yeah i do

why

do you not love me or something

i don’t know i was nervous

and yeah if you want to keep talking to me

i’ll just

call you jacob still i guess

and no i actually wanted you to come over but i guess you don’t want to now but

yeah

no i don’t i only did that to not have some actually creepy person stalk me or whatever

i’m really sorry

i’m surprised you don’t hate me or want to break up with me or something like that

yeah

but i wish you would visit

rip

i know i know i’m sorry

mmmmm i guess

and not as sick as will

there was this huge spider in class and my friend killed it but it made this super loud crunching noise so now i’m traumatized

yeah her name’s still ally and mm

oh geez i bet you’ll be like “yeah so it turns out she wasn’t lying about her name unlike some people but yeah i’m going to marry her ac ac ac”

is that what’ll happen

ugh

now i have to go change my name

thanks a lot william jacob

but claire isn’t korean but kim is so ha

beat her there🌚

wow

w

o

w

and love you too and mhm

okay william jacob the fourth

your name is so fancy

and i can’t believe her name is allie too what the heck

my friends mom always calls me al so i feel like a balding middle aged plumber

al ha

great now i’ll remind you of her and yeah i have a lot of nicknames

well a decent amount

and when i was little whenever i was saying bye to someone i would be like “see you later alliegator” even though i’m allie i was dumb

no no one calls me that

but my mom call me alessandra for some reason

and people call me al or als or whatever

and my grandparents call me allie cat but

you don’t like cats💔😔

of course

you might as well just call me ac 2.0 thenn since you and basically everyone you know call her the same things i go by

well i didn’t expect you to be like “i call ac this and that and this and that but i don’t have a nickname for you” i already feel like you like her moreee

and ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

i don’t know you probably already call ac yours💔💔

and yeah yeah i love you too

i know you sayyyy you don’t like her at least

but it’s okay i’m fine with not being my boyfriends favorite ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

i’m serioussss it’s pretty obvious😔💔

h m p h

i don’t want my name anymore i’ll change it to whydoesjacobnotloveme

kidding ha

i should probably change my username

suree you do that’s my name now and my nickname will be helovesacmore

okay okay i’m done and nah you shouldn’t change yours

okay i changed it ha

i like it mister bossy pants i’ll keep ittt

yay but don’t change it even when you do have the time and okay au revoir

waitt i thought you said ac’s name was anna claire

because i remember i was at hershey park with my friend marie claire and you were like “what’s her name” and i just said claire and you were like “claire’s a hot name my friend’s name is anna claire”

unless i just have a bad memory but hmm

mm

of course it is like why wouldn’t that be her name

i never said i didn’t believe you

but cool

mhm and i don’t mind

because i was just nervous

and i had the right to beeee since you already have your homecoming allie instead

sure i am and yeahh actually that’s exactly what i thought you would do

i won’t even ask you what that thing is and yeah i bawled my eyes out this morning when i read it

haha nah kidding you didn’t hurt my feelings

i almost got hit by a car ha and your wife allie but not your favorite allie

and ha i’m so funny and i scared you ha again but yeah i would never cheat on you i would feel so awful

and i hate the name allison

i walked to the library and i was in the parking lot and this car was going super fast and i have slow reflexes sometimes so yeah you can probably figure out the rest

and according to this research project i had to do in like sixth grade my mame is scottish or french or whatever and it means noble and wise so there’s always that

i think i’ll look it up

and you can’t say allison without saying sin so there’s always that too

okay yeah it’s french and derived from alice which is also french and it means noble and kind

the hottest and okayyy fine and i love you

how is it hard to rememberr your favorite homecoming date/favorite allie has the same name

🌚

i’m onlyy telling the truth

i know right and mmmmmm kinda

okay okay i do trust you

mhm and it was good how about you

okie dokie artichokie

bonjour

you of course

oh yeah so great

almost as great as youuu you’re perfect

i know you aree perfect you don’t have to crush my heart by saying you’re not

and ha yeah love you

you didn’t even say you loved me back

wowwwww and you arE perfect😤😤

i’m shooting around as you would say what about you

oh guess what

i’m upset😤😤 in social studies we had to work in groups and everyone copied off of me and they got it all right😤

just from copying mE they didn’t even tryyy

yeah it’s like impossible for me to say no to anyone except for you and lames

and whyyy did you change my username

oh yeah no i say no to him a lot

and i yell at him

today i yelled at him for burping too much it was gross but it was a lame yell it was just like “i hope you burp and then you throw up in the middle of the hallway that’s disgusting you’re disgusting”

i don’t know why you’ree mhming me mister i love allie claire the most

oh paranoid shmaranoid

fine fine fine fine fine fine fine i won’t bring her up anymore

love you too will

iam jacob

the fourth

and mhm sure

also i said this before but i deleted it because it made no sense but i’m glad you’re not one of those crazy parkour people

you just want me to rantt

ha you want me to rant

i don’t know if i can rant about itt

i need something more controversial

mhmm nah but i guess i could try to rant about dumb parkour people

or my badd, give you my opinion in paragraph form ha

boo i already started typing out a rant just in case

but that’s good

unless they weren’t good things

oh

i love youu

i don’t even know ha

oh no it is

she just doesn’t like the name mary so she just wanted alice i don’t know

and alice was my grandad’s mom’s name

so that might be another reason why i’m his favorite

but my mom doesn’t like the name alice so i,, i don’t even know what goes on in her head

why the oh

oh well okay

i’m eating chips what about you and it’s okayy i guess

welll it’s never really good and cool beans yo you’re so hot

ha and love you

you did nail it and yeah i hate my name

nooo it’s not i don’t like it

you should just tell me the important thing now and i love you too

and did you actually look up my name on urban dictionaryy

nooo you should tell me now

but i don’t want to be patienttttt i’m not good at being patient

then show me or whatever noww so you don’t forget

ughhhh you should just do it noww

becausee i’m impatient as heck

i don’t know howw you thought you could bring this up without me bugging you about itt

ughhh boo

nothing, you

cool i guess

i’m fine

don’t worry about it

well i’m alright

ok sure

mm fine i just wanted you to come over and i knew it wouldn’t happen deep down but ugh and you said you’re going to be super busy or whatever and we might not even last that long so rip my heart💔

anyways show me the thing now

well

i just

nevermind

i don’t even know

i only did the fake name thing because i don’t know safety stuff and i told you in case you did visit but

whatever it was dumb of me to think anything would happen

i do want it to be real and i know i’m sorry i was just scared

it’s okay you don’t have to talk to me if you want

nevermindnevermind i don’t want to talk about this

i love you too

yes and yeah

i’m not salty

sorry for what and yeah

oh

are you going to break up with me in the summer since you’ll be busy and stuff

okay and yeah i guess

mhm ha how clever

and i never said i wasn’t happy so

shrug face thing here

even though you broke my heart and said we might not even last until summer and you’ll be super busy ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

broke my heart ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

shattered it william jacobb hope you’re happy

¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

you say that now but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

and i doo care

why wouldn’t i

you said it wouldn’t even work out which like

💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

and i only flipped out because i thought you’d hate me or something

well thanks for getting my hopes upp and love you too

hopes about you coming to visitttt

it’s fine if you can’t i’ll just cry myself to sleep every night ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

kidding

or am i🤔🤔 you’ll never know

and i’m sorryyy i didn’t see it i love you too

haha sorryyy

i don’t know i hope so

a golden retriever because they’re the best

i’m tired of school

did youu and okayy whatever makes you happy

i’m about to go to sleep what about you

ha okayy and i’m only staying up for seven more minutes

finee which is 10:01 for me

fineee but that’s it no more pushing the time upp i see what you’re doing

and they’re good how’s david

has he done anything cute and not that i can remember

he’s always cutee

and i’m going to bed so goodnight and i love you a lot a lot

ughH finee what did you just realize

she’ll still stinkkk no matter what her name is

and i’m going to bed for reallllll so goodnight and i love you a lot

you’re going to fight the mother of your childrenn woww william jacob wow

anyways good morning hot guy love you

mhmmm love you you’re hot

and i’m super tired

i don’t likee naps and i’m only wearing one sock because i couldn’t find another one so ugh

and i was thinking about you like all biology class and i was daydreaming about you or something and the teacher called on me and i didn’t even no what was going on so

AH I DID

i’m so disappointed in myself

oh no i was going to say i had no idea what was going on but then i was going to say i didn’t know so i confused them

not thay you’ll believe me psh

that ughhhh

i wouldn’t break up with you for thattt who do you think i am william jacob

you’re nottt a flat earther

if you were i’d be super salty

but not salty enough to break up with you

shut upp stoppppppp you know i’m gullible😤😤

and my phone’s only three percent rip

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

haha you’re weird and i did tell you to shut up

whoops ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

those made me all smile though and it’s still three percent but it’s okay

sorryyy i’m back and i used the bathroom at the library ugh

but it’s a public bathroom so i’m making progresss are you proud🌚

why don’t youu always go to the library

and because i want tooo it’s quiet so i don’t have a hard time concentrating and i like reading okay

don’t hate appreciate and n o i go by myself

sureee you do

🤔🤔

and we should go to the library together

another reasonn for you to come over we can go to the library

and i love you too hot guy

and didn’t you sayy that you’re going to be super busy this summer or something💔💔

oh myy badd and good but love you

even though i just said that

yeah it’s je t’aime and my teacher said that je t’adore is an extreme version of je t’aime so i should start saying that

wow my boyfriend’s so hot and french

i’m reading what about you

and i only wore one sock today because i woke up late and have like no socks so i could only find one so it was super uncomfortable

wow that’s your future wife right there😩😍👏🏽🔥

i do what a lot and my mom is so meant to meee

lames is reading surprisingly and my mom asked him what he was reading and he was like “ungifted” and my mom was like “ungifted? they wrote about allie?” so yeah she has a heart of gold

my mom sent me this thing earlier of me being what addy jr will probably be like to you but it has her weird personality in it too so i’ll probably show you

it’s hard to understand though she’s weird

my mom’s so mean to me and okay i’ll show you and i probably have it

my foot fell asleep and yeah yeah i love you too

yes ughhh how could i forget i would always wake up in the middle of the night and from my knees down my legs were asleep but it was so bad i could barely move them it suckeddd

i don’t even know

i’m super weird so i’m not even surprised

it was good what about you

boo next time you have a quiz i can just hide in your bookbag and tell you the answers

yup good idea but that sucks i’m sorry

i will

i’m short so it could be possible

i love you

you should do that

kidding don’t drop out but you should still come over

and noo my shortness is weird

you’re right and i amm chill but not perfect

everythingg there’s nothing perfect about me

mhmmm i love you too

mhm ha and sure i want to see it

nah there is no perfection and ha i liked it and love you too

how clever of you and i wouldd but i’m reading

it’s called it should have been you and i love reading and yeah you should come over

nooooooo not true

it’s about this girl who’s trying to find her twin’s murderer because she’s been getting death threats and her parents don’t pay attention to her anymore and all that stuff

it’s about murder and i’m not even scared are you proud

yeah it’s pretty good and most improved boyfriend ha

you aree/always have been perfect

goodd how about you

why just okayyy

mhmmm sureee and i’m watching tv what about you

fairly odd parents and it’s okay i’m coming over to help

even though i don’t even know how to study

i’ll still help

yeah i’ll come read to you

good idea

you can do ittt i believe in you go hot guy

my what

oh it’s good and good

i will and she’s crazy as usual she keeps making me load and unload the dishwasher like 74 times a day

