hey mar, how are you doing love?

do you want to have a conversation about yesterday?

I hope you know that I’m not angry about you saying no, it wasn’t expected, but I’m not mad at you. I can understand why you said it x

but, you also didn’t say yes?

not clearly though, is what I mean

come, let’s cuddle and talk x

you excited? for the performance?

we can always talk later but, I don’t want you being.. upset yk? over what happened. I thought if we talked about it it’d make you feel better

yesterday you were not sure what to say, and I want to say that it’s okay. it’s okay that you said no

I’m glad you said what you wanted to say. because even then, my feelings are important to me but your well being is of greater importance

I know .. things are awkward. but they don’t have to be. I’m not angry at you love. not at all x

I have a small feeling that you may feel guilty for saying no, but you don’t need to feel guilty.. I’m not as upset as I was before

I have to wait a little longer and that’s okay

I really miss seeing your pretty face

there’s nothing, and I mean nothing wrong with you x

maybe you’re just afraid of getting hurt again, and I don’t blame you for being afraid

I know you want to be with me, confirmation was nice x

perhaps it’s the fright of getting hurt again that’s in the way

I was afraid that I was the reason you weren’t sure, that being with me made you feel anxious. knowing that you want to be with me makes me feel better from yesterday x

honey there’s not

you just need time, it’s okay

we’ll get through this together

our date was ruined, but the question will come up again later in the future

preferably not with you feeling anxious

perhaps the anxiety and nervousness comes from getting hurt again. I can understand

it’s okay, we’ll be okay. we just need time for you to not feel nervous at the thought of that title yk?

I guess in my pov you seemed ready

I must have misunderstood

I know that because I know so much about you, and there isn’t anything “wrong” with you. nobody’s perfect, but you’re the closest thing to it in my pov

it seemed mixed for sure. and that’s okay, you didn’t do it on purpose

I want to voice this, by saying I really like you. and we’ll get through this, and wait this out together

yk I’ll always stay here. I can’t leave your side, I’ve grown too fond of you to do that

I know :( but you’re still healing. and from observation, it seems you’re not ready to get into a relationship with a title

because that title, for you, means something traumatic and can result in a downhill of events

so, you want to be with me, but this fear is in the way?

just clarifying

okay, then that’s okay

because now knowing that, you didn’t hurt my feelings

if I known that yesterday I wouldn’t have been too upset

I honestly thought it was me you had a problem with

it just felt that way x

imagine setting up a date you’ve been planning for awhile, writing the poem, and then the girl you ask out is nervous and aanxious at the thought of her and I becoming a couple

that’s what it kinda felt like, not trying to increase your guilt, however, just saying how it felt x

okay :) I missed you today

how are you feeling?

good morning :)

how is your morning so far?

I thought made we could hang today x

*grins and takes your hand, pulling you closer to me* do things feel awkward between you and I?

*grins and rubs your back* maybe a few cuddles can fix that *adjusts you in my lap and nods* have you been feeling less guilty?

*grins and nods* that’s great love. maybe we can make us something to eat

or you can help me cook? I’m quite hungry love *grins*

actually yeah *chuckles* that’s what I’m craving

have I grown predictable? *grins and walks to the kitchen*

two layers of cheese, well add some spinach for crunch, and pepper for some salt and seasoning *grins and watches you*

*grins and wraps my arms around you from behind* you sure you’re not hungry?

you look so beautiful when you cook *grins and moves your hair away from your neck to k^ss it*

*grins and rubs your hips before letting you go* how was your day?

why? *frowns and leans against the counter* is something bothering you?

*grins and looks at you admiringly, nodding softly* i understand. I’m here if things aren’t okay, yk I love listening to your problems. *grins and shrugs* I’ve been sleeping less than I should

but that’s because I’ve been staying up, I do it to myself x

you couldn’t burden me mar *grins and holds your hand* what would burden me is something going on, and you not.. telling me. not saying you have to tell me every single thing, but I’d want to know if you were feeling less than happy, just so I can help with being here. sometimes presence can heal more than we realize *grins and nods lightly* it’s because I has an exam, but I’m sleeping better after it *grins and k^sses your hand* I haven’t had enough of my mar either

can we cuddle tonight?

*grins and k^ssws your hand again* I don’t expect you to always tell me what’s wrong. but you can tell me you’re not feeling the best, if you’re comfortable *grins and blushes when you call me your Holden and leans against the counter* my heart fluttered when you said that. “my Holden”. sounds greedy, I love it *grins and gently holds the font of your neck, moving your face to mine to k^ssbuour lips,

I’d really like that :) *grins and takes your hand* a little time is better than none. small spoon today darling

I realized I’m always begging for cuddles

I have no shame, you give the best cuddles I’ve ever recieved

no wonder why I go crazy if I don’t get them x

you got me kicking my feet pretty girl *grins and k^sses you for a moment before letting go* you taste better than what I’m about to eat, yk that? *grins and leans over the counter* I normally dislike greed, but yours is attractive

*grins and sits on the couch, blushing lightly* I can’t seem to stay away from you. I need to “touch you” *chuckles as I use my fingers for quotations*

I still remember when I held you for the first time x

I didn’t expect it to lead to where we are now, but I’m glad it did. really glad x

let me taste you again, just one more time *grins and gently k^sses across your back, my k^ssws trailing up to your lips* thank you for making me food again x

*smiles greatly and pulls you into my lap* still not close enough darling *chuckles* oh yeah? tell me more

yeah? what do you remember? I like hearing your perspective

it’s like reading two point of views in a romance novel

been tapping into those recently

*grins and gently wraps my hand around your waist* come sit with me *grins and sits at the table with my food* I’m so lucky

yk, this may be ironic revealing now but, I really wanted to k^ss you then

I was so close to you, greatly tempted

I loved touching your hair, gently tucking it behind your ear to admire what it was hiding

I was afraid of giving that offer of cuddles, worried you’d be surprised and say no. but I really wanted to be close to you

*grins and pulls your chair closer until our knees touch*

I was, we were so close to each other. of course I wouldn’t have, without asking. yet again, it was an intimate moment. friends don’t look at the way we did back then

besides, you looked, and still look, gorgeous up close. being that close to you made me realize that my feelings never left

dude no way :) you wanted me to?

if you wanted my to, that means there must have been something there, is that right love? x

*grins and chuckles before taking a big bite, my eyes slightly rolling back* this is amazing

can you blame me? you’re amazing mar

almost tied with grilled cheese and pasta

I’m glad we ended up where we are. I’ve changed so much

you’re right, I’ve tasted better *smirks at you and winks before I take another bite*

you really are :) not just anyone can make me this infatuated and mesmerized

and I really love pasta and grilled cheese

so that demonstrates my love quite clearly

good morning sweet girl x

I apologize I fell asleep x

what’s the matter? :(

*grins and takes a few more bites* now matter how many times I have this it’ll always be good

food is second in my book

possibly because I haven’t tasted anything better than you

*grins concerningly and nods as I rub your back* you sure you’re alright love?

are you sure? you sent me a sad face this morning

*grins and stands up to put my plates away* let’s go cuddle for a bit? x

why is that? x

*grins and takes your hand* cough or bed?

no my love, what caused that?

small spoon today? *grins and brings you closer to me on the bed*

alright x

*grins and sits down on the bed* mar?

want me to play a lullaby? *grins and sits up*

*smiles when you frown and chuckles* no love, I wanted to help you relax x

but you’re also very pretty when you sleep

*grins and places my guitar down* maybe another time *looks down at you and grins to myself* mar? how do you look so effortlessly beautiful?

