yeah ik exactly how you're feeling, but (don't hate me for saying this) self harm is not going to fix it, yes it may seem logical somehow but it's not. I don't know you very long but I can't stand the thought of you harming yourself. I'm not gonna say go talk to your parents bc I know it's harder than it sounds but find someone who can help. Ily stay strong and I'm here if you need me❤︎