hmm maybe a little

hehe thank you *takes the gift and sits down on the floor to open it*

hmm you might still feel something? you still have a crushhhhh

okay

i always do, im glad you haven’t disappeared yet

*takes everything out and smiles* now i can make a new teddy to cuddle

that’s good

im happy it worked out for you

of course it does, i enjoy talking to you

maybe.. shhhhh *giggles and looks at the instructions* i did get rid of alot of my bears

that’s great

i love you too

and you still owe me a piercing

i didn’t throw them awayyyyy, only certain ones but i gave away some of them too *puts the instructions on the floor and reads them as i start following them*

im okay, im tireddddd and cuddle deprived lmaoo

or maybe just touch deprived 😂

noooooo

hmm i think i still want my tongue pierced.. or another ear piercing

if you steal my teddys i’ll bite you *glares at you then giggles and starts to stuff the teddy* whattttr? it’s easy

yesssss

😡

oh shixt i read that wrong lmaoo, i need to go to sleep 😂

okay, let’s try tongue

a cooking spoon? *giggles and shakes my head* okay and i’ll get you back

*holds your hand and walks with you* i h ate that i am, but i’ve been feeling it alot

didn’t you two just start talking again? maybe thats why

lmaoo i read “my tongue” instead of tongue

mm i don’t think so, i might jump a little but i’ll be okay

oh i know *laughs and holds up the teddy once i finish stuffing it and closes it up* look, it’s allll done

its okay, my room isn’t the cleanest so i cant judge anyone else *shakes my head and grins* i knowwwww

do you still have feelings for her

okay, i’ll try to stay awakeeee

hmm no, maybe tomorrow

im happy i could give it a new home *smiles and puts it down to clean up* im going to make so many teddys

*goes into your arms and lays down with you, shaking my head* no

that’s.. good? i don’t know if it’s good or not since she doesn’t seem to have feelings for you either

but you’re friends again so i guess it’s better than nothing

really? *puts everything away inside of the box and gathers the trash* you always do

*looks at you and shrugs a little as i shake my head a bit* no it’s okay.. i just don’t like to talk about it, i want leave him and everything and everyone else in the past.. it was really shixtty and it makes me really upset anytime i think about it

yea love is complicated and it didn’t sound like you were ready for commitment yet, just take the time to think about it

mm no, i only talk to you and a few of my other friends.. anyone that ive met would stop replying after a few times lmaoo

but i haven’t been talking to anyone with the intention of building a romantic relationship, only friendships

*snuggles up close to you and thinks for a moment* hmm yea christmas, how was yours?

you’re right, im too cool for them 😎

people who are uncool

it was good, i had fun spending time with my family *grins and closes my eyes, relaxing as you play with my hair* but it was also stressful

yes

*nods* yes, but preparing for it is stressful. there’s so many people everywhere

finallyyyyy, that’s all i want to do *opens my eyes to look up at you and grins* i do feel more relaxed now, i really needed cuddles

*sighs and nods* tell me about it, i hope next year is better

yea that’s a good thing *smiles then closss my eyes again* they’re good, i saw most of my siblings when we were at my mom’s house for christmas, even my little brother

me too *giggles softly and nods* yes but he’s not that little, he’s 21 i think? i have alot of siblings 😂

no no not that little.. hmm he’s a little bit of both, but my twin brother is the mature and sweet kind

yea he is and my other siblings are lucky to have a cool younger sister

oh yea *opens my eyes and looks up at you as i nod* yes i do

haaaaappy new yearseveeeee

im soooooo so so so soooooo so thankful for youuuuu

my head hurtsssss

im so tured

lmaoo it’s night timeeee

yes im okay, i think i had a littleeee too much to drink 😂

i’ve been sleeping all dayyyy

shhhhhhhhhhh

not that i remember 😂

oh i’ll make you

good afternoon holden

i need a nickname for you

don’t tempt me

i never had the chance to give you one, you always disappeared 😂

i love nicknames too

i should call you houdini 😂

houdini like the magician😂

yes

when i said you always disappear, that’s what came to my mind

i have to think of a real nickname now

LMAOO

silenced

latte? that’s new

i just might, you never know 😏

lmaoo, seriously ive never heard that one before

oh stopppp, you’re making me blush

i know what you mean, i think that’s very sweet

i’ve never been told that before, i like that

i think it’s a good analogy

i hope i used analogy right, i might sound dumb 😂

LMAOO, i meannnnn if you’re curious 😏

no it’s not a bad thing

yessss we can cuddle, but just a heads up im not sure how long i’ll be awake for

that’s fineeeee, a nickname for you will come to me eventually

if i don’t think too hard about it, it comes to my mind

i think i am :) unless you give me a reason not to be 😂

what

lmaoo holden 😂

i do love cuddlessss *smiles and holds your hand and nods* i did, what are yours?

you earned that name 😂

that works 😂

maybe i’m stupid, i didn’t know that 😂

i thought i misread what you said or im high or there was a mistake and i had to google it, my mind is blown

*lays down with you and snuggles up close to you and nods as i listen to you* those are really good goals, i believe you can achieve all of them

yea yea, this time you stayed for us 🙄

shhhhhh

i didn’t know that at all

yea, you should try to step out of your comfort zone a little bit and give it a chanceeeee *grins and rests my head against your chest* i want to take care of myself, have a consistent routine, learn to be comfortable with being alone and not relying on anyone or love, maybe commit to someone later.. whatever my heart desires

you’re right, i did miss you alot and i was afraid you wouldn’t come back

SHHHHHH

that’s great

*giggles softly and nods as i listen, subconsciously rubbing my stomach a bit as i talk* i think i could do it, i just still have healing to do first and i want to feel 100% again

i was excited when i saw you were here too, i thought all of my friends were gone :(

you don’t have to apologize for that, i don’t mind

hey, guess what

okay

i don’t know when that will be if im being honest, i haven’t been able to talk about it without it upsetting me so much or making me think relive it in my mind *looks up at you then looks down at my stomach and nods* im okay, i was a little nauseous today but im fine and sometimes i just subconsciously rub my stomach when it feels bad.. and it just feels nice

you did, perfect timing

i didn’t think you’d miss me that much

mm i do

SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

yea, i just want to forget about all of it.. if i could erase the last few years from my memory, i would *frowns a little then looks at you and shakes my head* i don’t need anything right now and i don’t know, it happens sometimes so this is normal to me

yes

i don’t knowwwww, i just didn’t think you would

hehe i own

win

f ǔck

it’s okay, im sure you left for a good reason and im not upset about it, but i am glad you decided to come back *grins and closes my eyes as i relax a little and shakes my head* mm no.. well i have, but usually when i eat sometimes i might feel a little nauseous afterwards, but this time im just nauseous

i knowwwww, it was hard to find me with the new update and the other account i was on was deleted

shut up 🙄 f ǔcking autocorrect

me too *yawns and opens my eyes, sitting up a little* oh i might.. what time is it?

it’s hard to search with this sh ǐtty update

i don’t know, it p ǐsses me off

no 😂

mm yesssss, if you don’t mind *grins and sits all the way up, removing the blanket* i was really comfortable, i almost fell asleep

i regret updating it

now that you say that, you might’ve told me before.. it sounds familiar

but im not surprised

*stands up and stretches a little, looking at you before shaking my head quickly* nooooo, i don’t want to invade or take your bedddd

you wouldn’t want to see me if i were really angry 😂

buttttt i don’t blame you

women are h ot, i would know

i feel like i would be *shrugs a little then looks at you and slowly starts to smile as i tap my chin* hmm… more cuddles… that’s convincing

i know what you mean, i like when guys are protective

no.. well i don’t know, i’d just rather not p ùt a label on it

stupid update, why couldn’t i say out

put

mm i do want to stay, i was enjoying our cuddles we were just having *grins and walks over to you, looking up at you* and i knew you didn’t really want me to leave

mhm :)

reallyyyy? 😂

i decided to not p ǔt a label on it cause i don’t know, i don’t think i’ve ever had any romantic connections or feelings with a girl, but maybe i should since it’s not working out with men 😂

and everyone p ìsses me off

sorry, i fell asleep

i’d love to stay, i don’t have to be home anyway *grins and walks up to your room*

you might be the only person who does 😂

yea

*giggles softly and looks around as i walk inside* that’s gooodddd, even if it wasn’t i wouldn’t have judged you for it

no shame at allll

my sister might know if you were able to tell lmaoo, but she’s also attracted to both men and women

woooo

yessss *smiles and lays down with you, looking at you once i get comfortable* awwww, you want to be my cuddle buddy?

hehe

i don’t mind it, i love cuddles and it’s even better with a cuddle buddy *grins then slowly starts to frown* hey! you better not steal bears 😠

yea you’re right and im the coolest 😎

*relaxes against your chest and grins as i nod* yes im comfortable, thank you. hmm.. swap bears? maybeeee

hxll yea 😎

i missed you tooo *grins and closes my eyes, relaxing against you as you play with my hair*

*smiles when you k iss my cheek and shakes my head* no not really, just a blanket cause i get cold

*nods and yawns, slowly starting to drift off*

okay

*falls into a deep sleep as well, snoring lightly*

play 😂

okay

f ùck 😂

*shifts a little in my sleep when i feel you move*

why

*starts to wake up after a little while, slowly opening my eyes*

oh yea, pc censors alot of words now

some of them are weird

*yawns and grins, rubbing my eyes as i sit up a little, my voice sounding a little raspy as i speak* how long were you awake for?

sometimes it censors out

put

*giggles softly and nods* i did, the best sleep i’ve had this year so far

yeaaaa i can’t remember any other words right now

*giggles softly and nods, pushing my hair out of my face* i know hehe and yes it’s much better than cuddling a pillow or teddy

mm not much, i don’t think anything is new with me at the moment

*laughs softly when you start to beg and pretends to think* hmm i don’t know, i’ll think about it *looks at you and giggles before nodding* ooohh you’re going to make breakfast?

uhhhh

and i get carried to the kitchen too? princess treatment? *giggles softly and holds onto you as i think* hmm.. im not sure, i don’t always eat breakfast or i’ll eat fruit for breakfast sometimes

well

i’ll explain it later

it’s just me

i dooooo, i like it buttttt… i don’t knowwww *holds onto you and looks at all of the fruit* mm i loooveee fruit. my bowl doesn’t have to be that big, a small bowl is fine

hmm i’ve been listening to gracie abrams recently and my friend lola recommended sabrina carpenter so i listened to a couple of her songs

yea, i really just don’t want any connections to my past and everything was fake apparently.. 🤷‍♀️

