yall so. hm. this. hmmm. this makes me feel wierd. cuz i know that eventually im gonna find love right. but theres always that voice in the back of my mind that says maybe u wont. maybe theyll love u but ill just really like them. not really love. so i had this dream. it was very long but on the tail end of it i apparently had this best friend or boyfriend i dont really know. he was tall and he looked like that guy from perks of being a wallflower (the football guy idk why) he was real tall and had redish light brown hair. it was obvious we were. fond ofeach other. also btw in my dreams if im in the dream im not actually hearing my feeling or thoughts. im always looking outside in.

so there r lil moments that were hinting love like. we were sitting down in the cafeteria in lunch (btw we were in late college) and i would do something and he was like “oh just marry me already” lil things like that kept happening. then at the end of my dream. i was talking to myself saying “if hes not gonna make the first move. u do it. so i was looking all over campus looking for him. i found him and i kissed him. and he kissed me and i was so NICE. shortly after. he was like wanna marry me i was like heck yeah. and it was NICE. then i woke up. and realized i had NO ONE. AND WAS ALONE

and while i was in the dream. i could TELL that i loved him. like genuinely. soooooo. idk. im just feel kinda. wieeeerd

i hate those dreams, where you really feel like everything that happened in them was real and relevant to your life and it just sort of sticks with you,

i hope you feel better though

^ you’ll find that type of love someday ryn 💞

OH MY GOSH I HATE DREAMS LIKE THAT I had a dream that this guy I had a crush on was flirting with me, and then I temporarily fell asleep and he just ran away. I started chasing him and then I tripped and fell and then woke up QwQ

I dreamed Tristin gave me a ring once and sat with me and talked for a long time and it was the happiest dream in ninth grade lol, sometimes they do come true