whyyy she has to do somee stuff

nooo like things that take more than 2.5 seconds

ugh noooo i’m tired of her and she’s not even existent

becausee you’re always like “oh she can sit in my lap and i’ll carry her everywhere all the time everyday” but what about meeeEe i’m selfish

and i’m exhausted ugh

i love you too boo her

trying to take my man away from me😤😤

and would you be upset if i went to bed early

like soon soon early🌚

that’s not fairrr

finee i love allie jr and i’m perfect

u g h of course you did why wouldn’t you

and i’m going to bed nowww so goodnight hot guy who makes me lie i love you a lot a lot

yayy that’s great i love you so much and you’re perfect

i would say i’m proud but i don’t know if you’d be like “it’s not even that big of a deal al smh”

but good morning hot guy i love you

and i have a presentation today ughh i’m going to die

spring sports season is crazy i almost got hit with like 43 lacrosse sticks and 97 tennis rackets

it’s in human growth but i don’t want to do it you should come pick me up

okay this is the period i have to present in so if i don’t answer i’m either presenting or i died because you didn’t pick me up

it’s okay i didn’t have to present today because we didn’t have time but i have to on mondayy

you should pick me up for real then

okayyy good luck je tpain

yeah that’s how it’s spelled and boo

rip my heart but what class was it in

i’m sorry i love you

even though me saying i love you doesn’t even help

that’s good i hope you do well

i should write you a paragraph

good idea i’ll do it after school if i remember

ha i love you too and i’m in art what about you

help riddle guy is slowly killing me

i’m going to the library again so if you’re not going to be too busy hating on my library time you should join

yeahhh you only dislike the library because you haven’t gone with me yet psh

it would actually probably be really boring with me

and i could helpp you with school stuff so then you would go with me

boo that sucks and at least your arms will be even more muscular am i right

and does your knee still hurt

and i don’t like when you have practice because then we don’t get to talk🌚 which i know i know is so selfish of me

yeah good idea you’re so smart and boo your knee

jacob nonono you have to be nice and breaking bones isn’t nice he probably didn’t even mean to hurt you

and yeah we can go to the library and i’ll read to you but quietly since it’s the library

whyy ha libraries

and mhmmm whenever someone gets hurt in sports i feel bad for the person that got hurt obviously and the person who hurt the person because they didn’t meannn to injure someone and they’d probably feel really guilty

would youu not feel guilty

wow william jacob the fourth

and yeahhh because people can’t concentrate when it’s loudd and you don’t have to be dead quiet

mhm sureee

and do youu not feel bad

it dependssss what and i love you too and you know what sucks

brownie batter tastes so good but it makes my lips and throat super itchy

and it’s probably not healthy but i’m willing to suffer for what i love

so noble and i’m reading what about you

yeah but i’ll probably finish soon and cool beans yo i love you

well i read a lot so it probably makes sense that i’m fast

apparently i taught myself how to read before kindergarten whatt that’s the only good thing loser jr will get from me

it’s nott embarrassing

don’t feel embarrassed around me😤😤

and too bad i didn’t know you in third grade

mhmm i get it but i was lame in third grade so i don’t even know

i had crazy anxiety then whoops

but thennn we could’ve read together then too

yeah we could’ve ducks are cute

my hand hurts from holding my book weirdly

wow nothing more attractive than a nerdy book girl with weak hand muscles

i felt bad for saying that because ducks are cute and definitely not shmucks

and aw my heart💙❤️💖💘 i love you and it’s okay i finished anyways

time to start my other book now

it’s called witch town and you didn’t even say you love me backkk

mhmmm and yeah ha

this week went by so fast

okie dokie artichokie

also i’m the queen of going into the kitchen to get something then leaving without it

like i just went to get chips and i left the bowl in there

this girl just said there were no memes in february and now i’m shook

likee hoW could you forget about the fbi man meme

and okay and i want to write a murder mystery weirdly

i keep saying the wrong things and i feel like i have to delete it ugH but i’m actually going to try to study and then i’m going to sleep so i won’t be on anymore tonight so goodnight hot guy i love you a lot a lot

likee it’s not even that big of a deal like i’ll say something super similar to what you see but maybe it’ll be like a one word difference and i’ll be like “that sounds awful it doesn’t even make sense” so then i feel like i have to delete it and ugh it’s a mess

oh but good morning hot guyy love you more than anything

jacobb i’m so upset it’s snowing and we might get off early but everY other county in the state has off except for my county

i guess so one time it snowed like four inches on the first day of spring

and it’s stiLL snowing so they better cancel school and it’s so windy and the power went out but onlu for like two seconds but still

yeah i’m at school unfortunately

oh yeah you were in my dream

okay so you came over my house and i went to the bathroom and for some reason i took off my shirt and there were these bright red stretch marks all up and down my stomach and i had like a meltdown and you were like “alliE geez what’s the problem” and i kept crying and i was like “you’re going to think i’m ugly” yeah

i think it’s because i’ve been thinking about you a lot of course and i’ve been really scared i’ve been gaining weight but

and the power just went out agaiN geez louise

oh we get to leave one hour early, one hour what the heck

oh also in my dream i was like “you’ll never love me” and you got my mom to yell at me

noo i don’t think you’re terrible in my dreams and aw that made me smile

❤️💙💘💕

and i have to crack my hip but it hurts

okay nevermind it’s all good in the neighborhood

guess who just got three books from the library

me of course

but only because i didn’t like the witchtown book thing

you’re the most attractive and my hair looked ridiculous it’s so windy

the wind’s so strong it was like pushing me ha

i took a picture of my hair just for you😍❤️ earlier because i wanted to see what it looked like

and good even though the power went off twice what about you

wHAT why was it terriblee

you’re not allowed to have terrible days boo

okay it’s okay i love you

my trash bin fell over in my backyard and i ran out in like the 60 mile wind to pick up the trash because i felt bad

what about you

i felt baddd trash was in my yard and i wasn’t just going to let it fly around everywhere

aw a tree just fell down behind my house and now i feel bad

and before you make fun of me yess i feel bad for a tree i’m oozing sympathy at all times

yeah i’ll stay up

well maybe i’ll stay up

i’ll stay up then if it’ll make your day less awful and i actually wasn’t busy oopsy daisies i was trying to figure out this rash thing on my legs that i’ve had for like three daYs but you probably don’t cares about my mystery rashes

i didn’t think you’d be on and i was reading if that makes it better

nooo don’t try to talk me out of this one i’m staying up because you had a bad day and that breaks my heart

and you don’t even have to give me interesting responses i can just ramble because i know you like when i do that and i don’t know if listening to me talk about random nonsense will make you feel better but

that sounds kinda selfish like “i’ll talk you don’t” but you’re probably getting what i’m trying to say

william jacob the fourth i’m staying up with you😤😤 you said it would make your day less s word and whenever you have s word days my heart breaks into ten million pieces

yeah no fight me😤 kidding kidding you’re way more muscular and also a foot taller

and i’ll be f i n e tomorrow’s saturday so i can sleep in and it’s youu that matters right now not me

you dO matter especially after a bad day

you should’ve knownn i would make a big deal out of this

too late it’s already a big deal and i’m laying in bed what about you

don’t be sorryy i love you

she’s goodd and i almost said i love you again whoops

my worst nightmare is me being like “hahah i love youu more than anything” and you’re just like “yeahhhh i don’t love you we should break up because bla bla bla bla” and you just roast me and my self esteem is destroyed

toast is pretty grosst

i had to make it rhyme like gross-t yeah you get it

and most improved boyfriend ha that makes me semi smile for some reason

i’m so funny

and i might write tomorrow for the first time in a million years

boo i should sit on the bench with you

kidding that’s impossible but i would if i could it’s the thought that counts

and it’s the count that thoughts

i love that comic joke thing

but when can you play again

the doctor man ha and that’s good

and i’ll probably go to bed soon because i don’t want to fall asleep on you because i always feel super bad

yeah i always feel super bad and i’m sorry i barely stayed up late today

yeah you should tell me

aw david does lacrosse so cute you two both play basketball anD lacrosse you two are so cute

anyways anyways yeah ha that’s probably something i would’ve said

he’s just trying to be perfect like his older brother okayy and you play the hottest sports ever

and mmmm okayyy but i’ll stay up later tomorrow if you’re on tomorrow night so goodnight hot guy i love you a lot a lot

jacoB you should tell your mom or something what the heck now i’m worrieD ugh

boo ugh if there’s something wrong i’ll die

well obviously there’s something wrong but you know what i mean

william jacob the fourth😤😤 i’m so upset you don’t seeM okay you were spitting up blood you told me the next time this happened you would tell your moM

okay you’re probably at your game now but if you don’t tell anyone i’ll cry for a thousand years

wow you’ve officially broken my heart

it’s broken and now i’ll cry myself to sleep every night until you tell her

hMPH

that’s good but i can’t believe you’re not even telling your mother

next time something happens to me i’m only telling you and no one else

okay i’m going to see a movie so if i’m not on for a while that’s why

not like a while while but like two hours

oh and i tripped on the carpet earlier

yeah i don’t even know how that happens

black panther’s sad i almost cried like 6 times ha

but i have to pee so so bad

just my mom and dad and lames

and yeah there were a lot of sad parts but i don’t know if you’re going to see it and i don’t want to spoil anything

okay so it was super sad because chadwick boseman’s dad died and when he was crowned king there was this ritual and he went back to this imaginary place and he saw his dad there so it was like heaven basically and he was like “i’m not ready” and his dad was like “you are ready you’ll be a great king” and he was like “no i’m ready to be king i’m not ready to be without you” and my heart actually crumpled up and died

and michael b jordan was the nephew of the old king and the old king killed his dad and there was this flashback of young michael b jordan holding his dead dad’s head in his lap and crying and i could not i actually started crying a little whoops

and the friend of michael b jordan’s dad if that makes sense was the reason his friend got killed so he volunteered for michael b jordan to kill him instead of chadwick so michael b jordan killed him to avenge his father’s death but he didn’t deserve it

oH and michael b jordan got stabbed by chadwick boseman in this fight they were having to decide who would be the king and michael b jordan was like “my dad always said sunsets here were the most beautiful thing you’ll ever see in your life” so chadwick brought him up to see the sunset and that was the last thing he saw before he died ugh my heart

and okayy okay fine i will

i’m eatingg what about you

sour patch kids and cool beans yo i love you

go me and it was okay how about youu

yeahh my anxiety’s been bad and i feel kinda weird and you should tell your mom about the blood stuffff

yeah it would helpp if you told your mom

whyyyyy are you worried about me

oh pshhhhh that’s not even that important

barely and i love you toooo you’re perfect

you aree and you’d be even more perfect if you told your mom about the blood stuff and i’m laying down what about you

