so today in theatre we did this constructive criticism thing where we had to write down one thing the person (acting out a scene) did well, and what things they could work on. so I was going to perform the scene first but I got myself out of that situation. so then people went and I went 4th. I thought it was gonna be fine but I got up and I just couldn't get a word out. I tired to get moved down a couple spots but the teacher wouldn't let me. long story short, everybody started to yell in my face and started calling me a crybaby and started writing a literal paragraph for the things I could work on and I just got to much. but even though I was on the verge of tears I just said the words on the paper (I didn't really act at all because I couldn't do it for some reason but then after that I basically just swallowed my tears for another 10 minutes while everybody else does their scenes but then we had to say what we wrote down for other people. Everytime I had to say the thing that I thought the person could of worked on everybody just said hypocrite. and then the time came for everybody to say their constructive criticism for me. and only one girl wrote something that wasn't just criticism. but most people's were "well she could actually ACT the scene and maybe stop stalling" and then the teacher would say "okay and what's the good thing" and they would either say "nothing" or "well after five minutes she actually got some words out" (I'm not kidding somebody actually wrote that.

I don't know what happened to me but just this feeling came over me and I couldn't get a word out. I'm just proud of myself for actually saying words without crying because I felt the tears on the edge of eyelids. but afterwords I went to the bathroom and didn't cry but just sat there and stared at wall and mentally cried for like 5 minuets. and then my friends kept on making fun of me for the whole theatre thing. it's been 3 weeks of school. 3 weeks and I'm already this much of a disaster. I just need a huge school project to occupy my mind so I don't think of the things that happened to me during the day.

well. at least I THOUGHT it was going to be short. oops.

that sounds terrible, i'm so sorry! your friends really don't seem to understand anxiety and stuff

oh god that's awful fren I'm so sorry💜💜💜💜hug hug

that's so awful. the teacher should have stopped that shîz

im so sorry 💗

I know how you feel. you went through a moment of anxiety and panicked. it happens to all of us. just don't make it out to be as bad as you thought it was. relax and treat it as a funny scenario to laugh at

yay good lol

that's horrible…

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oh my... well.

i know how you feel

like i don't go up on stage for that very reason

also

dOnt listen to them

it doesn't matter if no one had anything good to say, just be proud of ur self

also it's good that u mentally cried and didn't actually cry because that would be very very bad

also are they really your friends if they make fun of you? i mean i'm assuming that it was in a funny way to them, right? even if you don't think it's funny just

i'm running out of things to say

just IDK

also i feel so bad for u fren

YOU SURVIVED THATS ALL THAT MATTERS OKAY THATS IT