you did save me..

Are you still hurt?

no.

Are you still depressed?

yes. because you can't escape depression.

Then I didn't save you.

depression doesn't apply when you say "saved me"

It does in my mind

but it doesn't in reality

Since when have I ever believed in reality?

since me.

I got you to.

We never gave into reality, Ivory.. We believed in the Doctor.. We played around with hunting demons.. We planned to run away against all of reality's plans.. Ivory, when did you start believing in reality?

I know all of that...but..I don't know...sometimes it's hard not to believe in reality..

I need to know what you want me to be..

the one person I can trust. the only person I'm 100% sure that they won't leave me. because I guarantee that a lot of people I've met on here are gonna leave me..I just need to be sure of one

I'll never leave you.

and I trust you when you say that.

Do you want me to be philosophical or normal or helpful or passive or accepting..? Do you want me to try to help or just accept reality..? Do you want me to dream or stay in reality..? I don't know who I am, Ivory. Who am I? Who do you want me to be?

I want you to be you. believe in our parallel universe. the one with hunters, and time lords. where everything is perfect. believe Gallifrey is real. believe everything except reality is real. and I will too. I want you to dream. like me. and I want you to choose who you are. not me. not unless you really want me to.

I want to choose who I am.. I just- sometimes I need a little help..

what do you want me to do..?

What do you mean?

what do you want me to do to help?

I just want you to be here.. and put up with me..

and I already do both love.

And I love you for who you are. I'll never stop. Not for anything. Just answer me one question..

what is that?

Do you like who you are right now?

no. and I never will

Maybe one day.. What would you change..?

everything. honestly, I'd change everything about myself

I don't think everything.. I feel like the Doctor after regeneration.. still figuring out who I am right now..

I think.. I think I'm the type of person who always tries to fix everything..

yeah. me too..(I'm at school. Ilysfm I'll be on when I get back on the bus. stay strong. I'll be here. I'll never leave you.)

Ok.. Ilysfm