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fine i'll go shower
sure baby
already has -winks and strips picking her up getting in the shower-
can teach em just like i taught her mommy -holds her
thats right baby -holds her-
i love u too baby girl. lets wash ur hair -wets it-
i wont. i promise. -shampoos her hair-
washes it out-
oh u do? -conditions it
whats his name?
hmmm and what do u and him do? -washes it out-
wym u make babies?
so u and Bently have sxx?
show daddy how u and bentley make babies
gasps softly- em baby...does bently put this in u -rubs my dxk
no baby daddy's not gonna do it. -holds her- does he put this here? -touches my dxk to her little pxssy
what pumpkin? baby daddy needs to know if he does this to u
ik baby. but u said u make babies with bently
okay baby
holds her- in mommy but never in u
holds u close
i love u too
sure baby
finishes showering-
gets out-
babe she said she has a bf and that they make babies
and she said Daniel tought her bout sxx so i just. i didnt know
i was worried that he or bently was fxking here
ik but some dudes are just disgusting
nods
kisses u back and nods
i love her
nods- and i love u too
oh stop it -spanks u-
<pending
nope -spanks u again
babe...she literally apologized to me asked if we could be friends i said maybe and told her i gtg cuz i had to take care of my little girl cuz someone mightta been touchin her
i didnt really know how to tell u. plus i was still in the shower with em at the time
fxk me then ig. here we go again with the fxkin arguing like normal
im sorry..
i love u too
okay
wym
why
why
why cant he just get tf
yeah sure
okay
nods and hugs u
that snitch
thats for me to worry bout. not u
hey baby
hey momma
plays in ur hair- okay baby
holds u-
hush
me too
if u talk about a fxkin ring bein expensive 1 more time im leavin
nods
gets up-
im goin shower
goes shower-
showers
thanks momma -climbs out holding my eye-
i got shampoo in it and its on fire
blinks and my eye waters- fxk it burns -shuts it tight
opens it forcing myself to hold it open and looks up and my eye is really really red-
alot -cries and climbs out taking out my contact-
sits- i literally cant see its on fire -cries
tries-
yeah. no we aint. help me
cries and it waters and flushes it out slowly-
relaxes a little-
nods- yeah -is still crying
yeah but its not bad like it was.
puts my glasses on- its still really blurry -pulls them back off and rubs-
whines-
nods and lays back-
nods walking around blind-
my eye hurts -whines laying down- hold me
kisses u back-
cuddles into ur huge txts- thank u momma
cuddles
i love you too
i dont believe that
okayyyy what ever
when?
nods
shrugs- cuz u did nothin wrong
i did love her. but u always have to do whats right
nods
i dont. it was toxic.
nods
i love u too
ur fine babe
i want some
glares at u and goes fix my plate- i got it
eats
eats and does the dishes-
cleans-
hey -cleans
nope
okay -finishes up-
cleans-
comes up when i finish-
climbs in on my side-
holds u-
rest momma i got u
i love u too
whats wrong baby?
u seem off whats bothering u -plays in ur hair-
okay babe
baby...
o-oh...okay
gives u space and goes outside-
smokes
smokes-
no ur not -smokes
comes in- what
takes u up to bed and tucks u in-
im not leaving u. u just need rest
hey hey calm down ur gonna wake up em
shakes my head
ok
yep
he's a dxuche and i have no respect for him
cuz he used u
shakes my head
its fine
lays down holding u-
u asked me to hold u
i said its fine
holds u-
its okay baby
oh...
nods
ik
maybe
i'll be the judge of that
not with my baby
mornin
its fine
sure
he's tiny
yeah -nods and picks him up-
hey buddy -holds him rubbing his belly- mommy was keepin u in that baby cage huh?
ticklish little one? -rubs his belly
chuckles-
hands him to u-
smirks and sucks ur txt-
laughs and taps his little hand- share. hey punkin -picks her up
i'll get some later momma -holds her- what movie?
turns it on-
holds her watching barbie-
cuddles
keep still baby girl
em what did daddy say
good girl
good girl
holds her-
laughs- sure momma
holds her-
i love u too -cuddles
thanksbaby
and i love mommy
eventually
sure baby
they do smell good
smirks-
baby u gotta lil..
eats it offa ur txts- got it
these are good momma. i never had them with chocolate -eats
i like them too momma
cuddles u
hi baby -kisses ur shoulder
i love u too
okay babe. honestly i just been bxxbs and bed
yes
crawls in with u and suuuckkks ur bxxbs-
drinks-
sucksss
uk u like it
sorry -sucks soft
not drink txtty milk
well i mean u asked
ah. nahhhh
wym?
