hi

hey, I'm really sorry for so many things

I think we may have talked before a really, really long time ago. idk.

oh we did?

I think. you had Jake's phone one time and you were super nice and introduced yourself...it was last year I think.

but anyway, I really want you to know I'm sorry

possibly

so what's up lol

nothing much, you?

same

so how long you and Jake been together

a year

haha okay

you can say anything you want to me, I honestly deserve to hear t

but you're broken up now?

yeah

we both figured it'd be best, I just want for him and you and your family to be happy and I know I've hurt a lot of people.

if you're broken up why're you all still kissing up on each other? not trying to be rude or anything, I'm just curious lol

like are you still gonna be friends w benefits? and yeah, I figured you guys broke up bcuz he was acting a lot more chill

I really don't know how to answer that. it's hard to let go but we're trying.

nah, neither of us are about that shît, and yeah.

I'm just a kid but I'd suggest not kissing, if you were actually going to break up

oh good, that'd be low if you guys were

yeah, yeah I know

yeah, I wouldn't do that

oh good :) that's very high standard of you :)

look, I know you hate me and no matter how many times I apologize, you won't forgive me- and that's okay. but I really want you to know I am truly sorry and I'd do anything to make it up.

I don't hate you

you don't?

you don't have to do anything, you deserve Jake time too. but I gotta say, not more than his family

I'm confused. and no, I definitely agree with that.

lol no, i'm trying to be nice

Cammi, you know I never intended to take him away from you

you don't have to be, you deserve to feel how you do.

I don't want to be mean and give you anxiety or freak you out or anything, it'd just stress Jake out more

it's okay and thank you

I don't want you to have to complain about me to him or anything and make him sad, so I WANT to be nice

I wouldn't complain about you but I appreciate it

oh sorry :/ I just kinda felt like you might've, because you complained on a lot of his friends before :/ but I take it back

ok

so you're a freshman right?

sophomore

for real? did not know that

yeah

hard stuff in KY right? heard they're really killer on their students

you are too though right?

not necessarily, our principal is just hardcore

nope I'm a freshie

gotcha, liking it?

yeah i sure wish I lived in a place as fun as KY! sounds so chill down there

yeah haha no

I love it

aw no? oops my bad I thought it was a decent place to live oops

that's great

better than Cali, that's for sure. you're in for an awakening if you do end up switching here, it kinda sùcks

well not for residents but

I've heard it all, you don't have to say that stuff

yeah thanks. noted.

what stuff??

no problem :) just a friendly real estate tip 🏠

about ky being so nice and me being privileged or whatever or that Cali will eat me alive

much obliged, my friend

it is nice! it looks so friendly and lovely and sweet

oh gosh no it was a compliment to KY :) and just saying you're lucky you live there, I'd kill to live in a place as family friendly! :(

awwww 💖💖 we're friends, that should take Jake's headache away awww

yeah thanks Cammi

yep yep so great

do you think I'm being insincere?

do you actually think I wouldn't want to move to someplace as nice?

I know you don't feel so warm towards me, but I'm not doubting you

no, I get it. I do like where I live. it's good.

oh no, I feel perfectly fine towards you :)

I just love befriending my brother's girlfriends, I just love it

mhm

look, julia, you can totally be honest 😂😂😂 I know you hate me, so why don't you quit the good girl act and just be real?

I don't get why you're not

I actually don't hate you at all, not even in the slightest. I'm just super uncomfortable. and I know you're not a huge fan of me and I don't want you to feel like you have to fudge around. just be straight up with me.

you're uncomfortable???

why?

I'm actually intimidated by you

dw I pretty much hated nearly every girl before you that he fûcked with too

and I didn't expect you to be so nice (forced or not) to me considering the circumstances.

alright, that sure makes me feel better

intimidated? by me?

well I felt bad for him, he's about ready to commit suicide

yeah. you're this hotshot, popular girl that everyone loves and you're pretty killer from what Jake's said. and on top of that I sort of fûckèd you over and you're still here talking to me.

it's supposed to. you're not the only one!

what?

yeah, not the only one.

who even told you that? what does pretty killer mean?

well I don't want to let him down

Jake and Kay and like super rad

but honestly, the mind games you play with him need to stop though, okay? fr

I know you don't and he doesn't want to let you down either.

mind games?? wth

you're not the only girl he's fûcked with

I know that

eh ig I'd like to think so lol

yeah

he was literally talking to me about suicide the other night and I was like, WHOA

wait what? like when?

like super recently or a few nights ago?

