being alone

I am afraid of losing my girlfriend

hi

hey, sorry I just have a lot a s**t going on right now

are you okay

Lana . I have stuff going on right now too. I'm pushing through it though .

okay, are you okay? Sorry btw I’m just really busy with school and my parents and other things

I'm fine . You are alright but are you at school ?

Don't worry about me it is a waste of time .

yeah I guess I’m alright. but talk to me, it is not a waste of time

It really is . I am so not worth it . I mean seriously . I am starting to believe what people say .I just can't do this anymore.

I have to make sure you are okay .

Your worth it to me, and you don’t have to talk to me about it but I just want you to know that I’m here for you if you ever need anything or if you ever want to talk. And thanks. I’m good for now

Awwww . Thank you for telling me I am worth it . I just don't do well with opening up to people . I will always have your back . I do n't want you to be upset and need someone and me throw my problems on you . I will come to you if I ever have any problems . Thank you so much LanaBear . Can I call you that ?

hi

aw, thanks

yeah, you can call me that. It’s fine

thanks btw

hello

Thank you for what ? YAY I GET TO CALL YOU LANABEAR!

Also , Can we talk ? I want to make sure you are okay .

LanaBear . I'm here for you :)

hey. she’s not okay. she tried to over dose. try to kill her self. she’s not answering me and I’m getting worried....

hey.. yeah we can talk. I guess idk

Lana . I'm so sorry I am just seeing this but if you feel comfortable can you tell me what is going on ?

Did you really try to overdose ?

Its a lot of things. I’m thinking about things that I shouldn’t be thinking about like suicide and my life. And nothing feels right anymore and I don’t want to be alive anymore because I’ve tried for so long to be happy but nothing works. and I don’t have anyone to talk to because I don’t talk to my parents and I don’t like talking to anyone else because they will tell my parents

and my mom told me something yesterday about my aunt. And it’s the same thing that happened to my grandmother a couple of weeks ago so I feel like every ones dying so I can too

yes I did try but it didn’t work. I think it’s because I didn’t take as much as I should have for it to have worked. nothing I do works, like I cut my neck but that didn’t work

LanaBear . I am so sorry . I understand that you are in a tough spot but there is a lot of people that need you here ALIVE . I know stuff gets hard . I know you can do it . I have hope that you can push through whatever is going on . I get that you can feel at your lowest but please please think about this more deeply . It may feel like you have nothing but in reality people love you . Including I . Now the people in your life that are dying need you alive to help others deal with the death . You can't just give up because I know and everyone else knows that you can't die so please Lana . Stay around longer . It will be tough but it will start to get better . not completly but the sadness won't be so strong . I LOVE YOU !

ALso , I don't know your parents so I can't tell them so you can tell me anything .

look, every one has told me that it will get better for a really long time but I still hasn’t and I’ve already given up

Well , I'm sorry . Just hold on . I know you can do it . Just wait and see . MAybe you should try to talk to your parents.

okay... thanks

You are welcome . So , what are you up to ?

about to go to school... sadly

Im sorry . I am at school . Algebra class in fact .

oh. my first class doesn’t start till 9

I start school at 7:38.

I wish I was you I have to be up at 5 in the morning.

oh, I still get up around 4 though

Alright . I get it . Can you listen to a song for me ?

yeah what song

It is called hold on by extreme music .

okay

Thanks LanaBear :)

What is your favorite color ?

black, and lime green

I love the color lime green .

🙂

cool

Yeah and so do you

yeah... hey do you still like that boy?

hey.

can we talk

I am so sorry . I have not been able to get on .But we can totally talk . What is going on LanaBear ?

Oh , I don't like that boy anymore . Why do you ask ?

LANABEAR ??????

What do you want to talk about ?

hi

hey, idk

hey

I was just asking... 🙂🤔

Oh okay , I just wanted to know why .

Did you listen to that song ?

Also , Are you single ?

