you can’t keep doing this

I’ve been waiting three years in your comments...

i think my best friend might be mad that she can’t play this flute part as well as i can??? but i can’t even play it very well. the thing is, it’s an audition piece, and several times she was like “well what if you get in and i don’t”. it’s gonna be weird if that happens bc she and i are usually a package deal, we always have been since sixth grade. you want one, you get both. but now we might be split up.

my school has like four bands, and we’re both in one already. but there’s also another one called wind ensemble, and you have to audition for it. our band teacher thought it would be good for the two of us to audition, i wasn’t planning on it, it just kind of happened. and now i think my friend is mad at me and i’m rlly upset bc i didn’t do anything on purpose to hurt her

so what i’m worried about is what if i get in and she doesn’t, will she be even more mad at me? like, for being “more talented”? bc i’m honestly not. we both have moments where we are good and the other isn’t, that’s absolutely true. i just hope this isn’t one of those moments. we’ve only fought once, and it was the absolute worst thing ever. it was about a boy i liked. she didn’t like him, but she got angry with me bc i was being rude to her and my other friends, and then going to hang out with him.

one day we both just exploded and didn’t talk for a day. it was so horrible. i can’t express how painful it was, i’ve never felt that kind of pain except on that day. that night, i sent her this long apology. but i also told her that she wasn’t being very nice either. which is true, she was being rude, i wasn’t the only one at fault.

obviously we made up and we’re a stronger pair because of it, but i really don’t want anything like that to happen again. i’m so scared and stressed that i’m gonna lose my best friend again, ik this sounds so dramatic but we really are like sisters. i just hope everything works out ok.