i saw your post and almost dropped my phone to go get my ipad

I'm sorry I didn't reply. I just had a freak out kinda, so took ten pills, which totally killed my sleep and made me crazy restless for three hours. I don't know if I want to keep taking high doses if I can't even function at all because of it. I feel a bit loopy and I don't want to speak because my mouth is so dry. But I'm still thinking that I'll probably take 15 next time, the only reason I didn't this time was because I couldn't steal five more without my madre noticing she was 15 Benadryl short. My father is allergic to milk so he often has Benadryl, and I'll be able to get some from his if not mom's when he comes back tomorrow. I just feel really out of it and I think it's time I talk to a counselor, do you think I should?

I don't think it'd be as big of a deal if I didn't keep going higher up in number each time I take it. I don't trust myself.