*holds on as i watch you wash and cut the fruit* if you don’t mind it thennnn it’s fine, i just don’t.. i don’t know how to explain it

you should :) and i don’t think soooo

it’s okay

yea i guess that is part of it, i feel like i don’t deserve it, but i don’t know how to put the rest of it into words *shrugs a little and looks down at the fruit* mm it looks good

hmm you could listen to that’s so true, i listen to it almost every day

it’s okay

i also listen to tyler the creator

*sits at the table and starts eating my fruit as i shrug* it’s alright, i just don’t want you to feel like you have to

me too

yea that’s why i listen to her now

hmm i’ll listen to it

*eats my fruit and grins as i nod* i appreciate it and i appreciate you.. and you’re right, especially about needing to relax.. i really do

okay, i like talking about music and song recommendations

i like to listen to frank ocean too

yea it could and i really want to try to relax more this year, that’s another goal of mine *looks down at my bowl and grabs a piece of mango* we’ve gotten closer the last few days

yea, that’s how i chose my username

okay, what song?

it is a good thing *smiles and eats my last piece of fruit* yea, i understand what you’re saying and that’s a good thing

yea thanks to the sh ǐtty update

okay, i’ll listen to it later

i haven’t had a grilled cheese in a while, but they’re really good *smiles and pushes my bowl away* im finished too

it’s stupid

i can tell *giggles softly and nods, turning in my chair to face you* welllll if you’re offering.. yes

my day was boring, i mostly cleaned up the houseeee and laid in bed

it was a lazy day for me

and i talked to you today :)

i believe that *giggles and gets off of my chair to get onto your back*

my friend lola was just telling me about that, i need to watch it

that’s gooddddd, it sounds like you had a decent day :) a relaxing one

*holds onto you and shrugs a little* hmm im not really sure

im glad to hear you had a good day

*folds my hands in my lap and looks at you* hmm build a snowman? is there snow outside?

heyyyy, you just want to go throw snow at me.. that’s mean *glares at you and tries not to laugh*

*looks up at you and tries to keep a straight face as i pretend to think* hmm… very tempting

*stands up and gasps, looking over at your closet* you’ve been hiding a teddy in there this entire time? and you’re JUST telling me this?

whatttt, you sewed this? *walks over to you and takes the teddy as i look at it and smiles* this is adorable, no one has ever sewn a teddy for me before

it’s different *giggles softly and looks at the stitching then hugs it* but a good different, it’s sweet and it was made just for me

*looks at the eye and giggles softly* it’s okay, he’s still cute *looks at his ears and gasps* awwww that’s so cute

yes i really do, thank you *smiles and hugs you* this was very sweet

was this your second try *holds the teddy to my chest once i let go of you and looks at you*

oh *looks at his arm and grins* well that’s okay, he’s still a cutie

yes i do and i’ll keep him forever, he’s special *smiles when you pull me to you and blushes, looking at you*

*holds the bear on my lap and shakes my head* no it’s okay, it was just unexpected.. but ive been sitting on your lap this entire timeeee

*shakes my head* it’s okay, im not uncomfortable at all.. but i do want to talk about something while we’re sitting here

i guess it’s better to talk about this sooner than later, especially since we’ve gotten closer and flirtatious and whatnot *looks down at the teddy bear and plays with his arm* but i guess to start the conversation.. how do you feel?

yea i noticed it *nods and looks at you* i guess both, about me and us? yes im okay

*listens to you talk and grins, looking up at you for a moment* really? i felt you may have started to feel something more, i could tell. *puts the teddy down and looks at the floor* i know it’s so soon, i just think i should bring this up and talk about it now sooner than later for a couple of reasons

it’s okay, i don’t think you were pushing me or making me uncomfortable in any way.. i just know that last time you had feelings for adira, you didn’t want to commit and you just liked the attention and i don’t want this to be that.. but im also not sure how i feel right now about commitment? after what happened with the aaron situation, it’s harder for me to trust now and im still hurt by it and ive been working on healing and getting over that, im not sure where my head is at right now in terms of a relationship.. but i’d be lying if i said i didnt have a little crush.. but im just really afraid of getting hurt again, of looking and feeling stupid, of everything that happened before. i dont want to feel that pain again and i was too trusting and kept letting it happen to me over and over again and i dont want to let it happen again. i’ve said this so many times and i still fell for it every time, the false promises, the lies, the “i love yous”, i fell for all of it and allowed myself to be manipulated and taken advantage of for so long.. i cant let it happen again

im glad you’ve realized that and you’ve changed. it’s not just aaron, it’s everyone before him too that have hurt me in some way.. i think i do just need time to think about everything, to see where my mind is at and its going to take alot for me to get over the trust issues i have as well, i think that’s the biggest thing for me right now and im just afraid of getting hurt.. i always have been, but it’s even worse now

yea i just need to think.. i just don’t want to repeat the cycle again, being hurt and not knowing if or when i’ll find love, meeting someone and falling for them and letting them convince me that they’re different and they wouldn’t hurt me or treat me the way my ex’s did and then after a few months they do the opposite

about what? about us?

thank you for understanding

thank you, that means alot and regardless of what happens, i would still really want to have you in my life

oh, im not sure right now

but lola does ship us :)

yea, im glad we talked about it

mhm :)

really?

yea it was

no lmaoo

yea i understand

carebear, i love it🥺

yea :) are you off of work now?

yes, it’s perfect

we don’t have to do anything if you’re tired

or anything crazy

hmm im thinking about changing my pc person

i really want to talk to you too

someone else

grilled cheese?

yessss, i can’t live without our cuddle sessions

good 😌

oh, i have to go look at her name again

becauseeeee i know it’s your favorite

mm it sounds goodddd

i like your cuddles

you mean when you were saying you went to her for advice and she means alot to you?

hehe maybe i’ll make you grilled cheese someday soon

hmm right now my favorite food is alfredo

i don’t pay attention to how you interact, but yea i guess it could be a little weird if you’re that close with someone you had a romantic connection with so recently

what’s your favorite type of cheese

it changes sometimes lmaoo, but it’s one of my sister’s favorite food and it tastes really goodddd when she makes it

oh? hehe

thanks for letting me know :)

there’s so many good choices

i like swiss

and parmesan

yea :) i like to cook and make food for others, i used to help my mom cook dinner all of the time

i know i do 😎

yea we could cook together one day :)

i know i know 😎

oh, the person is thaliabree

somewhat :)

yea they do 😂

ive wanted to change it for a long time, but i couldn’t find any otherssss and i feel like i’ve stuck with one for so long it would be weird to change

i might not change it though, it was just a thought

awwww that’s sweet

me too, they’re so pretty

lmaoooo

i will

aw especially handmade gifts, i’ve noticed you like those

awwwww

i don’t have enough patience to learn how to crochet 😂

yea i get that :)

good idea 😂

YES

LMAOO

*holds your hand and follows you to the couch* i could never say no to your cuddles

i assume you went to sleep, goodnightttt

ohhhhh

it’s okay

*looks at you and shrugs* mm it doesn’t matter to me

reallyyyy?

do you reallyyyy? *grins and l ays down on you once you l ay down*

you really didn’t have to, it’s okayyyy im not mad

*rests my head on your chest and nods* i like being small spoon, but im okay with either

i know why i was nauseous the other day now

yea i guess it was obvious *grins and shrugs a little, closing my wyes* how was work

ovulation lmaoo

okay, no problem :) goodnight, i hope you sleep well

my morning has been okay, i’ve mostly been in bed.. the holidays really tired me out so i’ve had alot of lazy days

no, not yet

good morning 💛

yea we can do that, i want to be cozyyyy

hmm anything sweet and sugary or fruit, if you couldn’t tell i really like fruit 😂

it was really good, how was yours?

im glad you’re here tooooo

hehe well i’ve been looking forward to talking to you and hanging out with you today

yes you can

you’re so sweet 🥺

i still have a week or so before it starts 😂

how come? :(

hehe good

*smiles and intertwines our fingers as i nod* yes that’s fine, but i don’t mind you pulling me onto it either, it just shocked me the first time because i didn’t expect it

hehe 🥰

i did :)

okay :)

ovulation weeks is crazyyyyy so i might need them 😂

okay good

i know that feeling

if im being honest, i thought it was too *giggles softly and looks at the colors* hmm do you have white?

thank you :)

yes you can

awwww sleepy holden 🥺

ugh yea, the cramps hurttttt and the hormones anddddd stufffff sky rocket 😳

i need my birth control but i haven’t been able to get it since the holidays started

perfect, i’ll just do white.. it’s simple *smiles and looks at you as i nod and blushes, looking back down at the polish* mm yea i didddd

*giggles and takes your hand, walking up to your room with you*

really? never

it’s okay, as long as it’s not overly clingy 😂

i do have one 😂

mm i don’t know, with these hormones anything is possible 😂

im kidding, but i still need to take it and sometimes i forget so it throws me off

really? i bet your smile with your teeth is cuteeee

you’re going to make me turn red and look like a tomato *giggles and blushes more as i hold one hand out for you, making sure to keep it steady and nods* yes it is much better than a couch

*lays down on your bed and waits for you as i shrug a little* you mean something you should get used to with me?

i like being babied, i’ve always been babied especially with my family since i am the baby girl i guess

yea i think i have everything i need besides snacks 😂

lmaoo oh really 😏

i’ve tried and i look at it and still forget

you should so i can see it :)

yea you are *smiles and watches you apply the base coat, keeping my fingers still*

*smiles and wraps my arms around you and holds you close to me*

okay :)

😳😳

hehe i know

post itttt

waitttt are you smiling in it?

