HEY GIRLIE

hehe. I got uuuuu

I wonnnnnn

tehehe 💞

oof

sorry my mom called 🙄

I h8 xmas photos 😑

did u leave :((

no I didn't leave girlie sorry. was looking at sum xxx

but Wdym?? :(

did u leave?

OMG MADI 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😑

-the 😑

there was this person taht wanted to kill themselves and I tried to help them but idk if it worked 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

I'm scared

they said they gtg but I'm scared for them

they said it worked but what if they do it idk I'm not cut out for this

liv, calm down. take deep breaths. it's okay. they'll be fine girlie. 💞💞

it's my newest follower JadeLynn something

okay

but what if they do it 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

I'm so scared

yea she followed me too. but liv, it's gonna be okay xxx YOUR gonna be okay. it's all gonna be fine. I love you girlie. just stay calm.

and if they die and I couldn't help them in time 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

*what if

idk idk idk

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Madi r u there

yea I'm here sorry

it's okay

but it's fine. it's the social media girlie xx sometimes we can't help other people. but it's fine cause at least you TRIED. that's what matters.

but your an amazing person and so I'm pretty sure that they won't kill themselves... all because of you 💞

and your amazingness

aw ty but I'm still scared

I'm not worried for ME I'm worried for THEM bc I don't want them to die

can u read what I said and tell me if u think they're okay

just take deep breathes liv. it's gonna be okay. I'm right here girlie, just in case xx it's fine. again, they probably won't even die because you helped them, and that's what matters.

okay

I feel a little better now

I did read what you said to them, liv. and I think you really helped them.

imma check the crisis recourses page on 7 cups just in case

I think she's gonna be okay. don't worry xxxxx

brb 😭

okay. it's gonna be okay liv xx I'm here xx i love you so much girlie and nothing will ever change that xx I'm proud of you for helping someone. your amazing

I can't find anything

😭😭😭

liv, it's fine. please calm down girlie. your making me a little stressed cause u feel sad/bad and so I'm gonna freak out cause I feel like I can't do anything to make you feel better. it's gonna be okay girlie. I'm here for you 💞💞💞

okay pls don't freak out but I'm freaking out

I'm just really worried and I don't know what to do

I can't call a helpline because of my stupid parents

omg Madi could you get ur mom or her bf to call a suicide prevention thingie

liv, I'm here for you girllllieeeee. I'm here. okay? it. will. be. okay. you will be fine. it will be okay. just take deep breathes and calm. breathe. clear your mind. okay? I love you girlie and I don't want you freaking out 💞💞💞 I will do everything to try and help you stay calm.

I mean probably not rn bc she seems to be okay atm but if she starts freaking out again

do u think ur mom would do that

maybe but they're working on sum rn.

okay thx but still scared

if you think she's fine right now, calm. down.

okay daht makes me feel a lot better that they could do that in an emergency

okay I'm calming down an lil bit now

just calm down. okay? read what I said and clear your mind 💞💞💞💞💞💞💞

okay I'm calmer

okay. that's good. I'm here for you 💞💞💞

daht helps a lot dat they could do taht if an emergency

okay

makes me feel better cause the helpline ppl are more experienced and better at this than I am

I love you girlie. I just want you to stay calm...

I mean for god's sake I'm depressed and suicidal myself

okay I'm calmed down a lot

thanks Madi ur really helped me

it helped to talk to someone

awww. I'm glad I could help xxx I missed you girlie and I would do anything to help you xx I'm here for you all the time so if you need me... I'll be here for you xxx

okay I'm listening to music and breathing now

ly

I feel better

hey I want you to read something

okay. that's good xx omg, hold on, let me take a moment and celebrate my victory in helping you cause it means a lot to me 😂😂😂😂😂😂💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞

lym xxx

okay I'm back xx and sure! I like reading so I'll read anything (if it seems interesting to me 😂😂)

okay I remixes it

it's a poem I wrote about a friend that was considered suicide (I do t wanna say her name in case she's not okay w that)

this reminded me of it

and I was just so scared like this but even more cuz I had no clue what to say and she was my friend