Last question , What is your last name ?

yeah I listened to the song, no 😐 and it’s Gordon. but that’s not mine actual one since my parents changed it when they adopted me

Did you like it ? I thought you were . Your bio says single . Why the straight face though ? Do you not like her or what ? So it is Gordon now . What was the one before that ?

yeah I was good, I know I should change it. idk if I really do idk. yeah rn it’s Gordon

and hey🙃

who do you like?🤔just asking

So you liked the song :) So you don't really know if you like your new girlfriend ? and I like this girl she has blonde hair . SHE IS DROP DEAD GORGEOUS ! She has depression but I am trying to help her work through it so I am just trying to let her now I have her back . Who do you like ? Since you don't really like your girlfriend . HeHe.

Don't change your last name . Keep it Gordon :)

More dirty blonde but whatever still blonde.

Will you tell me about yourself too ?

hi

wait is it me? I kinda like you... but anyways, i have greenish grayish eyes.. um lets see... I... like to skateboard and shop... and.., idk. and I just realized how much I’ve used ... in this.

i’m scared that all my friends Will leave me

hey..

:) It is you . I hope you don't mind . I don't want to ruin our friendship.

I think we should get to know each other more than maybe we can date . It is up to you though

🙂☺️. okay. I would like that. so what do you want to know about me?

UMMM . Tell me your favorite things .

things? like things to do?

LIke favorite movie and stuff like that .

But yeah things to do would work also .

okay, I don’t watch movies but I like the office and fuller house. then I like to skateboard and stuff

I’m okay, how bout u

I like to read. The office is amazing . I wish I knew how to skateboard :( and I could be better but that is whatever .

I don't watch movies often .

oh okay, cool

🙃

what are you doing

I am once again in French class . Sorry . I don't have a phone so I use chromebooks at school and it can be hard to catch you at a good time and move from class to class and talk to you but I am trying to make time for you when I can .

Also , I already know our first date for when we meet .

Sorry . I shouldn't just assume that . I hope I didn't upset you .

Also , What is your zodiac ?

no,it’s fine. Gemini? u?

Alright . Do you want to know what my date idea is . I am a Cancer.

Yeah , I hate telling people I am a Cancer .

How are you doing today Cutie ?

hey, yeah so what’s your idea? I hate telling people I am a Gemini..

YOU TEACH ME HOW TO SKATEBOARD! If that isn't the best date idea but if I fall you can't laugh at me .

We are in the same boat with are signs here .

okay, I won’t laugh. although it kinda hurts if you don’t fall correctly.

Well , you can teach me how to fall too . 😂

😆

That is a weird sentence . Never thought I would say that . I mean I am really clumsy so it doesn't take much for me to fall

lol, same. I fall and trip almost everyday.

I would like to point out that if you ever meet me

The first thing I will do is fall on my face . I can trip over air . I wish I could tell you how but I can't . I also , love to fall up the stairs .

lol. aw. I seem to always fall going up the stairs but never going down

🙃🙂

I know me too . I don't get how that works but that is how it goes . 😁

yep😁

Anyway , I have a question for you .

I am always asking you questions . I'm sorry .

it’s fine🙂. I like questions.

Okay , What is your favorite song ?

Also , A fact about me is I say sorry way to much .

omg, really? that’s what all my friends tell me. .. my favorite song is NYLA by blackbear. u?

I am always saying sorry . I say it so much it annoys me . My favorite song is called Robin Hood.

It is by Anson Seabra.

same, cool...🙃

We have a lot in common in

Sorry I didn't finish that sentence .

I am in health and this kid is talking about making putty with his sperm

... I had to take health last year

It’s wasn’t that bad

btw that song is good

It isn't bad till you have kids that say that stuff. and You listened to it ?

Sorry I left I had to move to algebra .

yeah I listened to it

it’s fine

sorry for using 🙃

It is fine . I like that you like it . It makes me happy.

You can use it still .