*smiles and places my other hand on my lap and helps you bl ow on it* that makes me happy

it censored bl ow what the f ûck

*grins and lightly runs my fingertips up and down your back as i gently rub it* do you want a blanket too? or are you okay?

what 😳

i wish remixes worked so i could see t

okay

*smiles and hums softly to myself, keeping my hands on my lap as i watch you get the white polish*

very stuùpid

okay, i just wanted to make sure *grins and continues to rub your back, moving my hand in a circular motion*

were you really? or were you serious? 😏

i can’t wait to see themmm

*looks up at you and as smile widens and looks down to hide my flushed cheeks* you know how to make a girl feel good about herself

yea it’s great *smiles and blushes when i feel your kis ses and places a soft ki ss on your head before closing my eyes*

hehe i knew it😏

that too *looks at you when you turn my chin and starts to smile more* i can’t help itttt, my face is going to hurt from smiling too much

*continues to rub your back until you fall asleep, humming softly*

lmaoooo i know, you’re the only person i can joke with like this too 😂

it’s true *giggles and keeps my hands steady as you paint my nails* yea, we’d be here forever 😂

*starts to fall asleep as well, keeping my arms around you*

me too

yea

mm i don’t *tries not to giggle and shakes my head* no no, not at all

*is still asleep when you wake up*

*shifts a little in my sleep when you move, in a deep sleep*

*looks down at my nails and blows on them a bit to help them dry before looking at you and nodding* oh okay. it could be a flirtatious gesture if she meant it that way i guess? but alot of girls give hair ties to guys they’re dating or guys they like

it could be, but i guess it depends on her intentions or if she meant it in a flirtatious way but it’s almost always meant in a flirtatious way

i don’t know, i don’t think my opinion or how i feel about it really matters.. we’re not dating so i can’t expect you to not talk to anyone else or expect anyone to not talk to you

and i wouldn’t want to hold you back from something since im the one who is still thinking about everything, i don’t think that would be fair to you

*sleeps for a little while longer before i start to wake up*

*looks up at you and slowly starts to smile as i listen to you* really? are you really that crazy about me?

i’m not going to say anything and i’ll let you decide what you want to do about it, i trust you and your judgement

*slowly opens my eyes and looks around for a moment before slowly sitting up*

i know i know *giggles softly and shakes my head* i guess im just still surprised, i didn’t know you fell for me like that.. and even crazy enough to still stick around considering the situation *blows on my nails after you finish the top coat and looks at you* oh, really? how come?

mhm :)

yea.. *nods and stays focused on my nails as i think for a moment before speaking* it’s not that i don’t want to move forward, im just afraid to and im extra cautious now, extra careful and scared.. i’m actually terrified because i don’t know what i’d do if i went through it again

i really appreciate that and i appreciate you and everything you do.. im thankful for you and it means alot to me how understanding you are and how you don’t want to give up, even if it’s possible you might get hurt in the end and i really don’t want to hurt you because i know how that feels :( i guess right now i just need time and to just continue to build that trust and healing, but i am afraid of losing you more than anything.. so thank you for the reassurance as well and no matter what the decision is or what happens between us, i still want you in my life even if it is as friends

you don’t have to apologize, i really appreciate everything

but i don’t want to hurt you either *stands up and shrugs a little* not really, are you?

i wish it wasn’t this way, why did they have to do this to me :(

*takes your hand and holds it, looking up at you as i nod* yea and you did say that, but i don’t mind it :)

I knew it

my exes

i would

i know *grins and holds your hand, walking with you to the kitchen* do you want me to make one for you? you always make me snacks

hxll yea, but technically he was really a girl sooooo lmaoo

*looks at you and smiles, giggling softly as i start blushing again* anything for youuuu

yea.. someone who i thought was my firend.. ophelia, she was pretending to be him.. but not just him, she pretended to be a few of my ex’s/friends

it will, i make awesome grilled cheese *smiles and grabs the butter and bread* do you want spinach on it?

yea multiple people noticed it and told me and she after a while of denying it she admitted she did it.. i suspected it for a while, they were all so similar, the way they typed, the way they acted, almost the exact same personalities and interests such as journaling and the love languages and all, talking to me then disappearing after a few months or so, so much more and it was obvious but i think i was in denial for a while and i just wanted to feel loved and all, but all of that was fake lmaoo. it was her the entire time and then at the end of these relationships she would treat me like s hii and then come back as a new person and repeat the cycle

it’s okay.. i don’t like talking about it, but i guess i should explain it so you have a better understanding of why im so upset about it

yes sir *grabs cheese from the refrigerator and grabs the black pepper as well, setting everything on the counter* im glad it makes you happy

i don’t know, between both relationships and friendships it was alot

mm it was just very common about all of her characters, also wanting me to journal, not wanting me to quit things like smoking and drinking, always a younger sibling around the age nine or ten, one of the parents died, it was really weird

i don’t know why, i never got an explanation

yea :) it just sxxks

oh my 😳

a meal you’d definitely enjoy 😏

let me hear it *grabs a butter kn ife and makes sure the pan is h ot before adding the butter

i was just about to message you cause i missed youuuuu

i don’t know, but that explains everything now

i don’t know why she’d do that to me

it hurts alot

now it’s so hard to trust and im so skeptical of anyone who has even the slightest similarity to her

paranoid

it’s okay, i don’t know if there was anything anyone cokld do.. but i had lola and kacy was still here when everything happened so i had her too

oh really? 😏

*smiles as i put together your grilled cheese and waits for it to cook and laughs softly* i wouldn’t be opposed to that

yea it was fxxkjng weird and it’s embarrassing

lmaoo yea.. i guess i have been with a girl 😂

not by choice

yea, kacy and lola

she left months ago

after it happened i left for a while too

yea :)

maybe i should give you some then 😏

hehe i got you now *giggles and flips it over then grabs a plate and sets it on the counter, placing the grilled cheese on the plate after it’s finished

yea 😂

ewwww 😂

no :(

me too

whoa 😳

hehe maybe i am, maybe im not

you deserve it *smiles and starts cleaning up* i hope it tastes just as good

i would’ve never told anyone that if it happened to me 😂

damnnn

it is, i miss her so much

here’s your crown 👑

okay i was serious

no i wasn’t

yes i was

no i wasn’ttttt

or maybe i was

im glad it is and im glad it makes you happy *grins and kisses your cheek* enjoy it

i know

you’re welcome

okayyyy maybe i was joking but i was also serious

hehe

hehe i knowwwww

i told you about these hormones

*holds your hand and walks with you* what about a drink? do you need anything else?

yessssss

😳

perfect *giggles softly when you pull me into your lap and folds my hands into my lap* you grilled cheese smells really good

nothinggggg

yes i dooooo, maybe i should’ve made one for myself *takes my half from you and smiles* thank you

nothingggggggg

really? the best grilled cheese ever? *smiles and takes a bite of mine*

NO 😡

you ate it so fast, i only took one bite *giggles and takes another bite* im glad you love it

nooooo 😡😡😡😡😡

hmph

oh yea, how could i forget? *laughs softly and finishes the rest of my sandwich*

no 😡

im glad i could make your day *smiles and turns in your lap to ki ss your cheek before standing up and grabs the plate*

😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡

yea? i know my kisses can be addicting, no one can resist these lips *giggles and takes the plate to put it in the sink*

oh really? i get that alotttt

mm what question

you say that like it’s a bad thing *giggles softly and turns to you once i place the plate into the sink*

really? hehe

1. no i haven’t 2. recently as we got closer and started to talk more and we were cuddlingggg 3. because im a bad bxtch😎

*blushes and looks up at you innocently, tilting my head a bit* whatttt? im not doing anythingggg

so we felt them around the same time

h ell yea i am 😎

*blushes more when you get closer and shrugs a little* mm no i don’t know what you’re talking about sir

yea :)

*looks up at your eyes and tries not to smile, speaking softly* but.. im not doing anythingggg

it was alright, i stayed home and did a little bit of cleaning.. how was yours?

*watches your eyes and slowly smirks as i shake my head* mm no.. i don’t think so

that’s good, are you and lola friends now? and that sxxks, are you starting school this week?

*blushes deeply and watches you, gasping when you turn away and frowns, crossing my arms afterwards* heyyyyy that was unfairrrr

im glad you two have become friends and im glad she approves

that sxxks :(

hmm i don’t know and i guess you’ll never know *keeps my arms crossed and glares at you*

she is, she’s very sweet

that’s a good way to think about it

it’s okay, do you want to go so you can help them?

yes

yes i can *keeps glaring at you with my arms crossed and shakes my head* noooo it wasn’t *glances down at where your thumb is then back up at your eyes* mm maybe

why

yes you can tell me

oh okay

oh? is that a bad thing?

*looks at your eyes and slowly starts to smile* mm you make it so hard to stay mad at you

i don’t think she knows about that

good, mine all mine

but i don’t know how long i’ll be awake for, i think i have a headache

hm maybe i should delete it thennnn

whateverrrrr, still not fair *rolls my eyes playfully and uncrosses my arms* yea that does work.. sometimes

lmaoo i am 😂

i don’t know why it started, i’ve been laying in bed

hmm i don’t know…. its a distraction and you can’t be distracted, especially at school

lmaoo this one is funny

*holds your hand and looks down at our hands* do you really?

i don’t want a snack, i want it to go awayyyyy

hmm i don’t knowwwww

if you want to

it did make me laugh, you’re funny

*looks up at you and grins as i nod* yea.. well you have my consent whenever you want to do so

yes

fineeeee

i like this one

im sorryyyy, my head was killing me last night

im feeling better now

yea i h ate feeling sick :(

just workingggg

it’s raining right now

it’s a gloomy day

i don’t mind the rain, but i like it when im at home

i knowwwww, i want cuddles

i should be free in an hour

it depends on how you get wet 😏

how are classes?

ten more minutes then im all yoursssss

i love physical touch too

oh yea? 😏

that’s good

i don’t know if you did, if so i don’t remember

not yet 😏

i guess so

that’s what “aaron” did

im home, now im free

hmm physical touch, quality time anddddd i guess acts of service

i wouldn’t mind 😏

no, it’s okay

okay, ours are similar :)

hmm 😏 i don’t know if i believe that

make what better?

yes :)

yea i might need proof.. i do learn better that way ;)

it’s not your fault, you didn’t know lmaoo

but we can cuddle

me too

i don’t know if i shoulddddd or if i cannnnnn 🫢

*smiles and holds onto you* i do loveeeee princess treatment

🫢🫢

i just feel silly

ohhh if i knew we were leaving i would’ve grabbed a jacket *grins and looks at you* where are we going

im just shyyyyy

i guess soooo

thank you *takes the hoodie and puts it on before putting on my seatbelr* which is?

i do somewhat and i feel stupid

hehe oh stopppppp🥰

*shrugs and grins, glancing out the window* is that what we’re doing? going sledding?

yea i guess you’re right.. i just gave to get over it completely, i’ve grown alot since then but i still have growing to do.. i just feel like i could’ve avoided it, that it was right in front of me and i was still dumb enough to ignore it

i knowwwww

that sounds okay *folds my hands in my lap and looks at you* let me guess, you love watching the stars?

thanks.. i really needed that and im really trying, im trying to heal and become a better version of myself

you have a great therapist :)

im not feeling very well and im tired, im not sure how long i’ll stay awake for toniggg

tonight

it’s fine, we can do whatever *sits back in my seat and looks out the window*

yea i like this new version too and im still working on it

i do

i don’t know, maybe the weather?

where

*shakes my head* no you didn’t, we can go do what you have planned

yea?

