yesterday my clarinet instructor was talking to me about options for high school, even college, that i might want to look into, and usually i hate when that happens because i've put myself in this mentality where i cannot imagine growing up, i cannot imagine myself as an adult with a job, as a college student getting a degree, and i don't know HOW i've made myself think like this, but it makes me very unmotivated to complete things or try to find something i may be interested in doing with my future. BUT, the actual point of this pointless paragraph, my clarinet teacher (honestly she could be considered one of my best friends, she is so great) told me about this cool high school that i could go to for 11th & 12th grade, instead of just plodding through public school, and she introduced me to a few careers i could look into, and it has made that "nothing is gonna happen" mentality fade, even just the slightest bit, but it's something and i'm holding onto it

man i do love those commas dont i

life is strange

life is indeed strange, and even though you'll have to be an 'adult'(😓) someday, that doesn't mean that you have to grow up🙃(and I'm stressing over college and stuff too😪)💕

im kinda excited about growing up- i want to be able to be dependent on only myself, i know it'll be harder than i think it's gonna be, but it seems nice