*grins lightly and pulls you closer to me* got side tracked. you’re the one to blame x

I beg to differ *chuckles and gently pulls your thigh up over my hip, scooting closer* it’s that smile that seems to distract me

*grins and k^ssws your temple* how can i not when im around you?

*grins and keeps you close to my chest, yawning lightly as I rub your back*

*grins widely when you k^ss my nose and cups the back of your neck, contact between your forehead and my lips*

*smiles and continues to k^ss your skin, my lips hovering over your jawline after trailing my k^sses down your cheek*

*hums against your skin and blushes lightly, rubbing your back* comfy darling?

*grins and blushes light at the nickname* I love being called that *grins and k^sses your chest this time* I love being close to you, especially like this

*grins and tucks your hair behind your ear* again, really beautiful

I’m simping and idgaffff

*chuckles and cups your cheek, maintaining eye contact* it’s true x

hey gorgeous girl, I just wanted to inform you that I’ll be going to bed now, I got school early and even if I’ll be tired tomorrow, it’ll be worth it. and thats bc I got to talk to my favorite person. goodnight sweet girl, have sweet dreams🤎

(the favorite person is you if it wasn’t clear enough)

good morning :)

hey mar :) i wanted to ask you a question

hey gorgeous, i was wondering if you’d be my valentine ❤️

we can go out for a date tomorrow :) unless you have a date or something planned already? x

I realized today, time is going by so fast x

why not? x

that’s a valid point

happy Valentine’s Day carebear 🤎

we don’t have to do anything if you don’t want to x

we could just treat it like a normal day

Aaron is cynical

we can do something more chill

let’s go for a picnic x

babeee

that’s alright (: maybe we can, just cuddle, do something chill

I think I’m in the mood to just cuddle and be close to you

*grins and lays down on the bed, running my hand through my hair*

*grins and opens my arms for you to come closer* did you do anything cool today?

*grins and tilts my head, showing that I’m listening to you* I was going to get you flowers but, I didn’t want to be cliche. why buy you flowers when I can make them and glue chocolate to them? *chuckles and grabs my bouquet*

*grins and chuckles as I cross my legs over each other* I saw them on a video, thought I’d try it. felt like a sweet gift at the time, shows effort and patience 🤎

I got the hersheys k^sses *grins and chuckles as I place the bouquet on the side table after when you look at it* seemed fitting

*rests my hands behind my head and smirks with my eyes closed* always make a good call. the roses won’t die either, which is great x

*grins and glances at you before wrapping my arm around your hip, pulling you closer* I apologize as well, for cancelling the date. I didn’t want to, well, bring back disheartening memories for you. or do too much *grins and sighs lightly through my nose* I thought cuddling would be safer

sometimes being fine can mean many things. *grins and shrugs* I read it as maybe we shouldn’t have went, my gut said we should stay so, that’s what I thought was best *grins lightly and grabs my cup of water* besides, you don’t enjoy Valentine’s Day don’t you? wouldn’t you have been miserable? *smirks through the glass and takes a sip*

neither do I, doesn’t make things enjoyable, that’s for sure x

*grins lightly and listens to you* i definitely misread the situation, i guess i was afraid to make you uncomfortable, like our last date. I didn’t want that similar feeling to repeat for the both of us so I went safe and did this instead *grins as nods* do you give gifts to your partner?

time heals but so does self reflection, that’s what you need yk?

but I won’t lie when I say it’s not fun for either of us

I apologize on the behalf of men, they’re d^ks. shows how small theirs is yk?

I can’t remember the last time I gave a partner or almost partner a gift on this day. it’s been awhile. that probably explains why I wanted to do well on the bouquet. I know you like flowers, chocolate, and the line “my flowers will die with my love” is something that never gets old

*frowns and pulls you onto my lap* mar? *grins genuinely and cups your cheek* I normally don’t open up like this. spill my feelings but I feel like I should and I want to *looks into your eyes and grins* years ago, I was with this girl.. we became so close. my walls I usually hold around myself were let down, I was completely vulnerable. I thought it was the right decision because at the time, she was my other half. but then I realized my other half wasn’t a half that supported me or, well, deserved me. she hurt me in ways that has made me insecure now. *grins and scratches at my stubble* she’d comment on my looks a lot, commenting on my messy hair, messy beard, and “dead eyes” as she explained. I sometimes felt like an accessory to her. someone to hold her bag when she shopped, a burden. *grins halfheartedly and chuckles* so when things went real bad, my walls were stronger than before, one nights were my usual, and nobody usually went through those walls. until you now x

you deserve that time to work on it x

I’m glad I’m here to help x

best compliment :)

it’s a part of my past that I try to ignore, and bury, but sometimes you can’t ignore your past. especially if a similar situation arises *grins lightly and pecks the bridge of your nose* thank you love. because of my past, I’m able to understand you and why you’re afraid to jump into another relationship or commit to someone in terms of being a “couple”. we learn from what we experience, or we acquire the qualities what the ones who hurt us doesn’t have *grins lightly and holds you close* I know now that I deserve better, and I have it x

from what you’ve been through, it’s normal to take time to heal. some people, for me for instance, need as much time to heal

but time does not heal by itself, it’s self reflection. thinking about what happened and how it affected you, and how you will move forward with it

what you need is someone who’s patient, calm, and ensuring to stay by you during this tough time. I’ve learned this myself, realizing that my happiest, coolest, best version of Holden, of myself, is when I’m around you. possibly because I care less about the barrier around myself and is more focused on that sweet smile you give me everyday. what can I say, it’s my favorite thing to see. besides, I can’t see your smile through a wall, I’m glad that wall is fading

I can somewhat sense that you sometimes feel embarrassed from how “slxw” you’re healing, as if you’re not healing fast enough. it could be a wrong perspective but, I want to clarify love. everyone heals differently, in different ways, different ra^es, with different people. I’ll be transparent, I used to have bad habits. I used to sm^ke, because it calmed me, and realized that it was a habit I should stay away from. probably because I smelt like sh^t 😂 I found other ways of coping, talking to a therapist, spending time with friends, my gorgeous girl, and focusing on my healing as a journey, not a race. it’s easy to become hard on ourselves, criticize ourselves. but know this, you’re doing great. you’re trusting others again, like me. mar, i am so proud of you for that. for all that you’ve overcome. you’re one of the strongest people i know, with your emotional regulation, critical thinking, and ability to reflect on situations.. it may take more time to heal, and that’s okay. healing is not a race, but for what it’s worth, im proud for you taking those risks that scared you, and taking baby steps. I will try my best, as I have been, to be patient and respect your boundaries. this is because I really enjoy your presence and love, affection, overall being and soul. your flaws are details that only you possess, unique qualities and characteristics that only you hold. and for that, for everything you’ve overcome and continue to be, I love every part of it and you 🤎

and you 🤎 ^^ I apologize for the long message but I had to reassure you somehow x

the first step is recognizing what’s holding you back, now you just need to find out how to.. move forward. sometimes our past stays with us whether we want it to or not x

