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hi oh my lots of updates!! it’s only been a week but 😅 sorry i haven’t been on. so i started college on mondayyyy. all of my classes are live-streams but i’m taking English, government, college algebra, and art appreciation. it’s not too bad so far but i already have a ton of notes and hw to catch up on aahhh. next, so y’all know i got my drivers license, and i’m finally driving to work on my own! that’s a huge step for me and i honestly can’t believe i’m doing it. a few weeks ago i was too scared to even drive the neighborhood 😂 now i’m driving almost forty minutes at a time there and back wowww. next, so these pictures are from yesterday and i just wanna talk a bit about it if that’s okay. so yesterday James picked me up after he got out of school and we went to his house and cuddled for a little while in his room and it was so cozy with the warm lighting and there was thunder in the distance and this is like my favorite shirt on him and it was like fall and 🥺 i want it to be fall so baddddd. so it was his sisters birthday so we all went out to eat at a really healthy weird restaurant idk, but i have really bad äńxìêtÿ about going out to eat and i didn’t like anything on the menu besides the kids cheese quesadilla and i was so terrified ordering in front of his family, in the middle of my order i had to turn to James and say im gonna have a panic attack i can’t, and he finished my order for me. so that was embarrassing :/ but James was being sweet and quietly checking in on me throughout dinner. after dinner we went back to his house and had bundt cakes and we sat in the living room and his sister opened presents, she got a yoga mat, a $50 ulta gift card, and an iPad. i got extremely emotional watching her open gifts because Emma and i never got gifts on our birthday. and i just have a bad home life compared to James and i always wish i had what he has and James could tell i was upset so we went to the basement and i didn’t say anything but i was crying and he immediately knew why i was upset. he knelt in front of me on the ground and held my hands and was talking to me and calming me down and he promised me that for the rest of our lives he’ll give me the love and care i deserve and it made me cry harder haha and i hugged him for so long. i can’t even describe how much i love him. i’m so grateful to have him in my life 🥺 we turned on Mulan and cuddled but his nose started getting really runny and he had to keep getting up to blow his nose and we both got scared because there are kids at his school that had the virus and still went to school and we were hoping it was nothing but he texted me at four this morning and said he couldn’t sleep and then again at nine said that his throat was really messed up and he’s staying home from school just in case. so if he has the virus then i’ll have it too haha, and if not then i’ll just catch whatever cold he has maybe. idk i’m feeling completely fine right now so we’ll seeee. i’m sorry ik this is a lot i’m almost done 😅 if y’all read this far i love you ahahah. i was laying my head on James lap during the movie and he was playing with my hair but the angle i was at hurt so i turned on my back and looked up at the ceiling and closed my eyes and he started to gently rub my face and my hairline and goshhhh i have never felt more relaxed in my life. then as he was doing it, he said “do you want to know what my mom was telling me the other day? she said ‘you should marry amber early right out of college, settle down, and have a kid together’ and i told her ‘that’s the plan. that’s exactly what i want to do’”. i opened my eyes and looked up at him and i said are you serious? you really want that? and he said yes of course and i said me too and i just 🥺🥺🥺🥺 i’m so in love. anyways sorry this is way too much ahaha i don’t expect y’all to read this far