hey boo immmmmmmmm nervoussss I’m talking to Anna about bulimia and all and she was telling me how much it’s not worth it but I like to throw up???????? I like hurting myself that way?????????? but I don’t want to ruin my teeth in the long run????? see i started throwing up because of anxiety but now I’m throwing up because I’m depressed and want to do it to myself and I’m honestly terrified

I’m trying not to even though my stomach wants it to come up when I eat certain things, it’s all because my stomach is so sensitive after throwing up from anxiety for a week that it’s not back to normal and I have a weaker stomach until then but I’m trying to keep the rest of what I eat and drink today down.

I did punch up my face and leg instead anddddddd I know Tristin’s going to know I don’t know if I can cover my cheek with makeup fully because it’s already turning dark blue there and it’ll probably be worse in the morning but there’s something about punching the face that sends a message, idk what the message is or who it’s for but it feels better than punching my legs which I tried instead