🙂

okay

So you give me one that is right side up 😐

🙃

lol. your my favorite

is that weird?...

Much better ! 😁

No , It is not weird cause you are my favorite . 💚

🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃

Hehe 😁

wait so what does that thing mean? I feel dumb...

Do you want me to explain the gemini and cancer thing ?

Oh haha great minds think alike .

yes

You are a gemini and I am a cancer . SOOOO GEMINI + CANCER

DO you get it now ?

oh yeah, I just thought it meant something else

No , I have another question . I am a question monster my god.

okay🙃

What is your favorite animal ? Hehe upside down .

lol, um. 🦒

NO WAY !!!!!!

yeah..

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH

what?

🤔🤔

I LOVE GIRAFFES !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Goats are my favorite though .

We have got to talk a lot . I am happy .

Are you happy that we have talked this much ?

yeah, I like talking to u

hey🙃. Yes I’m happy. I love talking to you. And cool.😄

good morning🙃

Good morning Sweetheart .💚😁

I love talking to you . I really look forward to it .

The smiles are upside down ... Hehe.

🙃sorry btw I just got up

my stomach really hurts

I missed you a lot last night . I literally almost cried .

Im sorry I send you kisses to make it feel better.😘😘😘😘😘😘

aw, don’t miss me. I’m not worth it🙂.and thanks🙃

You are worth it . You are my LanaBear . 💚 and my kisses will surely be there soon .

🙃🙂🙃🙂

I am an idiot .

Why do you put up with me ?

no your not

your the best.🙂. don’t say that😔

Aww ... Thank you but dang you . Im in the middle of class and I am smiling and blushing .

aw, I bet that’s really cute

Well , now it is only worse .... Ugh I wish you were here .

aw, thanks.🙃

No Problem . So , what do you want to talk about Miss . I like to make people blush ?

idk, it can be anything. I’m chill with anything

🙂

Oh okay ...very helpful of you . OHHHHH , I listened to N Y L A . 😁. I think I listened to it 20 times.

sorry. so I’m guessing that means u liked it?

Yes , I liked it .

Have any other songs in your back pocket ?

candy by Doja cat

Oh okay , also , you single yet ?

I have no comment for that song . 😉😉😉

yes I am

Oh nice to know . 😄

why🙃?

Just wondering ... hehehehehe ... 😘

oh

okay..🙃

Soooooo ...... You like anyone ?

yeah...🙃

Who ...

u

Well , Will you be my girlfriend LanaBear ?

yes🙃

ok

what are you doing

nothing

Lana , I feel so bad . I didn't get the chance to respond earlier but I am here now .

BUT GOOD NEWS !!! WE ARE DATING !!!!!!😁😉💚😚💖💞😆

I wish I could tell you how happy I am right now ...... AHHHH

it’s fine. don’t feel bad🙂🙂

Okay ... I can not believe you are my girlfriend .

why?

It is just crazy . I would of never thought you would even have a crush on me but now we are dating .

I'm happy . like really happy .

🙂🙃okay😊☺️

I take it you are too ....

yeah

Okay , what do you want to talk about ?

Wait , you are no help in this situation . You are chill with anything .

So , it is up to me .

yeah....

sorry

It is whatever baby.

Okay , if you had to pick one song to have play every time you walked in a room what would it be ?

candy

what about you?

Ummmm , Say So .

Favorite candy ???

okay, cool. skittles

SKITTLES . TASTE THE RAINBOW . HEHE , Are you my rainbow then ?

Sorry about that .

lol, it’s fine😀

That was naughty . 😉😁

😉

Oh man . 😳

what??

You sent me a winky face . We getting naughty .

lol

😄

I can not do this at school. Calm down .

I will literally be a puddle .

😂😂😂😂

lol

Lana , if you could be an animal what animal would it be ?

a cat

Oh alright then .

That is chill .

Biggest fear ???

my mom killing me rn

I’m so pi**ed off

Why ? What happened Baby ?

