[my family and I are bowling btw in this story] alright so my brother didn't even want to do anything. but my mom still said "go get the dinosaur slide thing for him to bowl with" but there was like 50 other people there, and I didn't want to get in anyone's way or knock any children down. so I ask "should I just bring it all the way around the back of everyone? or just bring it in front of the people who are bowling?" and my mom says "oh my fūckīng god why the hēll do you have to make everything so complicated? just bring it here" and I ask again which path I should take and she says "just say something to the people who are bowling" I guess she didn't know that the people that I'd have to go in front of spoke Spanish and didn't understand English (I concluded this from when they were speaking and yelling in Spanish, and they didn't read the sign on the table that said 'no food on this table please' but still put food and drinks right on the sign that was taped to the table) I went around everyone and was able to drag it out but I bumped into someone and I tried saying sorry but they just walked away so in my head I'm thinking 'shītshītshīt whatdidIdo' but then I was able to drag the heavy āśś thing just about in front of their lane and the people who were trying to bowl were just staring at me like 'wth is this person doing' and then I want to say something, but you know, /I d o n ' t s p e a k S p a n i s h/. so Jerrod finally comes over and drags it the rest of the way, while I'm still standing there, completely not knowing what to do. I'm really happy the lights were off and it was just a bunch of black lights, because I was about ready to cry by how mad I was when my mom started yelling at me about how I can't talk to people. she can't fūckīng talk to people either! and it really upsets me when she tries making people do things when they're uncomfortable doing it. and then she yells at them and says "if you're uncomfortable, then say so!" and then I just want to break something and cry and yell at everyone, but then I end up keeping everything inside and hating myself because I can't fūckīng talk to people. I didn't want to go but my step sister is here so we had to go as a family and shīt

im sorry! sometimes people don't understand your emotions and it's the crâppiest of cråp