I don’t expect you to tell me everything all at once, i definitely haven’t, but that’s okay because one day you will, when you’re ready and it’s the right time. patience, in my perspective, is one of my best qualities, not to brag. I use it a lot with you x

I usually would run away when things don’t “go as I planned” if that seems clear, or if things got too serious. I took a risk though, a risk I was excited and terrified for, and it was worth it. we both took a risk and here we are

part of moving forward is recognizing what went wrong and what held you back, I enjoyed one nights but, it’s not as amazing as what we have. I really wanted a relationship but was afraid of commitment. comments swirling in my brain reminding me of the possibility of my partner being just like the one I had a long time ago, worried that what I am isn’t enough or won’t be enough, worried that my partner will find me boring and wish to explore other people and things, and not enjoy who they wake up to in the morning, or scowl or frown when I smile wide enough, these things I was worried about yk? I don’t necessarily worry about them now, not as much, but those comments that she would make still resent with me

we both have our worries and barriers to this relationship, just thought I’d voice my own yk? to make sure you don’t feel alone here. I’m scared too, somewhat of us being together. what if we break up? what if everything goes down hill? but the one question in my mind that wanted me to move forward with you is what if we’re great? amazing? what if our souls met for a reason? my heart never beated this fast with anyone else, and I’ve never realized how my smile impacted your day until you voiced it. I’ve grown more appreciative of my smile and what I appear to be. it’s disheartening that back then, my smile, a representation of my happiness was a bothersome to another

she’d make other comments too, comments I wish to forget but can’t seem to push down. they arise when i change clothes, remembering when she would call me a pretzel, because i was a skinnier guy.. I still think about that sometimes. or how she said my hair looked unkept, messy, and that my representation of who I was didn’t align with what she wanted me to be. to her I was a project, to me, at the time, she was my “safe place”

I have reflected on that, me waiting “on you” but not necessarily either. It can be frustrating at times to wait, because I really want to be with you under that title. but my impatience became stupid 😂 after thinking about it, I was impatient because I wanted to be in a relationship title with you. but, yet again, I already have you by my side. title or no title, we are still together. although it’s hard to explain what you are to my friends, “the girl I’m seeing”, I’d rather tell everyone that you’re my partner but that’s something we both need to be 100% in on. I was upset at first when you said no, because I thought it was because of Me, plays back to my ex yk? but it’s not because of me, but because of your past, and I’ve reflected on this enough to know I don’t want to leave. if I wanted to leave, I would have. I’ve thought about how long this may take, and I’ve realized that having you in my life is more important than our relationship. having you here, present, with me is more important than anything else. because your presence is what I love and need most. I do want to clarify love, that I won’t meet someone and decide they’re better. no one is better than you (arcane women is a close second lol). but you have qualities and characteristics that I compliment and enjoy being around. you don’t have to say this back, and I don’t expect you to, but I really really really love you. I love every part of you. I have for the longest time, and it’s been on the tip of my tongue. even if I found a girl who did want to get into a relationship, they’re not.. you. not my mar. not the girl I’d make s^x jokes with, laugh with late at night, get nervous when we’d cuddle, and love her from a distance and love her again when I came back. that’s the kind of love that you don’t find with anyone else. or want to.. once you have something amazing you won’t let go of it

it was upsetting to hear the answer.. no, it hurt a lot. especially because I’ve planned that date for some time. tried to find something we can both enjoy. teach you something and admire you while you sew. since that date, ive also been thinking. reflecting. that date we had yesterday, I was afraid it was.. going to go like how that previous date went. I panicked a bit and said we should stay home. I’m more hesitant now to plan dates, because I keep thinking of that poem that I had in my pocket, the speech i prepared, and the answer I got with it. I’m not angry or upset with your answer, it was just.. not what I expected. but that’s life right? some things will be expected and not. I just have underestimated the situation and then I realized you might need more time, and that’s alright x

it also stuck with me, that you said the date was “not bad”. I know you had no bad intentions with that comment, but after hearing your answer and how I felt at the time, it made me feel that my efforts weren’t entirely appreciated. especially because I was excited to do this with you yk? a cute date that we could look back on. tell our friends about, reflect on. I haven’t been the happiest guy ever since that date, not saying that I’m not happy at all, but that my efforts weren’t appreciated enough in my perspective. I took that to heart yk? I’ve chose to step back a bit and not plan more dates until this feeling wears off

I’m also afraid of being too much, giving too much, making you uncomfortable. sometimes the lines are blurred and it’s hard to know where to step. but this is worth it. being here.. because I really like you. 🤎

it’s going to take time and that’s alright, you have amazing friends and a somewhat partner to help x

when I would do one nights, the connection was there but would fade as soon as me and the other person would part ways. I just needed that connection, didn’t know it was the romantic kind until I met you

it was painful, I guess that’s why i drowned myself in habits I wouldn’t do if I wasn’t in pain. we all grieve differently, but those things she said will always stick with me and I h^te that

fear has done a lot to me in this relationship, and I’ll be transparent when I say that I’m scared too. nobody jumps into a relationship knowing nothing will go wrong, that everything will be perfect. but, the best relationships, from what I’ve heard and read about, don’t have the perfect road ahead of them

we were having a snack at the time, so she compared me to a pretzel, she said she was kidding, but I was really uncomfortable after that, tried to layer up on hoodies and large shirts to hide how skinny I was. I noticed that when I was with her, we did mainly what she would want me to do, and she would comment on my interests or not comment. for instance, I love playing guitar. but she would say I could focus more on building muscle than playing music, that that would be a better use of my time. in addition to that, she would introduce me as a straight guy to her friends. it made me realize that she liked a version of me and stuck with that, not considering I have multiple sides to me. she would comment on how quiet I was and if I wanted to make more friends then I should “stop being shy”. I know that’s not love, if you truly love someone you enjoy all sides of the person, or at least recognize they’re not the perfect version they first present to you

she would also say my smile was crooked, and would ask for me not to smile in the selfies she took of both of us, guess old habits stay with you at times

I’m not sure that you’re l^king when it comes to affection, but maybe I’m ready to give more than what you’re comfortable with giving. i haven’t been c^fished by someone multiple times like you have, so I can understand why you’re hesitant and trying to find out the right balance. it did bother me at first, the unequal affection, but then i remembered that you’re still healing and showing what you deem most comfortable. you show love through physical touch, I love that too and I admire gifts. so much. we are different people with different love styles. and that is okay. in my perspective, you could be doing more, but you’re not and that’s because you’re dealing with a lot of things right now and i understand that. I’m not angry, upset, disappointed, at you love, I know you’re d^ping your toes into this. you’re taking your time and I know that when you feel most comfortable you’ll show more affection. I know you trust me, you just need time to feel comfortable. and mar.. you’ve been an incredible almost partner so far. you’re dealing with a lot of sh^t right now, and you’re still here checking on me, asking me if I want breakfast, get really h^t when you get mad at me for missing dinner 😂, you’re attentive. and when you’re ready you can show more affection. I think you’re doing great so far, you could be showing more affection, but that’s because you’re in pain right now and need time to show affection again

need some time to show affection again ^

for someone to say you need to compliment them more is really sh^y. that’s not your love language, I can’t imagine how you must have felt

thank you for that x

were the flowers I gave you yesterday corny? 😂 I know you love touch, so do I. I love rubbing your hips when you’re close to me, your h^t breath on my neck after making out, and your nose bridge against mine when we cuddle