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh and yeah sure you should

noooooo it’s nott you’re breaking my heart by not telling someone

and she’s good

but seriously💔💔😭😭

i’ll stay up but onlyy if you tell your mom

which isn’t much of a threat but

jacobb i’m worried about you

but why did it come back at all

and ugh i’m still worried

i don’t believe you

🤔🤔💔💔

i’m going to cry my eyeballs out so you should go to the doctor or something

if something like thatt happened to me what would youu want me to do

but finE fine fine fine fine don’t do anything about it

maybeeee i don’t know

i dooo love you but youu didn’t tell your mom so i don’t know if i shouldd stay up

should i🤔🤔and good how about you

i’m still mad you didn’t tell anyone so i don’t know william jacob the fourth

“i feel like i’m about to vomit i feel awful and i woke up with a small pool of blood and there was blood around my mouth and i was spitting it up too but don’t worry it’s not even that big of a deal” psH

yes , babe i am mad at you😤😤 i can’t believe youuuuuu

you were flipping out when i was just having trouble breathingg let alone bleeding out of random places i don’t even know

i wouldn’t have suffocatedd it was just anxiety issues because apparently whenever i have super log anxiety episodes i get these weird asthma attacks but not like crazy bad ones

anyways yeah you should show your mom your sheets too when you tell heRrr

okay fine

i’m sorry for bothering you about it then

okay i understand i guess

you should but you said you didn’t need anything else to worry about

i do really want you to i’ve been saying that like all dayy but you were like “allie stop i’m fine stop bothering me about it bla bla bla”

okay good

i love you too

i guesss why

well psh i’m always weird and i’m alrighttt you didn’t do anything

i wasssss yay go me unless i did something bad then boo me

too bad you can’t really remember it and okay so i was thinking and you know how when you look something up and you want to know if a tomato is a fruit or something so you type in like “tomatoes are” and then a ton of recommended things are like “tomatoes are cool” “tomatoes are garbage” like why look up an opinion like what do you think you’re going to get

i think everyone’s bad in my dreams i’m such a paranoid egg in my dreams

and i love you so so so so so much too jacob

mhmmmm sure and i haven’t had a weird dream in forever so i’m upset about that

it’s probably only been like three days though

oh yeahhh the random stretch mark dream and i love you toooo so so much

it was just my dreamm don’t be heartbroken

noooooooo i do nott think you’re like that

i’ll go to beddd you need rest

andd i really really hope you go to the doctors tomorrow

but goodnight hot guy i love you a lot a lot

bonjour good morning hot guy i love you more than anything and i hope you didn’t bleed out of unfortunate places again

speaking of bleeding out of unfortunate places i haven’t gotten my period in over a month and that’s not good ha

oh well ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

i responded so fast go me but it’s because i’ve been laying in bed for like an hour and a half

and i’m also obsessed with you but noooo i’m not pregnant it’s probably just my thyriod or uterus not knowing how to act as usual

and i’m not trying to naggg you but you should go to the doctors today

and i know i know you don’t want to tell your mom

okay fine then don’t go i guess i can’t force you to do anything

nothing, you

yeah i’m fine why

that’s what i’ve been saying but noOoo my advice isn’t good enough

boo no have you gone to the doctors

ughhhh i hate when you’re sick

what no i’m super stressed now but it’s okay i love you more than anything

ugh rip my heart and i know that sounds selfish but i’m not trying to sound selfish just extremely worried and ugh again

i hope you’re okay

or else i’d die

your appendix should hurry up and get out i’m so stressed i could cry/vomit

ughhhhhh i love you

💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

ugH finally i was worried it would be like greys anatomy where there are a ton of cocky surgeons and they all fight over a surgery then the loser has to do some everyday surgery so they’re like “ugh just taking an appendix out guess i’ll just have a personal problem and freak out in the middle of the surgery” and i thought you would diE i almost died

and yeah you should get some rest and i love you so so much

and not to be thatt guy but i totally called it and i knew you should’ve gone to the doctor so i told you so🌚 sorry ha

i miss you but i hope you feel better

haaa i was right i’m going to talk about this forever

so always listen to mee🌚 and okay it’s okay

i told youuu did i not

looks like me worrying was worth itt

anyways i’ve been thinking about you way more than i usually do which i didn’t even know was possible

well this is going to sound lame but in my book it’s homecoming and kissing and stuff so i’ve been thinking about us going to homecoming and kissing and stuff ha

it’s called where i live and we shouldd go to homecoming together i want that more than anything right now which again sounds lame

and ha i love you

welll it’s obvious what you should doooo you should come over yeah good idea great idea

you should and i’m being serious but i’m not getting my hopes up and you can go to sleep if you want you need it

i miss you too but you can sleep if you want to it’s okay

okay and i love you and i’m sorry i can’t stop saying it i have a problem and it was good

yours was probably crazy

good thing you went to the doctorsss amiright i am and okay i hope you get a ton of rest and i love you too

i finished my book and now i’m sad

but i was thinking about you like the whole time and how much i want to kiss you or hug you or whateverr i’m obsessed

i wish i could tell you everything i thought about you but you’d just think i’m crazy

noo it would be weird i always think crazy like super detailed things

and good morning hot guy love you

ughhh i just presented and i feel like i just died

i miss you again i hope you’re okay

i have the worst period cramps i’ve ever had in my life i want to die

oh oh oh oh oh i’m bleeding yay fun

it’s only eleven so you could possibly still be sleeping but i’m still worried🌚

yeah i wasn’t even wearing a pad or anything so i was just bleeding freely for like an houR like one of those overdramatic feminists who are obsessed with period blood and armpit hair

and my cramps are strangling me but i shouldn’t be complaining considering you just had your appendix taken out

and i thought you meant tell you the details about my day i was like what but mmmmm the things i think about you are weird, but not bad weird just weird

should i tell you🤔 and that’s cool my boyfriend’s so nice and goodd they should because knowing you you’d be like “just got my appendix taken out time to play twelve lacrosse games before going to basketball practice”

i’m dying i feel like i might just perish i’m coming to the hospital you’re in and dying this is too much to handle my uterus has finally defeated me

i didd i did i took some weird super big pill things and i didn’t die surprisingly i can almost never take pills

and lucky but not because surgery obviously but since you’re staying home from school all week i guess that’s my invitation to come over and stay with you all week ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

it sucks that you can’t workout or play sports though you’ll probably die

and mmm i don’t know it’s going to sound weird and obsessed

mmm fine i just think about likee i don’t know conversations we would have and holding your hand and reading to you i don’t know

i think about reading to you and holding your hand everY single time i read it’s ridiculous

okayyy i’m going to bed so goodnight hot guy i love you a lot a lot

nooo you don’t have to apologize i understand it’s okay why you’re not on and stuff

and yay i made you smile go me but yeah i think about other stuff too butttt it’s weird

and i love you so much too you’re perfect

these cramps are kiLLing me i wish i could take out my uterus and launch it into space and since i’m thinking about you as usual i keep thinking about laying down with you and ugh

i always think about that stuff though like i used to just be like “oh wow jacob’s so perfect and amazing i love him wow again” but now i actually think about doing stuff with you and being with you instead of just like,,,,, thinking about how much i love you if that makes sense

it probably doesn’t ha

i miss you and i took more pills today and i think it helped my anxiety actually so guess i better take all of them ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

unless today was just a not bad anxiety day

well once you don’t feel weird as heck you should come over so i don’t have to thinkk about doing things with you we can just do it

good idea

and yay i was making you smile go me and besides weird how are you feeling

poor hot guy i love you and good except the stupid red sea and sorry i keep complaining about it ha but how about you hot guy

it does suck but anyways you’re perfect and i love you a lot a lot

nooo you should tell me and it’s probably not as cringey and cheesey as some of my thoughts

they’re definitely cheesey though ha like today i thought about us holding hands in the hallways at school and talking by my locker and i’m so weird

but that made me smile and no i get it i do that too

you should and you can just live with me good idea

i wish we did go to the same school and we could be one of those people everyone hates who kiss and hug and all that stuff in the hallway

you should okay good idea see you in the next school year and you can have the locker next to minee because i’m next to this senior and she won’t be there next year so

and yeah sure just block everyone ha but you’re super tall so you’ll probably block everyone as it is

yeah we have the same locker every year and of course’s my locker is on the third floor and yeah the stairs kill me

eighty fouR steps i have to walk up just to get to my locker

and yeah i’m always worried people look at my buttt on the stairs

i looked hot in your dream ha

are you saying i only look hot in your dreams🤔🤔 are you saying i’m ugly🤔🤔 wow william jacob the fourth wow

no i didn’t count the stairs ha we had to do this thing in biology once where some people had to do exercise to check heart rate levels or something and this guy was like “we should run up the steps there are 84 of them”

oh i took a picture the other day for the picture of the day thing i think it was yesterday but you know i have no concept of time

and my day was good i’m not used to not telling you about my day

how was yours and oh you were in my dream some time in the last two days i don’t remember exactly when

nooo it’s okay i don’t need to tell you about my day to survive or anything

and okay i will

nooo no i love you i’m sorry i’m so mad at myself for saying that

you haven’t snapped at me in like forever anyways and i should’ve have gotten mad at you when you did that i know you can’t help it

i still want to talk to you i love you no matter what

because i shouldn’t have said that i was probably just upset

and you won’t mess anything up i won’t flip out on things anymore that’s my fault whoops

oh okay whatever you want so au revoir i hope you feel better and sorry if you thought i would flip out or something but i love you more than anything

you won’ttt mess anything upp it’ll take a lot more than you yelling at me for me to break up with you or something

and i don’t have school today it’s canceled because it snowed

so that’s good

anyways when we get married can we get a rabbit they’re cute🌚

i’m watching victorious and tori was like to robbie “you know what’s making me stressed” and he was like “what is it tell me i’ll kill it” and i thought about you ha so would you do that for me🤔

yeahh because killing is bad william jacob the fourth

so how are you feeling

i like saying your name and sorry i was working on some story and i love you and miss you too

i changed my story idea so🌚 i can’t write science fiction i just hate it i can’t do it so yeah no not doing that but this time you’ll be in my story the whole timee instead of just a little bit yay how great is that

it’s some mystery story and it was super boring how was your day

you’re the greatest yess i love you so much and it’s good that you’re resting but not good that you’re you feeling weird

