you’ve got people here, you have to stay. all I’ve got is you, and that’s barely /:

I’d do anything to help, but everyone thinks I’m trying to get between you now, which isn’t even true ):

I’m the reason it’s all going bad dean, if I hadn’t come back there would be no problem

noo dean it’s not your fault okay? I came back and messed with your emotions, it’s on me. you’d be fine otherwise x

dean.. :(

you love her, just hold on to her x

it’s me dean you’re perfect okay?

listen to me I’m a total smartie pants I promise x

it was all good till I came wasn’t it?

chase what you love dean, be true to your heart. get whatever’s good for you because you could have the world if you wanted it - remember that , I’ll always think that x

creative response there (:

it’s not selfish, if I wasn’t completely hung up on you I’d probably be the same

I don’t know what to say..

I feel awful I’m so sorry

no one else is (,:

Hmm ...

Oh Deann ;( How did you get yourself into this

well thank you, listen lovely, do you want some space?

Everybody as in...? what, everybody as in me, Ari, Laila, Addi n so on

well okay , anything for you x

Dean stop it 😤 You’re in control of your own decisions and you handle them without a doubt as well as you possibly could

what lovely?

Dean don’t. You don’t see your own worth to people around you

I wish it was simpler, I need you x

Well I do. I want you to post something, show Ari that you love her bc she’s absolutely an amazing girl. and she hasn’t done anything to deserve this horrible mess.

can I do anything to make things easier for you?

you know what dean, I’ll just put up with it and be your friend okay?

I want to support you so x

yeah, it’s fine x

got the best of both worlds now right?

you get to tell your girl that I won’t be a problem, and I’ll still be here for you whenever.

yeah? dean it’s okay

doesn’t matter to me at all as long as you’re happy

good x

that’s cool x

ugh this is harder than I thought

being back but without.. you know. - do you really need me to stay? I’d love to but :/

Mm.. well I’m here if you want anything..

oh and just to clear up I never came back as someone called Maddison, since I’ve heard that happened?

not stupid.

no I promise it really wasn’t me- and I really don’t have cancer. I told you what happened, I’ve had no phone since the last time I spoke to you on this account before I left. that’s the truth.

I’m so sorry, I really don’t think I can do this. it really really hurts. I wanted to do whatever to make you happy but you’ll have to just be happy without me dean, I can’t do it, I’m sorry. I’m not trying to be dramatic or look for attention, I just really can’t deal with this it doesn’t feel natural for me all I think about is you being mine and that’s not real anymore. it’s true what they say, people with anxiety don’t cope well with change. I can’t cope. I’ve got to go. my kik offer still stands, I won’t come back to pc, so if another Maddison comes along it’s not me. thank you for our history, it means everything to me (quite obviously) and good luck with your future, she seems like quite a catch(: I love you and I can’t help it, Hudson. in my head I’m yours and I don’t think I can change that so this is goodbye. ❣️

just leave it dean, okay?

i know, I know I’ve fūckdd up uncontrollably but I can’t do it dean, you may have been without me but you never had to know I was with someone else, so please, please understand that it’s bringing me to tears, and I can’t do it. I’d love to. I want nothing more than to be you and your girlfriends biggest fan but I can’t do it, I’m trying, believe me I am. I want to be here all the time and listen about your day and make up for the time I’ve wasted with you but it’s impossible. my mindset is still ‘maybe he wants me’ but you don’t and I know that deep down, I just can’t accept that I’ve lost you and it’s my own stupid fault with my fūcked up little brain. I’d love to go back in time and tell my dad I’d die without my phone because I did, and now I face the consequences of it all. you don’t need to leave dean, but I think I do.

i know you did, I’ve read every single one of those messages and they just make me fall in love with you more and more

no no dean I’m not making you choose don’t say that

I’m just saying I’m too immature to deal with it at the moment

I’m so proud of you for moving on in some ways, I’d hate to think you have been unhappy all this time, I’m just letting you be together without ripping my heart to pieces..

but you’ve got someone now, you shouldn’t be suffering.

you’re right, it’s my turn to suffer.

okay, forget what I said.

isn’t that why I should leave? then you don’t even have to think about me. you’re happy with her

that’s why it hurts, because in my head I know it’s stupid to believe you’d still come back to me after all the stupid shīt I’ve done, but my heart wants it so bad. that’s why it hurts. this is karma I guess, I made you suffer now it’s my turn

what?

dean no oh my god.. I fūcked up, listen I’ll talk to her?