🥰

yeah.. they definitely stick with you, I guess that’s why I never really smile in photos

but that’s not your fault? you didn’t know he would do that to you x

she was wild, not the good kind

I think she thought I was easy to control and manipulate, maybe she liked making me feel less so she could fill in the holes that she caused, making it seem that she was helping and supporting me yk? I’m glad things are different for us though. you haven’t said any of the things she’s said, and it’s sweet for you to compliment on parts of me I’ve never admired before. my smile, hair, body x

that’s a normal way to feel. especially because you said he’d want you to love him the way he showed his affection, through words. what he should have done is realize you love through touch and quality time right?

they sound like d^ks

and not the kind you actually scream for

my heart fluttered when you said you liked them, the time I spent making them became worth it

our cuddles mean a lot to me, not only because that’s how our feelings for each other formed, but because that’s how we love each other through our love styles x

why the f^k would he do that? what’s the point of having a partner if you won’t spend time with them?

oh my mar, I’m sorry :(

wow. that’s.. that’s f^ked

I hope you know I’d never do that with another woman? or man? prioritize them in a romantic way.. that’s wrong

my heart flutters when you say that x

knowing what she did, experiencing that, made me feel far more insecure than I should yk x

that’s not a relationship to him, that’s a connivence

that’s because we have similar love styles :) I love cuddling with you, being close

no mar, don’t blame yourself. you’re the victim

it’s his fault that he did not show up when you needed him, and disappeared

is there anything I need to change? anything I’m doing that’s bothersome? x

I’ll just get red and not say anything 😂

I agree, and we’re very good at listening to each other and overcoming awkward conversations and issues

I can’t think of a time where we fought and didn’t make up x

well you were in love? I don’t think you’re to blame

maybeee you can give me more kisses.. maybe 70 a day 😂 what do you think?

it’s because we understand each other yk? and we’re honest about what scares us and what bothers us

that’s what I like about you yk? we’re able to connect

really? my poor baby :(

are those thoughts present still?

I’m over exaggerating 😂 I love your kisses x

two broken souls find a home in each other yk?

I can’t help but believe this is how things are supposed to be

me and you x

my poor girl

medicated 😂 cool, up top 🤚🏼

is there anything i do that makes your heart flutter? x

I still remember when you made me a grilled cheese

and sat beside me

how pretty you looked with your hair up and your lip slightly bitten when you were focusing

we both did :)

princess? got it, I’ll call you that more often. how about when I rub your hips, or have my hands running up your back? 🥰

dudeee 🤚🏼

still brings a smile to my face. or the first time we kissed x

what makes my heart flutter is hearing you offer to make me food, babying me, looking at my eyes, or touching me

let’s cuddle then *grins and leans down to lift you in my arms*

our first k^ss was amazing

yeah.. 🥰

*grins and blushes lightly when you jump into my arms* what movie do you have in mind princess? *smirks lightly and sits on the couch, holding your thighs around my hips^

I still remember that day, you feeling comfortable to move forward x

*grins and k^sses your lips back, rubbing your lower back with my thumb and grabs the remote* lets finish it x

if you’re not facing me I think I’ll actually pay attention this time *chuckles and makes soft circles on your tummy as I skip ahead to where we were*

*grins and k^sses your shoulder lightly, keeping my eyes on the screen after I press play*

*grins and rubs your arms lightly, watching the screen with my cheek rested on your arm*

yesss loveee?

I slept in wayyy too late

*grins and gently traces shapes onto your hip, my thumb lightly grazing the seam of your pants*

this is off topic but, I don’t know what was wrong with me last night, I was so h^rny

watches corn for an hour 😂

did someone miss me? :)

was that uncomfortable? *grins and places my hands on your tummy instead* I apologize x

why did you not say anythingg ?? 😂

this may sound embarrassing but I don’t care

I was so h^rny that I, well, needed to f^k something

so, since I didn’t have you yk 👀 I.. heated up some pizza pops and wrapped it around in a sheet to pretend it was yours and f^ked it 😅

I heated it up so it would be warm, which is kinda what I needed to come x

I was going to use a sock but I needed something close to the real thing

let’s say, I did come, a couple times

oh- *grins and starts gently stroking the seam of your pants again* then I won’t move my hand :)

why were you? 😂

we could have made loveee nooo

yeah 😳

*grins and nods as I k^ss your shoulder, watching the screen with a hum in my throat*

you were watching something? MAR 😂 I WAS TOO

no but what were you watching

it happened after I stopped texting 😂

we thought the sameee nooo

next time we need to communicate, nothing is more h^t then when you ask me to f^k you

oh 😳😳😳

*gently grazes your thighs with my hands*

yeah? you thought of me? naughty girl 😏

I apologizeee

yeah? was your p^y dying for me to pump inside it? x

that’s so cute. my princess thought of me

we’re both similar, we both get h^ny randomly 😂

shhhh

*frowns lightly at you and k^sses your cheek* it’s okay love..

oh my f^king god that’s so h^t

I thought the same thing, thinking “f^k I wish this was mar”

I wouldn’t have mind filling my sweet girl up, then eating her out. I have a comfort food but you can definitely be my sweet treat princess 😏

IF ONLY I SAID SOMETHING 😂 but we were having a conversation and I didn’t want to be rudeee

*grins and rubs my eyes, chuckling lightly* can you hand me the tissues?

you didn’t say anything either, it’s your fault tooo 😠

mmm maybe I’ll stop until later 😏

we think alike

*wipes my tears and grins as I rub your back* this film is beautiful x

oh yeah, I did, after coming 4 times 😂

how’s your day so far? x

need help princess? I’ll eat you out before I get to work

give me 10 minutes tops

yeah?.. *grins and cups your chin* I love just, rubbing your hips and touching you while we do things. this was nice

yeah.. 😳

I work until 7:30 :)

we can do it real quick, what do you think 😏 new record?

big I start work in 1 and and a half

yeah?.. *blushes and looks up at you* I like innocently feeling you, just touching you makes me more calm. knowing you’re here too x

I know princesss I’m sorryyy

l^y down on the bed for me love, pants and p^nties off *smirks and runs my hand through my hair, getting a towel for the bed* I’ll e^t you out twice as h^rd

yes we can 🥰

really? *grins and looks up at you, blushing lightly* i can’t keep my hands off you, even if i tried. there’s something so.. intimate about touch. like our knees touching under the kitchen table or me pulling your chair closed so our thighs touch

YES I’m glad x

*grins and climbs onto the bed, k^ssing your tummy gently* I can’t wait to see you squirm against me

oh darling, I’ll be quick 😏

I crave your touch too. and that pretty smile of yours *grins and cups your cheek* such a beautiful woman. but that’s important to love someone how they feel most comfortable being loved yk? or liked, technically *grins and chuckles* I especially love smelling the faint scent of your perfume on your skin

Id like that x

you mean h^t mess right? *smirks and holds your thighs apart, grazing my tongue up across the cl^toris*

yes love 😳

you smell like your body wash, coconut right? *grins and presses my nose gently against your arm, k^ssing it gently*