no im okay, i think i just need rest

sure

why *frowns and watches you, slowly taking off my seatbelt*

oh, good question

i don’t knowwww, i’ve gone back and forth for years about whether or not i was

it’s too late for a nap

well you’re right *holds onto you and rests my head on your shoulder* it’s so cold

i don’t think i know who that is

it was during a game, but i remember i was out with friends one time.. maybe at the club? i kissed a girl there, she was really pretty and she was nice.. so maybe that’s when i began to realize it or question it

that’s as far as i can remember

maybeeeee but i don’t want to

it’s okay, you didn’t know.. i mentioned it afterwards *lifts my each foot to allow you pull my boots off and takes off the hoodie*

ohhhhh

yea yea 😂 we shoulddddd, i like going to the club with my friends

i can’t sleep unless i take medicine

are you sure? you might not get this back *holds the hoodie and looks at you* i have a habit of not returning clothes 😂

he’s cute

but soberrrr? just call an uber 😂

yes

or you could just show me without me having to steal all of your clothes? *giggles softly and nods* mm okay i’ll keep it then

lmaoo

i knowwwww and calling an uber is responsible

how

hey, i never said that. your words, not mine *shrugs and looks at you, crossing my arms*

mhmmmm

heh okay

shhhhhh

*looks up at you and leans back against the counter with a small smirk* mm you wouldn’t huh?

i ammmmm, i took my medicine and drifted off a bit but im going to sleep now

goodnight, sleep well and i’ll talk to you tomorrow ❤️

*takes your hand and walks with you* mm not so easily i guess

good morninggggg

i might stay home today, im still not feeling too well

but it gives me an excuse to be home to talk to you todayyyyy

but i might sleep if i stay home today, i ha te feeling sick

i was just sick a few weeks ago :(

im sad i couldn’t stay up and talk to youuuu, i know i said i was all yours after work yesterday :(

you’re awakeeee

*looks at you and giggles, walking with you* whatttt? what’s funny?

i need it to go away :(

okay :) i’ll let you know if i stay home or not

why are you awake so early

yea :(

me too, i wanted to stay awake to talk to you and i tried to

uh huh liarrrrr liarrrrr *grins and sits down on the couch*

yes, medicine but im not hungry

oh yea, you just said that 😂

i have a slight headache but im colddddd and my stomach hurts too

aw :)

who wouldn’t like all of this? *giggles and scoots over so you have room, looking up at you* i’d be lying if i said i didn’t like what i see

okay, time starts now

i doooo

sorryyyy, i was just giving you space just in case and i don’t want to get you sick *smiles when you pull me closer and leans my head on your shoulder as i nod* have you seen yourself? you’re very handsome and a cutie

a heated stuffed animal? i’ve wanted one for a while 🥺

❤️❤️

*smiles and blushes, covering up with the blanket as i snuggle with you* thank you, you’re really sweet

really 🥺🥺

yea *grins and relaxes once im comfortable, looking at the tv* hmm let’s watch a movie

i can be a big baby when im sickkkkk

hmm how about the notebook? have you seen it before? *grins and looks up at you* it’s my favorite movie

are you sureeee? i can be annoying 😂

i went into work and i was sent home

*sits up a little so you can get up and nods* hmm i do.. but what kind of juice?

you should and tell me what you think

okayyyy this is your warning

i thought i would make it through the day

and i need moneyyyy

*lays down on the couch while i wait for you to come back* hmm i’ll take orange juice please

i think you will

really?

i knowwwww

im trying

😠

hehe im back

oh don’t act like you didn’t miss me soooooo much

*sits up once you come back and takes the glass* thank you *takes a sip of the juice before setting the glass on the table*

im glad you think that, someone told me i was annoying once when i would try to talk to them

it was years ago but i still think about it

yes 🥺

hey 😠

wait..

i know and i always miss you

yea *grins and grabs the remote to put the movie on before laying back with the blanket covering my body*

yea he wasn’t 🙄

🥰

🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄

nothing

🥰

*grabs the remote to pause the movie and looks over at you* yea?

it was

oh, i was saying wait in response to your comment about albert einstein

*folds my hands in my lap and keeps my eyes on you as i nod* okay

haha 😂

sorryyyyy

*shrugs a little and plays with the blanket, ru bbing the end of it between my fingers* i don’t know.. i think i just don’t want to move to fast and rush into it.. and im also afraid of getting too attached but we might be past that already

haha okayyyy

i can do that

*holds your hand and shakes my head quickly* no no, it has nothing to do with you.. just my past, i promise. i would love to move forward, it’s just that.. that’s what’s holding me back, my past

what’s that

*grins and looks up at you, grabbing your hands to pull you closer to me* where would you like your ki ss?

i guess i do feel a little pressure, but not from you.. it’s just the situation *looks ahead at the tv as i think for a moment* i don’t want us to get so attached to each other and then i decide i can’t do it or if i were to decide i can’t do it and then i regret it later and miss my chance? but a huge part of me doesn’t want to say no to this, to us

ohhhhh

isn’t it? *giggles softly and lets go of your hands, letting them rest on my hips as i lean up to ki ss your cheek*

im not saying we can’t do those things, but it just makes me a little.. skeptical i guess? all of the similarities, all of her characters had very specific similarities and things in common, all of them and those are a couple of examples of similar things all of her characters shared that i don’t think anyone else that i’ve talked to had that wasn’t her.. so it does make me question it. i’ve talked to her and known her for so long, i know the way she types, how she talks, what she does, it’s predictable so any little thing that may seem like her, i pick up on right away and i have to be careful and maybe even do research

i might’ve heard of it

yea? *giggles and kisses your cheek again before tickling your side*

yea.. no matter how badly i want it.. i still have that fear and i think i’ll always still be that cautious and afraid, even in the relationship and i don’t want you to feel like it’s your fault because it’s not you.. but you’re right, it does make it harder to trust people, especially on the internet.. but i don’t know if she has come back? i do suspect she has, so i keep my distance

wait.. how long have you liked me for?

*giggles and tickles you until you push me against the wall and drops my hands from your hips, looking at you*

doesn’t matter, i just want to stay away from her and i want her to stay away from me

what i had was already ruined lmaoo

he knew me so well because he got to know me as multiple different people 🤷‍♀️

*nods and grins, leaning back against the wall* yea, it shocked me a little

stay curiousssss

mhm

eh

*looks up at you when you pin my hands above my head and blushes* well you’re really h ot

MY BEST FRIEND IS BACK

no comment

i didn’t know that

maybeeee *grins and pushes myself off of the wall, walking past you*

alejandro

words of affirmation

it was almost always words of affirmation or gift giving

yea he liked those things, mostly journaling

he always wanted me to journal

yes *grabs my glass of orange juice and the remote to unpause the movie*

yea sometimes, always around the age of ten or so

what

*sips my orange juice before setting the glass down again and lays back*

no comment

*watches the movie and covers up with the blanket*

a while ago

*smiles when you pull me into your lap and adjusts myself so im comfortable, watching the movie*

maybe

i’d rather not talk about it anymore

*looks down at your hands then looks up at you* are you okay?

is it because of our conversation *frowns and looks at you*

*grabs the remote and pauses the movie* do you want to talk about it

oh.. yea *frowns and nods,, looking at you* im sorry about that.. i thought it was pretty sh ixtyy and unfair to you and lola, but that’s another reason why i didn’t say anything because it’s not my situation to talk about

should we just watch the movie another time? it’ll be hard to enjoy it if you’re upset

i guess you were a victim after all.. she just didn’t get that far with you *rubs your arm and presses a soft ki ss to your cheek* im really sorry

*wraps my arms around you and holds you* yea.. it’s a f ùcked up thing to do..

okay love, if im not awake by the time you come back i hope you sleep well and you feel better soon. im sorry that happened to you :( be safe ❤️

good morning love

i fell asleep, im sorry :( but i slept well and i think it really helped

i missed you too ❤️

how are you feeling? i hope you slept okay

noooo i missed you more

yea i get that

not anymore, but i can get it again or instagram

mm i’ll let you win this time since youre sad

okay, i’ll download it

ugh it’s not working

what about instagram

okay

it’s weird, i don’t know why it won’t work

im feeling better today, i just need to eat something

what about you?

all of the usernames i tried were taken, it won’t create the account after i p ut an email.. it mentions an update but there’s no option to update it

you don’t have to love, i can grab a snack :) but thanks

i know

she ruined it for both of us huh?

yea

i know

me neither

me too :)

im backkkkk

we can cuddle or go to a park and get drunk or go to build a bear

whatever you want to do

are you going to say anything to her? has she been on?

i missed you more

lmaoo im indecisive

we can build a gingerbread house

i don’t know.. we don’t have proof i guess but she fits the pattern well.. even her bios looked similar

i was friends with her but i distanced myself after i noticed the similarities and then lola told me what happened and that made me not want to talk to her even more

even if you say something she’ll deny it or act clueless, someone tried to before

lmaoo im here nowwwww, you can.. touch me 😂

i don’t know what type of person.. they were, i don’t know what was real and what wasn’t

the names were all over the place

nooooo i did

let’s start now

yea and i thought it was weird, even before i found it was really her when i suspected everything, but it wasnt confirmed until a handful of others pointed it out to me too.. i think that’s what made me realize i wasn’t imagining things

and others noticed it with her too

so i guess im not crazy

wow

this is.. random

but have you seen the tiktok trend when a girl would get their boyfriend or husband to do the trend when they flip their hat backwards and do the arm over the door trend

i saw someone do it a little while ago and i started smiling 😂

i don’t know

lmaoo 😂

i wish i listened to myself sooner

*looks up at you and smiles when you pull me closer, wrapping my arms around your neck* i like when you “touch” me 😂

whattttt noooo that’s not what i said

but if you want to, i wouldn’t be opposed to it

maybe we should stop talking about it and thinking about it

yea.. it’s a “lobe” confession *giggles and looks at you, placing my hands on your cheeks* hehe look who’s red now

hear me out cake?

what 😂

okay

oh? is that so? *giggles more and blushes when you pull me even closer as i nod* yeaaaa i do

just fictional characters? or celebrities too?

oh okay

so i can say tom holland

spiderman

i dooooo and i love making you fold *smiles and leans up to k iss the corner of your lips* ready for our daily cuddle session?

you should meet my friend alejandro

i was telling him about you

can i sayyyyy you

really? you’re doing a good job holding back from that *grins and takes your hand, leading you up to my bedroom*

of course i did

yesssss i do

awwwww 🥰

okay

you’d be surprised if you knew what was going through my mind and how much im holding in, im surprised myself *stops at my room and opens the door slowly to peak inside* i hope i didnt leave a mess

you’re right, i already know :) but of course i had to tell one of my best friends about my crushhhhh

it is really hard, but i’ve managed to do it.. somewhat.. you don’t know how badly i’ve wanted to k iss you for last couple of days *giggles and looks at you, my eyes slowly widening at your comment as i follow you into my room* ay dios mio 🫢

im curious

but i won’t ask

yea i have and i was hoping you would at one point? we do tease each other alot, but i didnt want to just.. do it if you didnt want to i guess? or when you weren’t ready to? *looks up at you and grins* that does sound nice, but im glad you didnt do that.. i need something different than a first k iss under the stars, im tired of that scenario *shrugs a little then giggles* ay dios mio?

