I just wish that you loved me like you used too. I'm going to be honest and I'm going to be calm. I miss the past, if I could just go back in time and stop myself before I made the mistakes I did we would be ok. I saw a photo of you in the hospital after the cabs game and it broke my heart to see you in pain. I should have been there but then again I shouldn't have been there because your mom would freak but I'd want to hold your hand. But anyways I would give my life away to change the past and make things right. I really wish I didn't have to move on but you fell out of love with me and it's my fault so I'm going to respect that. I just really really hope you respond to this 😔 You don't have to love me as I love you and I understand completely if you don't. I just want you to know that I never ever meant the harm I caused. All I meant to do was make you the happiest girl in the world. I failed you and I'm horrifically sorry.