i honestly think if it weren’t for my best friend (the one who sent this text) i wouldn’t be alive right now. i appreciate my friends so much and i know i’m never going to be able to show them just how much i love them, which is really sucky to think about. little things like this are the reason why i’m slowly starting to enjoy life and it’s one of the best feelings in my opinion. but i’m so terrified for next year. i’m moving 16 hours away from all of them that i’ve known since sixth grade and i have no idea if i’ll be able to make new friends. i’m terrified that they will end up forgetting about me and move on to new people. i’m terrified that when we get to meet up things will have been so different that we won’t know what to talk about and will slowly grow apart. i’m not sure how i’m going to be able to handle this move and i’m so so terrified that it will pull me back into my depression.

re// hahahah welp now there will be and i’m so excited ahhhh

it’s funny tho cuz i had to read it for school too and i absolutely hated it lol like with a fûcking passion but looking back on it, it’s actually a really good book?? i’m not sure why i hated it so much??

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lol i won’t forget ill probably end up eating alone next year anyway