I wasn't that scared though, I was kinda just intrigued. and he was talking to me about all this guilt that you kinda inflict and sometimes he feels bad and doesn't want to do anything to hurt anyone

also our dad left like, 6 something years ago, fyi (PS don't want pity) and Jake kinda has this whole thing where he doesn't want to break up w people, no matter how shîtty it makes his life

meaning last night

oh

yeah, I know. he's told me.

but he's not like your dad.

wth last night oh god

do you do that to him? inflict guilt? make him guilty?

no, no I never do that

well he kinda is but not in a cråp way. he just has difficulty leaving people behind

he said so 😶

I've never guilted him or done or said anything to him to make him feel bad or guilty

which is why he didn't want to break up with you and all, but now he did but you guys were kissing so I guess not? fill me in sometime

oh great, another things he hasn't told me

i d k, he told me in the flesh

does he hide from you a lot? I'd address that

yeah, he's said he can't break up w me bc of your dad. no, we're done. trying to be at least.

no, he sometimes just sugarcoats feelings so I don't feel bad

which I wish he'd just be straight up

oh ps if you do rat on me like you did Kay, do you mind waiting until after thanksgiving? this is kinda supposed to be a special time and I'd be happier if he wasn't glaring at me over the turkey's åss, thnx

I think maybe he just feels bad for you

correct me if I'm wrong

I'm just trying to understand all of this, and if I'm being a bîtch, just tell me to stop

I don't even know what to say.

what do you mean?

I'm guessing you knew he felt bad for you right?

Idek

wdym

because, no I don't know about him "feeling bad for Mel

*me"

oh

i think he wanted to break up but was too scared to freak you out

oh

it's okay, I'm sure he'll get the courage to eventually. he did it to every girl before

yeah, sure thing.

okay okay I'm sorry I'm just bitter okay?

I'm sorry, I'm just really bitter about the whole thing

no, I understand. your feelings are totally valid.

don't apologize for that at all

it got really out of hand, all of it. I'm sorry for that.

we deserve him rn ok?

you always deserve him.

you need him too.

we're all going through a cråppy time and when he's all love struck on you everyone feels left out in some way. and don't you think it's weird this is happening on an app?!

is that just me being weird??? like why does no one else see it? my mom was pîssed at him for months. everything was shot to hęll, and our family life was gone. like, honestly, what do you have to say for yourself?

I know Cammi, I know. I understand and I don't want it that way. yeah, it's no where near conventional.

Cammi I'm sorry. beyond sorry. I can't do anything to fix it but leave your lives and I'm gonna go do that.

you'd do that? you'd leave his life and never talk to him again?

if he'd be truly, truly happy and if you all would be as well.

his happiness means more than anything to me.

no it's fine like I get it. I get being a clingy gf, I'm probably the world's clingiest. I just don't get making it to the point where he wants to kill himself or die or some shît

Cammi

he would be, if he was given time

I'm hoping

really?

what

I know.

nothing okay.

you're actually going to do it?

yes Cammi, I'm gonna make everyone happy.

feel free to plan the going away party if you want. you all can celebrate.

I'm not planning a party, I feel BAD

sorry that was super offhanded. I didn't mean to be rude.

girl, what kind of bîtch do you think I am?

yeah

I don't think you're a bïtch. I didn't mean that at all. it was rude. I'm just upset too.

yeah ok sure sure

I really don't think bad about you at all.

I just can't believe ur gonna do it. for real?

like just cut ties?

I can't just suddenly do that. that'd kill us both. but I'm going to have to get out of his life for him to be happy and I really don't want anyone else in pain.

when are you doing it

idk.

idk Cammi. I can't think rn.