“you’re you feeling better” i’m so good at typing and aw he’s cute i love him but it sucks that it hurt but i’m not surprised he did that

and i’m at this weird basketball court and there’s this coat rack behind this door where i’m standing so i thought the coat was a person and i got scared so i moved away and i hit my head while moving

and it hurt really bad

aH there was actually someone in there and i was standing halfway in front of the door so they were looking at me/the game or whatever and it scared me so badDd and then they turned the lights off but i could see them for like two seconds before they disappeared and i hit my head again so now i’m scared for real

and also in pain

but whatta cutie he’s so cute

oh and this is random but i took a picture of my eyeball last night and i actually have visible eyelashes how great is that

the thing i hit my head on is wet ew

okay sure i will and that’s not good

and i already died too late i hit my head too many times

woww you’re already asking to marry someone else

i see how it is william jacob

you probably just want to marry someone else😔😔💔💔

and i know it’s so rude that you have come over so we can’t even get married

it is your bad and okay

i wish you were serious ugh

well school ends on the 15th so be there or be square😤😤

okay i’m counting on it

watch me get my hopes up as usuallll and then my heart will be broken

since likeee may but we didn’t start dating until june

wow that’s perfect school ends in june and you can come over in june for one year of us dating wow what a good idea

oh whoops i didn’t realize you responded i was about to go to bed

i’ll go to bed at 10:30 so like 13 minutes

whattt you like hearing what i think about youuu okay i’ll tell you because i can’t keep it in but okay goodnight hot guy i love you a lot a lot

okay just g o i love you ha but okay i’ll just rant about what i think about you because ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ why not

okayyy soo i don’t know how to say it without sounding creepy🌚 but like whenever i do something like trip or drop something i always think about what you would say or do and i always think about laying down with you which sounds kinda weird but it’s okay and i always think about kissing you and just being with you like 24/7 and i’m being really cringey saying this stuff ha but i get really detailed whenever i think about you likee i actually imagine conversations we could have in my head and i really really really want to hear your voice it’s probably super hot just like youu and i just really want you to come over and stuff but i know there’s a good chance it might not happen which breaks my heART so much you have no idea so i guess i’ll just bug you about coming over until you get tired of it ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ but anyways i love you more than anything and i alsoo think about saying i love you more than anything to you all the time too

oh and thanks for staying up even though you were suffering

jacobbb you were in my dream and i’m super shook and i’ll try to keep it short since you’re already going to be reading my awful paragraph

okay we were both in jail for some reason with sam from icarly and sam and i had just gotten there and you were just sitting there and you came over to me and you actuallY said “i know for a fact i can get you to fall in love with me before you leave” and i was like whatTt but then sam thought you were talking to her psh but she died later but i kept trying to be with you and of course i fell in love with you how could i not but then one day on this bus you had weapons and stuff i don’t know i got scared but it’s okay i still love you

and one time i was trying to see you but my principal from middle school almost stopped me

so you shouldd come over and hear my voice yeah great idea and my dream was super realistic because everyone called you “the hottest guy alive” and i mean,,,, it’s true

probably because i was thinking about you a lot before i went to bed

you cann go to sleep but i can talk for like the next half hour

but if you want to you obviously can

and i knoww i know my dream was so weird and you looked super hot as usual

because i skipped school to talk to you🌚 kidding and i love you too

i’m in math and we have a substitute and she doesn’t care what we do and i’m on the other side of the room so she can’t really see me

also i can probably talk in french too if you don’t want to go to sleep again

i’m in french right now and it’s okayyy i love you a lot

it’s okay

my anxiety’s been super bad lately and now i’m having a super hard time breathing soo rip i’m scared

but it’s okay i don’t want to bother you i know you have a lot to deal with i’ll just tell my mom or something

sorry i’m okay i guess

but whattttt what happened in your dream

likeee i don’t know my chest hurts and i can’t really breathe and my lungs feel weird if that makes sense

i didd but she didn’t care as usual and yes you should you should always come over

“oh well that’s chill” haha if i showed up out of nowhere would you actually say that

and yeahh but it’s in my mom’s purse and she’s not here which is actually really irresponsible of me to do

we should i want that more than anything

which probably sounds ridiculous

us holding handsss

and yeah i’m fine it’s fineee i’m not going to die or anything

okayy sure what’s the important question

haha both i guess

what do you do

also when i get anxious i hold my hands super tight and pinch ha which sounds weird i know i know so i’ll try not to like slaughter your hands or anything

you probably don’t want to hold hands now ha but i won’t pinch you but i’ll probably squeeze your hand

aw i want to hold david’s hand and mhmm

and yeah are you suree i get anxious a lot so i’ll squeeze your hand like twenty thousand times a day

and i have these super small cuts all over my hand now

watch when we get married you’ll hate me and all of my anxious habits ha

the nickname al is funny to me i don’t know why and you shoulddd i really want you to

and we can just share a locker psh everyone shares lockers i can’t believe i didn’t even think of that

notttt attractive i get very pinchy when i’m anxious it’s weird

like whenever i feel an anxiety attack coming on i just pinch my thigh or something really hard it makes me feel better i don’t know

i won’t pinch you though so don’t worry and yeah we can kiss at my locker and you can help me not die on the stairs and we can hold hands in the hallway and other school stuff i don’t know my school’s boring

yeahh it hurts but i don’t know it makes me feel like i’m not about to die and i have one like every day

not really anxiety attacks but i have this extreme phobia of throwing up as you knoww so i always think about throwing up then i worry about it then i feel like i might throw up and then when i pinch myself i snap out of it

and nooo i don’t want to pinch you i’ll just kiss you instead

¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

and school’s probably exciting with me but only because of the faces i make and how much complaining i do

maybe not exciting but entertaining that’s for sure

i love you too and noo ask me

ughhhhhhhh

oh yeah nahh i’m good and i would feel bad about myself for being lame and you would get salty and my feelings would get hurt and it would be a train wreck

anyways what’s cookin good lookin

getting ready to come overrrr good idea you should do that

never mind i’m going to get confusedd

mhmmmm a hot man

my man😍🔥❤️💖

anyways i’m thinking about you as usual

my answer to whattt i’m so confused

welllll i don’t know what to tell you hot guy

i don’t knowwww william jacob the fourth

i don’t knoww if i will i don’t even know the question

mmmmmmmm🌚 i don’t want to answer i’m going to feel bad about myself

becausee i’m lame and i know i know you’ve told me a million times that i’m nottt yeah yeah

mhmmmm and i love you too

ughhhhh

becauseee i’m going to feel lame

i careee and i’m not perfect at all

because then i’m going to feel badd about myself

and ughhhhhhhhhhh

okayy i won’t tell you🌚 love you

and alsoo i’m going to bed soon

you didn’t even say it back

wow </3

ugH finEeEee the most i’ve ever done is kissed okayY okay

now you’re imitating me with the capital letter things

geez louisE and i’m not elaborating on anything i’m going to bedd goodnight hot guy love you a lot a lot

we should kiss righttt right we definitely should and hmmm good morning hot guy love you

i meant to say mhmmm not hmmm

my bad oh well

anyways i was thinking about you a lot this morning as usual

it never ends i always think about you

i have this donut in my bookbag and i think i squished it so now i’m sad

i’ll take that as my invitation to come over and help you with your homework and my donut better be okay or else i’ll cry

and no

don’t worry the donut’s okay and i ran out of pads and i’m at the library so fun times amiright

but seriously thank goodness the donut’s okay i would’ve been so upset i love donuts and i’ve been looking forward to it all day

i’m so dramatic ha

kids talk so much

it never ends it’s like me talking

and i knoww david’s like that but it’s probably cute when he does that

yeah you can just go to my school on monday and nO william jacob the fourth how rude he is nott annoying i love him

and yeah sure i’m such a fighter but it sucked

i felt like one of those girls who are obsessed with period blood because “it’s all natural bla bla it’s part of life guess i’ll just bleed into this cup and use it as a face mask thing ¯\_(ツ)_/¯” i hate people that do that almost as much as i hate flat earthers

my mom and i were talking and i was like “i’m going to marry someone who will order for me and if they die before me i’ll just die too” and she was like “oh my god he’ll never want to go out then” and i said i need someone who will order me chicken nuggets so good thing we’re getting married amiright i am

guess whaT i’ve been writing and i’m writing you in now whatttt how great

it’s okayyyy and i love you too and actuallyy i wrote one chapter thing today without you in it because you’re not in it until the second chapter and i wasn’t feeling up to writing the second one i felt like it would be bad but i’ll put you in it tomorrow i promise

ughhhhhh i’m too lazy to get my laptop

love youuu and i’ll send it to you tomorrow and sure but not too late

love you tooo and mhm can’t forget the eyes

so how are you feeling

they’re just eyesss normal eyes and haha that made me smile so much

nooo they’re so boring they’re just poop colored eyeballs

and ha i love you and nah but you are

you should come over so we can fight

good idea

i say you should come over like at least 1000 times a day ha

what’s the favor

we can’t get marriedd until you come over so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ oh well guess you should come over

i’m probably getting annoying but whateverr

okayyy i’ll marry you

so you should come over

that would be the best thing in the world

and nooo you never annoy me

you shouldd even though you’re probably not serious which makes me want to die💔💔💔💔 and yeah we should go to hershey park it’s the best but also a lot of walking so i get lazy

i aM seriousss i want that more than anything i only think about it like 24/7

and okay yay you should carry me good idea

why the mhmmm and it’s okay you can go to sleep i’m getting tired too

what are the reasonss and school was good it went by super fast

how was your day

that’s good but you didn’t answer my questionn

well okay

goodnight night love you a lot a lot

goodnight night yeah

but go you

and you should tell me the reasons that you wouldn’t tell me last night

i saidd i want you to come over more than anything bla bla bla and you were like mhmmm i love you and i asked why you said mhmm and you said reasons

sureeee you don’t but you should come over

and yeah totally sick

sick as frick

i was going to say something but i forgot

so nevermind🌚

i’m writing what about you and mmmm maybe

so us getting married won’t make your 2018🤔 woww and this is random but not but do you say twenty eighteen or two thousand eighteen

oh you missed some positivity yesterday

i actually called myself pretty yesterday even though i’m not whattt yay go me

not reallyyy i changed my mind i’m pretty not pretty and yeah same i guess i say both it depends on the context

we should date and fineeee but since i’m going to show you you have to come over

and nooo i am not

oh i’m watching icarly and carly was like “oh sam got a boyfriend and he’s all she ever thinks about” and that’s me

i always think about youu always it’s crazy

i keep responding super fast what and yeah old nick shows are the best and okayyy fine fine but you better come over then

sorryyy and i miss you too

ha that made me laugh a little but probably because i’ve been laughing a lot lately i don’t know but i doo love you you know that

i like you and yeah i’ll stay up since i already am technically

well i love you

i just one-upped myself

is upped even a word

whatever

i love you most

boom one-upped you

and no i have no idea when it is but i remember you saying a while ago that hot girls were always at the beach and you used to makeout with them on the beach or whatever the hecky spaghetti so now i’m scared you’re going to replace me on your spring break

actually i think it’s at the end of this month and mm

sure

mhmm after you replace me with the girls you makeout with not on the beach in the summer😤😤

you should come over for your spring break good idea

you should and not really i woke up pretty late today

are you tired

wellll i went to a basketball game and

thought about you

and

that’s it

what about you what did you do today

yeah i love watching basketball and probably you coming over

because you should do that

it’s a good idea🌚

i love you

sooo you shouldd and nah but i don’t want to go to school on monday i’d rather talk to you

i mean okay i guess i’ll go to sleep if you want me to or something

okay goodnight love you a lot a lot

ha why are you sorry i love you

nahh i’m not upset and i miss you too

and yeah my writing’s so great mhm

no but i’ll write when i get home probably and i responded so fast go me and noo there’s no one mean at my school named elizabeth that i know of

but i should’ve named her after those girls but whatever i’m too lazy to change it

i always respond fast i have no life but noo i’m not writing yet i’m not home yet

sorry i was cleaning my room because my mom was nagging me to do it over springbreak and it made me want to die so i just did it now

and you’re coming over spring break so i didn’t want to clean then🌚

no i never do basically

watch you go someplace fancy for spring break like barbados or jamaica or something

also want to see the most allie like thing ever from when i was like five

i don’t do anything in bel air so and you said that so casually ha like “in the country out of the country ¯\_(ツ)_/¯”

and the equator’s probably too cold for you

you should take me to ecuador with you so you don’t replace me

and it’s not even that big of a deal you probably won’t pass out

yeahhhhh sure you won’t and yay i love your smile

not to be weird but in human growth and development on friday i kept looking at pictures of you🌚 i mean we were allowed to be on our phones so why not spend that time wisely i mean

you say that nowww but once you get to ecuador you never know

i say like twenty five times a dayy that i’ll marry you and what if you meet another super hot writer girl who’s mixed and has cool eyes

