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THIS IS AMAZING WOAHH

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I’m lost for words😱

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okk so it happened two days ago, i was waiting outside of school and i met this guy, and we started chatting for like half an hour. he was nice and well-mannered, and we both had the same interests. 👌🏼 and then my mom came to pick me up so i had to leave. i thought that was the end of it, but nooo. yesterday at school, i saw him walking behind me, and he "accidentally" stepped on the back of my foot. (i could tell it was on purpose, yknow?) and he was like "oH sOrRy" and i was like "its fine haha" and he walked next to me and goes "so how are you?" and i was like "fine." and we walked to the cafeteria together. then he goes, "so about yesterday, i just thought you were super nice and pretty, and i didnt know you well, but then we got to talk, and, well, i really like you. a lot." by that time i was just staring at him, blushing red 😂🤦🏽‍♀️ then he went "soo, do you want to go to the end of the year dance with me? like, its fine if you dont want to," i stood there for about 5 seconds then was like "i dont know, i need to think about it. but ill give you my number for now." so i gave him my number and he goes "ill text you later, then?" and i nodded and walked away to see my entire lunch table staring at me. 😂 they all huddled around me and they were like "we heard EVERYTHING cami. dont do it!" and i was like "why? he seems nice." but then........

they started telling me stories about him, weird stories. they claimed that he had already asked them all out. they actually said once he asked out SEVEN girls on the same day! and also, i had just met him yesterday and i think he was rushing all of this a little. over text later, i made it clear to him that i wasnt gonna be just another girl that he was asking out for attention. then, he asked me out on a date to this park, and i was like "oKkK you're being a little too persistent dude." i made the decison that i wanted to stay friends with him. when i told him, he was like "i admit, ive asked out girls before, but not REALLY ask out like you." BRO its the exact same thing! also hes had crushes on sO many girls in my school, i feel like im just next in line. and i never like to feel like that. so thats why im staying friends with him for now.

so, today, sO many things happened :( i have social studies with him, (his name is michael) and he stared at me the ENTIRE TIME and it distracted me from my work. :( i cant let a guy distract me from, my studies, yknow? 😤✋🏼 so, i was just sitting there, and i get a text from him. i look back at him, and he motions to my phone for me to read it. so i look, and it says "hey, do you mind meeting me after class, i have something for you." (we sit on opposite sides of the classroom and our teacher doesnt even leT uS whIspEr). anyway it seemed a bit shady, and i got really, really nervous for some reason. i thought he was just using this as an excuse to make a move on me. when the bell rang, i tried to run out of class, but he caught up to me and asked me to wait, so i stopped (because im not mean enough to blow someone off 😧). we walked together in silence, and he said, "so, i wrote a piece for you, so you can play it on the piano....do you want it? i have it here." i looked at him and took it, and OMg IT WAS SUCH A LONG AND COMPLICATED BEAUTIFUL PIECE. it was all i could do to not start crying in front of him ;( he looked at me and was like "what did i do? im sorry, it looks like ive made you upset." he looked sO GENUINE AVERY :( and i was like "no, no you didnt do anything, but i just - i cant. i cant do this right now, im sorry." and i ran away. I RAN AWAY. what is WRONG with me? i was just feeling so conflicted with my emotions so i ran to the restroom and looked at the piano piece for 10 minutes straight, trying not to cry :(

im so so sorry for putting all this on you, its just im so bottled up and i dont know what to do with anything

it feels like my life is scattered in pieces now

thank you SO MUCH for putting up with me first of all, ily ❤😤

second, i really, REALLY want to trust him, but what everybody's telling me...

it doesnt seem right, there's a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach. also, everybody hates him because of his reputation, so if i dated him, it would kinda damage my rep ✋🏼 also, hes a bit of a creep to other people, and im really young, only 13, and i dont think im ready for a serious relationship yet....