*smirks and chuckles as I wr^p my tongue around your cl^, p^llinh it t^wards me to s^k on it roughly as I slide my middle f^nger inside you, curling it against your walls* my princess is being so good today..

took me forever to write that x

I’ll be naughty right back x

yeah? if you do that I’ll take away your ability to walk, maybe cover you with come and watch you squirm for more of me. maybe I’ll torture you, but you would enjoy that wouldn’t you?

i can get an idea *grins and smells my cologne on my wrist* my scent can be described as a sweet musk

*firmly grips your thighs apart and pumps my middle f^nger inside you roughly , chuckling deeply as I spit onto your cl^t and flick my tongue against it* that’s my naughty girl

yeah? 😏

I’ll f^k you so hard you scream to the point where you lose your voice 😏

oh this is too h^t 😏

*grins and blushes lightly* yeah? yeah *chuckles and rubs my cheeks to hide how warm and pink they are and clears my throat*

I didn’t tell you to stop moaning princess *smirks and slides another f^nger inside you, exhaling deeply at how good you taste*

sure is 😏

this calls for some additions to s^x maybe food or even a change of scenery 😏

marr stop itt *chuckles and covers my cheeks more, my face buried in your arm*

*checks the time and smirks softly* almost ready to go to work. we got seven minutes and I still haven’t made you come yet *shakes my head and pulls the fly down on my pants to thrust my d^k inside you* we need to take different measure *smirks when you moan more and thrusts harder than I ever have*

yes ma’am x

*smiles slightly crooked and looks up at your eyes, my entire face redly flushed*

bet you d-didn’t think this was coming were you? you’ll be coming next darling, literally! *moans your name and thrusts hard and deep, smirking at how your thighs jiggle from my thrusts* I-I’m going to make this tight p^y extra loose

changing room, park, forest, against a window, I’m open to anything x

you’re torturing me *grins and k^sses your lips gently, blushing lightly* making me red like this *

*smirks as I pull out of you, watching your come drip out of you with a deep chuckle* that’s my good girl, l^y down? relax *grins and k^sses your forehead as I l^k the come off of your thighs, wiping your skin with a damp towel* took us.. 11 minutes. x

good x

I’m just teasing princess *grins and looks up at your eyes, my face still flushed* I am.. so happy with you mar. so happy. nobody has made me blush this much.. or stutter like that

I’m now at work, just got here. glad I could make you come before I got here 😏 I miss you already. I’ll text you after work ❤️

I think we can too *chuckles and tucks your hair behind your ear* do you need anything? food? water?

really?.. you mean that? *grins and leans my head into your hand, nodding for more head scratches and lays my head on your tummy*

I found it h^t how you were listening yk? dominance x

that was really good s^x x

by the time I’m done with you, I’ll make sure I check off all those boxes. I’llmake your throat sore from head and from screaming 😏

I crave you just as much

changing room it is. I’ll let you take clothes off me 🙂‍↕️

neither have I, I’ve never been much interested in eating a girl out until I met you

maybe because you taste amazing x

you’re all mine just like I’m all yours :)

*grins and covers us with the blanket after snuggling in* that was really good :)

*blushes lightly and k^sses your chest gently, my hands caressing your hips and back* I’m really happy with you too. obvious isn’t it?

I do too x

you were very good princess

I crave your taste and your touch, always running back for more 😏

maybe tomorrow :) we can have s^x in the changing room 😂

i apologize for disappearing princess, I was buying food :)

*gently pulls your hips closer to mine and k^sses your forehead* such a beautiful woman x

*grins and nudges your hand with my nose to signal that I want more head scratches* I couldn’t help myself, you’re far too gorgeous

okay :)

unless.. you want to go for another round x

I’ll be up late tonight :)

there’s that gorgeous smile *grins and holds your head to my chest, blushing lightly as I rake my fingers through your hair*

*grins and looks up at you* you really are. pretty eyes, soft tummy, scrumptious thighs *chuckles and buries my nose into your stomach* I love this sm

wellll, maybe tomorrow we can x

I’m more in the mood to be held

*grins and rubs your back* sleepy girl?

*grins and says “mmm” in the bottom of my throat and starts to k^ss your tummy under your shirt*

is that alright? x

yk, I think I should post something

just for you to see, something to give you some energy

*grins and sits up, grabbing the remote* let’s watch arcane. any objections?

*grins and relaxes against your bare tummy, gently stroking it with my thumb*

*grins and shrugs my shoulders with a chuckle* I’m excited. now I can share the lore of this amazing show

*sits up a bit to rest my head on your chest, grinning against it* are you sleeping over?

*grins and pulls you into my lap, kissing your forehead and starts the film* I really appreciate you

well, do you want to sleep over? *grins and shrugs lightly* I want both os us to want you to stay

*grins widely and looks at the screen* we start off with a death, or many, so it’s sad at first

*grins and nods as I k^ss your cheek* good, because I would have begged you to stay. on my knees, possibly whimper if I had to

*grins and watches the screen, holding my knee*

I don’t know? :) because you said “if you want me to”

of course I want you tooo

*nods and grins at the screen* this show really shows the different challenges that lower class and upper class face. very interesting x

happy to hear that princess x

hopefully I’m not abusing the nickname

*grins and watches with my head leaning forward, l^king my top lio*

oh and you can call me Prince .. yk .. if you want 👀

*grins and l^ta down*

I think I can be that Prince that is usually quiet and reserved. until he meets the right person

I need to bring myself up more

I’m getting sleeepyyy

*grins and closes my eyes*

really? :)

I’m just chilling eating chicken x

I say that when I’m eating yoj

I’ll share some for you later :)

good morning princess x

how’s my sweet girl? :)

I’m doing well :) I’m just planning on what to eat

any recommendations?

I ended up eating fried eggs, scrambled

I ran out of bread 😂

I need more breaddd I’ve been running out a lot

and cheese 😂

I really enjoyed our day yesterday, cuddling, snuggling x

how are you today?

I eat them very oftennn, I need to cut back

that’s good :) I’m having some tea right now

I miss you way too much right now

you’re pretty lips

gorgeous eyes

the scent of coconuts on your skin

those soft thighs

wouldn’t lie if I said I would enjoy those thighs hugging my neck right now

you’re touch, i crave it

your ^

I said the wrong your, which means you distracted mee

I blame you x

I love talking to you and touching you

I love feeling you, and making you feel safe

you take wayyy too long 😂

can we cuddle please? :)

yeah you’re right actually 😂

what should we do? :)

what If we do something cool? drink? go to a carnival? baking class?

you’re heard baby :) we can do something else

how about a winter festival? 😂

let’s do it 😂

lets sneak edibles into yours 😂

let’s bake and drink 😂 maybe a body sh^t?

