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re:// I WAS SO HAPPY THAT I ALMOST HAD A PAINC ATTACK. jESUS.

re:// It's a really long story okay.

re:// so I made a thing for my favorite YouTuber and gave it too him on Tumblr. AND HE FÙĆKING POSTED IT. I WAS SCREAMING. and that's why I'm so happy.

re:// scrEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

re:// I haven't been this happy in forever.

re:// I'll try too boi

I'm back

No I don't want you to die!

*huggles*

Rittik! I know it's been a while since I've been on PC. How have you been??

No. it's not your fault.

You okay?

*hugs you tightly*

*huggles* What's up?

Brb

re// It's a long story....do you want to know?

if..I didn't wanna be around you...then why would I be following you still because I care about chu..

*still hugging you tightly

re// Well, I don't know if you know (I've posted a few things about it but always delete them after a few days), but I have a lot of unresolved medical issues, as well as some mental problems. Last week I was at a camp with my youth group, and something happened to my body to where I couldn't move from the waist down for over 3 hours. I don't know if you know how that feels, but it was one of the most terrifying experiences of my life, and I felt bad for not being able to help out with a project for so long. I've been dealing with these problems for about a year now, and other medical issues for about four years. I feel like I'm having a heart attack right now, like someone is squeezing and stabbing my heart, and I'm dizzy and out of breath, and I don't know if it's my heart or anxiety issues. I don't know. The doctors don't know what's wrong with me and can't give me anything to fix it because of that, so I guess that's one aspect of why I'm feeling the way I am.

What happened to you? Who do i need to kill?

re// Im sorry it's so long.

*looks at you *

*eyes sparkle*

Why would i kill a family member *hugs you*

*pets you

re// Have you been to the doctor? Are your sure that's what's happening? I was literally paralyzed and couldn't feel anything.

*gives you medicine* Thats odd. Are you sure that it's a cold?

re// Ah I see. Does it hurt when you inhale?

re// Oh okay. It's probably migraines. I get those too. Do they happen frequently?

Re: Yeah life sucks sometimes. I hope you have a happier day tomorrow, friend❤️

... that's odd. What other symptoms do you have?

re// Have you had recent fevers?

re// How about numbness, tingling, or pressure in the head?

re// You really need to see a doctor. As soon as possible, especially if you are having episodes every couple of hours. Does the pain move around?

re// I see.

re// So it only lasts a few seconds when it happens?

so, um, what i needed to say. my depression is getting really, really bad. to the point where i cut myself... and i just... i need help. i don't want to tell anyone irl, and definitely not my parents. but i just... i cut myself, and it's... i'm going to regret that forever...

please don't tell anyone else, i have certain people i plan on telling, i don't want anyone else to know...

i'm so sorry... you shouldn't cut yourself rittik, that's... it's not good, not at all.

no, you don't...

no you don't, not at all! why would you think that?!

so what if people say that? it's not true, and never will br, rittik! people say stupid things, and don't think about how it affects other people. so whoever said that can shut the fūck up, 'cause it's not true.