What is wrong ?

so me and my ex were taking in the hallway and he kissed my cheek and my teacher saw and called my mom... so she’s literally going to kill me knowing her

omg

That is so uncalled for . Why was your mom even called ?

She didn't need to be all he did was kiss your cheek .

your mom was called because of something HE did .

I'm sorry Baby . Is there anything I can do ?

no

I'm sorry LanaBear . Do you still wanna talk to me ?

yes

Okay , so I have a funny story for you .

what is it

I was walking with my friend Ainsley . I tell her literally everything . There is not one thing in my soul she doesn't know . Well , I wouldn't go that far but anyway , I was talking to her about you and I yeah ... so we have to go upstairs right . So , I am walking up the stairs telling her about you . and my dumb self falls face first on the stairs and hit my head .

So yeah that is how my life is oh and I got in a huge arguement at lunch with a stupid bum .

aw, are you okay. ?

I am fine . I have had worse. Don't worry about me .

I am worried.

I want you to be okay

Im okay Baby . I have a huge headache but I am okay .

aw, okay baby

So , I am looking at zodiac sign memes right .

lol what did you find?

So it says what are the signs doing ....

every sign is beating up you but me it says " Cancer : the only one falling in love with gemini ."

Now , I mean ..... 😍

🙃🙃🙂☺️😉

I already told you about the winking . ILL BE A PUDDLE !

sorry

But since we are here . I want you to know ... I want to taste your rainbow.

🙃. I’m smiling so hard rn and I’m in history

Your turn . This is payback .

But seriously . I want your rainbow ... when we meet I am so tassting it . After you teach me how to skateboard of course

okay🙂. I’m not sure I know what that means but okay

You'll know . When you feel it . 😉😏

😉

I’m blushing

Puddle Alert .....

Awww your are blushing because you are in the middle of class and you and your new girlfriend are talking about how she is gonna eat your rainbow .

yeah

Hehehehe . You gonna let me taste it ? 😏😏

I am gonna make sure your smile never fades .

if you want... I’m chill.🙃aw, thanks

Oh You gonna let me eat it .... I will warm up my tongue ... That was bad ... and You are welcome Cutie .

😉☺️.

If we were in the same class.... The teachers would kill us .

I can only imagine .

ikr

I would love it though . We would be in trouble all the time .

I would be sending you these messages and we would both be laughing .

yeah, I wish you were here

Yeah , we could go to the bathroom during class and you know .. share rainbows...

It would also be great to just hear each other talk and hug .

yeah😉

I want to hug you ... Want a fun fact ?

sure

We haven't even met in person and you have turned me on ...

That is mad crazy ... hehehe

🙂

Ummm, moving on .I don't want to weird you out or anything .

So ,Baby . How is class going ? What class are you in ?

it’s fine. I’m in lunch

Dang . This is my last class of the day ...

wow

It is 2:12 here . So I had lunch awhile ago .

I'm in biology . Man I want your time schedule . We could talk longer . What time do you get out of school ?

Aww , you get to hang out with your friends ... if only I was at your lunch table .

4:10

Dang . That is mad crazy .

Hey Baby , if you were a fruit you'd be a fineapple .

Hehehehe I am so funny .

Well , I am gonna have to go soon .

lol. hey okay😔. sorry I was in gym

I’m not at school today

I miss you

Good morning Sweetheart .💚😁 . I miss you too . I can not wait to talk to you today . I am so sorry we didn't get to talk to you

i didn't finish that you really have brought me a lot of happiness.

If you respond and I don't get back . I am taking my exam but I will be back Baby .

Lana , Can we talk about something serious ?

hey yeah, what’s up

sorry I just got up..

are you okay?

I don't want to get in the way of your feelings for other people. I am so happy we are dating but if you are not then I don't want to make you stay . I know Faith and you were a big thing and if you want to be with her then you can but just know I like you a lot and really want to be with you ,.

hey... I like you and only you. I’m over faith and right now I’m kinda mad at her. And sometimes I say things to her that I don’t really mean and I’m sorry. but I’m really glad we’re dating too

You are fine . You didn't do anything wrong . Are you alright though ?