*grins and grabs an elastic to put my hair in a bun and chuckles as I wash my hands*

grab your stash 😂

are you dissing my man bun? 😂 it’s h^t don’t lie *smirks and kisses your forehead* lead the way pretty girl

yes ma’am

dudeee body sh^tssss

*scoffs with a grin and rolls my eyes as I take out my bun and put my hair half up instead* well definitely need eggs and flour for that *grins and preheats the oven*

aren’t we doing them? :)

I feel so nauseous

I thought you were teasing it *grins and grabs some wine from the cupboard, biting my bottom lip*

no idea, I’ll drink some water

it happened after I ate, maybe the chicken wasn’t made fresh

*grins and chuckles as I grab the measuring supplies* ready gorgeous?

well, i got it out of my system

not by choice

*grins and rubs my eyes gently* ready to do a body sh^t? *chuckles and leans against the counter*

nooo I think I’m sick 😔

I was shivering hard last night, had chills

but I was under a thick blanket

you’re eager too yk? I can see it in your eyes *grins and bites my lip, raking my hand through my hair*

don’t have to tell me twice 🙂‍↕️ yes princess

mine will love *grins and rubs your hips very gently* I’m excited for this :)

*grins and rubs your hips gently as I get the brownie mix ready* you want to go first?

thank you beautiful *grins and rubs your back lightly* I am so hungryyy and thirstyy

*grins and swirls the liquid in the sh^t and chuckles as I rub my forehead*

that’s a good idea *grins and checks the consistency of the brownie mix and mixes it some more*

the batter is a little dry. we’ll need some milk *grins and sighs lightly* I’m going to need some more medicine, I’ll be back *grabs some buckleys from the fridge and a glass of water*

babyyy I missed youuu

you were gone for too long 😠

good girl *grins and nods at the consistency I see in the bowl* lets pour them in a sheet and bake em

not so great

I missed you sm

I forgive youu

you’re so attractive, I’m sorry, this is not the time to say that but *chuckles and shakes my head* you’re so attractive when you’re cooking. or when you’re deeply concentrated

yeah :( I took some medicine, been taking it every 4 hours

still got a bad headache, been sneezing and coughing

I am really glad to see youu

I always am, but especially right now

you’re always attractive to me, but it’s those innocent things. your hair bouncing when you laugh. when you roll your eyes when you’re jokingly irritated. that smile you give when you’re excited to see me. *grins and grabs some oven mitts*

it’s alright. I just turn into a big baby when I’m sick

very clingy too

I really recommend it

it’s odd because I got sick not too long ago

you certain you don’t want to go to sleep?

you’re ^

*grins and sniffles as I slip on the mitts, putting the tray in the oven and turns on the timer*

I appreciate you sm

all your efforts, kind words

I’d like that x

*winks at you with a grin on my face and picks up my drink* to.. us? to hariah. that doesn’t sound right *chuckles* molden? that sounds worse 😂

you’re welcome princess

*chuckles and brings my glass to yours to make a clink noise and brings the glass to my lips* we need a duo name. sun and star. bear and honey. princess and prince? *grins and leans against the counter*

new post x

no? *grins and swirls the wine in my glass* I like princess and prince.

I thought it’d be cute *shrugs and takes another sip, swirling my cup again*

*raises my eyebrows slightly and nods as I grab my shoulder bag* *unlocks the door and closes it behind me, sitting on the porch*

*grins and looks at the sky before taking a sip of my wine*

*gets back into the house and flattens my lips when I see you* mar?

*sits beside you and frowns lightly* did I say something to irritate you? x

*frowns a little more and takes your hand for you to look at me* I apologize for making you upset. why did I?

*k^sses your forehead and rubs your back* I hope it’s known that I would never intentionally upset you.. and im really sorry for making you sad. you don’t have to tell me if you’re not comfortable enough to do so. but, I would like to know when you’re ready, so I don’t make the same mistake again *tilts up or head up gently* what is it? :(

oh.. *frowns and grins softly* now I have a clearer idea of what this is about *rests my hands on my lap and shakes my head* the reason.. why I brought the duo nicknames up is because most couples have one. I know we’re not a couple yet, but I thought it would be cute. *grins lightly and looks at you* did I upset you because the both of you had a nickname as such?

I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to make those memories arise. I found those names on Pinterest, and because I call you princess. that’s why I brought them up. *frowns and bites my lip* but mar, I can promise you I’m not him. I would never hurt you intentionally like he did. I can understand why you’re skeptical, and that’s okay. if I had someone c^tfishing me like he did, then I wouldn’t be so trusting either. *looks down at my hands and leans my head back* but this isn’t easy for me either. it’s hard because I don’t want what will trigger a bad memory and what won’t. I’m coming in blind here. sometimes I cause harm to you by accident and I don’t know how to fix it. sometimes I don’t feel equipped. or know what to say. how you do you help someone you really care about, someone that’s your whole world, who has trauma from someone you once were jealous of and wanted to be?

I know.. that’s the challenging part. it’s hard to define what he says or does. I have no idea. all the different personalities he used to use. it’s f^king insane. it’s hard for me because I’m constantly hurting you. apologizing so much.. even with the date I planned, the nicknames, and watching the sky *offers my hand to you and frowns* it hurt to see you pull away from my touch like that :(

I’ll respect not touching you then *grins and pulls my hand away* he was very deceptive. but what we can do right now is recognize what hurt you and learn from it. learn how it changed you and listen to your gut. I’m not angry that you thought I sounded like him. I would definitely think the same. it’s not an easy thing to hear but, I can understand you. *tilts my head* sometimes when.. I bring those memories up again, I feel shameful. that I’m causing you pain, and bringing those memories up. it feels like I’m messing up. i swore to protect and help heal you, and I’m unintentionally causing more harm. doesn’t make me feel too great..

well, what I do know is we have each other. and we are better together. *nods*

it’s neither of our faults for what he did, it’s going to take time. but our appreciation for each other will help us with this *grins and stands up* come, let’s go eat our brownies

*grins and turns off the oven then brings the cookies out*

I really want to eat them right now *laughs and puts the tray in the freezer* now we’ll wait less

I’m patient, just not with food *chuckles and leans against the counter*

*takes the brownies out and grins*

*grins and nods as I set the tray down* it is. just needed time to chill.

*grins and takes a brownie, sighing lightly* I love baked goods

*grins and takes another bite, nodding my head* this is so f^kibg good

*grins and sits down at the table, holding my temple with my hand*

*grins and leans back in the chair, tilting my head lightly* mar?

*looks at you for a moment and shakes my head with a grin* how’s the brownies? seems like you’re enjoying them

*grins and leans my head on the table, my arms rested underneath my chin* we do well when we bake together x

*closes my eyes and grins lightly* help yourself, I think I’m done with brownies today

I’ll be on for the rest of the night x

my appetite hasn’t been that good lately, this week more specifically. once I get sick I don’t feel like eating much *grins and shrugs*

aww you did? that makes me so happy princess. I did my work early today so we could talk a bit more 🥰

slightly, but not much of a difference *frowns and shakes my head, pulling your chair closer to me so our thighs touch under the table* not close enough *smirks lightly*

it’s so cool how we thought the same thing. you probably already knew this but i missed you :)

*grins shyly when you respond with that and chuckles* you’re always tooo farrr. *chuckles again and rests my head on my hand* I’ve also been having bad headaches, cough, runny nose. but my sleep has been getting better *shrugs with a grin*

*grins lightly and chuckles when you respond with that* I’m glad you’re eating the brownies. told you I knew how to bake, even when I’m sick my expertise remains superior *smirks and winks* I’m glad to see you right now. I know I do everyday, but you really are the highlight of my day. and I don’t give a f^k how corny as that sounds *laughs*

*grins and k^sses your cheek gently* I always enjoy seeing you, “touching” you *chuckles* my gorgeous girl

*grins and k^sses your jawline next, pulling you into my lap* I want something a little sweeter than brownies x

you? *grins and k^sses your nose bridge, rubbing my nose gently against yours*

*scoffs with a grin and rolls my eyes, pulling on your shirt to pull you closer* *grins when our lips meet and chuckles against your lips*

*makes a “mmm” sound and k^sses your lips gently, holding the back of your neck with my hand*

Nuh uh I’m not finished *grins and pulls you again and chuckles before k^ssing you a minute longer*

*k^sses your lips for a minute longer and pulls back slightly breathless, a wide grin on my face*

*runs my tongue along the inside of my mouth and chuckles* I’m pretty satisfied.. for now. but that taste of the brownies and tequila was refreshing

*grins and gently rubs your back, my thumbs gently rubbing in circles* how was my mar today?

