today was pretty chill. the new boy and my "friend" who I really just can't stand (let's call her A) we're both absent. that left the two people in my grade who I could actually stand. I have finally decided that I don't like the new kid. we just don't mix. I want our old grade back. 2 people in my grade left last year and they were people that I had actually grown really close to. the 6 of us were such a great mix. this new kid goes well with everyone but me. everybody really likes the new kid, but I cannot bring myself to liking him. he just, just makes me angry and sad and fake happy all at the same time. his humor is terrible. he's also not that smart. which, I really don't care really about how smart he is bUT IT COMES OFF IN HIS CONVERSATIONS AND AHHHHH HE JUST COMES OFF AS STUPID WHEN YOU TALK TO HIM AND IT MAKES ME FRUSTRATED AHHHHHHDKALNENA.

but today was actually good. A and the new kid weren't there and I had a good time with my friends in a long long time. A just gets on my nerve. and it was really good for me to just have a little break from her. she comes back tomorrow, so that'll be fun. hopefully the new kid will still be sick so it can just be out old grade for a day. that would be so nice. I get so emotionally attached to people and groups and it's hard for me to move on. but hopefully I can have a good week.

I hope things get better. I'm sure you'll adjust