i don’t make promises i can’t keep, but i’ll try not to

yea.. i like that, our ki ss *grins and walks over to the bed to sit beside you* i know you find that attractive, i only know some spanish

really, you were getting protective? and you love me? you’ve loved me this whole time..?

it just might be, i know commitment was something you were afraid of and you haven’t committed to anyone in a long time.. but you feel that safe and comfortable with me to want to settle with me, commit to me.. that means alot

*feels your heart racing and smiles, grabbing one of your hands to place it on mine* so does mine, i feel like a kid when they have a crush.. how excited they are to see them, warm hands, the blushing.. *grins and thinks for a moment then gasps* i think i have a nickname now

no no,, it’s not a problem at all ❤️

yea i know :( and you’re not? no more leaving?

it does mean alot to me, i wait for your replies, i think about you when im busy and can’t talk to you in the moment, i look forward to seeing your messages when i wake up in the morning and talking to you at night, i talked to two of my best friends about you.. *smiles and looks up at you* it’s really important to me and that’s why i want to make this work

hmm i dont know if it is a very good one but i was thinking of one in spanish, a special nickname for you.. mi corazón, it means my heart

i didn’t know you felt that way all of this time, you hid it very well.. im just glad you’re back now and we’re here together

that means alot.. thank you for being here and.. for not forgetting about me even when you left and even though you weren’t here for me when everything happened, you’ve been here for me since you came back and.. im sorry i didn’t open sooner about everything? it’s not your fault

awwww you’re so red now *looks at you and giggles as i nod* that was a good confession and what i mean is.. i want us to work out, to be able to be together.. i don’t want ophelia or whoever she is to ruin this, to ruin us.. im still afraid and cautious, but i think if we just take it slow, not rush anything.. it’ll work out

or mi amor, “my love”

becauseeee you’re someone close to me and special in my heart

wow.. now i think im at a loss of words. you pushed your feelings aside to not get in the way of my happiness, even if it meant you weren’t? oh holden 🥺

i can’t imagine how hard that was for you.. but im so glad you came back, im so glad you’re here and.. maybe all of this happened for a reason? to bring us together?

sorryyyy, i apologize alot

i’ll pinch you *laughs softly and holds your hands, looking up at your eyes as i nod* yes, but only if we take it slow

and promise you won’t just leave after a few months.. once that high wears off from the new relationship.. you know? you worn just leave or slowly lose interest and put in less effort

drool 😂

oh? 🥰 i can call you either one, but i still want to come up with another one that isn’t a spanish nickname

very clear and you’re special to me too 🥰

you’re the sweetest, most perfect boy

thank you for everything, for being patient with me, for being here for me, for caring for me.. thank you

yea maybe it is, it’s meant to be

i h ate to ruin this perfect moment, but i do have to go very soon, my medicine is kicking in now so im tireddddd and i want to try to make sure i get enough sleep during the week

*giggles and smiles wide at you before wrapping my arms around you to hug you* im really happy right now, it feels good

yea i couldn’t think of the name of it, but im glad you feel that way too

i thought so 😂

hehe mi amor

muy calliente

awwww 🥰

your cheeks are going to hurt

i’ll miss you too and i might wake up early just to message you back like i have been the last few mornings. i hope you sleep better tonight too ❤️

buenas noches 🥰

i was hoping this would be the outcome too.. even though i was the one to make the decision *giggles softly and takes one of your hands to hold* i think deep down i knew i wanted to, it was just the fear holding me back

hehe i’ll stop.. for now 😏

tomorrow i’ll start again

😳

yea, no problem and thank you again, i appreciate you too :) sleep well ❤️❤️

it means goodnight 😂

buenas dias mi amor

i like mi corazon but i like the way mi amor sounds more

thank you, it’s a risk im willing to take one more time *grins and looks up at you* you’re worth it

you know how to say i love you in spanish? 🥺

don’t apologize hehe

hey 😡

i already told you i’ve really wanted to k iss you for a while now *shrugs and smiles at you*

awwwww

no you’re notttt

kik is finally working

*smiles wider and nods, answering your question quickly* yes! i mean.. yea that’s fine, you can do that.. whatever *giggles and blushes, shrugging my shoulders*

i messaged you

good

*giggles softly and smiles, wrapping my arms around your neck as i ki ss you back slowly*

*giggles softly and lays back, looking up at you as i move my hand to your cheek*

*closes my eyes as i ki ss you back with the same amount of energy*

i miss youuuuu

*opens my eyes and blushes, looking up at you* that was.. wow.. it was worth the wait

*giggles softly and smiles as i nod* don’t worry, i understand what you mean

thank you and you are a great kis ser, now i definitely won’t be able to resist k issing those lips of yours

you taste like all of the grilled cheese you’ve been eating, i can tell you had one today *pokes your side and laughs softly* im kidding, you taste sweet 😌

i know *smiles and touches your chest to feel your heartbeat* it is the good kind, that’s loveeeee and excitement

hey, i just wanted to let you know i might not stay up very late during weeknights because of work and trying to get enough rest, especially if i remember to take my sleep medicine every night. i wanted to let you know that now in case i fall asleep without saying goodnight sometimes and i know we mostly talk late at night, but i want to prioritize my sleep more so i dont feel so tired during the day and have low energy

but i will stay up late during the weekends if im not very tired, sometimes i am

so in case i fall asleep before you respond, buenas noches mi amor ❤️ sleep well and when you wake up tomorrow, make sure you eat breakfast or even a snack

good, i would hope not.. not so soon *grins and takes your hand to hold it* what do you want to do now

no problem

i thought i’d try to take care of myself more this year and that includes getting enough sleep

i care about you and your health, so i do care about if you eat and what you eat :) i hope you slept well and you have a good morning too ❤️

hehe did you google that too

no it’s not

im glad you’re happy, i am too.. really happy *smiles and looks up at you* im.. no im not hungry *shakes my head and grins* i was going to make a joke, but i wont

i’ll miss you too, it sxxks we might talk a little less, but i’ve sacrificed my sleep alot and i want to change that. i wanted to let you know so you don’t think im disappearing

wellll get used to it cause i care about you alot and that sounds like a decent breakfast 😌

awwwww

mm no.. not saying it *giggles and pretends to zip and lock my lips*

i’ll make sure you still get your dose of me every day 😌

yea i understand and you think everything i do is h ot 😂

you can have more and more and more and more and more

*ki sees you back and blushes, giggling softly* hey.. that was clever, but im not sayingggg

hehe thank you

that’s alot of kisses

*rolls my eyes playfully and giggles as i shrug* hmm maybe that was it..

i’ll check later when im off of work

lmaoo 😂

really want to what? *grins and looks at you* hehe tomato

okay

both

*giggles and shrugs, looking down at my hands* maybe i have answer, maybe i do, maybe i dont.. maybe i wont reveal the answer, maybe i will

i love when you do 😂

i know, im just messing with you and confusing you on purpose *holds your hands and laughs* sorry

i know what you mean 😂

what the fxxk

yea

oh 😳

im not opposed to that.. 😳

noooooo i was joking *laughs and pokes your side* maybe i dooooo want to

yes

woah 😳

do it

*grins and slowly looks up at your eyes* yes?

yes

i dont know, i dont think so

hmph i miss you :(

it’s okay

aw 🥰

*looks at you and nods* hmm okay, let’s just cuddle then

*nods and pushes my hair back from my face* mm i don’t know if i did, i had to work thennnn i went home and made myself dinner and a smoothie, my sister came by for a couple of hours and we talked and i saw my niece and nephew, thennnn i watched tv and had a few drinks while i was waiting for you

they’re good, i like smoothies *looks down at the blanket and nods* that’s not bad, it still sounds like you had a decent day

good morning ❤️

yea, that definitely made it better *grins and watches as you move my hand to your lips*

it was okay, but i woke up a few times

how was yours?

*looks at you for a moment then looks back at our hands and nods as i grin* i agree

thanks

that’s what it feels like, i wanted more sleep but i couldn’t go back to sleep

*looks at you and shrugs* i just like to look at youuuuu

im not surprised *grins and blushes* thank you and you’re very handsome

you’re handsome *wraps my arms around your neck when you move me towards your back* what are you doing?

*holds onto you and nods* mm.. just water

*holds onto you and waits*

okay good, im home too

nothing *takes the glass of water and holds it, taking a sip* thank you

*sits on the counter and nods, holding my water* why

what do you mean *frowns a little and takes another sip of my water*

oh *sets my glass down and nods* what snack?

no *shakes my head and gets off of the counter* okay that’s easy, carrots and ranch

i went out today for a few hours to visit my mom and go to a couple of stores then i came home and i cleaned up a little *grins when you come behind me and looks up at you* what about your day

it’s okay and it sounds like your day was good too *grins and grabs my water from the counter*

*takes another sip of my water again and sets it down again, biting my bottom lip as i think* mm what do you mean

oh yea.. if im being honest, im not sure i guess? im so used to the opposite, everything moving fast.. but i guess my main thing is, i dont want us to just.. get into a relationship right away. we already know each other well, we’ve been friends for a while and we’ve already started to get to know each other on a deeper level, i just want us to continue to do that before we officially start dating and i dont want us to just date for a few months and then become engaged and start family.. you know? that seems to be a pattern and i dont want that anymore.. i hope that makes sense?

i don’t want us to rush things, i want us both to be ready to take the next steps

but i guess we do already act like a couple lmaoo and that’s fine, but i guess that’s just what i mean by taking things slow, just not rushing to get to all of the next steps

thank you

i don’t think there’s anything wrong with sharing music lmaoo and we already have done that

i know

yes we can cuddle

good morning 💛

come back

i miss you

:(

i don’t have anything to do and i want to talk to you

if you’re not here in ten minutes then…. then no cuddles for you 😠

if you’re still not here after ten minutes and it’s 20 minutes… then… no kisses 😡

ahhhhh

you made it before twenty minutes 😌

but since you were doing school work…. i’ll make an exception

yes

yes you are

i don’t know 😂

hehe 🥰

there’s nothing wrong with that, if you’re not obsessed with your girl then you shouldn’t be with her 😂

yes

hehe good

how 😂

yes i did *giggles softly and wraps my arms around you* so much

oh 😂

*smiles and holds onto you as i ki ss your cheek* i missed you sooooo much

that’s sweet, i don’t like sharing 😂

*smiles and kisses all over your face as i hold onto you* good

hmm i’ll think about it 😂

i’ve listened to a couple of them and know them already, but i do like it

but i don’t listen to tame impala

noooo im kidding

aw

we’ll find one

*smiles and gets comfy, laying on my side to face you* how was your day

yeaaaa you have to share with me 😌

my day was alright, i watched tiktok videos, talked to you and my friends, made another smoothie, took a nap, did a bit of cleaning *grins and looks at you* did you work today?

