*smiles and grabs a blanket for us to share* is there any snacks you’d like me to make for you ash? *grins and sits beside you, laying the blanket on the both of us*

I wouldn’t mind making you comfortable *smiles and leans my head on your shoulder lightly, rubbing my chin as I think* I would say.. action movies mixed with romance. marvel movies are a favorite of mine.. *thinks some more and laughs* horror is something i can only watch if im with someone

*smiles softly and leans into your arm* if I hide behind the blanket and cling to you, I better not hear you judge me *smirks at you and adjusts the blanket on my lap* there are some horror movies that I have liked from watching, like the substance and smile 2.. even if I couldn’t sleep the night after I watched it

*moves my bangs out of my eyes and smiles up at your eyes* we can watch one of your favorite classic movies next time *smiles and holds the blanket up to my neck* justtt in case

*blushes softly and smiles up at you* thank you sugar *smiles and cuddles up a little closer to you* what’s your favorite movie of all time?.. *smiles and looks up at your eyes*

*smiles as I turn my head to you while I listen to your response* I do love marvel.. spiderman is my favorite superhero. but I also love movies that show a deeper meaning of society. such as dead poets society, or soul from Disney for example *laughs and plays with the fabric of the blanket* I like those kinds of movies that alter your perception of the world and how I view life. in a way, classics do that too, don’t they?

*smiled and shrugs when you do* when you say classic films, do you mean movies like the notebook? *smiles and tilts my head, widening my eyes a bit when i remember somethimg* would you like to see my tattoos? :)

*smiles and takes off the leather jacket I’m wearing to show you the tattoo on my arm* for this tattoo of roses, I got it for my mom because roses were her favourite flower. something to remember her by *smiles as I lean my head back to show you the butterfly tattoo under my chin* I got this tattoo because it looks cool and *smiles as I point to my wrist* I have a cat tattoo for my pet and some tattoos elsewhere :)

*smiles and looks down at my tattoos* when I was 18 :) I’ve always wanted tattoos but I wanted to wait til’ I was grown and mature enough to make the best decision for them *smiles and laughs as I look at my rose tattoo* my younger sister always likes coloring them in. one of my favorite reasons why I have them

*smiles and plays with the ends of my hair as I look at you* she’s 7 now, turning 8 soon? I’m planning to take her out for ice cream and maybe go on a picnic with her *smiles and takes off one of my rings* do you have any tattoos ash? *smiles and plays with my ring*

she’s my whole world *smiles and nods as I look at you* she’s the reason why I’m in school, why I have any ambition. she’s everything to me *smiles as I rest my chin on my knee* can I see them? :)

*smiles as I sit up a bit to look at your tattoo, admiring the details and the shading* whoever your tattoo artist was I hope they got a tip *smiles and heats a rustling sound behind me and sits up*

*smiles and sits up a bit and leans over the back of the couch* I did hear something- oh! it’s just eluna :) *smiles and gently scoops my cat up off the floor and into my lap* eluna is the best companion I’ve ever had, it’s going to be hard for you to compete *smirks and rubs behind her ears*

are my notifications going through? I swear this app can be a pain

we both know who the winner is *smirks and laughs as I look at the screen, watching the movie credits* is there anything else I should know about you ash? anything special your willing to tell me?

should I comment on your bio then? 🥲

*smiles and places eluna between us and hugs my knee to my chest* hmm.. okay, here’s a somewhat personal question and you don’t need to answer it, however I am curious to see what you say *smiles and tucks my hair behind my ear* what’s your dream? something you’ve always wanted? or wished for? *smiles as I look down at eluna, seeing her smell your fingertips and lightly rub her head against your wrist* this may tell me what kind of person you are, but my own dream is very cliche

okay :)

your going to laugh but that’s also my dream- *laughs and leans my head back to shake the hair from my eyes* I’m so glad we have the same dream *smiles and watches eluna make biscuits on your lapp* I also have a dream of becoming a teacher, and becoming a mom some day *smiles and nibbles on my bottom lip* still haven’t had success on the whole true lobe dream so far

love**

teachers are the kindest people *smiles and scoots a bit closer to you to pet eluna* she’s not this kind to strangers, maybe your special *smiles and turns off the tv with the remote across from you* and about that lakehouse, I think that’s a cool way to live. city life is alright but peace and quiet would be nice

