can we talk now?

yes

ok

but you won't answer me so why did you say we could?* cries*

hey Leah, it's Amanda, Julian's afraid to tell you why's he's not on, we're going through tough times after he found out that his Mum has lung cancer, he always talks about you, wishes he can be there for you, but he's got a ton on his plate.

I understand I just wish I was there for him more I don't wanna die I wanna be with him just all the time and never leave his side but even when I do die I know I will always be right next to him through everything every little step of the way