I commented on it 💞

and I rly didn't want her to die 😭😭😭😭

but dw she's okay now

I read ur comment and u have no clue how much taht means to me 😭💖💖

awwwww. girlieeee 😭😭😭 I'm so sorry xx btw that's such a nice poem

I would never forget u girlie

tyy

just know I'm here no matter what and you can always talk to me if you need too 💞💞💞💞💞💞

I know

I should probably go eat dinner now

I faked a stomachache cuz I couldn't tell my parents

awww. I'm so glad I'm here to help liv xxx you mean so much to me 💞💞 and thank youuu 💛💛💛

and now I'm hungry 😂

okay ur so welcome 💖💖

I'm gonna go now byeeee ilysm girlie

tysm for helping me calm down u rly helpful

byeeeeeeeeee

I love you girlie and again, I was so glad I was here to help xx your my everything xx (as a best friend :) ) and I love you so much. your amazing girlie xx and go eat cause that's important 😂💞 love ya 💞💞💞

omg I feel so much better now I calmed down a lot and she's doing better it looks like and I'm not hungry anymore 😂

u rly helped me Madi

Yayyy. and Ik I saw her post 😂 I'm so glad I could help a little xx

and yay ur not hungry anymore 😂 I'm hungry cause I've only had lunch today but it's

u helped a lottle: it's like a little, but it's a lot

6:07 here 😂😂😂😂

(to quote a tumblr post that always makes me smile )

lol. thanks girlie xx that rly means a lot x I love helping ppl. also thanks 💞💞💞💞

hehe 🙃

🙃

💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞

I'm kinda scared bc I don't have any storage bc my tablet it old and I feel like I'll lose PC 😭😭😭😭

but, I need to stay calm

I'll just find other ways to get some more storage :)

yes you will :)

you know if u delete videos and apps u do t use anymore that helps

hehe 🙃

:)))

I missed u sm girlie. your so amazing and I missed you sweet comments xx I love you 💞💞💞💞

except I didn't rly leave 😂

yea... but it was fun chatting w/ u and angel 😂😂😂💞💞💞💞

you guys made me laugh sm and I was just so happy

also Roxy gave me an icon do u like it? it's sad but perfect :)

yea. I know. I like it too :) also, I'm proud of you for helping someone girlie 💞💞💞

r u ever gonna use the pink one I made u? if not that's okay I'm just curious

and thx 😁

what pink one?

here lemme find it brb

oof idk where it went rip

okay find it, but I have to go for the night xxx ilysm girlie, your amazing, I'm so amazed from what u accomplished today. ilysm and your so amazing... don't forget that xx

💞💞💞💞💞💞💞

I'll chat w/ u tmmr girlie xxx

okay gn ilysm

imma spam u for when u wake up 😁

lyyyyy

hey girl X

hit

*hi

anyway I'm still gonna do it but I gotta on google on YouTube so she don't find out

ugh I had a bad day today

yea. and I'm sorry xx is there anything I could do to help?

ooooo. I think I know what

oooo what

Madi off to English class again 🙄😂

HI ANGELLLLL

yes ofc girl

Madi's writing another essay

lol 🙄

angel?

uh-UH- EXCUSE ME GIRL-

I A, VERY MUCH OFFENDED RN 😭😭😭😭

AM*

lolllll

😭😭😭😭😂😂😂😂😂

🤣🤣🤣

hsiqnsishwksnqiwhwkwjwn y'all better no be talking smack abt me when I'm T R Y I N G to make the rest of your day better

okayyy ty girlie

and ofc Angel u can chat w/ us here X

they were some good memes

omg hold on my brother is annoying me abt the presents under the Christmas tree 😤🙄

he wants to "sHoW mE sUm"

lol we don't have any presents yet

okay I'm bck lol

he's trying to figure out who's presents who's 😂

and ohhhh noooo angell :( but that's okay x

and ty 😂 I tried to pick the best memes 😂

and that's why it's been a bad day bc today we had xmas service and just it is t the same anymore cuz I'm not a kid and I feel horrible so what's Christmas gonna be like? and I'm just rly lonely too you know bc I don't have any friends that I can talk to about all this and I'm just sad