I have to do my daily checkup on my gorgeous Baby .😁

Lana , I just went to faith's page .

Please please please tell me those posts are old and you guys are not dating .

You know what never mind . You are dating me and you wouldn't do that to me it was stupid for me to think even for a second that you would . I am sorry and I feel really bad . I should of never thought you were cheating on me Do you forgive me LanaBear ?

hey sorry I was making a post🙂. look I like you and I don’t like faith, on Saturday faith and Kendall were dating and got mad then they broke up and I didn’t know what to do. I’m sorry😕. I screwed up, don’t leave me... I really like you

You did cheat on me ....

😭

I’m sorry, I really am. I get if your mad at me since I really f**ked up

Lana , I am not gonna leave you . I just can't . I like you way to much but don't let it happen again , but I understand where you are coming from .

okay, I promise it won’t happen again. so what’s up

It is all good . I promise you and I would never break a promise. LanaBear , I am here to stay . Always no matter what you do .

Are you and her still dating though ?

no,I literally just broke up with her. for you

Alrighty , conversation over .

What other songs do you like ? If you haven't noticed I am gonna steal the songs you like Hehe.

lol, by myself, talk is over rated, wish I never met you, me and ur ghost, ruin my life, and anxiety

YAYYYY MORE SONGS FOR ME TO SING IN THE SHOWER!!!!

lol. idk if you will like them or not tho

Most likely . but even if I don't ill still sing them just for you .

🙃thanks . ur so sweet

Hehehe . I think you are sweet .

thanks

wyd

I’m going to take a shower, talk to you when I’m done

hey I’m done

Sorry . You know how it is when I am at school and trying to talk to you .

it’s fine baby

I made us a chat page

I’m getting dressed

you probably didn’t need to know that...

I did but to bad but I guess if I was there clothes wouldn't be needed so .

🙂

You know it is true.

🙂🙃💜💜

I mean come on ... Admit it .

yeah

Hehe . Moving on ... no more of this talk ... we can't have puddles.

yeah

hey baby

I miss you

I miss you too Baby but I only have a little bit before I go home .

aw😔okay

Hey , Promise me you'll catch me if I fall in love with you .

💚😁😢😭

hey...

sorry I did something really stupid last night

What did you do ? I'm here for you no matter what ...

Are you okay ????

read my post

I did . I'm sorry Baby . I wish I could do something for you .

it’s fine....

I might die.... but I’m fine with that🙂

Lana ... Come on ...

You are gonna make me cry ....

sorry.

It is alright but please please just dont do it again . Please think that you are gonna make it out alive ... for me ?

okay

hi

How are you ?

good

I’m good and u

I could be much better ...

what’s wrong ?

I have some stuff going on with my girlfriend .

She did something and I feel helpless.

I’m sure it’s not ur fault. she rly does love u

I just feel like we don't talk enough and it drives her away . I feel like i don't say the right things

I just don't know what to do .

listen it’s not ur fault. she is just found thru and rough time but I’m telling u she loves u

How do you know ?

❤️😭😔

cause I see the way Lana talks to u she rly likes u

I am glad she really likes me she my world and I can not lose her .

I just feel as though I am not good enough for her and it breaks my heart cause I want to give her everything she wants and more I just don't know how .

ya hey

and don’t worry ur good Enough ur an amazing person

I just don't wanna hurt her . I need her . I like her so much

I wish she was on . I just have so much to tell her

did u try contacting her

I only have her on here and she won't answer . sooooo yeah

oh

Do you have her on anything else ?

no sorry

hey, I’m on. sorry

hi

over what

in comments or posted

hey ur following an account Called YOURALLTRASH pls unfollow them there a bully page

no

hey, I’m missed you so much baby