yea :)

it was reallyyyy good, i’ll make one for you sometime *frowns a little and looks at you* you had class on a sunday? i’d h ate that

fineeeee i guess i’ll share with you

oh okay, that makes sense *giggles softly and smiles when you pull me closer, sitting up so i can move on top of you*

i look forward to that

i’ve never had a carrot muffin before, i’ll try it :) thank youuuu

yes i did and it’s been treating me very well thanks to my prince *giggles and lays down on top of you*

that’s really sweet, thank youuuu *grins and looks at you*

good *smiles when you press your lips to mine and kisses you*

thanks *takes it and sets it down on the table* i’ll eat it as a snack

*grins and cups your cheek, kissing you slowly then pulls away after a moment*

aw that’s sweet and it’ll be great for a snack or my lunch while i’m a lt work

at^

hehe you want more? *giggles softly when you pout and leans down to ki ss your lips again*

hehe

*smiles and cups your cheek and k issing you deeply*

next time 😌

*leans my head back a bit when you start to ki ss my neck and smiles* just warning you, that’s a weak spotttt

*tilts my head and looks at you, blushing deeply as i nod and whispers an okay in response*

*looks down at you and shrugs as i smile* it must be the perfume and body wash i use, i always make sure i smell and taste good 😏

wellll i did take a shower before you came, so the smell must still be fresh *smiles and tilts my head a bit, a small smirk forming on my face* mm and how would you like me to show you sir?

*giggles and blushes as i shrug* mm that doesn’t sound bad, another shower wouldn’t hurt 😏

yes

lmaoo you said that a couple of days ago, you have my consent 😂

thanks for asking

you came prepared *giggles and holds onto you, pressing a few kisses to your neck*

they do

that was two days ago *giggles softly and nods, looking up at you* i didn’t know that, but you don’t have to worry about me judging you

i think you’re handsome just the way you are *smiles and takes off my sweatshirt* sometimes i feel a little insecure about my body too

yea you’re right *grins and nods, blushing as i get off of the counter to take off my pants* thank you mi amor

*grins and takes off the rest of my clothes as well, tossing them aside* ready?

i can’t help but be flustered around you too, i know what im doing but.. when i get around you i get shy and nervous and i forget everything *grins and holds your hand, stepping into the shower with you* you can if you want, you might have to if things get.. messy 😏

*grins and nods* yea and i guess it’s good we’re both nervous, it makes me feel a little less nervous knowing im not the only one *looks at you and blushes, giggling softly* okay sir

it’s okay

*moans softly and leans my head back, moving my hand to grip onto your hair*

good morning mi amor ❤️

*moans a little louder, keeping a grip on your hair as my toes curl from the pleasure*

it was a little rough :( how was yours?

hehe

holden es muy calliente

*blushes deeply and lets go of your hair when you pull back, looking down at you* w-wow..

i guess i just have alot on my mind

🥰

it was a good wow and i did *grins and nods* i was not expecting that

not really

holden, you’re so sweet 🥺

that might be the sweetest thing anyone has ever said to me in spanish

*giggles softly and stands up, turning around for you* oh hehe, be as rough as you want 😏

okay

yes

yes

🥰🥰

i feel happier with you too ❤️

*smirks and grins as i shrug* i guess i just have my ways

*holds onto you and rests my head on your shoulder* room.. cuddle time

i wish i could too, fluently

yes sir *bites my bottom lip and holds onto the shower bar*

*grins and closes my eyes, holding onto you* im so tired and my body aches

i think you’re attractive

good morning ❤️

i was so tired i fell asleep

*gasps and whimpers softly, arching my back a little as you push in*

moving around and working too much i guess *shrugs and scoots close to you so i can l ay in your arms*

you, your face, your smile, your sweetness, how understanding and patient you are

it was better

*whines and holds onto the bar, feeling my walls adjust to your size*

*closes my eyes and nods* i do, but maybe they’re not long enough

hehe okay

no problem :)

thank you 💛

im cold

o-oh really? *moans and keeps my grip on the bar, arching my back more as you begin to thrust*

aw

im glad it makes your smileeee

*moans and leans my head back, smirking* i-i’ve wanted you too

you’re right

alot 🥰

*yawns and nods* i wish life had a pause button

*moans a little louder and smirks when you moan, pushing back into you more to make you go deeper * m-maybe

yea you are 😎

*grins and opens my eyes to look up at you* you’re right and you’re my escape from everything else too

*moans louder as you start to go harder, breathing heavily as i nod in agreement*

yea second to me

im glad you showed me all of you and that you feel safe with me *grins and grabs your hand to play with your fingers again* i still can’t believe im the one.. the one you feel comfortable enough with to commit to and open up to

*moans your name loudly as my legs begin to tremble from the pleasure, gripping the bar with both hands*

i don’t know, i guess i just wasn’t expecting it? *continues to play with your fingers and yawns again* it’s sad we’ve been hurt so badly and i hope we never have to experience it again *closes my eyes again* i didn’t even know you were a musician

hmm you’re right

*exhales slowly and comes with you as i feel you release, blushing as i let go of the bar and push my hair out of my face*

yea *smiles and relaxes when i feel your arms around my waist, feeling sleepy as i try to stay awake* what do you play

mhmmmm

*giggles softly and turns so i can face you and nods* that was good

i love guitar.. i play guitar *grins and slowly opens my eyes to look at you before closing them again* what is it

it wasn’t very exciting, i went to work then came home and made noodles anddddd did my laundry and took a shower, watched something and talked to you, lola and alejandro

okay *grins and grabs my body wash* here’s the body wash you loveeeee

yea it’ll be fun *opens my eyes and sits up a little to look at the keychain* wow that’s so cool and sweet *grins and looks at you* thank you, i can put it on my key ring

you should make some

studious boy

good morning ❤️

i think it’s coconut *looks at the bottle for the scent and nods* and it has almond milk in it

i like it, thank you *pecks your lips and puts it into my pocket, closing my eyes again*

are you sick :(

okay *grins and stands still while you wash my back*

*grins and slowly starts drifting off, falling asleep shortly after*

that’s not good :(

have you taken any medicine? drank tea,

try drinking tea too and getting rest

*stays still for you while you wash and grins* when i come to your house i can just use your body wash, i won’t have to bring my own if you buy the same one 😌

*sleeps and snores lightly*

we can cuddle

promise?

the whole shelf? *giggles and waits for you to rinse the soap off, grabbing my shampoo*

*sleeps*

*grins and holds your hand* cuddle time *walks to the room with you*

i would be at your house alot to use it all that fast *grins and puts some of the shampoo in my hair*

*sleeps*

i wouldn’t want to get sick again after being sick twice, that’d be no fun *shakes my head* buttttt you want cuddles and i can’t resist cuddles, it’s worth the risk *walks over to the bed to la y down*

soooo many *giggles and washes my hair, rinsing the shampoo out once im done*

*starts waking up after a few hours and slowly opens my eyes*

*kisses you back and slowly grins before l aying down* good, that’s the goal

a long time *smiles softly and gets out once im finished, grabbing a towel*

*yawns and slowly sits up, looking over at you and grins*

you’re really going to get me sick *giggles softly and kisses your cheek*

it’s okay, good morning amor ❤️

*drives myself off and shrugs* hmm a little, i think i want fruit

*slowly gets off of the bed, making sure not to wake you and goes to use the bathroom*

it’s okay *grins and l ays down, grabbing a blanket to put over us*

how’d you sleep

okay *grabs another towel to dry my hair and walks out of the bathroom to the bedroom*

*uses the bathroom and washes my hands, coming back to the bed afterwards to carefully la y down beside you*

how come :(

*grabs my lotion and looks up at you and nods* okay, that sounds good *starts putting lotion on my body*

*watches you when you move and l ays down slowly so im facing you, trying to create as little movement as possible*

yea :(

do what? put on the lotion? *grabs a blueberry to eat and looks over at you*

*looks over at you and grins* hi sleepy head

that’s good love and of course i worry, being sick is no fun

don’t cryyyy, i sorry *grins and finishes putting on lotion then grabs my clothes to put on*

how did you sleep *grins and looks at you, ki ssing your head*

you’re the sweetest boy alive

yea?

would you like tea? i can make some for you *smiles and turns around once im finished and hugs you* andddd we can cuddle

i slept really good too *grins and sits up* i woke up because i had to use the bathroom

mm i don’t know, but you have already said it a few times

i might have black for sure *grins and puts my towels away and grabs a brush to brush my hair*

im glad you did too *moves over so you have room to get ip*

mm not uncomfortable, im just not ready to say it right now.. but i guess that would make it feel a little fast

yes *grins and looks over at you* what should we have for breakfast

okay

*goes to the kitchen and looks for the black tea, grabbing it and makes it for you*

fried eggs are okay with me *nods and stands up to stretch*

*comes back with the tea and hands it to you* here’s your tea

good morning ❤️

whatever you put on yours *grins and looks at myself in the mirror* yikes

*sits down beside you on the bed* careful, it’s h ot

im okayyyyy, you?

i know, it’s sooooo cold

noooo *giggles and shakes my head* i look bad right now

*giggles and rolls my eyes playfully* yea you know what i meant, h ot in temperature 😂

do you have a fever

i haven’t heard that song in a longgggg time

not when i wake up and look like this *laughs softly and turns to face you*

lmaoo sorry *giggles and la ys back on the back*

yea i can tell you’re sick lmaoo

mm maybe i will, maybe i wont *shrugs a little and grins* ready for breakfast?

snappy? oh no *giggles and l ays on my side facing you* not too snappy i hope

*blushes and nods, intertwining our fingers when you slip yours into mine* okay

i know, everyone ha tes being sick *snuggles with you and grins, kissing your head* of course :)

*smiles and holds your hand, walking downstairs with you*

*looks at you and grins* wellll i care about you and i know you’d do it for me too

i can help if you want, just tell me what to do *follows you into the kitchen*

*nods and grins, looking at your eyes* it is nice to have people who care about you and care for you

*ki sses you back and smiles as i nod* yes sir *walks over to the stove and turns on the high heat then goes to the cabinet to look for a pan*

thanks, i made it special just for you *grins and sits up a little to grab the blanket to pull over us*

i have a question.. maybe

hmm.. two *finds a frying pan and grabs it from the cabinet*

good *smiles at you* how about we watch something?

it’s a little random.. just wondering if some of my habits might bother you

three? okay *grins and leans back against the counter as i watch you* impressive

yes it is, let’s watch it *sits up and grabs the remote to turn on the tv*

wellll i don’t do it alot butttt you know i drink sometimes, we’ve talked about it before and about going out together to the club.. so i guess that’s not a problem? buttttt i do also get high sometimes, sometimes just with edibles or occasionally i might smo ke.. so i guess im asking if that bothers you at all?

are you really? *giggles and shrugs* i like them many ways, scrambled, fried, boiled

*grins and searches for the movie once the tv is on and puts it on*

okay, just checking

*watches you add the seasonings then looks up at you and giggles* already knew what?