also, my recent emojis bc I'm bored: 😂😍🙄😳😉🤔💛😡🙀🌭💙😅😢😌🙂☁️😔😫💗💞😭😤✌🏻️🙃🌙⭐️🍊👯💍💔

hehe lol

GIRLIE- hold on lemme process this- YOU HAVE USSSS. THATS WHY WERE HERE RN GIRLIEEEE 😭😭😭💞💞💞

and also in the sermon today dad talked abt how not all ppl like xmas which is true but you know he never thinks that it might be his own frickin daughter and it's his own frieckin fault

and yes ik I have y'all but it's just not the same bc all my irl friends don't like me anymore

also guys I might be afk for a minute in just a second bc I have to help bring in groceries

ohhhh. girlie I'm so sorry x can you guys be pen pals? I'm pen pals w/ my best friend Irl cause I can't see her rn cause of this all corona :(

and he talked abt how when he was fourteen his dad went to help someone whose water was leaking and they thought it was a busted pipe but it was this old man who drowned himself and he was talking abt how that just rly shook him and it's just like if ur that worried abt a STRANGER why can't you be there for your OWN CHILD

and I'd love to be pen pals but idk how I'd be able to pull it off with my parents

OOH I KNOW THERES THIS OLD PEN PAL THAT I LOST THE ADDRESS OF AND I COULD SAY THAT ITS HER NAME BUT PIT UR ADRESS

*put

omg autumn 💖😭💖😭💖😭💖😭💖😭💖😭💖😭💖😭💖😭💖😭💖😭💖

lyt xxx

oooh nooo :(((

gn girlieeeeeee I lyyyyyyyy

hey guys sorry. had to bring groceries in and stuff. what did I miss?

aww. that's so sweet xxx

Madi? did u wanna chat girlie??

hiya

so u wanna do bg or text or what?

Madi?

I'm so sorry girlie I was... you'll see in my recent 😉 anyways, I'm pretty sure I picked on the last one I did so u can chose which one this time xx

tehehe you deserve it girlie xx your so amazing and ilysm xx btw Yw 😉💞😂

awwww tyyyyy

and I'll do pngs if dahts okay with you

okay that's fine. so... what do I do?

sorry my brain is kinda wondering all over the place lol. I turned on jatp music on my Alexa and in the mail today I'm gonna get my best friends letter that she wrote me (bc were pen pals bc I can't go to her house that is literally like 2 minutes away from my house bc it's corona) but I can't send her a letter until next month bc the mail is kinda getting backed up bc of the holidays. so yea

yea I'm here sorry

ig u do the bg? if dahts okay

okay xx what type of theme?

whatever u want x

maybe blue aesthetic?? idk

u just chose. u can chose if u want cause idrk 😅✌🏻️

choose*

um okay ya lets do that

sorry I'm looking at something online

it's fine. okay I can just do a.blue background

okay ya do sum like that

whatcha lookin at? (if u don't mind me asking 😂😗)

looking at reviews for jatp 👀

bc my parents look up stuff if I wanna watch a new show and I'm tryna find out if they'll let me (bc if the gay character)

so far so good 👀

idk lol imma just have to try it and see what happens

oh yea. and Yayyy. hopefully they let you. ITS SO GOOD AND SO FUNNY I SWEAR 😂😂😂😂 the guys r so funny 😂😂😂

if I can't I'll just play dumb

lol okay

alright imma look up some quotes

tehe. what site r u looking at to see the reviews? I wanna see what ppl think of it 😂😂😂

okay x sounds good

how abt this one??

idc which one do you like

I think the beauty one would work better for your bg

eekkkkk it's to hardddd. Ima ask my Alexa pick a number 1-3 and whichever one she picks we can do 😂

1=the first one u did 2=the left one on mine 3= the bottom one on mine

actually, I think your right. and she chose that one anyway 😂😂😂

okay

sorry I'm distracted lol

I'll work in taht

*on

it's fine? I won't stop u from what your doing

it's fine.*

lol I'm not doing anything important lol just reading fanfic

😂😂

hehe 😂😂 on what?

