{click} So, I don't even know anymore guys. Everything is going right in my life right now, I just went to a cosplay convention, o have tickets to see SayWeCanFly and social repose, I have off from school. And then I come on here and I see everyone struggling, and I think, I have it way to good. Like, I'm a horrible person, why is it me who gets this happiness, instead of you guys? Also, I'm trying to write poetry, to do art, and meaningless, emotionless. When I was close to death, art used to spill from me. Now it's lost, and hollow. Idk, I feel like maybe I should try and pull myself down. For my arts sake, and humanity's sake. If you amazing people can't have happiness, why should I? Idk I'm thinking too much.

*and it's meaningless

you're a great person though? everyone deserves to be happy, there's no need to pull yourself down

you've earned this happiness. you have no obligation to join in others' misery in order to make them feel better, because that doesn't. being you and being happy and seeing your joy makes others who care about you so much happier. You deserve every inch of happiness that comes your way. don't forget that.

you deserve happiness. you've come so far from where you used to be and i'm proud of you, it's hard when other people are sad and i get the lack of inspiration because same tbh

and yeah good luck on things, kid. 💖

ehuehuehuehuehueHUEHUEHUEHUEHUEHU i don't deserve happiness you don't know what i've done oh wait you do

BECAUSE YOU STALK MY FREKKIN RP ACC

it's good that you're feeling happy. i've noticed a few people on here have become super happy lately, including myself, which to me makes no sense because it's the time of year for seasonal deprèssion, you know? but i love it. i love that people are becoming happy. you deserve each and every happy moment you are receiving friend :)

you're an amazing person, there's no reason for you to pull yourself down. enjoy the happiness, don't wish for misery. you deserve to be happy, it makes me happy to know you're happy

but youre a gr8 person. i remember talking to you all the time and you were just naturally nice and amazing. you dont need to drag yourself down when other people are hurting because youre gonna be the one happy person that people need in life. you deserve happiness just like the rest of us💕💕💕

i mean same?? i literally look for any sort of pørn i can get

why would you not deserve happiness?😶

that's good! you need the happiness and positivity you're getting right now, you have already struggled enough and it's time you get a break. I promise that everything good that's happening is deserved, pain is something no one should have. 💕

hey I usually don't seek out help myself but I'm not feeling so great right now and I really don't want to bother you since you'll probably see this tomorrow but I need someone to talk to. I've expressed most of my feelings on my recent post but there's some more things I'd like to talk about. I apologize for sending this basically on thanksgiving but I really don't know what else to do, I really appreciate you and I hope you know that 💕

no problem fren

aw thanks, I'm thankful for you too <3

lol he's in a choir and he's coming on at 11:50 (idk what your times are lol) his choir is singing with a person named Jenny Lee Stern I don't think they have a float

aww thanks fren :)

btw if you want to find him specifically he had dark blonde hair and glasses and is kinda short lol thank you fren :))

*has

haha ikr

he's on rn! he's in the green coat

awww that's okay you could barely see him anyway😂

I definitely think in a black and white way, my therapist has told me a lot about cognitive distortions and how they effect our thinking. one of my biggest cognitive distortions is black and white thinking, so I totally understand what you're talking about. and yeah, my brother's death has been pretty hard on all of us in the family. not just me, but my mom too. there have been some pretty rough times for her but she's gotten better since she's gone to grief counseling. that may be because of her strong belief in talking makes things better. and like I said before, you don't have to tell me and I won't pressure you into it, but thank you for trusting me enough to tell me something like that.

thank you :) I'll post pictures when I get properly ready tomorrow

yes I am :)

I saw it, and I'm in Pacific time

because i wanted to

it's my dad's

yeah I definitely want to be familiar and comfortable with the song

I don't know yet, she said it would most likely only be one but could possibly end up having to do more

yeah, I've gotten quite a bit better. I've had a few moments today (technically last night but it was at 12 in the morning) when I felt like I couldn't get through anything, but the feelings have passed. thank you so so much for being here to help, i really appreciate it.

(reply) I feel like it actually should be-- it's such a beautiful and generally good mural and honestly it's important

ITS CALLED TRIDENTS BOOKS AND CAFÉ ITS IN BOSTON AND HAS GOOD HOT WHITE CHOCOLATE

I WAS BORED AND I SEARCHED PHANTABULLAMAS BC THATS WHAT I USED TO CALL MY FOLLOWERS

thank you fren :)

I posted pretty much all of them. thank you :)

Thanks

YES CROCS R LIFE

nah you're cooler than me

"kindly füčk off" that's my catchphrase

I'm honestly not but it's okay

thanks <3

can I once I go home?

here's food for thought: find a new art. create new things. and is read of dragging yourself down into the darkness and cold below, pull those around you up to your level so that they can enjoy beautiful things with you. never believe that you don't deserve love and happiness.

*instead