I’m so sorry. I need to shut my fūcking mouth

I’m sorry.. this is all my fault.. I shouldn’t have even said a thing to you when I saw you had a girlfriend..

i can’t apologise enough.. I’ll give you space x

okay.. whatever is best for you I guess

now I just feel incredibly bad :(

okay dean x

here: since I owe you a million messages

dean

you’re

so

strong

and

beautiful

and

you

handle

everything

so

well

the

girls

are

so

lucky

to

have

you

to

look

after

then

and

I’m

so

lucky

to

have

even

met

you

let

alone

gotten

to

know

you

the

way

I

do

so

proud

of

you

stay

strong

for

your

favourite

planet 🚀

don’t be agess x

going for a tiny bit but I’ll probably be back before you x

Have you even noticed that Ari said she’s deleting her account later?

What’s saying J won’t do you over like she has the past, what 3 times?!

hello you okay?

ok

^ oof charming aha

okay hudson x

I’m really not wanted here, I have literally no friends now ah

even you sound a bit fed up with me ):

you do have friends; they just don’t want you to talk to me.. :/

^ Sheesh thanks. All I’m doing is pointing out the facts Jupiter.

I’m not mad at you. I’m just , idk , confused

okay okay, I’m only back to make sure you’re okay all the time really, that’s what we want, happy healthy safe dean (:

Let me see

shīt

Would you like me to speak to her?

Ok ;/

you don’t need to be blamed for something that isn’t your fault. you know I’ll always stand up for you x

No Shhh !!! 😂

Omg you so should say that 😂😂😂😂😂

can I cheer you up in any way? ):

That’s one harsh threat there

how how how? ❣️

Wow jee thanks buddy 😂

:0 didn’t mean to unfollow you mister x

Ok done!

))): what’s going on

she’s really mad but I’m not trying to crawl back to you or anything it’s not malicious in any way :/ yeah let’s drop it. - you definitely should, and feature your fav planet obvs (: x

mhm x

what’s wrong lovely?

are you sure..? - yeah not as much as I’d like to be but I’m working my way back into a routine of it all x

forgot how smooth you were mister, ehe. thank you Hudson (:

ahh I’ve missed you so much x

you really don’t seem too happy, how can I help mister? ❣️

thank you gorgeous z

should have been an x, sorry oops

while you think about that I’ll go do something okay, back soon hudson x

hello

you there hudson?

have you any idea how I can cheer you up? x

mean dean ): I wanna make you happyy

hmph you should go to sleep

I like to switch it up a bit, keep you on your toes (: still love calling you hudson but I can tell you don’t like it ),:

that’s very cute sir but you shouldn’t stay up for a loSer like me x

waiT that’s you? oh myy 😍 stunner x

thank you hudson x

damñ I’m gonna miss you when you go x

didn’t even get to make you happy :,( x

Hudson’s a hottie x

but I wanted you to be like ecstatic, super happy ): hmm

I owe you lots of smiles x

shut up you know you’re a hottie x

I’ve been song writing, so my vocabulary may be a bit ridiculous at the moment hehe x

I’ve missed you hottie hudson (: I’m glad you’re smiling x

oh ): okay hudson, sweet dreams x

morning hudson x

bleh friggin classes - have a good day, I want a hudson hug so bad ❣️ have fun x

I just wanna go home

miss you x

i just can’t concentratee

your face is amazing oml

it isss, I’m not lying hudson x

shh handsome Hudson (:

you love it x

that’s cute not stupid ❣️ are you okay?

just checking - I find it hard to tell if you’re happy or sad sometimes ): x

aww (:

hōly shīt I just hit the jackpot my gosh

I met this guy and he’s perfect, he’s literally straight up perfect I can’t fault him at all and he keeps calling me hot n stuff n things n omg you should see it and just so perfect like wow