you never know ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

but fine fine fine fine whatever you sayy

i’m writinggg and yes i’ll send it to you, what about you

and nooo no i haven’t kissed him i would never

maybe ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ you ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ should ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ trust ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ me

and mhmmm

mhm and i love you too and she’s good she’s taking a nap as usual

how’s david

cute as usual i’m assuming and yeahh i’m still writing i hate it though so i’m trying to add more detail to it instead of deleting it

becausee it sucked and i hated it

i’ll send it to you when i’m doneee

you should come to school with me tomorrow

too bad that can’t happen💔💔

but no i’m not done i got distracted🌚

i’m not saying you couldn’tt do it i’m saying you probably don’t want to come all the way up to my school from florida

and sorryyy i’ll show it to you soon

i’mmm not playin you keep saying you’re coming over and i’m saying you won’ttt drive or whatever all the way up here

unfortunately💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

so why don’t youuu and i’m not really sure yet whoops

you should make time tomorrow🌚 just like take off school and come to my school

hmph

h m p h

they don’t have to knoww you’re two years older psh

hmPH boo you for poking holes in my dreams

how rude

mhmmm

i bet you don’t even think it’s going to happenn you basically said so yourself

mhmm and i won’tt replace you but you broke my heart💔

nevermindd just come over anyways even though you were being negative and don’t think it’ll happenn

noo i’m the one that does think it’ll happen and soon

bring whattt up

you should tell meeee and finee fine

but i rewrote it so🌚 sorry

you should tell me what you weren’t going to bring upp

ugh fineeee

i love you too hot guy and he’s good

i’m getting ready for bedd what about you

i’m not going to bed nowww and you’re hot

i willll i will and mhm i won’t deny it

yeah yeah yeah and i’m going to bed in likee ten minutes probably

haha my day was goodd how about yours hot guy

ugh my hand fell asleep so now it’s super hard to get it to type

noooo i won’t reject you

and aw💖💕 better because you’re talking to me

i noticed your flirting are you proud of me

do you just happen to be flirty with other girls🤔🤔 and yeah yeahh i’m oblivious and don’t really understand flirting

but anywayss i’m going to bed so goodnight hot guy i love you a lot a lot

mhmmm and good morning hot guy love you

oh yeah and have a really good day back at school hope you don’t replace me

daylight savings time is the most extra thing i’ve ever heard of i hate it

sureee and yeah i’m too lazy to change it

i’m at lunchh how convenient what about you

that sucks and awful my anxiety’s so bad it’s making me feel really sick

how’s your day

yeah it’s better i’m probably just dehydrated too because yesterday and today i had like no water

but yeah i was dying like i almost barfed in the middle of class i was traumatized

okay bye love you

nothing much what about you

i’ll just come to your house and not really

but it’s nothing you did so don’t worry

noooo don’t be worried i don’t like when you worry about me

uGh i’m traumatized i was laying in my bed procrastinating and i felt this thing pinching or scratching my leg or whatever and i tried to scratch it because i thought it was just an itch but guess whaT

it was a stinKBUG how awful is that

yeahh of course i did it was the worst thing ever

and now i’m spooked or something so i felt an actual itch on my leg but i thought it was a stinkbug again so i screamed and slapped my leg and now it hurts

mhmm the cutest and yeah you should come over and get all of the stinkbugs for me

yay i love you

welll you don’t have to comparee my stuff to yours yours was probably bad too but yeah boo him i should’ve been there and read for you in like a super deep voice

it would’ve been believable

even though i can’t speak in front if people i would just stutter the whole time

she’s good and whyy are you sorry for telling me

yeah my stuff’s irrelevant too i shouldn’t complain

and mhmm

mmmm yeah it is and i love you too

yeahh kinda is and sure unless it has to do something with me

or my face more specifically🌚

oh my god i’m so upset i just realized there was a harry potter marathon on sunday and i said i would watch it but i got distracted by icarly

wait no it was on saturday

even worse

ughhhh

i’m going to forcefully poke you with my wand

i was going to say stab but i wouldn’t stab you

but you always bring it up and i get embarrassed😤😤😤😤 so talk to you at seveN not six thirty, maybe even 7:30 if i’m done being partially salty at you

🌚

good thing i just checked my phone and becausee i feel lamee and nerdy like those weird gamer nerd people at school

yeah i’m sure your mom would love you hugging a girl from maryland who’s two years younger than you

who do i sound like🤔🤔 youuuu maybe

great so you can tell your mom that you’re going to see the better allie who’s full name is allison who likes harry potter and then just come over

and my parents would like youu so even more reasons

as long as you’re nice to me they probably won’t even care

yeah so they’ll like you

and you go to church so bonus points

and whenever we talk about coming over i want you to come over even more than i normally doo so now i’m depressed because you’re not here right now

yeahhhh you better come and ugh

ugh ugh ugh ugh

was it avada kedavra because you talking about my wand makes me want to die

ha

i love you too and i’ll marry you when you come over

have you gotten tired of me saying it yet🌚

great so you should🌚 okay deal and i’m watching icarly as usual what about you

i love icarly and victorious and stuff and you betterrr

should i trust/believe you🤔🤔🤔🤔

i love you too and i won’t believe you until i see you

i would freak out and smile a lot and probably never stop smiling for like a week

so you should do that

you shouldd and no i wouldn’tttt i would probably show you off to everyone because i’m dating the best person ever so why nott

yeah you totally did poke holes in my dreams and yay

you don’t have to come during schoolll but there’s always summer so🌚🌚

what’s your plan

haha what a detailed plan but i like it

i like you

i love you actually and i’m going to bed soon

whyyy i have to sleeppp

mhmmm i’m going to bed in five minutesss at the most i’m tired so if you have something important to sayyy i would say it now

okayy sure i love you

oh my gosh haha i’m going to bed goodnight hot guy i love you a lot a lot

those are a lot of a lots but good morning hot guy love you more than anything and i’m so exhausted

i love you and i can’t stop thinking about you

yeah i’m feeling better thank goodness and i was thinking about you as usual when this girl was like “bla bla bla bla hershey park” and that made me want to go to hershey park with you even more than i already do

we shoulddd i love hershey park and i have an excuse to hold your hand on the roller coasters

so once you come to bel air in the summer and get my parents to like you we can go

oh and i love you too

i’m about to go to lunch soon and we had to take this test and i didn’t study whoops and i was the second one done so now i feel like i rushed it too much and probably failed

and well i don’t even know but okay my parents are weird

they like sports and nice people and

that’s basically it🌚

you have to tolerate my mom’s craziness though and my dad’s super sarcastic so you’ll have to deal with that too

mhmmm and sure i guesss she’s crazy too

also this is random but how do you normally dress like outside of school

i don’t know in school i mostly wear jeans and some semi fancy shirt i always feel uncomfortable in but looks nice

and on the weekends i always wear either pajama pants or athletic leggings🌚 like running leggings yeah

so if you come to visit on a weekend and i’m not wearing pajama pants or leggings i’ve probably been possessed

and in the summer i don’t even know i always wear shorts that barely and probably don’t even fit from like middle school because i’m too lazy to shop for more shorts

mmmm but i like the shorts i have i’m emotionally attached and i don’t really care what you wear you look hot in everything

okayyy sure you do that

no one will even want to look at me anyways

but you should still come over

that’s finee i don’t care what you do as long as you come over

and i’ll wear appropriate fitted shorts when we go to hershey park🌚 so there’s always that

what did you say yeahhh sure to and oh yeah the physics shirt

it’s okay it’s better than yesterday at least how about you

whattt boo her 😤😤 i’m sorry that sucks i love you

yeah guess you better just go to my school and okay au revoir je tpain i love you

it means goodbye and i just went running outside and now my lungs and throat hurt so bad ugh it’s too cold

my baddd but i almost died it was awful

and now my ears hurt

mhmmm sure i will

but hershey park isn’t in florida

i was just saying it’s not in florida🤔🤔 do you not want to see me that bad or🤔🤔🤔🤔

whyyyyyy would i do that

i’ve been thinking about you coming over all day too guess it better happen ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

and you shouldd come to my school that would be the best thing ever

and then we can kiss and hold hands what a good idea

you have perfect lips and a perfect everything i love you

you shouldd and you’re right we can be happy together and kiss and share lockers and mhmm i did like it

you’re so talented and perfect i love you and yeahh i had art today but i won’t show youu any of it and i don’t even have my art stuff right now

we had to paint some animal so i just painted a clownfish because it was easy

not having riddle guy there was the best thing in the universe

besides you of course you’re the best thing in the universe

wrong but i love you too and i had to write an essay today toooo and i was thinking about you when i was writing it too just because i always think about you

i was thinking that toooo earlier when i was talking to you i was like “i miss him” but like,,, i was talking to you and i want to be with you too

i diddd like i want to hold your hand and hug you and kiss you and show you off but nooo i can’t so it made me miss you for some weird reason

and she’s goodd how’s david

how is it crazy how could i not feel the samee and he probably did something crazy cute as usual

haha sorryyy i’m such a heartbreaker

from she haha i wheezed

i always wheeze now when i laugh like not a gross wheeze it just happens when i laugh super hard sometimes and ugh

anyways ha i love you

i don’ttt break your heart it’s just going to beddd

do you want me to die from lack of sleep or something🤔🤔🤔🤔

extra in love with you and i’m exhausted so i’m going to bed soon

just a heads up je tpain i love you

sorryyyyyyy and if you came over then i wouldn’t have to break your heart

¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

okayyy i’m going to bed now so goodnight hot guy i love you a lot a lot

good morning hot guy love you more than anything and i’m super scared for today because i don’t want my anxiety to be super bad like it was on monday

it’s finee i’m okay and today in biology we were talking about passing down traits from parent to offspring and i thought about you and jacob jr

and then we talked about genetic disorders and now i’m scared what if jacob jr or allie jr or whatever have a genetic disorder whatt that’d be so bad

and apparently we’re having an assembly about the gun school shooting walkout thing i don’t even know

kidding i lied it wasn’t an assembly it was just this dumb lesson thing and we have to make these weird cards and ugh

and no i’m not doing the walkout psh

we’re not even allowed to but some people probably will

and this girl is making me super mad she keeps talking about how much she loves guns and they’re like “people are saying we should bAn guns but like i love guns when people get into car accidents we don’t baN care like people are going to find a way to get guns” like,,, like only the crazy people are saying to ban guns she needs to chill she’s going nuts

and she was like “if you want to kill someone you’re going to do it with or without a gun like my dad has a spear next to his bed” like why does he have a sPEAR oh my god

and we did this worksheet and it was like “what did you feel about the parkland shooting” and she said nothing,, she actually said nothinG like what the heck

i did i did because like geezz what the heck she was crazy about guns it made me sick and haha i’m finee

i’ll be fineee william jacob the fourth

actually you know what would make my anxiety go away

if you came over so you should come over

you willll💖💙 and it’s okayy

whyy are you worrying stop worrying i’ll be fine

boo whenever stuff like that happens to you i get upsettt but at least you’re good at math so that’ll probably help

yeah i’m sorry i love you

i just leaned on my elbow the wrong way and now it hurts what about you

my anxiety’s okay and okay adios je tpain

and this is random but you make me super super happy and i love you more than anything

yeah you make me the happiest person ever like today i was reading and i just started thinking about you and i felt really excited and happy for some reason

