uuugghhh I’m sorry your ex is still bothering you my dude that aint okay, as for passing off as a male, I find maybe you could get a sports bra? it’s less suspicious than buying a binder and plus if you excercise in the sports bra you can build muscles and pass off more as a guy (but then again I don’t rly know lol) I’ll try find some more info for you and I really hope you feel better soon my guy!! ✨👍

with the dream thing that could’ve been sleep paralysis? I’ve heard they can be very vivid and such, it’s sounds super traumatising so I’m v proud of you for getting through it ✨✨

oH MY GOSH I HATE PEOPLE TAPPING AND STUFF LIKE THAT TOO AHHDJWNDHSJAJJS I FEEL YOU’RE PAIN MY CLASS HUMS ALL THE TIME AND I HATE IT JSJSHSJKSKS

also don’t worry about bugging us! we definitely don’t mind! we’re here for you whenever you need us!!

I’m really sorry to hear about bill, if you think he might be in immediate danger maybe call a lifeline (or call one anyway they can just talk to you about your problems and they’re actually really great for emotional support, and they’re professional as well so yaaayyy)

WHOOO! go new friend! she knows what’s up! im glad for you :D

oh sNAP I can’t even imagine how horrible that must of been! you’re so strong my dude! with the amnesia thing (and idk if this is true or not) but my maths teacher studied psychology in uni and she told the class that the brain can block out traumatic memories in order to protect itself, if you say your childhood was like you described it, that could be the reason (of course I am in NO way a professional but try find help my dude, you’re doing great 👌✨✨✨)

ohno.. I think the best thing for your ex is to continue ignoring her and if she keeps ignoring you, then confront a teacher or someone else. The noises, I get super annoyed by chewing, crunching and mouth noises. My sister was annoying me so much yesterday that I locked myself in my room- I know it’s hard, but try and block it out. Sing a song in your head or do something that blocks them. The dreams, luckily the demonic ones have stopped, the brain only has dreams that contain stuff that happened recently because it tries to make up what it’s seen. I haven’t had any dreams recently either, oof. about your bf.. if things get serious, you have to tell someone. like wakefaj said, call a lifeline and they can help you with your problems. I’m sorry, I’m awful with advice, but I really hope things get better for you soon