okay done ✅

and on ao3

idk what that is but.... Oki 😂😂😂

i gtg girl my dad is calling :(

awww. okayyy :( well this gives me an excuse to finally do my chores bc I didn't wanna miss anything 😂😂

hii I'm back sry

uhhh I just had to clean up cat vomit 🤢

oof we're abt to eat supper

rip

I'll be back in like 30 min to an hour or so

it's fine xx but ooffff. and Wdym my emojis look weird?

and btw ao3 is archive of our own, it's a website

oh. cool ig lol. but okay

okay byeeeeee

talk to u later girlie xx

okay xxx

hey I'm back

idk should I put pngs on there I think it looks pretty how it is

gn girlieeeeee

hi hi hi, hi hi hi hi

do u want me to add the pngs cause I might have some ideas

also lolll 😂😂

heyyy

hiiii

just voted for oceans contest

🙃 peachy 🙃

and ya you can

yeeeee. we both voted Jane 🙃

my PC twin 🙃👯💞

do u know why she's my PC twin?

no but I'm guessing ur gonna get into Harvey with your answer 😑🙄😂

haha very funny liv 🙄😂

wellllllll.... one day me and Jane were chatting and we randomly found out that she lives in the same Washington as me (not Washington, D.C. thank you very much 😂😂) ANDDDDDDD she has the same pjs as me

liv u there?

yes I'm here

I was just adding a border

Oki

okay pngs are done what do you think??

sorry it took a while

it's fine xx

no ur fine

I think I can move them

brb

okay xx

but can u add the sparkle too? xx

yes! I did

done xx

Madi?

I gtg moms taking me to target to buy stuff for gingerbread houses :)

talk 2 u later girlie

lyyyy bye

awwww. dang it. I'm so sorry I was making a college x but have fun girlie xx Ly

hiiii :)

lol okay

hiya

NO. NO. NO. NO. MA'AM- WHY IS U SAD

well okay

hold on lemme type

okay

okay so you know how xmas is three days away and well idk it's just like last year was so different I mean I was so happy and now I just am totally dreading Christmas and like covid and everything I can't see my family so I'm just feeling so lonely and sad and idk and like during the xmas service at church it was just like I was about to cry the whole time bc the sermon was about ppl who xmas wasn't a happy time and idk like I'm just worried bc idk what Christmas with depression is gonna be like it hasn't felt like a holiday at all this year

Madi?

I'm here I'm reading it

awwww. girlieeee. I'm so sorry to hear that :(( is there anything I could do to help? :(

I h@te knowing that my friends are sad and I can't do anything to help them

you're okay

I'm gonna go post something I'll brb

Kay xx

hey sorry I had to go do sum

we can still chat if ur on sorry I don't mean to be all angsty

it's fine xx

and yea I'm on :)

new post 🙃😔😶

hi u still wanna chat? I promise I won't be sad 🙂

yea we can still chat :) and Oki <3

sorry mom called 🙄

it's fine

okay t or d (we don't have to play its just an idea)

um, t

okay

what do you want for Christmas??

oh wait I know never mind jatp merch

uhh lol 😂🙄

hehe lol

Tehehe

hmmm okay how abt this what is the last text you received

hehe lol 😈

heheheh Madi look in remixes

uh- last night I was texting my best friend and I said "gn" and he said "gn" lol

😑 that's boring 😂

okay do meee

Ik lol 😂😂 um t or d

dare hehe 😈

um, text your best friend random emojis ig 😂😂😂😂

aww I can't my phones too old :(

:(

aw dang. um, idk then 😂

ooo I know I'll do it to autumn

heheheheh

brb

Oki lol 😂😂

HAHHAHAHAH GO LOOK

it's hilllllaaaariouss

I let autocorrect write her a message XD

hehe

omg so funny it makes no senseeeeee

😂🤣😂🤣😂🤣😂

😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

I mean for real my phone is P O E T I C

look at my new post xx stay on! >:( (well try to)

okay

pwease :) ty

heyyy

DID YOU SEE WHAT SHE SENT ME

I didn't mean to make her worried 😬😂

ahhh livvy why did you have to get the angsty phone

hehe oopsies

and yes I did 😂😂

lol

also, go follow my friend Irl, her user name is

ThebigirlAaliyahhhhh

her user name is...

oh okay

okay I did

yay :)

cool

so t or d

D

hehe okayyy

lemme think 😈👿😈

hehe

OKAY I GOTS ONE

Madi

are you ready?

oh god.