and i love you too and i’m thinking about you too as usual

stephen hawking died and i’m actually kinda sad i don’t know why ha

he died on pi day though so that’s kinda ironic

anyways nothingg what about you

you’re not sadd and i don’t know i just feel bad for people who have died i guess and he was crazy smart even with his fatal disease and it would be inspiring if i was into astrophysics

oh

welllll i don’t know what to say to that

i feel equally as bad for all because a death is a death

to me at least

okay well sorry for feeling bad for someone who’s died that’s my bad

guess i’m wrong for feeling bad for anyone who’s died no matter what because i have a super hard time dealing with death

okay whatever fine i would feel worse for the killed instead of the killer

my bad

but just because someone’s older when they die doesn’t mean they accomplished everything they wanted to like what you said earlier

even if they have more life experiences or whatever

oh

well sorry for not getting what you were “obviously” saying

i just didn’t know feeling equally bad for people was wrong

it sounded like you thought it was wrong

but i feel equally bad because it’s the loss of a life and in most cases it ruins other people’s lives and i just

i can’t handle it

can we please not talk about this anymore

please i can’t

it’s fine i guess you just wanted to hear my opinion and i guess i can tell you what i think

in a calmer way

oh

no i saw what you said

well sorry for being afraid to talk about death

okay

sorry i’ll be fine

no i feel bad

i feel like you feel like you can’t talk to me about things

see you do feel like that

i’m sorry

i’m sorryy i feel so bad

i’ll try not to let my anxiety get in the way because i know it’s annoying and ruins everything

it’s justt

i don’t know i feel like it’s just an inconvenience and i get hurt by everything and it probably stops you from saying what you want

and then you said “i shouldn’t have said anything i knew this would happen next time i’ll just agree with you as usual” and i feel like you feel like you have to agree with me or else i’ll get all upset

i feel like i’m just a giant inconvenience

and okay i’ll be better so you don’t feel like you have to avoid disagreeing with me

and now you’re worried about my feelings getting hurt againn probably

boo me

when you come over i’ll probably cry at like everything and you’ll hate me

mhmm sure

but i really really really really hope you come over and i’ll try not to care

well like i mean try not to get offended over everything

i justtt i don’t know i know i always overreact but this time i don’t know death is just a really really hard thing for me

it’s justt ruined my life i hate death i can’t cope with it at all so when you die i’ll die

except i’m dying before you when we get married so oh well

shrug emoji thing

what do you mean what

like death,, like having someone super close to me dying ruined my life and i know that sounds extra but i was like five when it happened so it makes sense i guess

also my back is super itchy ughhhhhh why me

yeah and we can talk about it i need to work on not getting upset at everything

welll i don’t know it’s just we were super close she was like another mother to me and she loved me and supported me more than my parents did it seemed like and no one even let me see her when she was dying i didn’t even know she was dead until the funeral and i don’t know it was just a lot for me to handle

and now i have all these panic attacks about dying and

i don’t want to feel like i’m being a burden i feel like i’m like overdramatic guy just looking for attention

mmmmm it’s fine i don’t want to overshare you didn’t ask to hear about all my weird memories and stuff and i hope i see her again someday

and you’re not allowed to die before me

or else i’ll be super upset and cry for four thousand years

they’re all worried like i was super spoiled but she always called me her precious and held me and always gave me food ha and she gave like all of her stuff to me basically so i wear her jewelry sometimes in the least weird way possible

and totally destroy you whatt you’re tough

yeah and everyone says i’m a lot like her so🌚 i’m the favorite clearly

kidding kidding but if i matter most to youuu then you know what you should dooo

you probably know what i’m going to say

yayyy i love you

i keep thinking about hershey park since like everyone at mt school’s talking about it now practically

or it seems like it at least

are you okay

just wondering and yeah i’m fine

why are you sorryy don’t be sorry it’s okay you didn’t do anything and yeah

why

i won’t pressure you into telling me

that’s fine i understand i love you

buttt if you want to talk about what you’re feeling or something then we can

oh i’m sorry i should just go to bed i feel like i’m being too much to handle ugh

becauseee first i make a huge deal and be all dramatic and make you upset at me then i whine about my past and bring up bad stuff for youuu

i ammm i’m being extra i need anxiety meds or something

but i’m going to bed soon amywayss i can’t deal with myself today

mmmmm sure sure sure i am

i wouldd i really really want to but then i’ll be exhausted in the morning

whattt you’ll get up early just to talk to me

how crazy is that

i doo think that’s crazy and i know you tell me how much you love me like every night and i’m just oblivious but yeah if you’re waking up earlyy just to talk to me i don’t know what else you’d do for me

i’m sorryyyy haha i just don’t understand anything i’m so oblivious like we could be at our wedding and you could read your vows and i’d be like “wow how cool is that haha anyways” like it’s ridiculous

but i dooo accept your love

yeah i totally was and whaT i love golden retrievers ugh they’re my favorite i love them

you shoulD then i’ll take it🌚 or you can just bring her when you come over

yes i willll i could sit in your lap and the dog could sit in mine

then i could pay attention to both of you at the same time

well don’t just ruin my good idea pshhhhh and yess i love dogs so much

it makes me so happy when you say that

i love you so much too

yeah it makes me super happy

can’t wait until i can say it in personn wink wink

anywaysss i’m going to bed i told myself i would go to bed at 9:45 but i obviously failed so goodnight hot guy thank you for listening to my weird problems i love you a lot a lot

jacobb i’m sorry and i would never ignore anything you said unless i was mad at you but i’m not mad so nah

but anyways i can’t really say for a fact but noo you’re not like that you’re perfect and you’d never do any of that stuff and you make your name perfect and we don’t have to talk about this anymore if you don’t want i don’t want to make you upset or anything

wait no just kidding i can say that for a fact why the heck did i say that

ughh i love you you’re perfect

i love you too so much and i feel bad you didn’t have to wake up early just for me

i was going to say something about you coming over but you’re probably sick of it

too bad i’m saying it but if you came overr you could talk to me before school every morning

and i’m wearing my physics shirt thing today whattt how crazy

mhmmm that’s good and she’s good

whatcha doing hot guy

you’re super hot and yeah i’m at school ally was too lazy to walk around so i’m just sitting in homeroom talking to you

lucky we have to be in homeroom by 7:27 or else we’re counted as late or something

today i have human growth and development first and i have a test in that class today and i didn’t even study but whateverrr

because i’m too lazyyyyy and it’s an A day

and my eyes feel super puffy and i hate it

noo it looks like i just bawled my eyes out and good how about you

did youuu cry🤔🤔 asking the important questions

and i never tell you when i cry unless it’s over a minor inconvenience and i’m being dramatic because you always make a big deal out of it and worryy and i don’t like when you worry a lot

i hate my friends ha we’re all in english and my friend katie has fruit loops and my friend ariana wrote her friend this note and rolled it up super tight and put it inside the fruit loop and she glued another fruit loop on it like a face and she said it’s our new god now and i,, why

and i actually almost spelled fruit like froot

i can’t make this stuff up it’s so weird

it looks demonic i’ll show you

i couldn’t stop laughing ha you’ll probably smh me or something but whateverrr

whyyyy are you worriedd

it wasn’t anything you didd just like

an anxiety attack i guess

but it wasn’t your fault so you better not feel bad

i didn’t tell youuu because i didn’t want you to freak out

you doooo freak out and i was crying because i was like “wow i love jacob so much he’s so perfect i can’t handle it”

also i was feeling really rushed today at my locker so i was just throwing books in and i got a paper cut and i took a picture for some reason but then i realized you don’t like blood so

whatttttttt and okay sure

actually it’s too small to see in the picture

okay sure and actually it’s not small it’s big i don’t know why i said that

and okay au revoir love you too hot guy

it hurts to typee ugh because my skin from the cut is like pulling apart

haha ew that sounds gross

ughhhh it hurts so bad now i’m being so overdramatic

and actually i did cry yesterday because anxiety but also this morning i was super moody and cried over literally everything so there’s that

you’re going to think i’m so annoying haha but okay i cried because i couldn’t find my favorite spoon thingy i use to make my eggs and i left my socks upstairs and i got upset and i couldn’t find my jacket so i let like four tears out whoops

not reallyy but today’s the ides of march which i supposed to be a super bad day or something so maybe that’s why i was upset and oh okay

my paper cut stiLL hurts guess you better come kiss my hand oh wellllll

and okie dokie artichokie

oh no william jacob the fourth on victorious jade was talking about this guy and she was like “i don’t trust him, anyone that hot and that perfect has to be hiding something” and you’re the hottest and most perfect🤔🤔 so are you hiding something🤔🤔

okayy i’m going to bed goodnight hot guy i love you a lot a lot

yeah duh that is the only option and nooo you’re the super hot too perfect one

and no my hands are weird but that is the best band aid

oh wait no i ruined it yeah my hand is super attractive you should come hold it yeahh good idea i know

i love you too and i will

and ugh my anxiety’s so bad today jacob what the heck i feel like i might cry i don’t want to be here i want to go home

i responded super fast but only because i’m at lunch but i can’tt she’s making me stay and i want to die i feel sick

and my hands are super red because i can’t stop scratching or pinching or whatever and now my hand’s red and bleeding and whyy me why do i have to suffer

i’m so upset william jacob the fourth

nooo i’m not i’m awful but i’ll stop complaining about it it’s annoying

noo it’s fine and she won’t she doesn’t even care

she probably doesn’t care and it’s fineee i just want the day to be over so i can just go home and cry

kidding i won’t cry because that would make you upset but i’ll cry on the inside

okay good when i get home i’ll probably just take a shower and cry for like twelve years

that sounds depressing but whateverr and i love you

i don’t deserve you either but you still love me

get itt i’m so clever because you’re so perfect and i’m so not

don’tt worry about me it’s all stupid and i’m in french and we’re watching les miserables or something and she doesn’t care what we do so

no it’s the most stupid thing everr it’s so unreasonable and okay adios je tpain i love you

totally unvalid and yeah thank god so maybe i won’t have to bawl my eyes

out

i won’t have to bawl my eyes out ha how did i forget the out

today went by so slow it was agonizing

and i didn’t even eat lunch today because i was so stressed i would throw up so now i’m starving

haha i’m just slowly telling you about my day and you didn’t even ask

not yet i think i just have to go to the bathroom🌚 because my stomach hurts but i can’ttt because i’m not even at my house do how fun

yeah the only way it could get worse is if you died or something

so don’t die or else

best time to tell me what

no you should just tell me

i’m already having a bad day so it would be better if you told me now instead of ruining my good day some other time

william jacob the fourth😤😤 i’m so mad

no kidding kidding kidding i’m kidding i’m not mad at all ha

i thought it would have to do with ac or something like “i’m dating her now and we want to get married so” but i’m happy that’s not it

love you too and suree

also at the library there’s a pond and a wood dock thing that goes over the pond and i’m always scared i’m going to fall off

oh wait i forgot to finish what i was saying haha

i’m there now so hopefully i don’t fall off into the water

i thought i lost my brother and i started crying because that’s noT what i needed today but don’t worry i found him

and too late i’m mad at you you should stay and talk to mee🌚 kidding you’re already gone

but heyy my friend goes to lifting and i always make fun of them for their noodle arms

but your arms are hot so it’s okay

well sorryyy i didn’t know you said lifting so i just assumedd it wasn’t lacrosse and yeah it was like four mini tears but i feel better now