I'm really in a bad place rn.

sorry

yeah me too

didn't mean to fûck anything over. I thought you wanted me to be real w you

you didn't. I did. and I do want that. I appreciate you agreeing to talk.

you know, I'd it makes you feel any better, I like you a lot more

*if

I think you're a sweet girl

you do?

you too. I do think so.

yeah, I think I should've talked to you sooner

idk if it would've done anything.

thnx

srry bout you and Jake

I know I've done a lot of shît and hurt a a lot of people, and I will own up to all of that. but I think it's only fair that you get to know me by talking to me and not Jake's friends that don't know me and they only things they tell you are their jaundiced views.

so am I

yeah they seemed pretty sure so Idk

Ali actually said you cheated on Jake which I don't think is true, seems like you're too nice

I understand why you'd believe them, I just wanted to talk to you myself. I've always wanted to be able to talk to and meet you, I'm sorry it had to be like this.

jake talks so highly of you and Avery

I didn't and never would. not on jake, or anyone for that matter.

yeah ik

of ME? to you? he does?

yeah you don't rly give off a cheater vibe lol, I guess she dubbed

yeah. all the time. ever since we met.

*fibbed oops

I know you all don't show it often but he loves you.

I know he'd lay his life down in an instance for yours.

yeah guess she did.

he shows it to Avie

no he wouldn't, not for me

lol Ali's just in love w him, it's nothing personal w you I don't think

I know. I'm sorry, I think he should show it. he really should. but I know he feels it.

he would. I know he would. he talks about you so much, and always good things.

I don't mind

lol like what

he'll tell stories about things you've done together or things about your childhood. sometimes he'll ask my advice for how he should talk to you and he'll tell me how he feels about you.

oh shît he does

nothing embarrassing or weird.

i figured this whole relationship thing, especially because it's so different from other relationships made him just kinda not like me more lol

like nice stuff, everything he's told me has also made me excited to meet or talk to you.

+ everyone always said you would want me & A out of the picture and that set me off

no, not at all. but I get how you feel.

who told you that?

you can ask Jake rn and he'd tell you that I love you all and want everything to do with you all bc I've rambled on about it so much

I would never want that.

oh

just everyone ig

yeah Jake's friends are just cliquey, I think, and I gotcha

I'm so sorry you were told that bc that's not true at all.

If Jake and I ever like had a life together or whatever, having you all around was always a big part of something I wanted w that

yeah

oh okay well oops

that is so funny lol i thought Jake didn't like me

yeah. guess that doesn't matter now.

he adores you

like he only started noticing me when I went out and pierced myself up, lol. and I was thinking maybe he only noticed pretty girls

I think it scared him.

my piercing? he's a pûssy, it's just a nose piercing

you're his little sister and he told me he's scared you're growing up. he said he just wants what's best and still wants to be there to protect you. and you don't know how many times he's told me you're pretty- even before the piercings.

It's just his way of seeing you grow up

I always thought he just didn't like me that much because I kinda rub off as a bîtch w him but I don't mean to

I'm sure you all have your differences like that like all siblings do but no, he really does care a shît ton for you.

JAKE thinks I'M pretty?

if he opened his mouth for once and said something I'd know all of this

yes

yeah I know

I've tried to tell him but he's said that he didn't know how.

idk if he told you but he said he was really happy to hang w you last night and just talk. he said he's really glad that you too found a lot in common

like that literally makes me so happy because I'd rather Jake tells me once that I was pretty than any other guy lol

yeah we had fun

I know

that's good, I'm glad.

I really do like you, I hope you know.

yeah I like you too, you're just as nice as he is

it's okay if you don't forgive me, but I want you to know I didn't mean for all of this to happen. I didn't mean to hurt you or Avery or your mom or jake.

i am so proud of both of my girls

i'm so happy you guys got to talk, thank you

thank you

I do, julia

have a happy thanksgiving, julia💅🏼

yw Jake

thank you, Cammi and you too :) hope you all have a wonderful day!