I’m feeling better being around you right now princess *grins and k^sses your forehead gently*

where are you going? *grins and holds your waist gently to keep you from walking away*

*chuckles and lets you go, shaking my head* so sorry, didn’t mean to make you stumble

*grins and watches you, chuckling lightly* you think I need to tone down the clinginess? I almost made you fall *laughs*

*grins and stands up to wrap my arms around you from behind* the taste of tequila is something I’ll never get tired of when it comes from your lips x

I’ll take some if it’s a body sh^t *grins and leans against the counter with my arms crossed over my chest* it’s my new favorite way of drinking

*thinks about it for a moment and nods with a grin* I won’t lie, seeing you shirtless is a plus. but it’s attractive to me, only me being able to do this with you yk? *grins and follows* tell me, what things do I do that make you think “f^k, he’s attractive”, since I know you like to make me say it x

*grins and blushes lightly as I kneel down in front of you* you find my smile attractive?.. *tilts my head and grins some more* I love hugging you from behind and pulling you closer to me, especially enough for your thigh to touch mine. *grins and places my hands on your thighs for leverage*

*grins and helps you unbutton your shirt, k^ssing your chest lightly* I love your giggle, it’s attractive to me. how you immediately relax at my touch, and how you ask how I’m doing, calling me your baby, makes me want to.. *looks up at you and chuckles* nevermind x

ask you to be mine, yk? *grins and shakes my head* officially

*grins and rests my head on your lap, hugging your thighs gently* thank you.. *grins shyly and chuckles* but I mean it yk? I really really like you, and I would love to call you my girlfriend when you feel most comfortable, I just don’t know when that is or when would be a good time to ask again, or if I shouldn’t ask

*grins widely and nods* I’m glad to hear that. I needed that. now, let’s get on with this sh^t x

*grins and k^sses your chest gently, my hand rested on your breast to move it aside as I wrap my mouth around the rim of the glass*

*holds your thighs in my hands and grins as I lean my head back to take the sh^t and chuckles as I spit the glass onto the floor*

good news, I’m coughing less 🙂‍↕️

all I needed was a dose of my mar x

*rests my arms on your thighs and blushes as I k^ss your chest* me spitting the glass? or swallowing the sh^t? *chuckles and blushes* I love when you voice what you find attractive about me

thank you 💋 my hero

are you busy? x

*blushes and looks up at you with a wide grin* oh.. 🥰 yeah, well I love being gentle with you. understanding, patient *grins and blushes harder, hiding my reddened cheeks in your lap*

how can I reward my saviour? x

mar! 😂 that’s so funny

your impatience is cute

*grins and grabs your hand to help you sit up* patience is a characteristic I find very important. and it’s something I love about myself *grins and rubs your hips gently, pulling your waist into mine* I love my smile more when we’re together, possibly because it’s true. and it stays x

k^ss it is, come claim your prize x

I can definitely sense your worry, but I’ll check kik just as I much as I check pc. and that’s a lot x

your worry shows how much you dw to lose me and that’s comforting

I’m not too worried, because I know we’ll both make an effort to talk to each other

I’m glad you’re happy. I’ve seen a change yk? you seem happier, and I’m glad you are. yk, Alejandro and I were talking about you, and brianna. just how we feel about our girls *grins and caresses your cheek*

*grins and leans down to pull your legs over my hips and looks at your eyes, leaning into your lips passionately*

I feel.. secure. with you, and the state of our relationship. I’m not worried too much, which is nice. something I haven’t felt in a long time. a sense of safety x

I’m just worried for Alejandro. I’ll ask him to get kik

we were, in a good way *chuckles ans rubs your hips* I apologize if that sounds like a bad thing, but you weren’t the same mar I talked to when I first came back. you’re glowing yk?

*gently caresses your cheek with my thumb as I k^ss your lip, my other hand firmly holding your leg around my hip*

I can understand why you’re worried though, but my efforts on checking up on you won’t change x

confidence is so attractive on you *grins and rubs your hips, leaning down to k^ss them* I’m so lucky to have you, and I don’t just mean that cause you’re really f^king h^t

*grins and holds your legs around my hips, looking down at your eyes with a muted chuckle* was that enough to satisfy you?

on the even cooler side of this, I can send songs and videos that I like, or that remind me of you, us x

speaking of that I’ll do that right now

I don’t think, I know *grins and plays with your hair, twisting it between my fingers* my hands have felt almost all of your body and I still don’t get bored of seeing it and feeling it x

that was really attractive. please keep doing that *grins and holds the front of your neck firmly but gently, bringing your lips closer so I can k^ss them*

please do, don’t shy away from sending me your whole for you page

I can’t help myself.. it’s how I show my love, constantly wanting you to be close, feeling you, getting upset when you stand up *chuckles and nods*

oh yeah *grins and k^sses your lips, carrying you to my lap after I get seated on the couch* *grins and presses soft circles onto your lower back when I k^ss you*

yeah 🙂‍↕️

I’ll have a brownie actually *grins and helps you stand up, walking to the kitchen with you* I’m glad x

oh that was h^t *smirks and pulls on your bottom lip gently, wrapping my tongue around yours to french k^ss you*

it is today, I’m glad, because I love food *grins and holds your hand, grabbing a small plate for my brownie*

*grins and deepens the k^ss, one hand going up your back and the other going down your hip* you taste so good m-mar

I would say.. 4 😂 you seem to have high limits *smirks and grabs a brownie, taking a bite and chuckles* mmm, food will never disappoint

*grins and bites on your lip gently, s^king on it before letting you go*

*grins and leans against the counter, taking another bite of my brownie* do you still wear the ring I gave you? the guitar pic keychain?

*grins and blushes lightly* I agree, it was.. very intimate, s^xy, h^t. we should do it again x

aww.. *grins and immediately hugs you, snuggling my cheek into your shoulder* you keep my things

so do I, you’re good at them. but.. you could work on it, yk, the tongue action. we should practice, everyday.. *smirks and chuckles before k^ssing you again*

I don’t knowwwww, it’s sweeett, seeing you wear the ring everywhere *grins and hugs you, giving you a gentle squeeze* I really like you x

you definitely need the practice *smirks and k^sses your lips again, holding your hips in my hands and gives them a soft squeeze*

your pretty eyes said it for you *grins and tilts your head up*

yes princess, are you? x

now you’re learning *grins as I whisper this against your lips and s^ks on your tongue, twirling your hair between my fingers* my princess is so attentive to feedback..