sorry. im just not the all mushy lovey dovey long paragraph type of person. if u want that u shoulda been with Taylor -rolls my eyes- softie
goes outside and smokes
smokes-
smokes-
laughs and shakes my head smoking- peppermint
im not sorry. thats hot -smokes
i like em
i'll devour it once its clean -smokes
facts
smokes-
smokes- u look sexy
nods and smokes
smokes and smiles- whaaat?
smokes
rubs ur axx-
smirks
nods
looks over at u-
come live at my house. i got plenty of room
but ur family now. its really empty. each of the kids will have a room
well if u decide...its there -gives u a key
i have a key. yeah. this place is too small
rent it
nods
shrugs- we wernt before?
rubs my head- we basically lived together already idk why u makin it a big deal
so?
oh okay
sure
ah cool
why?
um. okay
yeah he's a irresponsible dxk who doesnt know how to handle himseld
yeah idgaf about his feelings. he deserves it
he's a dxk
yeah im done talkin bout ur exs
yep
ok
kisses u back-
long
yeah -rubs my head-
nods and helps u-
why would he? he has his own em has her own and they have a play room
he'll still have his own space here
yeah? ik. em has her own room too
why? okay. the house literally has 3 extra rooms. 1 for each of them with a bathroom that connects them and then another room to make the play room. like what are u not understanding about that?? do u not want him to have his own room?
i asked ya'll to be there
i think thats a good idea
he'll be fine. your a great mom
yeah
if u need him u dont need me
no u need daniel
nods- yeah so what im hearing is that u need him for everything but u need me too for sxx
looks at u blankly and hurt- glad u got that planned out
i believe u but idk what the big fxkin deal is about him. he literally treated u like trash and knocked u up yet u protect him
yeah
ok
goes home-
drives home
hello? -drives
what bbay?
whats wrong em
o-okay?
drives home
gets home and goes shower
u picked him -showers
yes u did
u need to decide what u want.
i think it would be a good idea for u to need him less
then why do u need him sm
but yesterday he didnt?
mmmhm
never said i didnt
okay. im showering
i am. im in the shower
gets out and dressed and goes back to ur house
drives
knocks on the door cuz its locked-
im here for my kid
well u obviously dont want me here and she's crying for me so yeah
u tell me. is it or is it not?
and Daniel.
okay -picks up em-
holds her-
yeah i'll stay
lets watch barbie
watches barbie holding her
sure lemmi see
helps her back up- lemmi see it
oh wow. i love it sister
she is?
i think u and mommy are too obsessed with this ring
lets her go-
turns off barbie-
nods
shakes my head- we just aint ready
nods
yeah ik
nods and comes down-
fixes my plate
puts my plate down and grabs me a water and em juice
ur welcome -kisses her head-
eats-
eats
eats
yeah -eats
nothin wrong pumpkin
okay -eats
eats- its good
come eat
u needa eat
nods going outside-
sits outside
sits outside smoking a cig-
it doesnt matter -smokes
shakes my head smoking
im not
shrugs and smokes
idk
no. im not. im just i feel like im drowning -lays my head in my knees/
i take medicine for anxiety and i have mild schizophrenia and they are slowly taking me offa my anxiety meds and im not okay
i tried. they want me off cuz its addictive
shakes my head- no. im freaking out -runs a hand through my hair stressed
nods
nods and smokes another cig
nods and holds my head-
gets up going to bed-
crawls into bed
good night -lays down
sleeps hard
snores and dreams-
dreams and mumbles-
mumbles-
jumps awake-
tries to settle and go back to sleep
lays therr
lays there
morning
slept okay?
sorry. im good -rubs my head
nods and goes brush my teeth put my contacts in and take my medicine
i need it
slides down the wall holding my head-
i dont want it -holds my head-
u fxked up...u flushed my ones for schizophrenia. i just got them refilled...i have no more refills. i have to wait a month now. i dont have any anxiety medicine. they pulled me offa it.
this is ur house. im going home. -rubs my head as it pounds and hallucinates-
no
no. just wanna go home
then i'll walk
same here
its urs -sits
lays against the door
puts it in the cupholder of ur car
looks at u-
grabs my stuff
bye Em -kisses her-
just for a little bit -closes ur hand on the key
cuz its urs- i have to bbg
its just see u later
nods and kisses u hard-
i love u too. dont cry
goes to bed
sleeps
sleeps hard
sleeps
sleeps hard
sleeps not hearing my phone
wakes up and showers
showers
gets out
checks my phone
starts to txt u then erases it
goes cut grass-
cuts
cuts-
finishes and jumps in the pool-
cools off-
swims
gets out drying off-
changes and goes to town-
pick up flowers for u and a bear made of flowers for Em and all ya'lls fav snacks and food and drinks
buys everything then goes to chick fil a buying ya'll food too
drives to ur house-
puts everything on the porch outside and leaves a stack of money too and texts u- i left some things on the porch for u and em
this is for u and em...
