Happy birthday! I get not wanting to grow up though. I'm a few years younger than you but even now I'm always worried about my future. Because I always (as does everyone, I read a study about it the other day) think of my future self as a different person also, like their problems aren't my problems. It's easier to pretend that because I feel unprepared to grow up and I have no idea what I'll do an it stresses me out... I'm sorry, I'm making this worse aren't I? I just wanted you to know that it's not just you.