*giggles softly and looks down at you after placing the remote on the nightstand* are you going to pay attention to the movie

no.. it was just a problem before so i wanted to ask

yea you’re right

mm no i didn’t know that.. how would i? hmm? *grins and walks behind you to wrap my arms around you* but i guess i should’ve known since you said you play guitar

well im glad you’re enjoying it *smiles and looks at you, laughing softly* yessss i will

yea i guess so

okay

you still could *grins and lets go of you so you can move around and looks at the eggs* they smell good

oh really? already hungry for more? *smirks and giggles softly, starting to play with your hair*

my poor boy, you’re really sick

you tell me that everyday 😂

thank you for the spam, you’re very sweet even when you’re sicky

i hope you feel better and you’re taking medicine and resting

and blowing your nose 😂

i had to censor it before, it’s annoying

i was just moving so you could walk *giggles softly when you pull me back* are you ready

you’re right, i don’t *grins and plays in your hair while i watch the movie*

that’s not good

that’s good

me too

sorryyyyy, i didn’t want to be in the way *grins and holds out my hands* do you need help carrying anything

*continues to play with your hair while keeping my eyes on the screen*

okay *nods and grins, taking the glasses of water and walking to the tablw*

im happy to see you toooo

i’ve missed youuuuu

butttt i still have to drive home so i might leave again soon, just until i get home

*looks at the screen for a moment longer then looks down at you and nods*

mm no thanks *shakes my head and sits down at the table*

i know, im waiting on someone

i am

i’ll be back in twenty minutes

*giggles and looks down at you as i nod* yes you can

good, what about you? besides feeling sick *takes a sip of my water and grabs my fork*

i ammmm

it’s a really good movie, you can tell noah loves ally soooo much *grins and plays with your hair again*

*takes a bite of my eggs and nods* that’s good, my day was busy.. lots of errands

i know i said twenty minutes, sorryyy

it is very beautiful *smiles and watches the movie, looking down at you when you k iss my thighs* are you going to be able to wait until the movie is over?

*looks at you and shakes my head* no.. *takes another bite and giggles, watching your reaction*

sorreyyyyyyy

i doooo, i have faith in you *smiles and looks at the tv*

*takes a few more bites and nods* yes, i hope so

i had to take care of sinething

*watches and grabs a blanket to cover myself with*

*puts my fork down, taking a sip of my water* i wish i could do that

i knowwww

i missed you too

*watches the movie and smiles* he still built the house for herrrr and he added every detail she wanted

*shakes my head and looks at you* not really, im always busy with something now.. the only time i rest is when i go to sleep

nooooo

good morning ❤️

it did and he never gave up, even when she was gone *grins and watches* they are *grins

*shrugs and takes another sip of my water* im trying to, that’s why i take my medicine at night to sleep earlier

*smiles and looks down at you* sounds like you’re watching me more than you’re watching the movie *giggles*

sometimes i might rest a little, but i always have something to do just like last night.. or i go out with friends or my family *finishes my eggs and pushes my plate away*

*smiles and sits up a little, grabbing the remote to pause the movie* really? you would?

mm i might have some me time, but i dont drink coffee.. maybe occasionally *shrugs and stands up, grabbing my plate* its okay

my sweet boy *grins and runs my fingers through your hair* i don’t want to watch anymore

it does make me tired, really tired.. then i don’t get to talk to you as much because im so busy and so tired :( *takes my plate to the sink and looks up at you and grins, nodding* i’d like that

youuuuu 😌

*shakes my head and grins* no you’re not, i just don’t want to watch right now

okay i’ll try that *nods and grins, walking out of the kitchen*

good

*shrugs and sits up for a moment to check my phone then looks at you* do you still want to eat me out now 😂

don’t walk to so slow then *giggles and walks with you* what are we doing

*looks at you and giggles as i nod* mm im not against the idea

*shrugs and looks up at you* hmm.. we could cuddle.. or a bath sounds relaxing, or coloring

really? *giggles and lifts my hips so you can pull them down* mm you know, there’s something i’ve never told anyone i’ve ever dated cause i didn’t want to sound.. weird i guess

*walks with you upstairs and smiles as i nod* okay, that’s perfect

*shrugs and looks at you* it’s nothing bad, but you might judge me or think im weird😂

it would be cool to have bubbles too *grins and walks in with you*

okayyyyy i’ll tell you, i guess it’s something you should know anyway *giggles and sits up* i can’t take you seriously when you do that

lmaoo

oh, you have bubble bath? that’s perfect *grins and nods* can i smell it first?

don’t stare at me like that, that makes me nervous *giggles and covers my face* mm okay, i don’t know if you or anyone else who doesn’t feel the same way would think it’s weird but.. i like surprises, but im not talking about normal surprises like a surprise gift or party, but i like those too.. but i like.. surprise s èx i guess? i like the touchy touchy or being caught off guard you know? or those moments when we’re out, watching a movie or something and you get.. touchy, you know what i mean or while doing something like cooking and i like things like being pinned against a wall 🙈

and i like spontaneous things too, all of it lmaoo.. and i really like dominance. i’ve never actually told anyone that before, i didn’t want to sound weird or they think ew 😂 but i did have one ex who did all of that.. i won’t go into detail about it lmaoo but that might be where it started

*looks up at you and grins, smelling it* mm it’s not my favorite, but it’s not bad. we can use it

*looks at you and exhales slowly, giggling softly* okay, that makes me feel better cause i didn’t know if it was just me 😌 *grins and plays with your hair while you l ay on my tummy* i don’t know, unless im in a bad mood im down for it, anytime, anywhere, i also find it exciting, the thrill, the idea of almost getting caught or even if it’s something like.. we’re at a restaurant and you touch me under the table and i have to keep myself composed lmaoo 😂 i just think it’s ho t *looks down at you and raises an eyebrow* oh really? multiple times you’ve wanted to do that?

yea i think all of that is h ot, i really like that.. but i agree, i h ate the “littles” who act and talk like babies, if i ever do that please punch me in my face

i don’t know if i have a favorite, but i don’t use bathbombs very often, it’s very rare if i use them and they’re usually gifts *sits down*

yea i like being touched, especially recently.. i don’t know, i feel it more than usual but i think my s ex drive is also high 😂 hmm i can guarantee it might’ve happened, but i don’t remember when

ewwww i don’t like that, that’s gross

really? i guess i should make them more often for you *grins and looks up at you* maybe i’ll prepare some for your lunch

i could tell, you were giving my thighs alot of ki sses *giggles then looks at you and blushes* oh my, that’s very tempting.. it makes me want to go to a movie theatre with you even more

it makes me want to punch whoever does that in the face

*gasps softly and blushes, looking up at you when you pin me to the wall* n-no.. i wouldn’t

i know, i like that too, i love the cuddles, the hugs, when you hold me *looks down at you and blushes, biting my lip as i nod* i guess i am a naughty girl

hmm i don’t know, whatever my partner is comfortable with? i used to say “daddy” but not anymore

i’ve never seen anything like that

*looks over to where you’re looking then looks back up at your eyes* n-no sir.. i didnt

me too *grins and looks at you, giggling softly* you’re silly *nods and pushes your hair back from your face* i can do that

yea i stopped liking it after one of my exes would call me “mommy”, gross

i use most of those other terms, besides pretty boy, never used that

maybe it’s your algorithm

*blushes and smirks a little, keeping eye contact with you* doesn’t sound like a bad idea.. what kind of fun did you have in mind?

yea i h ate it

it’s icky to me

yea, i think that’s common from elderly women.. the nice elderly women

yea i’ve noticed

oh great 😂

*smiles and nods* mm yes, that sounds like a very good idea

gross

i know lmaoo

nothinggggg

okay *grins and starts to take off my clothes once you let go*

whattttt

*lets my clothes fall to the floor as well and takes your hand*

*grins and steps into the bath with you* it’s nice and warm

it’s a jokeeeee

but we do have different tastes and interests, your for you page is very different from any i’ve seen😂

*nods and sits down with you* it’s very relaxing

sorryyyyy

you areee

*sighs softly and grins* yea cause you were making me nervoussss

i like when you make me nervous *grins and plays with the bubbles*

*grins and leans my head back against your chest*

*plays with the bubbles in the water*

hm? *turns my head to look up at you*

*sits up a little and nods slowly* okay..

*looks down at the water and plays with the bubbles as i listen to you and nods* yea you have a right to feel that way

*continues to play with the bubbles and nods* oh well, is that something you’re discussing with her and bring that connection back?

okay

yea

oh okay *nods* i didnt even know she was still here, i thought she was gone

no but i think i would’ve rather you talked about it sooner

no im not *shakes my head* its okay

but we’re talking about it now

okay that’s good *picks the bubbles up in my hand and blows on them*

okay

yea, i don’t think anyone would but it’s something she would do *continues to play with the bubbles*

nothing

it’s fine

*frowns a little and turns to look at you* hey, it’s going to be okay

yea

*rubs your arm and nods* it’s okay

it’s fine

it’s fine, we can get out now if you want.. the water is getting cold anyway

it’s fine *stands out and steps out of the tub, grabbing a towel*

you don’t have to *dries myself off*

*wraps the towel around my body and looks down at our hands* yes?