nods- u needa eat
im not leaving until u eat
ur not eating
okay then -turns back headed for my truck-
what? -turns back-
what? -sits in front of u
sits on the porch-
takes it and puts it in my truck- thanks
yeah -gives u one back-
gets back in my truck-
what do u want...
i want u too
holds u-
stop crying babe
its fine. i just need u to stop crying and eat
u havent eaten since i left. idc if ur hungry or not. ur eating
idc
stop starving urself
just make sure u eat -goes check on em-
lays beside her and cuddles her playing in her hair-
holds her close-
falls asleep holding her
sleeps hard
sleeps hard holding her-
snores
sleeps hard-
holds her
snores holding em
wakes up slowly-
holds both of u
holds u
kisses ur head
nothin
holds u and em-
hey punkin -holds her-
yeah if u wanna come home. or if you wanna stay here with mommy i'll stay
me and mommy are okay punkin. just grownups needa take breaks sometimes
we will get back together. we just aint ready baby
thats not true
grabs my stuff-
-grabs my stuff- hey
come here
please..
lifts ur chin- i love u
i mean that. with all my heart. and im sorry
looks down at u-
looks at u upset-
sighs and grabs my stuff-
grabs everything
when did i say that? seriously when? ur really startin to pxss me off with this mopey sad bs. if u want me back act like it cuz im trying and all ur doing is crying and being sorry for urself.
well when u wake up and realize that none of that shii matters and that its small and that u actually have good things in ur life uk where to find me
looks at u on the edge of tears and shakes my head leaving-
what...
i love u too
i love u too
ik
then stop acting like its not
ik u did
holds u-
yeah very
because that woulda pxssed Val off even more
idk
-shrugs
because u constantly pressure me to be perfect
im okay. hope u are too
it felt like it
im fine
i am happy
ik
keep it. for em. she can come and go as she pleases
u will for her genious
no
udk that
what do u want from me
what ever u want
if it would make u happy. yes
i'll be happy when ur happy
k then
i dont want u unhappy
idc
i already did -takes ur hand-
i love u
kisses u hard-
picks u up kissing
kisses
rubs ur axx kissing
hmm? -kisses
and i love u too so why is that a problem?
u are good nuff
positive
kisses-
i love u too
-holds u
no thanks
ummm -thinks- yeah
sure -brings u
fine -puts u down
sits on the counter-
im eating this banana. okay? thanks -eats it
eats
eats- bananas are underrated
nods
no thanks
she's home?
punkin!!!!!!!! -reaches for her
cuddles her- i missed u
pushes her hair behind her ear- have u been a good girl for mommy?
sits with her- mmm yummy
no its mine -pretends to eat a piece
feeds it to her- its okay punkin daddy doesnt like that. how come mommy cant have none?
ohhhh okay
allergic? -holds her
bounces her- okay babe. we'll just steer clear of them
obviously. -laughs- okay bug lets get u cleaned off -wipes her mouth and hands
shower. and sure
shower. and sure
fine. bath. but daddy aint gettin in
fineeee okay
i hateee baths
i hateee tellin her no
ik but she's my princess
growls leaning my head back- i tell u no cuz ur also a slxt
good -smirks
fxkk
cxms-
pounds into u-
pounds u hard-
mmmh momma
-pounds u- fxk ur so wet
pounds- cxm for me
smirks pounding u
mmh good girl
groans-
smirks- i gtg give the baby a bath
smirks going upstairs-
baby stop
if u gonna bathe her i dont -goes lay down
comes in-
-sits beside the tub giving her her barbies-
fineeeee -gets in-
glares at u-
washes her-
washes
i got this -washes her-
ur actin like i aint done it before?
finishes washing her and holds her-
yes baby -holds her
whats her name?
very pretty. just like u punkin
ur welcome bug
he does?
are u sure he dont miss daniel
why
oh okay
okay thanks -gets her out drying her off
nods- i'll always be here bug
dries off and gets dressed-
lays in bed-
dozes off
snores
sleeps
sleeps hard-
snores
snores
feels u and wakes up a little-
holds u and sleeps-
snores-
snores
sleeps
holds u and sleeps
i love u
i miss u too baby
busy. exhausting