and while it may feel good in the moment, sadness and struggle leave a lasting impact and strength that happiness just doesn't. it means a lot that you care about me and my story, thank you for that. you've always been a little bit of my idol on here, your creations are beautiful and you yourself are filled with a kind of depth and strength that I could never even hope to have.