*holds your hands and slowly looks up at you, shrugging a little* it’s fine, i just wish you would’ve mentioned it sooner rather than later when we were already talking about it or before we were supposed to have our relaxing moment, but it’s fine.. i understand

*looks at you and nods* it’s fine, i just want to get dressed and l ay down

*walks out and goes into the bedroom, shrugging a little as i grab my clothes* thought so

that’s good, you had to let it out *puts my clothes on and sits on the bed*

thanks *grins a little and pulls my hair back*

*puts my hair in a ponytail and stands up* i’m going to get get a glass of water

*nods and walks out of the room, going down to the kitchen*

good morning

how are you

i’m okay

nothing, just a rough night

mm my day is free surprisingly

i don’t have to work and i don’t have any plans

maybe i can actually relax

i want to finish the movie

*holds your hand and walks over to the couch*

*grabs the remote and looks at you, going into your arms*

*shakes my head and turns the movie on*

mhm *goes back to where we left off and puts the remote down*

*watches the movie*

*watches the movie and plays with my fingers

talk about what? i want to watch the movie *frowns a little*

*shakes my head and slides off of the couch on the floor* no no nooooo

*continues to shake my head and lays down on the floor*

*rubs my eyes then looks up at you and frowns*

*shakes my head and sits up* no i’ve been thinking alllll day

screw what up *grabs the remote and turns the tv off*

i’m not sure how long you’ll be on for right now, but im just letting you know i am going to sleep sooner soooo i’ll be on until then so we can talk as much as possible before i do

mad? no, not mad

no im not going to bed now

im just not happy

i guess

yea i haven’t been since last night *holds onto you*

*sighs softly and shakes my head* why why why why

*gets off your back and sits down* why

no *shakes my head* not that

nevermind i don’t want to talk about it anymore, i guess you must’ve went to sleep.. soooo goodnight

it’s fine, i have to work

ew

i don’t know, i don’t always eat breakfast

yea me too

hi

hi

my day was fine, im glad it’s over now.. its really cold

what about you

yea

mm that’s relatable

im free tonight

come onnnnn

yes

i don’t remember falling asleep lmaoo

that fxcking s ucks

sorry

i will be free during the day after my appointment

and i’ll stay up, i shouldn’t be super tired if i don’t work

im mad

because i am

good morning

it’s okay

boo

i missed you too

im going home from my appointment

im back

it was okay

that’s great

im okay i guess

i don’t know

im fine

things have just been different since everything with adira, just the mood and it feels like we talk less

yes i know

she always does, i don’t know why it’s always me

when

she’s a narcissitic, psychotic, manipulative bxtch

mhm

okay

whatever

okay

*sighs and holds onto you*

little spoon *grins a little and looks at you* i noticed

but you said you’re tired and you’re not staying up *lays down*

*nods* im holden deprived, very very holden deprived and i feel like im going to explode

*grins and kisses you back, looking at you when you pull away and shakes my head* mm not really, not enough

*cups your cheek and kisses back with the same amount of energy, pressing my hips against yours*

*smiles and pecks your lips a few times before pulling away and looks at you* that was muchhhhhh better

oh *laughs softly and kisses you a little deeper this time, giggling a little against your lips* you’re going to eat me up 😂

not if i eat you up first *giggles and kisses your nose* thanks, i just took a shower

*smiles and leans down to smell your neck* mm you did and you smell really good *grins and places a few kisses on your neck*

awwww *grins and looks up at you* that’s one way to keep my scent with you anywhere you go, using my body wash 😌

really? *smiles and looks at you* does that mean we’d have to get up?

okay, i was really comfortable but im curious *holds onto you*

*sits in your lap and watches you take the items out of the box* that’s funny how that represents that specific moment *giggles softly and grins, looking at the guitar pick* when did you learn

yea, i think that was a great moment for both of us and im glad you felt comfortable *smiles and looks at you* you know, i think people who play guitar are h ot *giggles softly*

yea i do *giggles and turns in your lap to face you* a friend of mine plays guitar and he taught me how to play, but acoustic

i could ask him to play sometime if he’s not busy *grins and blushes, holding your hand* you’re sweet

yessss i do *smiles then looks at you and shakes my head* nooooo im not and i don’t know why guys always say im attractive when im frustrated or mad, i dont get it *giggles* we’ve known each other for years

*looks up at you and grins as i nod* you’re right, it does make me more human.. expressing more emotion *nods* i do have alot of support, alor of great friends

really? i have great friends 🥺

you’re the sweetest 🥰

i know im glad they’re my friends, they’re the best :)

okay mi amor, im tired so im going to head to bed too. i have a confession too, i think of you before i go to sleep too :) i hope you sleep well, goodnight ❤️

mhm

yesssss we did

i’ve heard i taste amazing

😂

why mochi?

i know 😌

ahhhhh i get it

did you wake up hxrny 😂

why 😂

i know what it is 😂

lmaoo 😂

you were jerking? 😳

i know 😂

no it’s not 😂

but maybe we could’ve taken care of that together 😏

all you had to do was ask 😂

happy to help 😂

i believe it

what

oh 😳

i’ll be back in an hour.. then we can take care of that 😏

okay, i have work today so i won’t be home until laterrrrr

lmaoo i don’t know

i am too, i don’t know why 😂

but i don’t say anything

okay

hehe

now you have to wait allllll day and think about it all day

i told you, i like surprises

maybe i’ll tease you too 😈

hehe im going to tease you a little bit

for fun

hmm maybe i’ll make you imagine me in lingerie

yeaaaa

something very s exy

black, lacy

very revealing 😳

something you can rip off of me

or i can pull it off slowly and make you watch, make you suffer

very evil

hehe

mm i will.. in a few hours when im home

hi

i miss you too

hi

im here nowwww

i missed you too *goes over to you*

*holds onto you and grins, looking up at you* it was good, how was yours?

im glad to see you too *grins and shrugs* whatever

*giggles softly and nods* yessss i am, did you get that bxner taken care of? 😂

lmaoo i have never done dir ty yoga, im curious *laughs and looks at you*

mm no

mm i like the sound of that *giggles*

*stands up and grins* you’re always prepared

i know i said i like surprises and spontaneous moments, but i am not having s xx with you on a ferris wheel *crosses my arms and giggles* maybe not a school bathroom either, that’s gross.. i need to make a list of a few forbidden places *nods and steps back* where do you want me

okay, goodnight amor ❤️

okay.. cause doing it on a ferris wheel sounds dangerous *grins and walks towards my closet* did you want to see that lingerie i was teasing you about?

it is if i don’t let you touch *opens my closet door and looks inside, taking it out once i find it*

because it’s me *giggles and turns around* okay, you have to wait for me to change

*smiles and goes to change, coming back in a few minutes later*

*smiles and goes over to you* i never wore this before so i was nervous

*smiles and blushes, wrapping my arms around your neck* thank you babe

*holds onto you and giggles as i nod* yessss

*lays back and looks up at you and smiles* that’s fine with me

yes

*watches you and blushes, shivering a little once i feel your tongue*

*holds your hand and walks with you*

it’s okay

shhhhh *giggles and covers my face* you’re making me blush

i think you already know the answer to that *grins and waits for you to grab the blanket* it’s freezing

because you dooooo *giggles and watches you, biting my lip*

hehe me too 🥰

yea *smiles and lays down with you* i don’t know why im so cold

im hereeee

yes?

*gasps and moans softly, moving one of hands to grip your hair*

i was hoping you’d stay uppppp

i fell asleep for a little while, i took a little nap and now i can’t sleep

thanks *grins and pulls the blanket over us, resting my head on your chest* how was your day

*moans and arches my back a bit, keeping a grip on your hair*

me too

it was okay

that’s good *nods and grins, looking up at you and sits up a little* you wrote me something in spanish

?^

*looks up at you and blushes, pushing some of my hair from my face, biting my bottom lip* h-how was that?

waiting for me?

you made scrunchies? i want to see them *smiles and sits up a little more* that’s very sweet amor, that girl would be lucky to have you.. but they don’t, i do 😌

*giggles and shakes my head, putting my hair back in my face* im keeping my face covered, it’s giving away too muchhhhh

im glad you did, i wasn’t sure if you’d be awake 🥰

*looks at the scrunchies and smiles, taking them to look at them closer* these are really cool *listens to you speak and smiles* awwwww holden.. that was beautiful and poetic

yes, it is a good thing *giggles softly and looks at you, pulling you down so i can ki ss your lips*

i missed you too

i took a nap so i wouldn’t fall asleep and i could talk to uou

really?

yes you are *smiles and kisses your cheek* i’ll keep it with me and use it all of the time

*wraps my legs around your torso, ki ssing you deeply*

yes

no, it’s sweet :)

you’re very talented and creative, i could never do anything like this *puts the scrunchie on my wrist*

*ki ses and slowly slides my tongue into your mouth*

okay

okay.. right now?

*grins and looks up at you as i nod* mhm.. its the truth, ive never seen anything this creative

*giggles softly and sits up to turn over, getting on my knees* i know, you can’t resist me.. not for too long

yes that’s better, when im more awake

it’s okay amor *smiles and kisses your cheek* ready to continue cuddling?

*smirks and shrugs* hmm maybe.. yea i do *bites my lip and looks back you, smirking* yea? cause i can handle a few

now you’re the one blushing alot *giggles and lays down on top of you again*

okay sir *tilts my head when you ki ss my neck, biting my lip*

i appreciate your gifts and everything you do for me *grins and ki sees your chin*

*exhales sharply when i feel you push in, my walls adjusting to the the size of your length*

*grins and lightly traces shapes on your chest with my fin ger* thank you

*bites my lip and smirks* mm i am and it feels good so far

im not doing anything *giggles and looks up at you*

okay good night love, sleep well ❤️ we can finish tomorrow :)

i need to try to sleep

okay :( i have plans in the evening so i won’t be on until late tonight

good morning

*arches my back for you and moans, gripping onto the bed sheet underneath me when you start to thrust*

yeaaaa because you are and you deserve compliments *smiles and continues to trace shapes on your chest*

im hereeeeew

*moans loudly and keeps a grip on the sheets, pushing my bum up to you and curses under my breath in between moans* f-fxxk

everything i do makes you nervous *giggles softly and blushes, smiling at you* thank you

i was with my friendssss

i had a drink or twooooo

yessssss

*keeps a firm grip on the sheets and moans your name loudly, burying my face into the pillow*

i see that *giggles and ckodes my eyes*

bloody marty

mary

twooooo

drink with meeee

y-yes sir *pushes my bum up to you as much as i can for you to go deep, moaning loudly* f-fxxk baby

talkkkk, im not drunk *giggles and looks at you

it’s siiooo good

nuh uhhhh

yeaaaa you get a drink, you can share minr

*comes with you and exhales slowly, sighing in relief as our come drips down my leg* y-yea it was

*looks up at you and smiles* you wanttt to be my boyfriend? ooooh

it’s yummy

you shoukd get kne

body sho t!

you did too *grins and lays down in my stomach once your finished*

*shrugs a little and frowns* i dont.. i don’t knowwwwww

hey

eat me out again

i like when you do thst

i hacd another

drinkkkkk

hehe okay

*looks up at you and nods* yes

okay *nods*

*giggles and lays down* okay, conw