boo i’ll have to find something to do tomorrow

yeahh i will because you won’t be on a lot tomorrow

noooo i’ll stay up talking to you will make my day better

i dooo say so and haha you’ll probably fail at that like “waiT i have something important to say,,,,, please” then waste like twenty minutes🌚 ha

well not wastee because i get to talk to you but you know what i mean

haha you could just askkkk me

ugh my lip’s bleeding

and jacob

jacob

jacob

jacob

but youu said you didn’t like blood and i love you too

wow how romantic and my lips always bleed it’s so inconvenient

but i don’t cry over it so i don’tt cry over every inconvenience wow go me

waiT i forgot to ask you

since you actually live in florida you do pronounce it like flarida or floorida

yeah i pronounce it like floorduh or whatever but the only reason i asked that was because my teacher said flarida the other day and it bugged me for some reason

i really want to hear your voice it’s probably the hottest thing ever

wait

since you live near country catskinner alabama do you have a country accent

my dad says y’all but he doesn’t have a country accent

and okay good country accents are weird🌚 in the nicest way possible and yeah no i don’t have a country accent at all

noo my voice sounds awful

and i was walking yesterday and i said hi to some guy in my neighborhood and he was like “well howdY” and i walked like ten million miles faster than i was originally walking

wellll not to stereotypeee but from what i’ve seenn a lot of people with country accents are racist

and i’m double the minority ha

oh like a week ago these people were talking about stereotype threat for their project thing and they were like “if a black person does bad on a test they’ll be worried that they’re confirming the stereotype that blacks aren’t as smart but if an asian person does bad on a test they’ll worry they’ll be made fun of for not fitting the stereotype” so like,,, what happens to me since i’m both do i just double suffer or

i didd crack the code

if i could whistle i would be whistling the illuminati thing now

your collage thing says p e n d i n g boo

you used the wrong your/you’reeee and nooo i want to see it still

you’re so hotttt

too hot

and perfect and i love you you’re so talented i could never do whatever you were doing i don’t know

watch you be like “ugh allie so lacking in knowledge i was obviouslyy doing aljddjkd at this fancy as heck lake house”

oh william jacob you better not hurt yourself when we get married i’m not good in situations like that ha

but you’re so rich i only have onee house

sorry

so what’s shakin bacon

becausee i know some people get offended if you call them rich

and i don’t know what kind of shirt you should get

one you look hot in oh wait that’s every shirt ever🌚 ha i’m so annoying

i don’t know people get offended at some pretty crazy stuff

like me unfortunately

but you should get those fancy simply southern shirts all the guys at my school wear so when you come over you’ll blend right in

my mom likes to buy me clothes but she’s crazy so i just accept it or else she’ll do something weird

and i have like three simply southern shirts but they’re all too tight around my chest so i don’t like simply southern🌚 kidding kind of

i’m nott even that thick and go you making your mom proud

but she raised youu and you’re perfect so i like her and i’m nott but even if i was i should still be able to have shirts that fit around my chestt

mhmmmm yeah totally

kidding no but i love you

yeah i feel way better and i didn’t cry so it’s okay

she’s goodd how’s your mom

david issss a cool kid he’s the coolest kid besides you

jacob i’m so upset my mom’s watching this movie and someone was like “what makes the earth so perfect” and i was like “me” and my mom said no

she was like “mm no” i’m so heartbroken

ha and more like rudeee but you should tell me about david and his coolness

also i’m super tired so i might just randomly fall asleep at a super random time so

just letting you know🌚

aw that made me smile he’s sooosososo adorable

are you okay and i’m laying down what about you

aww i love when you two do things togetherrr it makes me happy and haha i’ve never seen it before

you two are so cute together and love you too and my stomach hurts

you should i love you

i was just about to say i love you againnnn what is wrong with me

haha that is the will effect i love you tooo you’re perfect

noooo i like it and yeah i atee you don’t have to worry

okayyy whatever you sayy and i’m okay

yeahh that’s exactly what you’re saying and i feel bad but i’m going to bed soonn i feel awful and i’m tired

but i want to talk to you

what a dilemma

mhmmm🌚 what do you have to sayy

haha noo that makes me happy i love you too

so goodnight hot guyy i love you a lot a lot and you’re perfect

sorryy i’m awake good morning love you

oh my gosh ha my anxiety was so bad yesterday that i have no energy today

like at all i feel like i can’t even move my legs they’re so tired

i say like too much

wait i guess that means you should just carry me oh well

you’re so h o t it’s so hot that you play basketball and it’s bad that you lost but good that you got to play even though you weren’t supposedd to

and i just got this super super sharp pain in my upper rib cage side area and it hurt soso bad that’s probably what a heart attack feels like

it happens all the time it’s fine and maybe you just have to go to the bathroom

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

but if notttt then you should tell your mom

becausee it just is it happens a lot and mhmm

i doo say and it’s better than yesterday

so whatcha doing hot guy

i think i have like a very mild version of the flu or something because every time i eat something my stomach feels gross but like not enough for me to barf or anything

but that won’t stop me from eating ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

and you’re the hottest athlete and that’s cool i have track tryouts on monday

mhmm i probably do need luck but you know what i’m totally looking forward to besides you coming over

shin splintss yay the best part of track amiright

during track season i alwayss get them even though i’ve always been running and it feels so weird to walk without them

and no you didn’t do good i’m not hot but i love you

it’s okay and mhmm

okay sure i will and i do love you

nooo i am not you’re the best

nahh and i’m laying down what about you

you should come i don’t feel well

like not sickk just i feel really off today

so we should lay down together

if we got to lay down together i’d cry tears of joy

haha okay i’d tell you

i love you

okay yay and i want to kiss you too but i don’t tell you about it in case you think i’m weird🌚

nooo i don’t think you’re weird i like hearing about you talk about stuff like that it makes me smile

that’d be the best day ever then and i’m still laying down what about you hot guy

okie dokie artichokie love you too

my stomach feels better finallyy but my head hurts now so oh well guess you should kiss it ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

and i made cupcakes so wow another reason for you to come over

just vanilla because i’m bland

kidding i love vanilla i don’t know why everyone hates on it but it’s good that you won but you did just get surgery likee a week ago so it makes sense that you’re “out of shape”

although your out of shape is probably better than my in shape

i’m at a game what about you and whattt that actually did happen ha i ate two cupcakes and then i felt sick

well actually like 1.5 cupcakes whoops

i love you too and you’re super hot and nooo i just like watching basketball a lot

oh ha and he’s good and my heart hurts

ha i love you and he finished his season he won the championship so that’s good and because you broke it💔 kidding i don’t know why

but have i told you i keep thinking everything’s my name like every word that has the ah sound like in allie or whatever i think it’s my name

like today someone was talking about acid on tv and i thought they kept saying my name psh

mhmmmm so how’s david

booo isn’t he so cute

noo because i’m not cute

i haven’t updated you on any “cute” things i’ve done either

the only cute thing i can remember is me being too short to reach something so i had to get on the counter to get it because i couldn’t find the stool

hmphhhhh but we should get married good idea

and i’ve only been saying yess for forever and that’s good i say it a decent amount

I’m so hot😩🔥👏🏼

the fire is unreal you can’t handle it I’m getting a new man😤😤

are youuuu

i’m not doubtinggg just making suree

i was just askingggg william jacob my badd

and oh

haha i’m sorryyyyy i love you and i was going to say just kidding afterwards but nah

and whyyy does me saying oh make your heart drop

ha this is making me smile so much which is probably bad but ha

haha i get mad all the timee it’s probably not even a big deal i’m very emotional

and don’t be embarrassedddd it made me smile it showed you care🌚

that’s how i feell when you say “date me” and stuff i feel so awkward i don’t know what to say

and don’t be sorryyy i’m serious you didn’t do anything wrong and you won’t lose meee

jacobb no😤😤😤😤

actuallyyy you started it william you brought up the oh thing and did you really expect me nottt to say it

haha sorryyyy smhhh i love you

i only said smh because you didd but yeah i did smh you psh

and i just pshed you so🌚 take that william

and i love you too

noooo i like hearing that it makes me the happiest person in the world and i love you so much too

and yeah we should kiss and i’ll fangirl over you when you come over and look crazy

i want to be with you tooooo so bad and i love you and whatttt are you talking about when

and you don’t suck😤😤 so you should never say that again

that happened a while agoooo and no you don’ttTt stopp you’re perfect hmph

don’t beeeeee pleasee it’s not even a big deal now

i’m not stressed outt but please don’t feel bad about it

for mee because i want you to not feel bad about it

jacobb i love you

and don’t feel bad it’s not hard to upset me i get upset over everything

i’m sorry

i feel like this is my fault for some reason

too late i’m worried about you but nothing much what about you

oh okay

i’m sorry

you didn’t do anythingg though you’re okayy i’m not upset or anything

okayyy so i guess i’m going to bed so goodnight hot guy i love you a lot a lot and i hate that you feel bad you did absolutely nothing wrong and i don’t want you to feel bad at all i love you so much

good morning i’m sorry

jacobb jacob jacob jacob jacob jacob i love you

becauseee i feel bad

oh yeah i’m sorry i love you and i’m eating cereal what about you

i feel better and you were in my dream last night

nooo that wasn’t ittt but we were in this baking competition under water and i forgot how to make icing and you tried to sneak out to some store to buy it and i got super stressed out then there was this dancing mob under water and when you came back you looked way different and you had like white hair and then i just hugged you the whole time because i “missed you and thought i lost you” psh and you didn’t roast me or anything so it was okay

but we won the baking competition so that was good

nooo i love your hair how it is it’s perfect and i’ll hug you no matter what

but wait no don’t go missing

yay i love you💕💙💖❤️

go me and okay and she’s good she like just woke up

how’s david

bye love you too

whatttt how crazy i love you my boyfriend’s so talented and amazing i’m proud of you yay

and sorry you were busy so i decided to go with my mom and her friend to the ma and pa trail which is this super long trail thing and ugh i was dying i ran because tryouts are tomorrow and yeah we should walk there when you come overr good idea

i amm proud of you i’m always proud of you when you do things like that ha and tryouts are three days ugh

and the ma and pa trail is like this super long trail in the woods and it’s fivee miles i was suffering so much

but there are a ton of hills so i would be complaining the whole time with you

oH yeah there was this baby toddler girl on the trail and i’m pretty sure she was a little version of me because she fell which i would do and she started crying which i would probably also do and then a dog came by and she stopped crying and she was like “i wanna,, i wanna pet the dog please” so yeah me

ughhh allie jr psh and yay then we can hold hands and kiss every mile good idea

okayy we’ll kiss at leasttt every half mile and i love you too

wow my boyfriend’s so strong😍🔥 and whyyy did you punch the fridge and i’m about to take a shower what about you

oh and my anxiety’s finee it’s better than it was friday when i almost sobbed in the middle of class

ugh my lip’s bleeding again i’m so mad

whyyy did you need to hit something are you okay

and yeah i don’t even know what was wrong with me on friday i honestly didn’t even think i would make it through the day ha i thought i would die or barf or something like that

i don’t believe youu but i won’t bother you about it if you don’t want and barelyy and i love you too

that’s reassuring i feel like i’m annoying and good what about you

noo i wasn’t being sarcastic but since you’re sore that means i can’t sit in your lap rip me

haha i wouldn’t sit in your lap if you had a broken back but okay i’m coming and yeah i already showered

nooo i never do anything hot ever

i don’t know what i do that you think is hotttt

mhmm yesssss i have i love you

i’m shooting around so you should come join me

good idea

ah william jacob the fourth i hate myself i’m at the store now and there were these mirrors and i walked by one and i got scared because i didn’t know what it was

