Hello! Ash here.... and i just wanted to say im sorry for the lack of my activeness.... but the reason i have been so inactive is because ive been very depressed... my añxiëty has been getting worse... im a sad person.... yeah i know everyone has been saying "it will get better" but... its really not and thats what is scaring me.... im depressed about many things... and ive been depressed for about 4 years now.... i know... thats a long time... i need help but im not reaching out and asking for it... i know i say "im okay" or "im fine" but.... im not.... i really need someone who i can just hug and never let go... cause it hurts to much inside i cant take it anymore... im sorry this is depressing to read... but im just telling you guys why im so inactive... and no... i wont kïlł myšēłf.... but yes... i have been having suïcidãl thought and i have been cûttïng... again.... but not alot like i use to... ive also gone into the stage of stärvīng myself..... i dont eat breakfast.... i barely eat lunch... and im trying not to eat my dinner.... but...dont worry ill stop soon... i promise.. anyways... all those words on the post are all the things i have been called... and im still being called these things... and it just hurts... i also try to be a good person... but in the end... im turned down and forgotten...not only am i dealing with problems online/at school etc.... but ive been having "issues" at home... i just cant take it anymore.... it hurts.... physïcâlly and mēntälly... i thought my past was behind me.... but now... its slowly crawling back to me.... but its not the same person who is hürtiñg me.... its a different person... a person who i thought saved me from an âbüsivē parent... but i guess that person is the same....im lost... and i dont want to ask for help... i want to run away but i have no where to go... anyways.... ima shut up now.... sorry for my štūpïd info... also please dont ask if im okay cause im just not gonna say anything... okay.... just please dont...

please don't do this to yourself it only makes things worse. Trying hanging out with your friends a lot I find it's really helpful to be with people that make you happy. I know it's tough but you need to stay strong I'm rooting for you so make sure you eat and stay safe. theres not much I can say to change the way you feel but I'll give you think I wish you the best of luck.

I'm sorry....I really wish I could help...

i'm sorry :(

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Please don't EVER think about hurting yourself!! Your body is beautiful and doesn't deserve it! Cutting doesn't help at all and neither does sûicide, okay?? I wish there was a way I could help, but I can only give advice through a screen. It WILL get better, alright? I promise! You just have to keep fighting and in the end, everything is going to be okay! Until then, I am here to help you through it all, okay??

I'm sending all the pineapples your way. Ashey your amazing. Not only that but you make me laugh literally all the time. I wish I could hug your through this shaggy screen, but noooo phones dont work like that. I loaf you 🍞 - panda friendo

an amazing person