😈😈

DONT KEPP ME WAITING AGAIN 😂😂😂😂

KEEP*

I dare you

to eat

I'm ready I guess but your dares are quite crazy 😭😭😭😂😂😂

a pickle covered in chocolate syrup

MWHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA

Madi?

you also have to take a picture

as P R O O F

sorry I was looking at my friends new post (check it out 😂😂😂)

Idek if we have chocolate syrup lol

lol

but guess what

WELL YOU GOTS TO DO IT

oooop- what

Aaliyah, is also in the lgbtq+ community ☺️

she's bi

OOOOOOH

I kinda guessed from her user lol

hehe lol

okay so GO DO IT

did u ever eat the butter 😑

madiiiii

did yoouuuu 😑

nope :(

IM SORRY DONT BEAT ME UP-

actually I did :) (if it counts w/ bread 😉😂)

😑

😂

WELL YOU HAVE TO DO THE PICKLE

omg I just remembered

OKAY FINE 😭😭😭 but ooh what did u remember

'mate I don't have pickles in my house I'm not a flipping American' quote angel

😂😂😭🤣😭😂🤣😭😂🤣😭😂

GIRL STOP--- 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

IKKKKKKRRRR

LOLLLLLLLLLLL WHYYYYYYYY 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😭😭😭😭😭😭

IM DYING NOW OMG IM C R Y I N G 😭😭😭😭😭😭😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

omg

OMG I CANT BREATHE HOLD ON- 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

i just asked her to come chat with us 😂

OOOOH I KNOW WHAT IMMA DO

okay I think I can breathe now 😂😂😂

BUT WOT U GONNA DO

GIRL STOP LEAVING ME IN SUSPENSE 😂😂

MWHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

ahh. good times 😂💞

yea 😂

hehe 😂

so whatcha wanna do idc

I don't really know. look at my new post? 🙃💞

thanks girlie xx

hehe that means a lot xx

hehe but when u said that it was SO FUNNYYYYY 😂😂😂😂😂😂

did she get sum tho? 😌

hehe. nothing just chilling

in my bed.

being lazy

BUT THE KIDS ON THE OTHER HAND 😤😤😤😤😤😤😤

I CANT LAY DOWN IN PEACE >:(

they're slamming door, laughing like they're crazy 😤😙✌🏻️

Idek what they're doin

I'm abt to go yell at them 😤😤

idk. I was making a college and yea

I'm abt to take over the downstairs tv 😝

they're s u p o s s e d to be watching a show but... :P

I do it every day. don't worry

like yesterday, WHEN I WAS FLIPPING WRAPPING PRESENTS. Gabriel (my 6 yr old brother who currently is screaming "TaKe ThAt!") just B U R S T through the door without even knocking or anything

awww, thanks girl 💞💞

yea but he's srsly SUPER crazy

like he's just weird

and okay... 😂😂

I'm srsly gonna die 😭😭😭😂😂😂😂

heyyy

Heyyy

lol where's angel

idk lol but Ima go back at the chat and look 4 it 😂😂😂

okay I got her

NOOO DONT LEAVE

hehe I got ocean

well at least I told her she could come

yea

I know :((

I chatted w/ her earlier

like 2 hrs ago

omg angel I looked back when you and her first met me and it almost made me cry

OKAY YALL U READY? 😂😂😂

ready for what 😬

when was dat. when did y'all meet

they was my very first pc friends :(

it's on my ravenclaw aesthetic

hey guys sorry I would love to chat but I have to go to bed it’s almost 11pm. i miss you guys so much I’m sorry we haven’t got to chat that much lately but I promise we’ll get to now that it’s Christmas🥰love you all so much🥺🥰xxx ocean

awww okay gn

and btw livvy we (well in Ireland anyway I don’t know about the uk) call them gherkins 😂😂😂

that was so long ago lol. even I remember that

but I wanna seeeeee

OMG RLY

WAIT WHERE DID ANGEL GO >:(

idk :((

ya I can brb

okay xx

H E L L O