*smiles as I lean my head back, rubbing my eyes gently* it would be the perfect place for picnics and nature walks *smiles and slowly stands up, stretching my arms and legs* i also want a cheesy romance, maybe because it’s hope that true love exists in this world

one can hope *smiles and laughs as I scoop up eluna off your lap, holding her to my chest* I know you said you were tired, are you wanting to stay over? or I can drive you home or, maybe call an Uber- *smiles and shrugs as I place eluna back on the couch* I do appreciate you “protecting me” during the movie, such a gentleman

you could never bore me ash *smiles and offers my hand to you* what are you in the mood to do now? *smiles and tucks my hair behind my ear* it’s funny because I’m afraid of boring you

I mayyy have to re - like the remix every so often In case my notifications don’t go through, so I apologize if that’s annoying :)

I’m glad- *smiles softly as I think for a moment, then smirks* can we watch the stars together? I usually do that with my younger sister *smiles and looks up at you with my head slightly tilted* I’ll grab some snacks as well

*admires your fâcial features for a moment and smiles to myself* that would be very helpful, thank you ash :) and, I wanted to ask if you like nicknames? *smiles and walks to the kitchen to grab some strawberries and cantelope* I thought star watching would be nice since you enjoy being outside

*smiles and places the fruit in a container after washing them and blushes softly* I’m thinking.. something that äligns with nature. like the ocean breeze, or maybe like sunshine, but I am ready :) let’s go

I usually do it in the yard but I wouldn’t mind the rooftop *smiles and shrugs as I look at you* I just don’t want to make you uncomfortable, my ex used to be offended by a lot of the things that I would do and I never understood why *smiles and offers my hand to you* but maybe sunshine fits for now 🖤

*smiles as I intertwine our fingers, tilting my head as I follow you* thank you for the reassurance sunshine *smiles and rubs my nose gently before opening a window to the attic* we should be able to get through here :)

thank you sunshine *smiles as I rub your shoulder gently before stepping out onto the roof* *holds a hand out to you to help you and smiles*

thank you luv *smiles and holds my blanket and fruit to my chest, carefully stepping up onto the roôf to lá my blanket underneath me* isn’t it beautiful?..

*smiles as look at you for a moment, then looks at the stars* no matter how many times I look at these stars they never get any less breathtaking *grins and rests lays back onto the roof, rubbing my lips together for a moment*

me and my mom actually used to watch the stars *smiles and takes a deep breath, exhaling softly as I admire the glimmer of the stars* that’s also part of why I love them so much

I’m glad to have had her in my life for sure *smiles and shrugs as I sit up* they look extra pretty today, not sure why

*smiles and offers a hand to you* we need to be extra quiet to not wake up my little sister

*smiles softly and tip toes up the stairs* so, since we’re friends now, aren’t you going to tell me about how you feel about my friend Val? *smirks at you and opens my room door*

*arches my brow at you and nods with a smirk* friends don’t look at each other that way ash, I would know *smiles at you teasingly and laughs as I grab some markers, crayons and sketch paper*

*smiles and shrugs as i sit next to you* im just teasing you that’s all, it’s fun for me to tease you *smiles and lays out all the supplies and sighs* call me the coach on love but I rarely play that game

well I do want to play in the game, I just need a willing player *smiles as I sit across from you on the bed* I love coloring and drawing things, but only the best kind get hung up

*smiles at you as I nod* you’re totally right *smiles and starts outling my drawing* I’m drawing some teddy bears- *draws a few bows and smiles* do you have any hobbies?

I also love doing those things *smiles and gasps before turning to you* what’s your favorite kind of book to read? romance? action? history? *laughs and grabs a black marker* I enjoy doing art and reading, as well as going for walks, writing as well

hey ash :) is it okay if I talk to you for a minute?

