Don't take the song down! I believe you. And I'm sincerely so happy right now. I lashed out at you more so because other things have been going on right now with me and they've been intense. I'll probably post about it because I know a lot of people on here know my history with this person and things are starting to look better. I've had a past with being terrified of invalidation and emotional abuse, and I was letting that seep into what I said to you. if other things hadn't been going on, I wouldn't have gotten mad. hełl, I never would've said anything and genuinely would've thought it must've been coincidence in the first place. I was annoyed back then because I knew that you weren't ever actually trying to steal, but that's how it felt emotionally to me, if that makes any sense? like I knew it wasn't a big deal, but I felt sincerely hurt and I didn't know what to do, so I decided to be understanding that this wasn't something that big and it was okay because there was nothing malicious in what you were doing and moved on. I just got scared again because of things resurfacing with my former friend, and I'm not talking about petty drama or anything, but about how she almost got me killed and how she has totally put me and my friend through five years of extreme emotional abuse, verbal abuse, and trauma, and we didn't even REALIZE it was to that extent until recently. with all these other things going on I wanted to have just one moment where things worked out and the past was put behind and people could move forward and it would be okay. I wish I had reacted better when you didn't answer for a while because it's not like me. I'm savage and sassy, but that's a coping mechanism for me not being able to sincerely get angry emotionally anymore. I just feel heartbroken with things and don't believe I have any right to anger, so I guess I act shady to counteract the fact that I am immensely vulnerable when it comes to standing my ground.

It was just in a bad time that I listened to the lyrics of your song more closely, not only with my serious problem with my old friend, but also because lone_potato and I on here had just gotten into an argument because they were triggered and angry at me having a different opinion than them, and were acting rude to me, and then when I was joking about how it was amusing how triggered they were getting over nothing later just talking to someone on here, they came back and started saying that was an attack on them and wouldn't leave me alone so of course I got more heated because I was sick of being told I'm a perpetraitor of something I'm not, and I was sick of people controlling my life because of my fear of not being accepted and feeling invalid. so I lashed out at them when they didn't stop, and I finally blocked them on their two accounts.

so that was also what had unsettled me, never MIND the serious friend problem. and I'm sorry. when I get angry, it's more of a defensive charade of anger. I was going through (and very much still am) going through some completely and irrevocably heavy things and I couldn't handle anything else weighing on me. i would've acted more chill and diplomatic if I wasn't scared of being taken advantage of anymore than I was at the time and am.

I am just IMPOSSIBLY HAPPY that you want to move on and us get past this. i feel safe and happy and I'm just so genuinely excited and glad. there is nothing to forgive; we all do things we're not proud of. I'm not proud of getting so impatient and angry when you didn't respond for a while. I just really am happy to move on and see things in a better light. thank you so much for apologizing, even though I swear you don't have to. the fact that you did without needing to or being obligated means the world to me. sincerely. I am so happy. thank you.

I don't know if PC allows unblocking at this point, but if you ever want to talk on this page of mine, I can check it more often. I honestly want to be here and just a person who if you feel like you need advice can come and talk to, because I want to be that for people so badly and I want to help in any ways that I can. I'm really proud of you for making a song that sets off the start of any music career you may go into. you'll always be able to find your first song on your first YouTube channel and be able to say that that was the moment. I'm sorry for getting so defensive. I'm just used to doing that and I'm trying to learn how to stop being terrified of what people think of me because it really controls me. I even ask my dad not to tease me on certain things because I get scared that it's words meant to invalidate me. I'm trying to learn that I can stand up for myself and not fear anymore. that's what I'm hoping to get to after meeting up with my former friend and talking things out. I have a long ways to go, but the end goal is that. just thank you SO MUCH. you don't know how happy this makes me that we can move on.