“smhhh” psh

i love you too and there was this darker spot on the floor and i stepped on it and i almost fell over because i thought it was water and did some weird hop dance thing

whenever i tell you weird things i’ve done twice in a row i feel annoying ha

whatever you sayyy i feel like it’s annoying to listen to

but yet again i think that about everything i say

tu est parfait

du bist perfeckt

anyways me too my legs are sore and tired

haha sorry i love you and i will i will so i can sit in your lap

mmmm maybee i will when i get home

yess i love you too and whenn you come over we’ll probably both just sleep the whole time we’re both always tired

bye love you too

bonjour i responded fast but only because i’m reading and i’ve been checking my phone 24/7 but that sucks at least you scored 24 points in one gamee that’s something to be happy about

and typical david and that reminds me of these siblings i know whose names are derell terell and sherell and that must be the most confusing thing in the whole entire universe

i missed you too and it’s called inevitable and only but i’m almost finished it and we should name our kids like that

and kinda weird but i don’t know i like it

yeah it’s really good and watch you be like “it’s never going to happen allie smhh we won’t get married bla bla” and crush my heart and my dreams💔💔

it’s about this girl who has some half sister she didn’t even know about and her struggles with drama at school and yeah yeah and it doesn’t make me uncomfortable

and you said you’re coming over so we can just talk about how we won’t have allie jrs and getting married then

ughhhhh ugh ugh ugh finee we can have one

“talk about it” mhmmm you’ll just be like “if you love me we can have another” then make me feel badd until i agree to have more

ughhh i finished my book and now i’m sad

haha yes yes i know pregnancy makes you uncomfortable and becausee i’m emotionally attached to the characters

and we cann go to the library if you come over

everyyy book i get attached to every book i read

haha emotional in a good way i love you too

too late i’m offended💔

kidding kidding

do you think i get offended by everythingg

nevermind nevermind i know i do and i’m writing what about you

i haveeee to and i knoww you do i love you

fine fineee i willl i will

badd because i don’t want to go to school tomorrow but what about you

i miss you too even though we’re talking

goodd how about you

i love you tooo and no not really

this is random but i wish i could kiss you now🌚 that sounds kinda weird but

okay i’ll kiss back and i can sit in your lap

okay good idea

you’ll probably think me being awkward is cute or something psh

whenever i’m awkward i always ramble and smile and laugh

and i always get super antsy like i can never sit still

but yay i’m so excited i can’t wait for you to kiss me even if it’s just on the cheek

it’s nottt attractive but i love you too and i know for a fact what will happen when you come over

okay so i’ll probably say hi super super quiet and smile and look down or whatever and move around and you’ll do something completely normal but i’ll start laughing a little and tell you about some random time in like 2007 when i was being awkward

so i should keep doinggg it so you do come over

i shouldd keep telling you so you’ll come over

nott but when you come over we should go to hershey park even though i say that all the time

and yeah kinda but i don’t like it so i can’t show you🌚 it’s bad

williammmm and like i saidd it’s an excuse for me to hold your hand

not that i needd an excuse but🌚

i’ll send it to you tomorrowww

at least you have something to look forward to tomorroww

i love youu

and if you came over you could always see my writing

just something to think aboutt even though i’m probably getting on your nerves

you didn’t even say you love me back

wow william jacob the fourth

mhmmm and also i’m going to bed soon

becauseeeee i don’t want to be super exhausted tomorrow

i know i know i break your heart every time i go to sleep

suree if i remember and mhmm okay what do you have to say

i’m not surprised my boyfriend’s super talented and perfect and amazing and hot

but anywas i’m going to bedd so goodnight hot guy i love you a lot a lot

AH JACOB i had the worst dream in the whole entire universe

i had a dream where you got this girl pregnant and you wouldn’t tell me who it was and i was so heartbroken like i cried the whole time and you kept saying you loved me and i was just ignoring you and ugh it was so bad i’m shook

you were like “i’m sorry i love you” and i was like “you obviously don’t love me enough to stay away from other girls” and i just

💔💔💔💔

williamm i miss you

did you die i miss you a lot

w i l l i a m

not to be dramatic but like i’m dying i can’t live without talking to you

yeah i was like crazy salty in my dream and when i woke up i thought it was real and i was so upset

and i didn’t die i’m here i love you a lot too

the only part i liked in my dream is when you sent me all these pictures of you to make me feel better ha but i was like paralyzed when i woke up i was like,, why would he do that to me but you’re perfect in real life so it’s okay i love you too

and i keep thinking about you ugh

don’t feel badd it was just dream you and sorryy i forgot i’ll send it to you after school i promise

i don’ttt think thattt

i love you you’re perfect

good it’s going by pretty fast and it’s supposed to snow tomorrow morning then all day tomorrow and all day wednesday so i’m super excited

and i don’t know how did i survive without talking to youu i was probably suffering all day

whatt that’s when school ends for me

when it’s one for you i mean

and you should come over if we get off but my county sucks so they’ll probably make us go to school then let us out early so we all have to suffer on our way home

i hope i do too and hopefully but probably not

watch one of us have to do something completely random that’ll take like four hours to do so we won’t be able to talk

mhmm and maybe it will i don’t know

mhmm whatever you sayy and i’m at lunch what about you

that iS sad william jacob and in biology on friday when i was dying we watched this video too and this guy was in kenya or something with all the animals and he was like “in the minute it takes me to say this, countless animals will be killed, starving to death, feel a parasite running through them, be abandoned by all of their pack animals, bla bla bla” and i was like great guess i’ll cry myself to sleep everyday for a year

william i’m so upset we had to use oil pastels in art and i hate them i was gettig so frustrated i would’ve flipped a table if i was strong enough

and she made us stand the whole period and i’m too lazy for that

ugh i have tryouts but all we have to do is some stupid mile run

we had to draw some weird abstract piece and i hate abstract but gueSS what there was drama in the hallway near my locker and i was so close to it i was so happy

i like drama as long as i’m not in it🌚 which sounds weird yeah yeah but tryouts today are like thirty minutes at most what the heck but it’s like perfect runnig weather right now so that’s good

anyways i have to go bye hot guy i love you💘💖💕💗

sorry tryouts are over kinda we’re supposed to be stretching but like,,,,, i’d rather talk to you

all we had to do was run like two miles and i hated it but it was good

anyways okay the drama🌚 there’s this girl whose locker is in the same hallway as mine and she’s so annoying like she’s the one who almost decapitated me in the hallway with her headphones a while ago i don’t know if you remember that but she alwayS tried to act black and i know you can’t stereotype all black people but like you know what i mean🌚 like the crazy loud ones and stuff anyways she always tries to act like them and “roasts” the other black people sososo loud in the hallway and today there was this girl by her locker and they were yelling and the white girl was like “why everyone always hating on mE” and then the black girl was like “i hope you get your a word beat i’m gonna beat your a word” and yeah

i was so happy i was near it i don’t know why i wanted to be there in case there was a fight

oh yeah but none of the teachers cared one was like “i heard something bad and thought to myself, hey, maybe i should check what’s going on there” like what haha

oh but the black girl like screamed it if that makes it sound more dramatic

i did good on them i wasn’t the first obviously but i was like first ten to finish i would say

then we did stretches which take forever and then we got to leave so now i get to talk to you yay

and i didd get happy i love school drama in the not annoying basic girl that always starts drama way

i love talking to you it’s like the best part of my day and yeah sure go me je tpain i love you

yes you doooo stopp i love talking to you and there’s this crazy big dog and i’m scared

when it’s standing it’s like up to my bellybutton

i am notttt and it’s like a dalmation greyhound mix i guess

yeah sure go fsu

anywayyyy do you want to see my writing now orr

okayy i’ll show it to you

how was your day hot guy

good and are you okayy

you just seem uninterestedd i guess and i’m so excited for the snow tomorrow

righttt i love the snow it’s supposed to start tomorrow morning and not end until wednesday afternoon at least

and it’s okay i love you

super sick and yeah haha

JACOB there’s a dead caT on the sidewalk i’M so sAdDdDd i’m heartbroken

i ammm upset it’s so sad

i’m sorryyy i’ll send it to you when i get home i swear

i doo say and yeah ha the one that “exposed” you or whatever

whyyy are you saying wronggggg

i knoww you don’t i like listening to you rant about it

i know you didn’t i love you

are you going to keep talking to her

you shouldddd i want to see what happens

and i knowwwwww i knoww you should keep ranting about it i like it🌚

haha i love youu and good thing i didn’t believe them righttt

and fine fine fine i’ll talk to her i want to see what’ll happen

i’m soRRY i was shook and confused

rude

should i have been like “hello😤😤😤😤”

well i’m sorry

mhmmm but i didn’t believe them after like five minutes so it’s okayy

i’m sorryyy je tpain i love you too

i’m shopping unfortunately i’m starving to death what about you

i do that tooooo i want to keep everything i get emotionally attached to a lot of things

and not alwayss my mom just drags me everywhere

like he doesn’t fit in them because they’re too small or too big orr but he’s so cute i love him

you can give your shirts to meee good idea and the person wasn’t soph or whatever but i think i remember her

her name is like ashling or something and yesss i want them just bring them when you come over

and why are you so paranoid

becausee i get to wear your sweatshirts and i don’t know it just makes me happy thinking about it and i won’ttt break up with you what do you think they’re going to do haha

that’s true but i won’t break up with you and i don’t caree they’re still yours and what does the shirt look like

what was a jokee and i don’t even think i want to know psh

i don’t even know i don’t even think i want to think about it ha

mhmm suree

mhmm

no thank goodness

just food and we got hashbrownss yay and i know you aree i’ll show it to you in a couple of minutes

it is great i love hashbrowns so much and i love you too

mhm totally

yeahh i’m good

yeahhhh i’m sure

good how about you

like something feels off with you or like something feels off between us

you’re not going to break up with me are youu💔💔💔💔

you betterr not break up with me or else i’ll be so upset

i am paranoid and yeah my dream was so weird

i’m watching icarly and she’s good how’s david

he’s lame as his name suggests

and hey guess what

i love you more than anything

oh my gosh what a coincidence we should get married

this time i’ll say it instead of you but marry me

mhmmm and then we can have a ton of jacob jrs

finee but we have to have at least one jacob jr

i willlll i will

i’m eating hashbrowns so now i’m super super happy what about you

aw that made me smile you’re the best

it was actually good today i’m getting suspicious

and you always make me smile

that could be why actually because school causes like 70% of my anxiety and thinking about getting off school because of the snow weirdly relaxed me

anyways my mom was talking to guy in florida i hate’s mom and she has panic attacks sometimes and stuff and her husband has ocd which causes anxiety or whatever and they suggested these weird natural peppermint pills to help it and i’ll feel like some weird hippie taking them

my gums are like throbbing in the least weird way possible and i will because i want my anxiety to get better but ughhh i do not want to be one of those all natural hippie weird people

that’s where you’re wrong william jacob i’m 100% edginess

i ammm i’m so edgy🖤🖤

see i used black hearts

nevermind being edgy is for losers

i should make my username ilovejacobmorethananything