I just wanted to be transparent with you and be honest about you in terms of how.. I feel about you so far? I’ve realized that I’m.. starting to have feelings for you, small feelings, and this is because of many things 🖤 I’ve realized I admire your morals, like how you love and adore the people around you, and.. how you take the time out of your busy day to check up on others and make sure your friends feel prioritized, I also think you’re a sweet guy and, I’ve had these feelings ever since we met, I just didn’t realize them until now?

I know this may be a shock to you, and I know it’s a little early to say anything.. I just wanted to follow my guy and be completely honest with you, even if it’s a little embarrassing for me to admit but, I like you a lot ash :) and I wanted to tell you in case you don’t or do feel the same way, and back off if you’re not interested

admiring you last night before bed made me realize this haha, no wonder I couldn’t sleep

I also don’t want to make you uncomfortable or be in the way of anything? I do have feelings for you but I also know that I care about your happiness more? I’m sorry if this makes you uncomfortable in any way

ughhh

that’s okay? I guess I kinda figured that out

I guess I was afraid of rejection so I tried my best to hide my feelings

but I guess it’s good that I talked to you about it

officially off my chest now

but im guessing you don’t feel the same way right?

I forgot how embarrassing it is to have a crush haha

yeah, I guess I was a little brave for that. it felt uncomfortable to sit here for a long time waiting though. is there a reason why you didn’t answer right away?

I just feel soooo silly haha

I kinda knew you were lying ash, maybe I have a good sense for these kinds of things

i think I knew deep down this wouldn’t work the way I wanted to, but I’m glad I had hope in a way

I’m sorry I’m just, so so upset right now

well, I do appreciate your apology a lot, I hope you know that

I just.. when I saw you call Val gorgeous, I felt so lonely, because I wanted you to see me that way, and I know that’s not your fault, and I know it’s not her fault either but- I wish you could have been.. more honest with me, I think that hurts a lot too

and I hope you know I don’t see you as the villian here, or even Val, and that’s because despite all of this I care so deeply about the both of you, I just.. I feel lonely ash. I feel lost, and stupid for thinking things could be different this time. and in so so sorry if I’m being overly sensitive over this

I also want to say that I .. just want to be prioritized, I don’t want to be the backup friend or the person “you talk to because I’m bored and have nothing else better to do”, and I’m not saying this because you are doing that, but I have felt that way in my past relationships

this is just.. a very sensitive topic for me, and im sorry for making this a huge problem.. I just, I don’t have friends to rely on and I want that with you and val, if that’s okay?

I will admit, I’m glad we’re talking about this, it is making me feel better :)

that makes me so relieved to hear you say that

I think you liked her but you didn’t know it yet perhaps? and I think in the future, I’d rather you be honest with me okay? all the time, and I know this wasn’t a perfect black and white situation

I think I just need to feel prioritized a little more? because usually I’ll see you responding to other people and but for me, you won’t respond to me for hours, and that.. kinda hurt a way because I love talking to you

and I can promise I will not get in the way of you and val, because I really care about the both of you a lot and I’m glad you two found each other

thank you for listening to me ash, I was so scared this wouldn’t end well

and that could be because of my past 🥲 I have lots of trauma

communication means a lottt to me as a words of affirmations person

do you feel better?

let’s just be glad I didn’t use you as my new punching bag, did I ever tell you I do boxing?

I’m glad :)

is there anything I can do better?

I’m glad to hear that :) I just thought that the way I dress was the problem initially? because my past crushes used to make fun of the way I dressed

and you’ll always be my friend ❤️

I’m glad too

that definitely heals me in a way to hear that :) thank you ash

me too :) I’m glad things kind of worked out, and my sadness did go away a lot more than I expected

me too :) are you going to bed soon sunshine?

I might stay up, and process everything that happened today, maybe just write about it too

in case I forget to mention this, goodnight sunshine ☀️ :)

goodnightttt💜