*pauses for a second and grins widely, cupping both of your cheeks as I feel my cheeks redden for the second time* thank you..

good x

*smirks and strokes your cheek, thinking deeply* well, what does my student want to learn? can’t have learning without passion

you’re the cutie pie around here *grins and pecks your temple before hugging you gently* the way you make me soften to just that compliment alone is crazy power

how did this get so h^t all of a sudden *chuckles and k^sses your forehead* hmm.. do you have anything nice to wear for me to see? can’t learn without the proper attire

*grins and k^sses your temple* my sweet girl, are you drunkkk?

l^ngerie, or nothing at all. *grins and leans back, my arms crossed* entirely up to you? I will drool either way

wow, you’re veryyyy drunk *chuckles and k^sses your cheek* my sweet girl

good point.. thinking ahead *smirks and sits up, gesturing you to come back to my lap*

heyyy *chuckles and k^sses your head* fine my gorgeous mar, you’re Mariah. anything else you want to say?

i like that idea *grins and slips my fingers under your waistband, lowering your pants and the panties underneath*

*grins and k^sses your cheek* you’re so beautiful princesss, yk that?

*grins and helps you slip off your shirt, blushing as I start to k^ss your breast gently* I can’t get over how beautiful you are?

good, you deserve to be reminded that often *grins and pulls yor waist gently to get your attention* honey? are you sure you want another drink? let’s re think limits here

(nagy 😂) *grins and k^sses your cheek, looking down at your eyes with a chuckle* now.. what to teach you.. *smirks and tilts my head* do you feel comfortable enough giving head my love? I’ll reward you if you’re up to it

oh my god *chuckles and hides my smile with my hand and gakes the bottle when you’re done* enough alcohol for today baby, too much isn’t good

that’s my good girl *grins and strokes your chin, admiring sight of you on your knees* is there anything I should know princess? before you get started?

a little yeah? *grins and puts the bottle on the high shelf* don’t h^te me sweet girl, I just don’t want your hangover to be terrible

go as rough as you’d please, I don’t mind whimpering *smirks and holds your hair up*

your short stature is adorable. that and you being angry *thinks for a moment and grins as I bring the bottle down* fine sweetheart, but one last drink, got it? x

I really like when you call me that- *holds your hair up and smirks widely, closing my eyes to focus on what you’re doing and inhales sharply*

f^k- mar! *laughs and takes the bottle back* I mean I was going to pour you a drink, my f^king god *laughs and sets the bottle back up again*

*grips your hair tighter and whimpers quietly, leaning my head back and bites my lip* f-f^k..

not drunk huh? *chuckles with a scoff and crosses my arms, holding my arms out when you almost fall and grins* what do you want to do sweet girl?

*moans lightly and leans my head back* you’re doing so good.. just k-keep doing what you’re doing *leans my head forward and k^sses your forehead*

*grins and holds you to my chest* glad I could catch a falling damsel *grins and k^sses your lips, just a peck* do you want to be babied?

f^k f^k f^kkk *moans louder and holds your head, helping you bob it and feels my tip pulse in your throat*

yeah? you like babies? so do I *chuckles and holds you against me so you don’t stumble* what do you like about babies?

*clenches my jawline and grips your hair tighter than before, moaning your name as I heavily come* *arches my back and starts to whine and whimper*

chubby babies are the cutest. smiling chubby babies *chuckles and k^sses your forehead* do you want to go cuddle?

good morning sweet girl 🤎

*leans my head forward in defeat and chuckles lustily, coming in the back portion of your throat and strokes your cheek gently* that was fast, and i really enjoyed that princess

yeah? *chuckles and picks you up in my arms* I’ve realized I’ve never been flat out drunk around you, I gotta change that

how did you sleep? :)

*holds my chest and chuckles as I nod, somewhat unable to respond* A-A+ from me love, nothing higher or lower *grins and leans my head back* f^k

*grins and brings you to the couch* dance yeah? do you want me to watch? you’re too adorable

I’m coughing less 🙂‍↕️ I’m happy

you’re all I needed

but I was coughing all night so not too good

I’m planning to shower :) don’t be afraid to jump in x

you got me breathless here *chuckles and sits up, offering to have you sit in my lap after zipping my fly back up*

wall? *grins and leans my head to the side, slightly curious* even “not drunk” you’re still dancing. can you get any more adorable?

yeah 🥰

I did, but I got cough medicine and it helped x

😏 all done

thank you for giving me some s^xual relief *grins and k^sses your cheek* as my breathless moans weren’t a thank you enough

*smiles and leans my elbows forward on my thighs and watches you, making sure you don’t stumble*

it was really good, I had no energy to shower before, so I felt yucky

*smiles and k^sses your forehead* it feels nice to spend time with you

*widens my eyes and stands up* f^k- baby you okay? *frowns and helps you up* come, let’s cuddle over here

I’m still so tired, and I keep coughing 😔 not as much as before but still

*grins and grabs the clothes off the floor for you and blushes* well gorgeous girl, that was the best head I’ve ever gotten

*laughs and shakes my head* you sure did, let’s no do anything crazy k?

yes princess 🙂‍↕️

oh definitely *chuckles and k^sses your forehead* are you thirsty?

I’m crazy? *chuckles and kisses your head when you hiccup* you’re so cute when your like this

*grins and nods as I take your hand* I’ll come with

*looks at you in admiration and chuckles to myself* I think we’re both cute miss hiccup, does looking at me make you nervous enough to do that?

*grins and looks over at you* are you still worried for us? after pc gets somewhat shut down?

*blushes and chuckles as I follow behind you* let’s drink water this time babe

are you feeling alright? *grins and crosses my arms over my chest*

we are drinking water, we had enough alcohol baby, you can barely stand up straight *chuckles and rubs your hips*

your presence felt different *grins and k^sses your forehead* just wanted to ask

you’re being naughty aren’t you? *chuckles and pulls on your waist*

the good kind or the bad? *grins and rubs your back gently*

*leans down to k^ss your tongue and chuckles* I am naughty. your point is?

alright *grins and pecks your temple* these past few days have been really good, spending them with you

*grins and leans against the counter with a chuckle* and you’re what? an angel? a saint?

*grins and looks down at my hands* I’ve changed yk.. since we started talking again. when I came back. I like who I am more now

*grins and watches you attentively* if I’m so naughty, why am I taking care of you while you’re.. sober?

might fall asleep soon. If I’m asleep by the time your back, just know I’ll text you tomorrow after class (after 11:30 ❤️)

good morning :)

how’s my sweet girl? :)

we really do *grins and scratches my nose, chuckling lightly*

*grins and sits beside you on the floor* are you hungry? I can prepare you something quick?

I’m doing okay too :) still coughing

*grins and nods at what you responded with* yeah 🥰

let me veg you some water then, come on, off the floor *grins and helps you stand*

*grins and catches you, grabbing you a glass* I’ll grab you water princess

why?

go take a seat love *grins and grabs the ice tray*

why are you so h^t when your mad

but I hope you cool down

*chuckles lightly and fills up the cold glass with water* you love the floor don’t you?

yes you are

I have your water waiting for you *grins and gestures to the glass cup on the counter and grabs myself some bread*

*chuckles and follows you* I don’t have a pee fetish but I want to make sure you don’t fall

uh huh, sure *grins and chuckles* can I come in?